AN- Sorry for taking so long. I hope everyone who liked this story before are still interested. My computer died a while back and it took me forever to get a new one, but finally, it happened so here I am. Trying to update all my stories. I got a little discouraged because a lot of my writing was lost on the old computer and I had to re-write a lot of chapters for this story and others so my updating has been going pretty slow. But I thank all of you who can bear with me.

I've gone back and re-read the story since it's been a while since I updated. I noticed the age of the children have been mentioned a few times and each time I did it was different. Sorry for the mistakes I'll just set it all straight now to make everything make sense. I apologize for the mistakes.

Max-5

Alec-4

Cal and Lexie-1

Come back I still need you

Let me take your hand I'll make it right

Hold on I still need you

Magnus stood in darkness, there was only darkness. He couldn't find a way out he couldn't feel his magic he felt mundane. He wasn't sure how long he had been here he wasn't sure why he was here. He only knew he had to get out he had to get home. He held up his own hand not even able to make it out. He sighed as he thought of home again. Yet the more he tried to remember it the more he couldn't seem to place it. Two realities seemed to be at odds in his mind. As if every time he thought something was true his own mind proved it wrong. He was Magnus Bane that much he knew and he had a son. Max Bane, but why had he named his child Max? And why did he feel like there should have been more to the boy's name? 'Max Michael Lightwood-Bane,' another voice seemed to say in his mind. That memory had another standing by his side, the love of his life. Alexander Lightwood, Alec.

'You and me we always seem to find our way back to each other.' Alec's voice seemed to echo through the darkness. With every word, it was like a pulse of light in the darkness.

'All I care about is you.' Alec's voice continued to echo. Warmth seemed to fill Magnus, he hadn't even realized how cold the darkness was until he began to warm remembering what kind of love he shared with Alec. A love greater than any love he had experienced before. A love that had consumed him.

'I don't think I can live without you.' He could hear Alec's voice as if he was right next to him. Magnus turned and saw a soft glow, a man was standing next to him in the darkness.

'I need you.' Alec whispered. Magnus reached out to the man that he knew was Alec, but even though he seemed to be next to him he couldn't reach him.

'I love you.' Alec told him.

"I love you too." Magnus felt himself answer and he felt everything within him shatter as every memory he ever had with Alec washed over him. His memories of meeting the shadow hunter. Saving the world with him and holding their son. How could he have forgotten Alec? How could he have allowed himself to forget?

And then the memories of Alec laying in his arms blood pouring out of his body. "No," Magnus whispered not wanting the memories of his death not wanting to re-live it. The glowing Alec next to him began to fade.

'Magnus.' He whispered

"Alec!" Magnus called out, but the image faded and he was left alone once more in darkness. "Alec!" he screamed but no answer. All the light and warmth faded once more leaving Magnus alone in the void and as he stood alone the memories began to leave his mind once more. Alec's smile faded from his memories. Magnus's love for him faded until he could only remember the man as one of the cold-hearted shadow hunters who saw him as nothing more than a lowly downworlder. He couldn't see the afterimage of Alec standing behind him reaching out, he couldn't hear Alec's soft whisper,

'Come back to me.'

Please don't leave me

Hold on I still want you

Come back I still need you

I'll swear to love you all my life.

Ryan arrived at the daycare to pick up the twins when he bumped into Clary, she smiled at him but he could tell something was wrong.

"Thank you again for taking Alec last night." She told him as she picked up her son propping him on her hip.

"It was no problem," Ryan told her happy to be able to help her. He could see the sadness in her eyes and wondered how he could sense so much about her when he hardly knew her. It felt like they had been friends for a long time like he knew what her body language said without her words echoing it.

"Max don't forget your shoes." She glanced away for a moment.

"You're picking up Max today?" Ryan asked and a feeling of dread washed over him. Something is wrong with Magnus. He thought he wasn't sure what told him but he knew. He knew that Magnus should be here that he would be here unless something was wrong.

