It's finally here.

September First.

I am starting my fifth year.

I am going to see Rose again.

Since the get together at Weasley's when I tried to talk to her, she hadn't come to the Burrow for any family things. It was both infuriating and depressing that she refused to come because of me. She still visited her grandparents but she doesn't do it when everyone else does.

"Scorpius, are you ready to go?" My mother said, coming into my room. She woke me from my daydreaming.

"Uh, yeah." I tell her, standing up and gathering up my trunk, owl, and rucksack.

"She'll come around." My mother said, noting my dejected expression. I seriously doubted those words. After all, I was certainly not blameless for the situation between Rose and I.

Downstairs, my father smiles at me proudly. My father is always proud of me. I think it's because I am nothing like he was as a teenager.

At King's Cross, I hug my parents goodbye. My mother starts to cry but my dad puts his arm around her and winks at me. I smile back and go over to the lump of people known as the Weasley clan. Technically they weren't all Weasley's. They were Weasley's and Potter's and Longbottom's and Scamander's. Then there was Teddy- who might as well be a Potter- and myself and that muggle born friend of Roxanne, Leah.

"Hey, Scorp." Albus says to me. I can tell he's excited. So is everyone else. I shake Mr. Potter's hand and Mrs. Potter as well as Rose's mum gives me a hug.

Then I see Rose. And everything fades away even if it is just for a moment. She sees me looking at her and scowls. She looks like she's already in a fowl mood. It would not be a very good idea to talk to her now. Plus her father is next to her. I'm bloody terrified of Ron.

"You know, you could stop ogling at Rose for a moment." Fred Weasley whispers in my ear, effectively scaring me. I glare at him but he just laughs.

But I notice something weird. Alice is next to him but they aren't holding hands and he doesn't have his arm around her... Weird.

After a lot of hugging and waving and excitement, I finally board the train with Albus. We sit with James and Louis. It's a very entertaining trip, to say the least. I guess this is the first time that James and Louis have been allowed to see each other in three weeks. Which makes them twice as bad. An hour into the trip, my stomach hurts from laughing. Overall, I'm in a good mood but I still have a nagging thought in the back of my mind named Rose Weasley.

I decide to go find her once I cannot ignore it anymore.

"I'll be back." I tell the others and get up to leave.

"Where are you going?" James asks. "To see Rose. Obviously." Louis replies then adds, "He's got that face."

"I do not have a face that implies I'm going to see Rose." I tell them. Albus sighs but James and Louis start guffawing. I roll my eyes. "Whatever." I leave the compartment.

I find her in a compartment with Lucy and Augusta Longbottom, Alice's little sister.

"No." She says as soon as she sees me.

"I'll just carry you away." I tell her. She considers this angrily for a moment. I step forward as if I'm going to do it but she pushes past me. I follow her into an empty compartment.

"Can I help you?" She hisses at me.

"Yep." I say before I kiss her. She pushes me away at first but I have a firm hold on her waist. Then she does what she always does and pulls me closer. The kiss deepens wonderfully. She starts to unbutton my shirt and I help her. Her hands stroke my chest as I interrupt our kiss to kiss her neck. And it goes from there.

"Great conversation." I wink at Rose as she pulls on her shirt. She glares at me and tries to leave. "No. Seriously, we need to talk."

"I'd rather not." She tells me, refusing to look me in the eyes.

"I don't really care. You've been avoiding your family just so you wouldn't have to see me." I replied. When she didn't say anything, I sighed and went on. "Albus told me you practically refused to get out of bed." She just shrugs. "I'm not going to ask if it's because of me because I know it is but I'm sorry, Rose." I said honestly. There was nothing that I felt more sorry about than hurting Rose.

Rose and I are... complicated.

Rose and I were the best of friends for years. Until last summer. She told me she fancied me, I said I wanted to stay friends because I wasn't ready for a serious relationship. She took it as me wanting to see other girls. She distanced herself from me and wouldn't talk to me. Then we started fighting a lot. Rose picked fights with me in front of people, I picked fights when we were alone. Then every time we fought when we were alone we ended up kissing and occasionally doing more than that. I try to move on. I might be unsuccessful but at least I'm trying to not completely be infatuated with her. Not that she's infatuated with me. She fancies her on-again, off-again boyfriend who I want to strangle the majority of the time. We're both extremely jealous of one another. He gets to be with Rose. I get hurried kissing and a lot of yelling. Then again the situation might be different if I hadn't done what I did at the end of last school year.

"Don't. Do not apologize. I don't care if you're sorry. If you really were, you'd stay away from me!" She exclaimed.

"What? So you can be unhappy with Henry Chang for the rest of your life? You want me to give up on you? Well, I can't do it! Believe me, I've tried!"

"Oh, go cry about it to your slags. And who the hell are you to say whether I'll be happy or not with Henry? I am happy with him! I want him, not you." She says but I think she's trying to convince herself more than me.

"No, you bloody are not happy with him!" I am getting angrier by the second.
"I am! You're just mad you aren't as happy with your slags." She yells at me.

"You're just mad that I don't have to be stuck with one person, like you!"

"You're just a man whore."

"You're just sexually frustrated."

"Well I would have to be pretty desperate to make out with you, wouldn't I?"

"You lied! You aren't with him right now! You wouldn't have kissed me! You're a liar!" I realized angrily. I hate it when people lie to me. It's my biggest pet peeve. And Rose knows that.

The door opened to Leah Preston who's a prefect. I am too but it wasn't my turn to patrol yet. But it would be in a few minutes so I left Rose and did my job a few minutes earlier with Leah.

I was so angry that Leah didn't even say anything to me. I felt bad later because Leah is actually really nice. But I was so mad with Rose. But that's what I usually was with her. Yes, this was loving Rose Weasley. Someone avada kedavra me now.