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Becoming Me

Chapter 6

Wake Up Alone

'Got so sick of crying'

Jude sat next to Courtney holding her hand. She wasn't sure why. She glanced at the poor girl. She had piercing blue eyes. They reminded her of someone, Jude immediately dismissed that thought. The girl was colourless. She had straight brown hair and a fringe. Courtney was a pretty girl. She hadn't spoken and was shacking.

The room was small with a single bed. It was a hospital and had white sheets. Jude hated hospitals but felt she couldn't just leave the poor girl.

An officer came through with Sadie.

"Now darling, I need to know your name"

The girl just sat there quietly.

"Her name is Courtney Angelica Quincy" Sadie told the lady and turned with a to see Jude's reaction. She wasn't sure if Jude was ready to find out about Tommy's family and life.

Jude gasped and let go of Courtney's hand and really looked at her. She did look like Tommy and from the picture that Tommy had shown Jude of Angie she looked like Angie too. She looked a lot like her mother.

Flashback

"She's beautiful Tommy. No wonder you loved her." Jude held a picture of Tommy and Angie in her hands, studying the woman. She had pretty blue eyes and had blondish hair, browner really. She was elegant and was a natural beauty - Jude could see that.

That day Tommy told Jude lots of stories about the woman and how she helped him through the hell that Portia put him through. Jude was thankful Portia was in jail or Jude would have a serious show down with the woman.
"It wasn't about that. I want you to know everything Jude. No secrets. No regrets. I love you girl." He smiled at her and gave her a sweet light kiss. She felt like nothing could break their relationship. The next day they would fly to Thailand.

"Jjjude" the tiny girl looked up and looked Jude into the eyes. Jude needed to protect the girl; she didn't know why she felt that way. Jude could see the girl trying to say something.

"Don't worry. You look a lot like your parents. Especially Angie." Jude nearly whispered the word Angie.

"Thank you" The girl spoke up.

The officer lady cleared her throat.

"Officer may I speak to you in private" Jude said and leaded the woman outside.

"Look, can you come back tomorrow. I'm sorry but I really don't think this is not the right time to speak to Courtney. She has just been raped" Jude couldn't understand the stupidity of the police sometimes. The girl was emotionally injured. And physically.

"Of course. I'm just here to find out who the parents are. I imagine you're not related. But I am a huge fan." The lady told Jude.

"Well life does the strangest things to you. "Jude smiled. She was always flattered when someone said they were her fan, no matter how famous she got. It was a nice feeling that her life hadn't been wasted and that there were people who appreciated Jude's effort. Jude laughed at herself sometimes; she had to have a meaning of everything in her life.

"Would you mind giving me an autograph? Please" the lady asked shyly.

"Of course" Jude signed an autograph and made her way back inside.

"Well she won't be bothering you till tomorrow." Jude smiled at the girl.

"I'm sorry. I must be causing an awful lot of trouble," Courtney said. Sadie obviously said something to the girl because the colour was coming back to her face.

Tommy burst through the door with Kwest just behind him.

"COURTNEY WHAT THE HELL WERE YOU THINKING? ARE YOU STUPID OR IS IT SOMETHING YOU INHERITED," he continued shouting but Jude cut him short.

"Tommy. Shut. Up."

"EXCUSE ME " he was taken back.
"Lets step outside" she said calmly.

"No. This is my daughter and I will not accept ORDERS from anyone."
"Look Quincy whatever bullshit you have take it outside because your DAUGHTER has been raped and you have to accept that so I sagest you take your god-its-all-my-fault-as-usual crap outside and deal with it there, because I or any of us in this room will" Her voice got higher and higher. She had enough of this day. She was through with arguing and the last thing she needed is Tommy Quincy with his usual crap about how it's his fault as usual. She was tired of that; too many things had happened that day and Jude was physically exhausted.

"Excuse me, Jude" He spat out her name "but I'm not the bad guy here"

"I see you've switched your tactic here, now 'its not my fault, so I'll blame someone else but still blame myself'. Nice. Real nice Quincy."

He stared at her. She had complete control over him and the room went silent. Jude sat back down next to Courtney who was, with Sadie, staring at Jude. No one spoke to Tommy like that. They usually accepted him like he was and just went on as usual after he got it out of his system. No one wanted to get into his bad books but obviously he had crossed Jude, she would not take him like everyone else did. She had to put him into his rightful place and everyone could see she about had enough of his nonsense.

