Kill Me Now, Save Me The Trouble
November 18, 2007
"Meredith," Derek called, trying to catch up to her as she walked through the halls of Seattle Grace. "Meredith!!"
He ran down the corridor, his white lab coat flowing. "Wait up!"
She turned to face him, her hair spinning with her. She brushed it back. "WHAT, Derek!!? What do you want?"
"I want to TALK! Text messaging isn't talking! I…I think we need to talk."
She sighed and looked at him, planting her hands into her pockets. "I don't know what else we can talk about, Derek, but…what do you want to discuss?"
"Could you not be so---"
"Talk, Derek! I'm not on lunch break!"
He looked at her, appalled at her attitude. "Meredith…I just think that we need to become friends, at least. I mean, we work together and…I-I just feel a…disconnect."
Since she'd slept with Alex that ONE night, her life had been a living hell. Meredith Grey wasn't able to recover from her recent break-up from Derek Sheppard, and since their split, so much had changed.
She'd been depressed and then she'd been pissed off at him, then she felt guilt. And NOW, what she was filling was something she couldn't quite explain.
Here she was, filling lower then zero, and wishing that she and Derek could work it out, but as he stood in front of her, there was something inside of her that wouldn't just let her…TALK.
She needed him in her life, and she wanted him…but she couldn't let go of the past…and it made her wish that she could just DIE!
She couldn't accept the fact that she'd cheated on a man that she'd wanted to be her husband. She couldn't move on from that, and I guess, deep inside of her…she felt that Derek wouldn't forgive her for the mistake she'd made.