I've decided to update whatever stories I want but I'm still using the poll at times so still vote (: I'm hoping I can update more! Cross your fingers. Happy late new year! :D I created a facebook for my stories and I will be putting sneak peaks up. Look for Bita Scull This chapter is a little sketchy and it skips around the day…. Kind of. It switches point of views a lot too. Sorry… I hope you guys enjoy this chapter. Please give me any ideas! 3 Sorry it's been late. I wanted to make it extra long.
Nothing makes sense
Happiness doesn't last
Not in reality
But in my dreams it does.
Previously: I looked over at him, stunned. "Um… Yeah. It seems like it's going to be kind of fun, ya know? I just don't really like school stuff." I laughed a little bit.
He chuckled. "Yeah I know how that feels but I'm sure it'll be great." He gives me this look. What does that mean? Does he know something I don't? I don't know but I do know that he is right. It will be great. I can't wait for Monday.
BPOV:
I walked into gym and almost groaned. Lauren was standing near the girls' locker room, glaring at me. What is her problem? I try passing her but she blocks my way. I sigh, annoyed. "What do you want?"
"I want you to stay away from Jasper! He's mine and you know it." She sneers at me.
"I've never even seen you guys together and I'm not even trying to get him." That wasn't really a lie. I'm just waiting for him to make the move.
"Uh-huh. I don't believe you! I saw you guys this morning. You were all over him!" I shake my head and push past her. I got changed as quickly as possible and walked into the gym. I hate gym. I'm the clumsiest person in the whole world.
"Class we're playing volleyball today. Get in your teams from last week." The gym teacher shouts.
I sighed as I got ready to serve the ball. Did I mention I hate gym? I was about to throw the ball up when I heard an annoying laugh. I looked over to see Lauren laughing like she just saw the funniest thing. What is up with her?
"Don't worry guys. It's just the big fat loser." She says in a mocking voice. Before I could register what I was doing I hit the ball straight towards her. The ball hit her straight in the nose. She fell down on the ground, screaming. It was silent for a minute before the whole class broke into laughter.
The teacher hurriedly ran over to her after he realized she was actually hurt. He helped her to the nurse while she clutched her nose. We sat there the rest of class, not doing anything. I couldn't believe I did that! It was pretty awesome. At least I didn't get in trouble.
I walked into math and saw Jasper sitting in his seat. Right when I walked in he sat straight up in his seat with a worried look on his face. I walked over to my seat looking at him confused. What is up with him?
"Are you okay?" He says quickly.
"Yeah… Why wouldn't I be?"
"I heard there was an incident in gym and I knew you had gym…" His voice trailed off and a slight pink covered his cheek. Was he blushing? Awe he's so cute.
"Yeah…" I chuckled nervously. "I 'accidentally' hit Lauren in the face with the volleyball." I ducked my head, hoping to hide the blush.
"Really?" I nod. "I would have loved to see that! How hurt was she?"
"I think I messed up her nose. I still can't believe I actually hit her. I'm not very good at aim but she just made me so mad." I growled a little bit.
"How did she make you mad?" He asked, concerned.
"She said something to me and tried making me stop doing something… and she called me a name." I said trying to be as vague as possible.
"Oh… Well I'm glad you're okay. I thought you got hurt or something." He glances away from me but not before I saw this pained look on his face.
Before I could stop myself, my hand reached out and touched his arm. He looks at me surprised. "I'm fine. Don't worry about it but thanks for your concern." I smile sweetly at him. He looks at me for a minute before he smiles a heart-stopping smile. I quickly remove my hand and blush. What is he doing to me?
JPOV:
I glance over to the angel sitting next to me. God she's so beautiful. No one could compete with her prettiness. I sigh happily. She glances over at me and I quickly glance away, hoping I'm not blushing. I'm just so glad she is alright. I heard there was an accident in gym and I knew she had gym. Edward told me… God I'm turning into a girl and stalker…
The teacher dismissed the class to do the next section in our book. The class barely started before he told us to just work and ask for help if needed. He must not be feeling well or something. I shrugged and went to grab my book from my bag. I groaned a little. Crap! I forgot my book…
"What's wrong?" I heard a soft voice say. I glanced over to Bella and sighed.
"I forgot my book at home." I mumbled. This is just great.
"Oh… We can share my book. It can be an early start for tutoring." She smiled shyly at me.
"Okay!" I say excitedly. I pull my desk so it's touching hers, while she puts the book in the middle of us. We smile at each other before we start working, quietly. Twenty minutes later we heard the door fly open. Everyone looks at the door, startled. Lauren walks in with a big bandage on her nose. The whole classroom was silent for a moment until everyone burst into laughter.
