A Remnant of Lost Time

Diary #1

So I'm writing this because there are certain things I don't want people to know. This is more of like a keepsake, just in case someone does end up obtaining my journal entries. Since we don't spend a lot of time resting, I don't really get to write in this one as often as I would like, but I always manage to find some time for it. Anyway, I need to write down all of this stuff that's been going on or else I'm going to lose my mind.

First off, what is up with this shit about Grimm? They irradiate something that manages to kill us indirectly. I just don't see how that's possible, but then again, I'm not the "sciencey" type so I shouldn't really be able to.

Another thing that kind of drives me nuts is this whole partner thing. The only normal way of surviving this shit hole is finding a partner who we are compatible with. What kind of "cure" is that? I don't care how scientific things get, that is not science. That's verging on fairy tale shit right there. This world doesn't need anything more fake. We need facts, support, and an ending to this horrible situation. Unfortunately, I just don't see anything like that coming up in the near future.

Unlike my journal entries, I can be a little bit more pessimistic. With this one, I can say anything I want and know that it won't hurt me. I know I'm telling the truth and all I'm really doing is venting. Venting is healthy so I might as well do it and not hold it in.

Sometimes, it feels that I'm repeating myself. Sometimes, I don't even know myself, but that doesn't matter. I'm still alive and I believe I'm pretty sane so there's nothing to worry about.

I'm don't really want to talk about my sister because I know that it'll only make things harder on me. I'm just glad that her death was swift. It didn't seem like she suffered or anything so that was a good sign. Other than that, there are really no words for her end. All I can say is that I love you sis and I hope you're doing fine wherever you are. However, I know for a fact that you're doing better than me right now. You lucky piece of crap. I'm actually really jealous of you right now.

Alright, I can't talk about this anymore. I'm moving onto to something else.

So I don't know when this happened, but I've been imagining strange images of Ruby. Most of the times, it's when I sleep, but these images are so weird. I'm always in her arms and she looking down at me with a smile on her face. I could feel her warmth on my body and the safety that she offers. I don't know why this is happening. I mean, we're just travel partners. It's not like I like her or anything.

Wait, do I?

Normal people don't think like this about some person who doesn't really matter to them. So why am I thinking like this? Is it actually true?

To be completely honest, I think it is though. My energy supply hasn't been depleted like it used to. I don't know if that's the universal sign, but it's definitely something. And plus, I can't think like that because let's be honest. How lucky could I be to have my "special" someone appear before and sweep my off my feet. I've never been much of an enthusiast so this possibility strikes me as nearly impossible. However, I'll still keep my mind open to it.

If this girl is the one, I really don't know how lucky I am.

End of Diary 1

Ending Note: Sorry about the short update. I was busy this week and didn't have a lot of time to write. About these diaries, I'll write a few every now and then to kind of stray away from the main plot of the story, but they'll be pretty rare. Normal entries will return on the next update day. Thank you for reading.