"Yes, Magnus he-" she paused, "Something happened today his friend Catrina found him and he hasn't woken up." She feared perhaps some kind of magic held Magnus asleep. Catrina was with him now but Magnus's magic seemed to be fading and his body was burning. She wasn't sure how hot a warlock could get but Magnus felt as if he truly was on fire. Max couldn't see that. He couldn't watch his father in the state that he was.

"Is he alright?" he couldn't help the worry that filled his voice.

"I-" Clary looked away and Ryan knew she was trying to find her words, to find words that wouldn't fill him with worry. "He isn't doing well, but Catrina she knows what she is doing."

"Is he at the hospital?" Ryan asked thinking perhaps he would visit him. He knew he had just met the other man but he felt like he should be there for him, he felt like he wanted to be there for him.

"No," Clary told him, "Magnus he has a lot of money, Catrina is a private care doctor." She wasn't sure if that was really a thing, but she also knew that no doctor could help Magnus.

Ryan furrowed his brow and for a moment Clary felt like she knew that frown, knew that look of disapproval in his face. It made her think of Alec back when he hated her and every time she said something he didn't agree with. She shook the feeling away and spoke before Ryan could say anything.

"I should get going, I'm going to see if my mother can take the boy's then I'll go see if I can help."

"I can watch them." He felt himself volunteer and knew instantly his wife would be upset, but he didn't care. He wanted to help. Clary and Magnus were his friends and his want to help them had to be driven from that. Right?

"I couldn't ask you to do that." Clary shook her head.

"You don't have to. I want to."

She thought for a minute and sighed she wasn't even sure her mother would be able to watch the boys so she nodded her head, "Ok." She reached her hand out to Max who took it. "I'll help you get them in your car."

An hour later Ryan had all the children back at his place he hadn't asked Laia if it was alright, she was out with her friends for some kind of midday brunch, but he knew it was more of an excuse to have a 'few' drinks. He tried to not be upset with his wife, the doctors said this happened from time to time. Other people told him he was lucky that she wasn't depressed and trying to harm herself, but still, Ryan wished she would attempt to connect with the children. Cal and Lexie didn't even ask for her or go to her now even when she tried to play with them. They didn't want to be held by her and they seemed to move away from her when she came into a room. Ryan was at a loss of what to do. He saw the way Clary was with her son and wished that Laia could be like that as well but knew that wasn't going to happen. He hated himself for wondering how much longer he could keep living in the house like this. Living with a ghost of the woman he had fallen in love with. He felt like he had failed somehow and now he felt guilty for not helping her more not knowing what to do to make her happy. He promised to love her in sickness and in health, but nothing ever told you what to do if your wife didn't love your children.

"Outside?" Max asked as he tugged on Ryan's shirt.

"Sure." Ryan told the boy as he scooped up the twins, "Alec would you like to go outside?"

Alec had been looking out the window Ryan wasn't sure what the boy was looking for, but he could tell the child was sad. He wondered if seeing his father the other day had affected the boy. Was this what the twins had to look forward to in the future? A mother who was around, a mother they wanted to be around, but never was? In a way, he thought perhaps Alec's situation was better than that of his children. At least Alec's father seemed to love his family still even if he was too mad to express it. He had seen the way Jace had looked at Clary and even in his madness there had been so much love Alec hadn't even known it was possible.

He thought of the other man that he had seen at the picnic something seemed so lost in the other man's eyes that Ryan had felt like a part of his shattered seeing the hurt on Jace. He wasn't sure why he had felt drawn to him. The blonde man standing on the porch their eyes seemed to lock. Just for a moment, Ryan felt like he was whole that he was safe that he was finally home. He took the kids outside and put the twins down. The four children ran over to the swing set and Ryan found himself once again thinking of Jace. He could picture the other man's smile as he turned to look at him and he could almost feel himself smile back in response. It was as if Jace's smile was part of him as if Jace was part of him. He closed his eyes feeling the sun on his face

'Alec.' He heard a voice whisper through the wind and he knew without even having to think the voice belonged to Jace.

