Alright, so I know I updated on Friday, but I was just really wanting to put that chapter up, I wasn't stating that it would be the update for this week, it was a bonus because over 750 people have read this story so far, which boosted my kindness status enormously, even though only two people have been considerate enough to review, I don't really mind. I'm just glad it's being read at all. Thank-you and here's number five/six^^
Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto.
Limerence
Small billows of sand blew past my feet as I walked over the seemingly endless sheets of sand, hoping I wasn't too early for my first training lesson with Sasori. I didn't doubt he was already there, waiting patiently, a trait I'd learned wasn't very common for him, for the sun to rise up over the dunes of sand in the distance.
These past few days, Sasori's unusual and sudden interest in my life had become the top priority on my mind, claiming all my mental space with an ocean of never-ending questions.
Sasori himself, for instance, was the greatest mystery to ponder over. He was strange and full of contrasts, often times he seemed egotistic and just downright aggressive to me, but others, he gave off the impression of being noble, ingenious, strategic, and quite passionate. I doubted many people liked him personally, but none the less, they still admired and respected him. Compared to me, he was more human than I was, more noticed on a broad horizon, yet he still preferred to blend with the arraying colors instead of thriving in the midst of the hues.
My skills of a shinobi leaned more towards the intellect side than physical side, which gave me a knack for picking up on things like these from a person.
I could read a person as easily as an open book, note all their flaws, ticks, and habits, even if they were trained fairly well to keep them concealed, little ever passed my attention. But the inner qualities of a person were always my favorite to observe and pick apart, no matter how many flaws I could count out.
Even though Sasori was a difficult subject to break down, I still managed to get an exact reading from him, even though he happened to be one of those Shinobi who were nearly impossible to figure out. I hoped that this would help me in the future, if he ever tried to turn on me, which I wouldn't put past him. But still, even though my mind was against him in every way common sense can be against a person, a small pull continued to tug on me, keeping me headed in his direction.
Be it fate or just a simple feeling of growing attachment, I wouldn't hold it back. I would stay practical about this, but not too wary and mistrusting to a point of straining any possibility of a future relationship.
I'd never had a friend, or even a person to talk to other than myself for that matter. But I knew I couldn't remain my only confidante forever. I was fifteen years old, almost sixteen, for crying out loud! I needed a friend. No matter how off and ominous he may seem, Sasori was the only one who had ever reached out to me. And as I had promised, I would repay him for that small bit of kindness shown to me.
Maybe if fate would have it, we could become close friends or maybe even more than that...
But that was just my affection starved mind being outspoken. Whatever I was offered now, I would do my best to accept it, without hesitation, despite my ever suspicious nerves. Because when a human is lonely, they will do almost anything to change that, even kill or sacrifice certain people or things to keep the object of their desire and attention all to themselves, just for the sake of feeling and companionship.
I wasn't so lonely and empty inside that I would go to such lengths just for the sake of a possible friendship with a person, but that didn't mean I still wasn't lonely and empty inside.
I needed a friend, or rather someone or something to fill that disreputable emptiness and loneliness I felt on a day-to-day basis.
But little did I know, that just because I would never resort to tainted limerence, didn't mean a particular person wouldn't.
Goodness, how I do LOVE a good cliffhanger^^ Bet you know where I'm going with this one though... A good bit of foreshadowing as well if you look real well. And just for those who don't know what limerence is, to break it down, it's basically a term used to describe an involuntary state of mind which seems to result from a romantic attraction for another person combined with an overwhelming, obsessive need to have one's feelings reciprocated. Want to get a better definition on it, then look it up on Wikipedia^^ Reviews, as always, are always welcome.