Ruby walked two steps behind Belle after leaving the party. Her hands were tucked deep inside the pockets of her leather jacket and her eyes focused on her feet as she walked. She had given up trying to walk next to her. The librarian was walking too fast and refused to slow down. She was surprised her heels hadn't made a hole in the street with how hard and angry she was walking. They stopped at the steps of the library. Ruby made sure to stay at least one step behind. Belle muttered angrily to herself as she searched for her keys inside her purse.
"I have mine," Ruby said softly. Belle glared back at her before returning her attention to her purse. She made a face at the look and blew out a breath. "Never mind..."
Belle finally pulled out her keys, fumbling with them for a moment as she unlocked the library door. She pushed the door open forcefully and stomped inside. She allowed the door to slip from her fingers quickly. Ruby reached out, grabbing the door. She shook her head, rolling her eyes as she entered the library behind Belle.
"Thanks for slamming the door in my face…" she mumbled as she closed the door behind them.
Belle shot her a look. "I told you I was done talking to you," she hissed, taking her coat off and throwing it on the counter. She glared at Ruby one final time before turning toward the office. Her heels loudly clicked against the wood floor as she stomped away. "But then again, why would you listen?! You haven't listened to anything ELSE I've asked you to do! Why start now?!"
Ruby rolled her eyes again as she took off her coat and hung it by the door. She sighed heavily and ran her hand through her hair. This fight was ridiculous. She didn't understand what she had done wrong. Then again, that was apparently another one of her problems. She never knew when she did anything wrong. All she did was say hello and then tried to escape. She was unsuccessful and that's when everything went downhill.
She promised Belle a long time ago that she would never have a reason to be jealous of anyone. That her love was for her and her alone. For some reason, the woman they ran into tonight made Belle forget all about that promise. It wasn't Ruby's fault. It was the blonde who just couldn't let the fact that Ruby fell in love with Belle, and not her, go.
She followed Belle into the office and watched as the librarian slammed items around her desk. "Listen, for the last time, I'm sorry!" she stated, a little louder then she had planned. She instantly regretted her tone when Belle stopped in mid-motion and looked up at her. She bit her lip and ducked her head. "I didn't mean to yel – "
"Sorry?" Belle interrupted, her eyes narrowed. "You honestly think that's going to change anything? Ruby, you stood there and had a conversation with the ONE person in this town that makes my skin crawl!" She placed her hands on the desk. "I asked you never to speak to her again and you completely disregarded my feelings!"
"She cornered me, Belle!" She held her hands out. "I tried to get away! She kept stepping in front of me! What more could I have done?!"
"Oh, I don't know! Tell her your GIRLFRIEND was waiting for you! Push her out of the way!" She crossed her arms against her chest. "Anything would have been better than what you were doing!"
Ruby squinted. She crossed her arms against her chest. "And what exactly was I doing?"
"You were flirting with her, Ruby."
Ruby released a quick laugh filled with disbelief. "Flirting? Are you serious?!" She shook her head. "I was not flirting."
Belle cocked her head. "Oh, you didn't flash your perfect little smile? Or laugh at whatever stupid little comment she made toward you?!"
Ruby shook her head and looked away. She leaned against the door frame. "This is so stupid…" she muttered.
That was the final straw for Belle. She pressed her lips together and looked down at the desk. She had to go before she said or did something she would regret. She raised her hands. "I need to go," she stated as calmly as she possibly could.
A stunned expression crossed Ruby's face immediately. She pushed herself away from the frame. "Are you serious?"
Belle nodded as she walked around the desk. "Very." She walked toward the door to leave, but Ruby blocked her. Her angry blue eyes locked with Ruby's worried hazel ones. She stared into them for a moment before looking down at the floor. "Move, Ruby."
She shook her head. "No, you can't leave."
Belle raised her attention to Ruby. Her jaw clenched as she took in a deep breath and pushed past her. "I have to. I need air." She walked over to the counter and grabbed her coat.
Ruby quickly followed behind her. She watched helplessly as Belle put on her coat. "Belle, please don't go," she pleaded, taking a step toward her. "Let – let's just sit down and calmly talk about this." She reached out, taking Belle's arm. She turned her so she was looking at her. "You know I would never do anything to hurt you. And I would never flirt with anyone, especially her. Thi – this is all just one crazy misunderstanding." She looked deeply into her eyes. "Please, I love you. Don't go."
Deep inside, she knew this was crazy. Unfortunately, she was still unable to process anything but the anger she felt over what she had seen. The other woman touching Ruby. Standing so close there wasn't enough room between them to breathe. She needed to calm down and she couldn't do it as long as she still felt the urge to fight. She needed air. She needed distance. The only way to get that was to leave.
She pulled away from Ruby. She walked toward the door feeling Ruby's eyes on her with every step. She opened the door, pausing for a moment. "I – I just need some time by myself. You understand?"
Ruby shook her head as the tears began to build behind her hazel eyes. "No, I don't."