He turned his head and smiled at the other man Jace was smiling back at him, it wasn't the sad lost look of the man Ryan had seen. No, this man seemed strong this man seemed to full of fire.

'Come home.' Jace told him. Ryan felt himself frown. Home. What was home? He didn't like the house he lived in now. He felt like it should be a vacation place, but not a home. He tried to think of the word home and all he could imagine was Jace smiling at him and a dark-haired girl smirking at him. And then as if he switched on a television screen scenes seemed to play out in his mind.

"I'm Jace." A ten-year-old boy said standing in front of a dark-haired boy holding a bow.

"Alec." The boy with the bow answered.

"You're hesitating on the release," Jace told him

Alec grew tense, "I get enough crap from my parents, don't need it from you too."

Jace looked away for a moment and sighed, "I'm not used to you know, other people." He paused and then smiled, "Mind if I try?"

Alec shook his head and tried to hand Jace the bow but Jace smirked and shook his head picking up a knife. "See it's all about confidence." He continued, "Once you believe you're the best." He glanced at Alec for a moment then turned and threw a knife at a target. "You'll be unstoppable."

And then the image changed to the two boys older grinning side by side.

"loser buys dinner." The now older Jace says.

Alec grinned at him gripping his bow and then the two boys charged forward

The two stood across from each other Alec held two swords and Jace a fighting ax.

"So what does this pure angel blood do for you anyway?" Alec asked

"I don't know, other than the ability to activate that sword. Maybe that's all it's good for." Jace responded.

"Clary's got the ability to draw new runes, so you must be able to do something special."

"You mean other than kick your ass?" Jace grinned and the two boys began to spar with their weapons. Moving with more speed than any human should be able to. When Alec moved his sword, Jace took his weapons and blocked Alec. Alec grinning and playfully tapped Jace with the second weapon he held. Jace grinned again and tried to make a blow at Alec but the other boy blocked him. They held each other's weapons with their own.

"Want to go hand to hand?" Alec asked

"I thought you'd never ask," Jace responded flashing a cocky smile.

They both took a few steps back and threw their weapons aside then lunged Jace first dropping to the ground. He pulled Alec to the ground who rolled knowing he was going down. Jace grabbed Alec's leg, but Alec turned it into a kick and roll. They continued rolling around each landing blows, discussing something but the image began to fade before Ryan could make out what they were saying.

Alec was on top of Jace holding a sword to his throat. This wasn't like the image from before this time Alec seemed like he wanted to harm Jace.

"I don't want to be alive if we are on different sides, Alec," Jace told him with pleading eyes. "My parabatai, my brother."

Alec was walking away from a dark-haired woman angry as he tried to ignore her.

"Alec!" she called trying to sound demanding but also not draw attention to herself. "Alec slow down!"

Finally, Alec stopped and turned to look at her allowing her to catch up to him.

"Where are you going?"

"Magnus's," he told her, "I couldn't just sit in there and not do anything. He'll help me find my brother."

"Jace is not your brother." She lowered her voice again but still sounded firm. "He's not your blood."
"He's closer the blood." Alec told her, "He's my parabatai."

"Alec we look like fools." She continued, "Taking in Valentine's son. Caring for him like our own." She shook her head.

"It was the right thing to do," Alec responded.

"It was a mistake it put our family in danger." She glanced around them looking nervous. She reached up and held his arms in her hands. "You need to forget Jace. He made his choice."

"Do you even hear what you are saying?" A look of disbelief washed over Alec as he put his arm up and pushed her off of him. "You kill him, you kill a part of me."

"If you have cancer you cut it out before it destroys you." She looked up at him as he shook his head and looked away, "Son, life is full of hard choices."

Alec looked back at her a smile on his face, but it wasn't a smile of happiness then it turned back to a frown, "Don't kid yourself. You aren't making a hard choice you are saving your own ass." He began to turn to leave, "And unlike you, I don't push someone away because they are the hard choice." And then he walked away without letting her respond and the woman just watched after him.