"Hi daddy" Courtney said quietly. She stood up and hugged him. He held her tight. Jude looked at both of them and went outside. She felt like that girl, she wished she was that girl. Jude told herself she had to get a grip.

"Jude?" Sadie said.

"Yes Sades. Um… tell Courtney I'll see her later. I'm going to go back to the hotel."
"Okay. But I would still like to well," Sadie laughed " have dinner with you"

"I missed you, you know that right" Jude hugged Sadie and began crying.

"Seriously Jude, If you are going to cry every time I hug you then you can forget about hugging me."

Jude laughed

"I know and I noticed that rather cute baby that Kwest was holding"

"Baby Jude."
Jude began crying again

"Now I can't speak to you with ought you crying?"

"You named your baby after a song?" Jude chuckled.

"God. No I named that beautiful baby girl after you." Sadie smiled.

"Well since I'm an auntie I would like to meet her."

"Tomorrow, remember our usual café? 2.30? And you better not be late"

"Okay sis 2.30 sharp."

"Bye"

-x-x-x-

Inside Jude's room she quickly undressed out of her blood stained dress and went to have a very long bath.

She remembered Tommy and how he looked. He still wore his leather jacket but this one was new. She also noticed how muscly he got. His white t-shirt hugging every bicep that was visible through that tiny gap in the leather jacket. He got older but in a good way, there was that mystery air around him. His hair styled perfectly. Her heart began to break into tiny little pieces.

-x-x-x-

It was midnight and Tommy and his daughter came back home. She had recovered, or at least she wanted him to believe she had. Tommy sat down on the family couch and waited till he could here Courtney settle down.

He thought about Jude. She had gotten much thinner and he wasn't expecting to see her in the circumstances. She was very pretty. Her dress, which came down mid-thigh, hugged her body in the right places, making her irresistible. He noticed the blood stains on the dress and he guessed that they were from Courtney, thinking of that he wanted to stand up and kill the guy responsible for the attack. Apparently Jude punched the guy, which made Tommy smile. He couldn't get her very angry face out of his mind. She seemed so fed up and like she didn't have any feeling at all. He wasn't used to being shouted at and he sure wasn't used to being shouted at by Jude. His heart crashed into little tiny pieces again and again when he thought about what she had said "god-its-all-my-fault-as-usual crap" her words echoed his mind. Tommy knew Jude was angry with him. He only hoped she could forgive him. Just then the phone rang.

"Hello"

"Late night?"

"Yer."

"Well I couldn't sleep and though I really don't want to do this but I think I can not do it."

He chuckled

"Quit it Quincy I'm trying here. I want to see Courtney and somehow I doubt your fathering skills." She told him matter of factly.

"My fathering skills are fine Jude." He said rather annoyed.

"Have you been up to her room since you've come home?"

"No"

"Have you seen if she needs anything?"

"No"

"Have you checked if she's alive?" she said smiling, even though he couldn't see her smile

"I know she's alive. I'm not stupid."

"That's a matter of opinion, one you would be hurt to hear"

"Whatever" he said, realising that he had been sitting there thinking about her.

"Been thinking about me?" she asked as if reading his mind.

"Well…"

"Thought so." She stated.

"So do you still want to see Courtney?" he asked.

"Just because I happen to be on your mind doesn't mean it stops me from seeing Courtney." She told him quite annoyed.

"Who said you were on my mind. I was thinking I was more your hot topic subject"

"In your dreams"

"I think I am in yours" he couldn't help but be satisfied by annoying her.

"Well if you want to hear about my dreams that I suggest that we discuss it over coffee. " she said coldly.

"I'd love to, maybe we could make it a date"
"I'll pass on the date but I'll take the coffee."

"When?"

"How bout now?"

"Now?"

"Well I want to see Courtney, at least make sure she's alive"

"Its 12 o'clock"

"I can handle late nights Quincy and anyway I am dieing for that coffee of yours"

"Yer just how you like it"

"Yes" she said sadly, remembering that she gave him a huge lecture after he made her cat's piss. It was the worst coffee she had ever tasted.

"Well fine than I'll be expecting you then"

And then she hung up, not sure of what she had gotten herself into.