Belle clutched the door handle for a moment. She opened her mouth to speak again, but the only thing that came out was a small sigh. She closed her eyes briefly doing her best not to cry. She shook her head softly, muttering for her to give her some time as she walked out of the door. It closed slowly behind her and Ruby felt her heart sink into her stomach.
"Belle … please … come home..." Ruby mumbled quietly in her sleep. She clutched her pillow, her eyes shut tight, the pain and worry clenching her features in her sleep.
Belle sat up behind her watching her twitch in her sleep. She wanted to wake her and make sure everything was alright, but she wasn't sure the reaction Ruby would have if she had so she let her sleep. Ruby had been calling out to her for thirty minutes now. She reached out to touch her arm, but hesitated as Ruby violently twitched again.
"Belle! She needs me, Snow. … I have to go to her…"
Belle drew her brow together confused. What had happened that Ruby had felt the need to rush to her? Was it the accident? Was Ruby at the hospital when they brought her in? She didn't remember seeing her that night. Then again, she didn't remember anything from that night.
"I love you, Belle. ... I'm so sorry…."
Belle's jaw slacked at her words. She swallowed hard as she placed her hand on Ruby's arm and shook her gently. She had to wake her up now. She felt as if she was invading some private memory. She had already heard too much. "Ruby … Ruby, wake up…"
Ruby's eyes flashed open. She turned onto her back and was staring straight up at Belle. "Wh – what am I doing here?"
Belle smiled warmly down at her. "We were watching a movie and we fell asleep," she explained. "I didn't mean to wake you, but you were…" She paused, once again becoming lost in the beauty of Ruby's worried hazel eyes. "Having some sort of nightmare." She raised an eyebrow. "I heard you calling out for … someone…"
Ruby felt herself start to panic. She propped herself up on her elbows, causing Belle to back up a bit. She drew her brow together, her mind still foggy from sleep. "Did, I, uh ... did I say a name?"
Belle shook her head. "No..." she lied. She knew this was wrong, but she needed to know. She had a feeling Ruby was holding something back every time they talked about her life before losing her memory. Something she may have felt she wasn't ready to know yet. "Were you dreaming about her? Your girlfriend, I mean."
Ruby hesitated for a moment. She pressed her lips together and nodded. "Yeah…."
Her breath caught in her throat. So everything she was feeling for Ruby was valid. Before she lost her memory, they were more than friends. They were in love. She wasn't crazy. She loved this woman.
"I – uh, I should go," Ruby stated, interrupting her thoughts. She pushed herself up from the bed, running her hands over her face. "I have to get ready for the breakfast rush."
Belle frowned disappointed. "Okay…" she said, unable to hide the sadness in her tone.
Ruby offered a small smile. "I had fun last night." It felt so good waking up next to Belle again. Being back in her own bed. She was still unsure of what exactly she had said in her deep state of sleep, but if Belle assured her that she didn't mention a name, she would have to believe it. "We should definitely do it again."
"How about tonight?" Belle blurted out without even thinking. Now that she knew what she and Ruby truly meant to each other, she was going to start doing whatever she could to get it back. They had lost so much time and were still losing too much.
Ruby stared at her for a moment before the smile spread further across her lips. "Okay, tonight sounds great." She stood from the bed. She ran her hand quickly through her hair. "So I guess I'll see you later?"
Belle nodded.
Ruby smiled again. She raised her hand in a short wave. "Bye." She turned to leave.
"Ruby, wait!" Belle called out as she quickly jumped from the bed.
Ruby turned to face her. She went to speak but was interrupted by Belle's body crashing against hers in a tight hug. The waitress stumbled back slightly at the impact as Belle wrapped her arms around her neck. She hesitated for a moment then wrapped her arms around Belle's waist.
"This was unexpected," she chuckled. Belle didn't respond. She simply nuzzled closer, resting her head on Ruby's shoulder. The waitress drew her brow together confused. "Are you okay?"
Belle shook her head slowly. "I'm just going to miss you," she said softly.
Ruby raised an eyebrow. "I'll … I'll miss you too, but I'll be back soon…"
Belle pulled back slowly and looked at her. She had the overwhelming urge to kiss her, but she knew it wasn't the right time. She wanted to keep going at the pace Ruby had set. To ease into things slowly. To reveal her feelings when the moment was right.
She found herself touching Ruby's face. She could see the confusion on the darker-haired woman's face. She moved her hands back slowly and wrapped her arms around herself. She smiled softly. "I'll see you soon."
The bewildered look remained on Ruby's face. "O – okay." She turned and walked toward the door. She glanced back at Belle, smiling and giving her a short wave before she left the room.
Belle walked toward the door. She placed her hand on the frame as she watched Ruby descend down the stairs. She bit her lip and turned away from the door. Ruby loved her. She knew it, and she felt it. Everything made sense now. Now, more than ever, she wanted her memory to return. She wanted to remember her life with Ruby. If for some reason she couldn't, then she wanted to start a new life with her. She loved her. She truly loved her.