"Parabatai." He whispered, "What is that?"

"Two warriors who are bound together." A little voice said next to him. Ryan opened his eyes to see the twins and Max still playing on the swing set, but he noticed young Alec was sitting next to him reading a book. The little boy didn't look up at him.

"Huh?" Ryan asked.

'Entreat me not to leave thee.' words echoed through his mind as if two boys spoke.

Alec looked up from his book, "Parabatai" the little boy told him. "My daddy had one."

'Or return from following after thee.' Ryan tried to focus on Alec, but the words in his mind kept pulling at him.

"Mommy said Daddy used to be different." Alec looked down at the children's book for a moment.

'For whither thou goest, I will go.'

"But that changed when Daddy lost his parabatai." The little boy continued on.

'and where thou lodgest, I will lodge.'

"That a part of daddy died with him." Alec looked back at Ryan

'Thy people shall be my people, and thy god my god.'

"And that daddy lost a lot of what made him, him." Alec's voice was quiet and sounded like he wanted to cry.

'Where thou diest, I will die, and there will I be buried.'

"And now daddy's mind can't let go." Alec seemed to be reciting words his mother told to him.

'The angel do so to me, and more also.'

"Mommy says one day Daddy will come back. That Daddy will be Daddy again." Alec smiled remembering his mother's smile.

'If aught but death part thee and me.'

Ryan wasn't sure what to say to the boy. He wasn't even sure if what the boy spoke was fully the truth, but it made something deep within him seem to pull. Pull at what he didn't know. He knew he felt bad for the child, but something else kept tugging away at him and the image of Alec's father flashed into his mind. Jace. He couldn't figure out why he hadn't been able to get the other man out of his mind since Clary's party. What was it about the blonde man that drew Ryan to him? He just kept feeling like he needed to go be with Clary and Jace that he needed to be by their side. Why? Why did it feel so important that he get to them? Everything felt wrong being here so far away from them that if he could just go to them be by their side everything that was wrong could be righted. He shook his head. He was being foolish, could he really be that lonely that he wanted to push himself on to others?

"Max says you look like him," Alec said

Ryan looked down, "Like who?"

"Daddy's parabatai," Alec told him as if he should have already known what he was talking about. "That's why Max likes you, says you look like his daddy."

"Like Magnus?"

Alec let out an annoyed sigh, "No not is papa. His dad."

"He has a dad other than Magnus?"

Alec shook his head, "Not anymore."

Ryan felt his heart fall slightly thinking that there was yet again another loss. He hadn't realized that Magnus and Max had lost someone that they loved he had just assumed Magnus was going at it alone by choice.

"But no one remembers him." Alec's voice went to a whisper, "Max only remembers some dreams."

"What do you mean?" Ryan asked.

"Magnus doesn't remember, mommy doesn't remember, and everyone thinks daddy is crazy because he remembers," Alec told him sounding far older then he should. The little boy closed his book, "No one believes him, but I do!"

"Believes him about what?"

"That he had a daddy and that his daddy isn't gone." Alec stood up, "We just have to find him."

"Ah," Ryan said as the rational side of his brain told him this was just a child talking that they pretended things and made things up all the time.

"When he comes back everyone will get better." Alec told him, "Daddy will be Daddy and Magnus won't be sad."

"I don't think Magnus is sad," Ryan told him, but when he thought of the other man he couldn't help but feel that wasn't true. He thought of Magnus's smile and for some reason thought perhaps it wasn't real that it wasn't true. He couldn't shake off the feeling that Magnus did smile, but it didn't reach his eyes. There was no joy that seemed to fall of Magnus onto everyone around him. A whisper deep within him told him that Magnus was just a shell of what he used to be, of who he used to be.

Alec shrugged his shoulders, "Max says he is, Max, says he can't remember why he's sad but he is."

Ryan looked over at Max playing with Lexie and Cal in the sandbox and couldn't help the feeling that washed over him that this was how everything should be. Max and the twins.

