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Bella's POV:

A couple of days ago I thought I had hit rock bottom. Well now I realize I was wrong because right now there is rock bottom, 50 feet of crap and then me! After having sex with the man of my dreams, some very hot sex I might add, he just up and left with not a word. I just finished getting dressed in the back room and now I stood here in the pits of depression. I felt dirty and like a slut, two feeling I never wanted to feel. It felt like the walls were closing in on me and I was suffocating. I was 20 seconds away from balling my eyes out and that is the last thing I wanted Edward to see. So I grabbed my stuff and stormed out, through the shop and out the door without one glance at the asshole formally known as Edward. I managed to get home and into bed before I broke down into hysterical tears. I was vaguely aware of my surroundings but I was beyond the point of actually giving a shit. I heard Rose and Alice come in and ask to know what was going on but after not getting a word out of my after 40 minutes they gave up and just laid with me.

MONDAY...

TUESDAY...

"Bella, this is getting ridiculous! It's been two day's and you haven't said a word or even moved. I want to know want is going on? What the fuck did Edward do to you? Bella...BELLA?" Rose yelled as I just stared blankly at the wall. After 10 minutes she stormed out of my room and slammed the door behind her.

WENDSDAY...

"Bella...Bella honey. You need to eat its been to long and I'm starting to get really worried! Please Bella just talk to me? Bella?" I heard Alice gently talking to me as she rubbed my back soothingly. All I managed to do was stare at the wall. Alice stayed with me for another couple of hours just hugging me from behind until I fell asleep.

THURSDAY...

Emmett waltzed into my room, ripped of my covers, tossed my body over his shoulder and started walking out of my room. When we reached my bedroom door and started heading towards the front door, I realized I was actually leaving the house I started to scream.

"EMMETT what do you think you are doing? PUT ME DOWN RIGHT NOW!" I screamed.

"NO Bellie Boo, we are going on a little trip! Good thing you wear sweats to be instead of pj's or I would have been in a dilly of a pickle." Emmett said as he laughed at the end. He tossed me quickly into the passenger seat and the rounded the car, I tried to escape but he good damn child locked the door. He jumped in the car and took off driving me away against my will. He rambled on about a whole lot of nothing for the trip until we hit a beautiful looking lake. It was huge and completely still with no-one else in sight.

Emmett dragged me out of the and plonked me on the rug that he put down, he also chucked me a blanket which I wrapped around myself tightly. He sat down next to me and said

"So little Bella it's time you and me had a little talk. Now I know something happened between you and Edward that has effected you an I know that you don't want to talk about it but Bella you need to talk. I have given you almost 4 full days to wallow and act how you want but now it is time for me to intervene. I promise I will never till a single soul what you tell me right now, not even Rosie and I promise to not joke about it either. Now talk...". I wanted to be a stubborn shit and not talk at all but I could see that Emmett was really trying with me right now so I figured he deserved the same courtesy from me. So for the first time in 4 days I started to talk.

"I had sex with Edward..." I said so quietly it was barely above a whisper. Fresh tears started to flood eyes and fall down my cheeks as I stared at my feet, to ashamed to make eye contact.

"OK, im guessing there in more to the story here. Soooo...".

I took a deep shaky breath and it took a few moments before I could say

"Emmett I really liked him, I thought this was all going to be the start of a beautiful relationship. Instead after all was said and done he didn't say a word to me, he just got up and dressed and left. Without a word, just left! I feel used and dirty! I have become a person I never wanted to come, and I'm mad at myself because i let myself become this way. I let Edward do that stuff to me with no promise of a future. This is all my fault"

There was a long moment of silence before Emmett said

"Wow I guess I should have let Rose kick his ass..." he went to kept talking but I cut him off.

"Whoa when was Rose gonna kick his ass?" I asked quite surprised because this was the first time I've heard of this.

"Ohhh you didn't know. On Tuesday night Rose came over to our house and was ready to kill. She was screaming and I honesty think if I hadn't have intercepted her at the front door before she could get to him, I think she would have chopped off his penis. She was livid!"

I really felt horrible about myself now for keeping my sisters in the dark about everything. I was being selfish and quite petty because even though I am ashamed in myself, I know my sisters would never judge me on my poor choices. I started to cry even more because it seemed that I couldn't do anything right now a days.

"Bella..." Emmett said softly as he moved to hug me. After a moment of consoling me I started to bare my sole. I figured I might as well tell him whats on my mind so he dosn't think im some crazy loon that cry's 24/7.

