I know, it has been four months. I don't deserve your forgiveness but you know you want to read the next chapter. Wink wink.

Oh, and you are more than welcome to read the last chapter if you don't remember anything. I had to.

Disclaimer: I don't own Glee or their characters.

Go ahead, rip my heart out,

If you think that's what love's all about

Go ahead, rip my heart out

That's what love's all about

- 5SOS "If you don't know"

It was Monday morning when Kurt found himself wandering around the school hallways trying to get from one of his morning classes to another one.

He had spent the whole weekend at Rachel's and because of that he hadn't seen Blaine since 'The Incident' and yeah, he preferred to call it that way because he didn't want to think of it as the best kiss ever or having an awesome time with his roommate. Not at all. If he did, he would start getting excited about it and no, just no. He couldn't let that happen. No.

"Hey there."

Kurt heard someone said and as he was the only other person in that corridor, he thought it must had been for him. He turned around to find Paul and his oh-so-perfect-for-modelling smile walking closer to him.

"Oh, hey."

"How's it going, Kurt?" He said still smiling. "I saw you at the party last Friday just when you walked in but then, when I went to look for you because I wanted to ask you something, Rachel told me you were already gone."

"Oh yeah." Kurt answered. Fuck. Why did he have to ask about that from all the topics he could come up to talk about? "I just... I wasn't feeling so well... kind of starting to have a headache."

"Really?"

"Yeah."

"But, how are you now?"

"I'm better, thanks." He said politely

"Great."

"Yeah... We did you want to tell me, anyway?

"I..." He looked kind of nervous if you asked Kurt. "I wanted to ask you out... haha... Maybe dinner and a movie? This Friday? What do you think?"

Suddenly, a million thing went on Kurt head, including the kiss and Blaine, and Blaine's girlfriend and Blaine again and his conversations with Rachel about boys and Blaine one more time but then, he remembered Rachel tell me that he needed to forget Blaine and move on if he wanted to be really happy. 'I mean... I deserve a new beginning, don't I?' He asked himself.

"So? What do you say?"

"I... I think I'd really like that."

"Great... I'll give you my phone number so that we can arrange time and place, okay?"

"Yeah, sure. Of course."

"Me too." He said.

"I see you around." Paul said to him with his dreamy but shy smile while getting away from him.

Somehow that little gesture and the possibility of getting over his crush on Blaine and getting everything back to normal made him smile from the first time since last Friday.

"I really like this movie, it is so sweet. I have seen it four times already."

Claire said that as she was sitting on the couch next to Blaine on his and Kurt bedroom. It was Monday afternoon and they decided to skip classes as they didn't spend much time together on the last weekend.

They were watching The Fault in Our Stars.

"I mean, it is a really cute love story. Don't you think?"

He didn't answer. He wasn't paying attention to her or the movie at all. His mind was somewhere else. Somewhere where it was playing his kiss with Kurt all over a hundred times again. It didn't make much sense but for him it was all he could think about.

He knew very well he had like it and the feeling of Kurt's lips on his were awesome but the problem now was if he had to tell Claire about his last time with Kurt.

He knew he had cheated, and he knew that he had cheated with a boy and he also knew that he had cheated with a boy he was currently sharing a dorm room. He just didn't want to tell her.

"Blaine?"

Well, shit.

"Mmm?"

"I was asking you what do you think of the movie?"

"Huh... Yeah, it's good."

"Hey, what's going on?" She asked him as she realized he wasn't paying attention at the movie at all. "Are you okay? Do yo want to talk about it? You don't look good."

"No." He said sounding more rude than what he intended to. "I just don't want to talk to you right now."

"Oh really?" She said getting defensive now. "You know what, Blaine? I didn't skip classes and came here to have you treating me rudely. I came here to spend some time with my boyfriend but since I got here we barely even talked. I know you Blaine, I know that it is something going on but I don't know why you don't want to tell me what is it.

Blaine couldn't answered. He didn't know what to tell her and he wasn't going to tell her what had happened last Friday for sure.

"You are not going to say anything?"

He couldn't even look at her.

"Ok, bye Blaine. Call me when you feel like talking."

Somehow those words made him feel even worse. Not only he couldn't speak to Kurt because he was mad at Blaine and they haven't seen each other since the kiss and now his girlfriend was mad at him too but he didn't feel like fixing things with her either. Surely, this wasn't how he wanted to start his second year at college.