"Ryan!" Laia yelled from the back door. He turned to see her frowning.

He sighed, "I have to go talk to Laia, why don't you go play with the other's."

Alec's eyes were watching Laia the little boy wore a frown looking at her before he finally looked away and back at Ryan for a moment then without saying a word he went over to the others and began playing.

Ryan went over to Laia and kissed her on the cheek, "There you are. I called."

"What is this?" she asked not even showing she noticed that he kissed her.

"What?"

"Them?" she asked looking over at the sandbox, "Why are those children with mine?"

Anger filled him when he heard her refer to the twins as hers, but he quickly chased it away the twins were her children too even if she didn't always act like it.

"I'm watching them, Clary-"

"Clary?" Laia snapped, "You spend an awful lot of time with her."

"The twins are friends with her son." He told her, "That is all it is. She has a boyfriend she is madly in love with." He then wrapped his arms around her and pulled her close, "And I have a wife I love more than anything."

Laia pulled away from him, "I still don't want you being friends with her and I don't want her kid here and the other one." She shook her head, "I do not want him here." The way she said him made something in Ryan sink.

"Max is great with them."

"I don't like his-" Laia paused but didn't hide the disgust on her face, "Kind."

"Kind?"

She sighed as if she couldn't find the words to describe it, "His father."

Magnus. Ryan thought. She didn't like Magnus. He knew she hated gay people she claimed she was religious and that it was wrong for men to be with men and women to be with women, but he had never seen her go to church or read the bible. At times he felt like he knew more about angels then she did. "Magnus is-" Ryan thought of Magnus and imagined his smile and could almost hear his laugh echoing through his mind. He could almost imagine Magnus before him and couldn't help but see himself pulling Magnus into his arms the other man would have smiled and welcomed it and not pushed him away the way Laia did.

"Wrong." Laia told him, "He's wrong."

Her voice pulled him from the image of his mind he could feel the heat leave him he hadn't even realized came to him until it faded. "He's not wrong it isn't our place to judge who he likes."

"Why are you doing this to me?" she asked tears filling her eyes.

"Doing what?" Ryan asked unsure why she was about to cry.

"Surround yourself with these people, make me feel like this you don't even care about me anymore you don't try and make me happy." The tears fell down her face now, "All you want is them and their world."

"Laia I love you." He told her but found himself not fully believing those words.

"Then prove it!"

"How?"

"Put those people and their kind in the past. We don't need the neph-" she stopped

"They are my friends." He shook his head, she couldn't want him to give up the friends he had made that he enjoyed being around. He honestly couldn't think of any of their friends they had before the children that were really his friends. They all had been her friends, he couldn't think of any of them he could call or text and not mind spending times with. Magnus and Clary were his first friends that were his.

"I am your wife." She told him.

Ryan always gave in to her, he always did what she wanted him to, but something deep within him wouldn't budge wouldn't allow him to push away Clary and Magnus.

"No," he told her, "I love you, but you can't tell me who I can or can't be friends with."

Hurt filled Laia's face "I don't even know who you are anymore." She turned and went into the house. Ryan thought he should follow her, but he thought better of it. He was tired of always going after her, and honestly, he couldn't even remember what truly loving her felt like.

I pull you in to feel you're heartbeat

Can you feel me screaming please don't leave me

Come back I still need you.

Clary wasn't sure how life had turned to this, not too long ago she had thought she had everything she wanted. The war was over she had Jace and they had a baby on the way. Isabelle was pregnant as well and that meant she and Simon were going to have kids around the same time. Everything seemed perfect. Then one night Alec and Jace had been out on patrol that night changed everything. Alec had been killed and Jace fell apart a piece of him had died and the life Clary had allowed herself to imagine. She leaned back in her chair next to Jace's bed the silent brother's had tried to ease his mind, but they said he had two sets of memories playing in his mind. Memories that even they couldn't tell which ones were real. She was worried about him, he hadn't woken since the brothers had worked on him and couldn't help but think perhaps the last part of his mind that kept him bound to this world was broken. She sighed and brought her drink to her lips and drank perhaps she had drunk too much, but she didn't have to worry about Alec tonight. He was with Ryan.