"Everyone quiet down, please." Mr. Wills said as sternly as he can without laughing. Lauren huffs and walks to her sit. Before she sits down she glares at Bella and then turns to me and smiles sweetly. I shudder and start working on the last problem.
Ten minutes later and I was still working on it. I just don't get it. How the hell are you supposed to find the inverse of equations? I sighed, frustrated. From the corner of my eye, I see Bella put the book she had down.
"What's wrong?" She asks.
"I just don't get this!"
She glances over at my work and sigh. "It's simple. You have to replace the y with the x in the equation. Then you solve and the do the order of operations backwards." She went ahead and showed me how to do it. When the bell rang, I had a feeling that I was going to be a master in math because of Bella.
Bella and I walked out of the classroom together. Bella reluctantly waved bye to me as my friends arrived. I sighed sadly before turning towards my friends. They all have the same knowing smile. I shake my head and start to walk to my motorcycle.
"Jasper before you go can I ask you a question?" Alice asks sweetly. Uh-oh, this can't be good.
"What?" I say hesitantly.
"Well I was thinking about having one of my famous sleepovers and thinking maybe I should invite Bella. Can I?" She begs. Spend the night with my Bella? Hell ya!
"Sure Alice but don't force her to come. Do it the weekend after next, okay?" She nods. "Great! I'll talk to you guys later."
I got home and quickly ran upstairs. I was so happy that's the weekend but I am going to miss Bella so much… What does this girl do to me? She's turning me into a wimp… but she's totally worth it. I jump onto my bed and smile widely. I might spend the whole weekend with Bella! I can't wait.
I grab my stash from underwear drawer and find out I only have a few more bowls left. I come to a conclusion. After I smoke all of this I will stop. I don't want Bella to not want me because of this. I need to stop anyway.
I start a bowl while thanking study hall and my teachers for giving me no homework. I sigh as calmness overtakes me. I smile, goofily as Bella comes back to mind. God she's amazing…
BPOV:
I walk into the house and decided to clean. I need a distraction from one person. Jasper Whitlock. He won't leave my mind. There's just something about him that just makes me want to never leave him. I just want to ask him if he likes me. I just want to know if he feels the same way. Maybe this tutoring thing will help me decide. I hope so…
Monday morning:
I stepped out of my truck with as much determination I could muster up. This weekend gave me time to think. I'm going to try to get Jasper to like me. I want him to want me too. I want him to actually know me.
I glanced over at the place where Jasper and his friend's hang out before school to see Alice waving her arm around crazily. I looked over at her, confused until I realized she wanted me to go over there. I hesitantly walked over there.
"Bella! I'm so glad I get to talk to you before school! I was afraid I had to track you down." I nodded my head slowly. "I'm going to throw one of my famous sleepovers next weekend and I wanted to invite you. It's going to be all of us here and it would be really awesome if you could come! So will you? Please. Please!" I stared at her in shock. Does she ever take a breath while talking? I mean jeez…
I shook my head to clear my thoughts. "Um… sure Alice. I'd love to go. So what happens at these famous sleepovers?"
The next thing I knew I was getting a bear hug from Alice. "I'm so happy you said yes! This is going to be the coolest one! It usually lasts all weekend until Sunday afternoon. We usually sleep in my basement. I have tons of games down there. We usually play games and then do a little karaoke. Everyone has to do it so be prepared! Then we play truth or dare to the Extreme! It's always amazing! Finally we watch a movie and then eventually fall asleep. The next morning we have a big breakfast and then we go shopping or the guys do whatever they want. Rose and I usually have the guys carry our bags. Next weekend they're coming with us. We usually have our own bag boy. You can have Jasper." She smiles wider. "Then we usually go with the flow after we get back around the afternoon. It's super fun!"
"Um… wow. That sounds really exciting. I can't wait!" She grins at me as the bell rings. Alice Cullen is one energizer bunny…
JPOV:
I smile to myself as I see Bella all frazzled because of Alice. I can't believe I get a weekend with her. It's like a dream come true. I'll make sure she's mine by the end of the weekend. Maybe I'll ask my mom or Alice or Rose to help me come up with a plan…
"C'mon Bella. Let's go to English." I smile, lazily at her. She blushes slightly before blushing. I chuckle lowly and wave to my friends. I put my arm around her to lead her to class. Everyone of course stared at us. I looked down to see Bella blushing and looking down. Maybe she's embarrassed to be with me. I quickly remove my arm from around her shoulders. Maybe she doesn't like me like that… I sigh sadly. From the corner of my eye, I see Bella glance at me curiously. I refused to meet her eyes.
I quietly sat in the seat next to Bella's. I couldn't believe I actually thought Bella liked me like that. I don't know why I gave my self false hope. Maybe it's because I never had a person love me. I just want someone to love… Maybe I'll just start distancing myself. I mean we're only supposed to be tutor and tutee. Nothing else.