"I can't do anything right lately Emmett. I promised myself I wouldn't be the girl that was left wounded by Edward Cullen and that I would be a strong woman. Clearly all that has gone up in smoke because look at me now. Before Edward I had only had sex with one other guy. His name was Jake and he was my boyfriend for seven months. He was great and we ended on great term as we just fell out of love, we became more of friends than lovers. Before Edward my love life was fine and I never thought anything bad about sex. Since sex with Edward I feel like a slut, he made me feel worthless and replaceable. Defiantly not the feelings you want to be feeling after sex and now I got to face him constantly at work as the girl who he has had and now chooses isn't good enough to be with. I mean how would you feel if you had sex with someone and then right after gave you a kiss on the forehead and walked off without a word?"

Emmett gave me a chuckel and said

"i would feel like a champion..." and laughed, I smacked him on the arm hard and gave a small laugh too. He then stopped and said

"No seriously, if want happened with you and Edward, happened to me and Rose and she didn't talk to me. I would...move to Alaska! Seriously I can understand exactly why you are upset, Edward did a terrible thing."

Emmett gave me a quick comforting squeeze before saying

"First of all Edward is a dick and if I hadn't promised you my silence I would be giving him one hell of a spray for the way he has treated you. First and foremost Bella you are not a slut and I will never hear you talk about yourself that way again, OK? Secondly, from the get go I could tell Edward liked you. He has defiantly gone about things the wrong way and none of that is your fault. So time to get out of this frump you are in. Edward does like you, I can tell. So this is not the time to wallow in self pity and gloom. Now is the time to show him that you are strong and won't be put down by his actions. I know you may not feel happy now, so it's time to fake it until you feel it. Edward has developed a big head because for the last 4 or so year girls have been falling at his feet and in that time he has lost himself and forgets about others feels. At the end of the he is a good bloke and my brother, if you can stick with it and hold strong I think you will be the one that gets to him and changes him".

"Thank-you Emmett, I'm glad Rose found you!" I said after his little speech. It was the most I had ever heard Emmett talk and It was touching that it was to me. We sat there just staring at the lake for a while as we both just processed the thought in our heads. Emmett surprised me however when he ask

"So how do you know my dad so well?". I didn't want to lie to Emmett especially after out heart to heart but I didn't want his pity stares for the rest of my life either. I decided that he deserved to know the truth, so I said

"It's a very long and complex story. Back when your dad, Carlise, was a doctor I was his patient. When I was seven doctors discovered that two valves in my heart were not operating correctly and were causing a back flow of blood. I started to get sick to the point were doctors told my dad I only had 7 months to live as the valves were getting weaker by the day and would eventually collapse. Luckily your dad moved into town and brought with him a trail procedure that could fix my heart. It was extremely risky and I only had a 40% chance of living through the surgery. Thankfully it was a a success, obviously because I still live to this day but I am on constant medication and surveillance. My blood needs to be kept thin so it can pump through the bad valves easy but that leaves my open to a lot of sickness and a risk of fainting spells."

I took a long deep breath before continuing saying

" It was touch and go there for a while when I was growing. The demand on my heart was too great and they weren't sure what would happen as I was the first patient to ever have this done to them. It meant I was in hospital for over a year and was constantly returning, sometimes for months at a time. Bills grew so dad couldn't stay with me as much as he wanted, he had to work. So your dad would always come and keep me company. We became close because at hospitals doctors are all doom and gloom, but Carlise was always bright and kept happy. One day I was watching a movie and the characters lived with there uncle. I told Carlise how I wish I had a fun uncle like they did but Charlie was an only child. He told me he would be my Uncle and that if I ever needed anything that he was the man I go and to think of him as more than just my doctor. Its 11 years later now and I still get monthly check-ups and am on 2 tablets a day and your father is still my doctor and one of my best friends. He is practically family."

Emmett looked stunned for a moment before recovering and saying

"So your dad's heart girl...Oh my god!". He looked so sad and I could here the sympathy speech on its way so I quickly said

"Emmett I don't want to be treated or looked at differently. I am still the same old Bella so please don't tell anyone and don't treat me differently!".

Emmett looked at me like he had something more to say but he didn't. Instead he just gave me a quick hug and then tackled me to the ground. We rolled around laughing for a bit before he said that he better get me home before Rosie realizes I'm missing and chops his nuts off. I laughed and we began to head home. After talking to Emmett I felt OK about everything and knew exactly what to do to fix everything. Soon life would be good again!

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