Ryan. Her mind thought of the man she had met only a few months ago and somehow trusted as if she knew him her whole life. She knew her son was safe with him and knew Magnus' son was safe as well. The more her mind thought of Ryan it seemed her head began to pound and pain echoed through her head. She saw Ryan as he was a good looking mundane his dark hair and blue eyes, but as if a camera was going out of focus and then refocusing she saw his features change slightly and instead of the mundane within her mind she saw Alexander Lightwood his runes showing on his skin, his dark hair and blue eyes watching her. It was strange how much Ryan did resemble Alec, but only when she saw him out of the corner of her eye or in quick passing. When she really looked at him she knew without a doubt he looked nothing like Alec other than having dark hair and blue eyes.

She put her hand to her head she had drunk too much that was why her mind kept changing Ryan to look like Alec. She smiled thinking how perfect it would be if Jace was right, that Ryan was Alec that he had come back to them and they could all be happy once more, but had Alec really been happy.

She had known he was gay and so had everyone else within their group but no one spoke the words. Alec had never come out and told them so everyone just pretended they didn't know. Alec had died in the shadows never once allowing himself to be happy and go after what he wanted.

She stood up and crawled into the bed settling next to Jace placing her head on his chest as if it was instinct or a reflex his arm came around her. She smiled as warmth filled her, she still loved Jace and he still loved her. As she closed her eyes her mind flashed back to Alec, but as she drifted to sleep her mind didn't play images of the brooding Lightwood within the shadows. No, she saw his smile and his strength she saw him forging new paths for the Shadowhunters and downworlders. She saw images of the downworlder alliance and Alec heading it. She saw Magnus Bane at his side and she saw the way the two men looked at each other. She saw Alec holding a baby Max and Magnus looking at the man he loved holding the child he loved. She felt herself smiling at all the images that felt right. She let her imagination run wild imagining a life where Alec was happy, where she was happy, and where everything was how it should be. Where everything was right. Perhaps this was the world that Jace longed so much to be real, she wished it too but she knew enough at least to know none of these images were true, but at least she could lose herself to the thoughts as she drifted to sleep in Jace's arms. Because in his arms she could imagine happiness she felt safe as if nothing could rip them apart, nothing could come between them. She tried not to think come morning or whenever Jace woke that she couldn't pretend nothing was wrong. She couldn't pretend these imagines of Alec happy with Magnus and her and Jace whole and together raising their son as they should have been all along were real. When her eyes opened in the morning, she would have to face reality. She would have to face the fact Jace perhaps was never going to be Jace again.

Can you hear me screaming

Please don't leave me

Hold on I still want you

Come back I still need you.

Let me take your hand I'll make it right.

A soft knock drew Catrina's attention she looked up to see Tessa Grey coming into Magnus' flat.

"How is he?" Tessa asked another figure followed her that Catrina knew was Jem.

"He is burning up." Catrina told her, "I'm not sure what this is."

Tessa walked over to the bed and brushed some hair out of Magnus' face she frowned his face showed nothing but pain. "I don't understand how this happened."

"He cast out his memories, but I fear in his disappear he made a deal with the wrong person," Catrina told her.

"You mean demon?" Jem asked.

"No." Catrina told him sighing, "I think he acted foolishly and rash and in his heartbreak he made a deal with a fairy."

"Fairy?" Tessa asked.

"Yes. Giving his memories to a demon wouldn't have been this way, he wouldn't have been able to recall them. They would be gone." She shook her head. "I think only an old fairy could use this kind of magic."

"Alec." Magnus' voice called out a horse and weak pain echoing the worlds.

"But they aren't" Tessa frowned, "He's remembering."

"A demon should not have had the power to change reality." Catrina continued

"Reality?" Jem asked.