The rest of the class period I barely even glanced at her. What's the point? I'll just get distracted by her beauty. Plus it'll hurt me more, knowing I'll never be able to call her mine. I just have to have a professional relationship with her. Yeah that's how it'll be… Crap! She'll be at the sleepover next weekend. Maybe things will be different then… Oh who am I kidding?
BPOV:
I sighed as I glanced at Jasper. I have no idea what was wrong with him. Everything was fine until suddenly he dropped his arm from my shoulder. Oh his arm… I loved how it felt to around me. I felt safe and loved. I just wanted to stay in his arm and never leave. I've never felt this way. I've never had a boyfriend. Maybe that's why he's acting so weird. He realized I'm too inexperienced…
I jump as the bell rings. Jasper quietly puts his stuff in his backpack. Is he going to walk with me? I hesitantly stand up and wait for him. Jasper looks up and gives me a forced smile. Okay then… Emmett meets us in the hallway and looks at me confused. I glance back at Jasper and shrug. I have no idea what's wrong with him.
The walk to History was awkward. Emmett tried to get Jasper to talk but all he would do was just stare ahead. By the time we got to class, it was eerily quiet. Emmett had Jasper behind so they could talk. When I looked in the hallway, I saw Jasper and Emmett having a mini argument. I wonder what that is about… Who knew my life could change so quickly? Just last weekend I was a loner and Jasper didn't even know I existed. Now here I sit, worried about Jasper. What the hell?
Emmett and Jasper came in and gave me a forced smile. Now what? I feel like I'm missing something… Oh well… I sigh for the millionth time in an hour. I can't wait until this day is over. Crap! I have to tutor him after school today. I totally forgot. I bite my lip to hold back a groan. It's going to be even more awkward now. Just flippin' great!
The rest of History passed in a blur. After History, I quickly got my stuff together and walked to choir alone. If he doesn't want to be friends then we won't be. I walked into choir and could tell something was off. Everyone seemed so excited.
"Hey Ang, what's going on?" I ask to my friend.
"The musical is Grease! The whole school gets to audition but it is still required for everyone in this choir to try out. It's just so exciting!" I smiled at her. It does seem pretty exciting but it's not like I would get to be in the musical. "The musical will be performed in front of the whole school on the first day! Along with a couple of other days."
"That's awesome!"
The rest of choir was filled with talk about the musical. Everyone seemed super excited about it. By the time I got to Art, I forgot about my problem with Jasper until I saw him. I quietly sat down in my seat next to him. I was trying not to talk to him. If he doesn't want to be my friend then I won't be. From the corner of my eye I could see him glance at me.
The rest of the period was filled with quietness as we drew whatever we want. The rest of the day passed quickly. I went to the library at lunch. Edward didn't try to talk to me in Biology. Lauren wasn't in gym because of some doctor appointment. Thank god. I walked as slowly as I can to math. I don't want to see Jasper at the moment. I just want to know what is wrong with him.
I sighed as I slip in my seat next to Jasper. Jasper smiled another fake smile at me quickly before looking down at what he was doing. Maybe he was just having a bad day… I hope. Halfway through class the door opened. Lauren walked in with a huge bandage over her nose. Everyone in the class started laughing. Lauren huffed and handed her pass to the teacher. She glared at me before sitting down in her seat. Apparently she's still mad at me for ruining her nose job. At least she can get a new one.
At the end of class, I turned towards Jasper only to see Lauren sitting on his desk. Damn that girl moves fast. What the hell does she want? I can feel myself get jealous. Why am I so jealous? Jasper isn't mine. I don't even think he wants to me. I sigh and start putting some of the stuff I don't need in my backpack.
"Jasper!" Lauren she says in her naval voice. "I had fun last night! Want to have a repeat tonight? We can go to my place. No one will be home until tomorrow." She smiles like she's constipated. Is she trying to be seductive? Oh well that doesn't matter… He'll go with her. Every guy does.
"What the fuck are you talking about, Laura? I was at home all day yesterday with my parents. And I would not want to go to your house even if zombies were trying to eat me and your house was the safe house. Have a nice life."
"My name is Lauren! Don't lie! We were together all night. You touched me everywhere. I moaned your name. Don't you remember?" She screeches.
"That's disgusting. I was with my parents all day. Maybe you're thinking of a different guy. Goodbye." She stands there for a minute before huffing and walking out of the classroom. "Can you believe her? Does she want me to throw up? She's a nutcase!" Jasper says to me.
I giggle still unnerved. I don't know why I'm jealous. Obviously nothing happened but I still feel hurt. Jasper looks at me, confused. "Are you okay? You do know that nothing happened with us last night, right? She was just saying that to make you jealous."
She was trying to make me jealous? She's the one with all the guys. I'm just plain jane. "Trying to make me jealous? Why?"
"Well she's jealous of you. It's obvious." Jasper says in a calm voice.
"Jealous of me? Why?" I ask, confused
"Why wouldn't she be? If you still don't know why by the time of the sleepover then I will tell you. I promise." I nod slowly. "Ready, tutor?" He winks at me. This is going to be a long hour and a half.
"Wow, thanks so much for helping me!" Jasper exclaims. "You're so good at making me understand how to do this. I'm pretty good at math but I've been slacking lately." He smiles at me. I wonder what made him change. He was acting so strange earlier…
"You're welcome. It's not very difficult at all." I reply.
JPOV:
I smiled at the angel sitting next to me. I've decided to not hide my feelings. I just couldn't. I need to make sure she absolutely doesn't like me. If she doesn't then I will leave her alone. It hurts too much to stay away from her anyway. I didn't realize how dumb I was to push her away until lunch.
Flashback
I was sitting in the cafeteria, glancing at the doors now and then. I was waiting for Bella to arrive. I was going to distance myself from her but that doesn't mean I couldn't watch her from the distance. Right?
"Jasper!" Alice screams.
"Huh?" I reply.
"Emmett told me what you told him before History. What are you thinking? You can't do that to Bella. I know for a fact that she likes you more than a friend. Don't worry about it. Now stop looking at the door with such a glum look on your face! Bella went to the library. I saw her."
I looked at Alice for a minute before shaking my head. Of course she is right. She always is. Maybe I'm just scared of feeling the way I am. This feeling is so new to me. She is right though. I will ask Bella at the sleepover how she feels about me. If she doesn't return the feelings then I will leave her alone.
~End~
"Jazzy?" I hear a soft voice say.
"Huh?" I blink and look at my angel once again. Her eyes are full of concern.
"I tried getting your attention but you weren't responding. I got worried." I could see blush forming on her cheeks. Can she get anymore adorable?
"Sorry. I just dozed off." I chuckle. "Wait, did you just call me jazzy?"
More blush form on her cheeks. "Uh yeah. Sorry. I didn't mean to…" She looks down.
"Hey." I lift her chin up. "Don't be. No one has called me that before. I was just a little surprised. I like it when you call me that." I smile as I hear her breath catch. "Can I give you a nickname too?" She looked at me, confused before nodding. "Great! Um… how about Bellsy?" She giggles and nods. "Awesome, Bellsy! Can I walk you to your truck?"
"Of course." We both put our stuff away and start walking towards the parking lot.
"Oh yeah. I forgot to ask you if it's okay that we go to my house next week for tutoring?" I say it hesitantly. I'm scared she's going to turn me down. I don't want her to reject me.
"That sounds fine to me." She blushes and looks down. "Cab u ask you a question?" She asks hesitantly.
"Of course. You can ask me anything you want." I didn't realize how true that was until it left my mouth.
"Ok… um… so do you actually smoke pot?" She looks down to avoid eye contact.
"Yeah I do. But I've been meaning to change that. I've gotten some new… motivation and decided that I might quit. You don't want me smoking do you?"
"I don't know how I feel about it. I wouldn't want you to quit just because I wanted that." She whispers, still looking down.
I lift her chin up so she's looking me in the eye. "I wouldn't care if you wanted me to quit because I would. Just for you." I lean in closer to her so my lips are three inches from hers. Her breath catches as she stares at me with wide eyes. I stare into her eyes trying to figure out what to do.
I want to wait and make sure she feels the same way. I don't want our first kiss to be in front of our school. I want it to be romantic and meaningful. On the other hand, she's too damn irresistible with those pouty lips and her smooth skin. It's so hard for me not to touch her skin.
Bella sighs as I cradle her face. I look deep into her eyes to make sure there is no fear or regret. I want to make sure she won't regret what will happen. Seeing nothing wrong, I lean forward slowly until my forehead is up against hers. Her breath fans across my face and I breathe in deeply. I lean forward even more but before I could feel her lips on my own I hear a throat being cleared. I jumped back and looked at the cause. Just great.
I know it's a cliffhanger but I don't know who it should be. Lauren? Mike? A teacher? Charlie? Whooooo? Haha. Please let me know! :D Anywhoooo. I hope you guys like it. Sorry it's so late but I tried making it long. It's not that long but… it's the best I can do for now. Maybe one day I will be able to write a really long chapter. The next story to be update might be Private School but we'll see. Haha. So add me on facebook: Bita Scull. 'Kay? Thanks for reading (: 3
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