"Yes." Tessa told him, "Catrina and I are the only ones that seem to remember perhaps its because we were in the spiral labyrinth when it happened."

"What has changed?" Jem asked.

"Magnus cast aside his memories of Alexander Lightwood," Tessa told

"Why?" Jem asked puzzled.

"Because he loved him, they were in love. They raised Max together."

Jem frowned "I don't-"

"You were affected by the change," Catrina told him. "Tessa and I are the only ones who remember, perhaps Max the boy sometimes says things, but they are only ghost of memories. He still calls out for Alec when he has a nightmare."

"What does that have to do with Magnus' state now?" Jem asked

"Whoever he made a deal with doesn't want him to remember, he wants everyone to be locked in this reality he has made." Tessa guessed. "And Magnus started to remember, something made him remember what he was supposed to forget."

"And I'm assuming the fail-safe was to keep him from remembering at any cost." Catrina looked at her friend as he shuttered on the bed and made a soft whimper sound like a puppy longing for its mother.

"We have to figure out how to save him," Tessa whispered as she kept her cool hand on her old friend's head. He had done so much for her and for Will, for her family. She had to do whatever she could to try and save him.

"Hold on Magnus." She told him. "Hold on."

Driving a nightmare I can't escape from

Helplessly preying the light isn't fading

Please don't leave me

Come back I still need you.

How long had he been here? Magnus felt so lost so alone. He didn't even feel real anymore. Had he died? Was this what death was? Nothing. A pit of nothing only cold darkness? Was this the end of everything and everyone?

He hardly could remember anything other than this place, of this darkness. All his memory seemed lost to him. He had nothing he was nothing. Everything was so cold, like the longest coldest winter he had ever known. He closed his eyes and wanted to let go, to be done with this place, with everything to allow himself to drift away. It was strange who he wasn't in water but he felt like he was going to drown in the darkness, that if he just stopped fighting he could sink away and fade into the darkness the way you could just sink into water.

'Wake up.' A voice called to him, 'Wake up. All the best is yet to come. Wake up.'

Magnus opened his eyes and it was as if an angel was shining a light on him a warm bright light. The angel smiled at him. 'It's time to wake up.'

Magnus reached for the man, the angel but couldn't touch him. The more he reached for him the more the man seemed to move away from him. It was as if the other man was keeping him fighting. "I can't breath," Magnus whispered.

'You can.' The man told him. 'Keep fighting.' Then the man smirked, 'just keep swimming.'

With those words, Magnus felt himself smile recognizing the Finding Nemo reference. It was as if he was snapped from the hazy thoughts of the abyss and brought back to reality. He had to fight he had to move to the light and away from the darkness. He pulled himself forward until he was fully standing in the light of the other man.

'You and me.' The man told him, 'Always seem to find out way back to each other.'

And then they hit the memories of who this man was, once again it was as if a dam broke within his mind and he remembered everything. "Alec." He whispered, but the more the memories came the more pain began to full his mind making him almost fall back into the darkness. Alec grabbed hold of him and pulled him into his embrace.

'My foolish warlock.' He whispered.

Magnus pulled back only slightly so he could look into Alec's eyes. "I'm sorry." He knew he would fall if Alec let go he could hardly hold on anymore on his own. Alec leaned forward and kissed him it was a kiss that Magnus wished would never end, but it did and when Magnus looked at Alec again he saw his partners serious face.

'You have to forget.' Alec said.

"No." Magnus whispered, "I should have never made that deal I should have never allowed you to be taken from my mind."

'What is done is done.' Alec told him. 'But you need to go back. Max needs you.'

Magnus wanted to argue but knew Alec spoke the truth they had a son a son that needed at least one of his fathers.

'The only way you can is if you don't remember.' Alec's voice was soft.

"Alec."

'I love you too.' Alec whispered as he kissed Magnus one more time. 'Now go.'

AN- So after the long break, I have a new idea of a direction to go with this story and hope you guys will like where I plan to take it. And remember reviews always make me want to write more.