Thanks again for the reviews - Keep them coming. Okay, this chapter is a bit fluffy at times (hey, that's okay - right?) but it doesn't end that way. I hope you like it. :)
The party was great. There were so many people there. I thought there would no way to meet anyone but I was wrong about that. The party really was designed so you could have fun with your friends, drinking and snacking, but it also provided plenty of opportunities to mingle and talk.
I met tons of Tobias's friends. It seems like he knows everyone. I walked around with him, hand in hand, as he introduced me to everyone. "Have you met my girlfriend, Tris?" Just hearing those words roll out of his mouth repeatedly throughout the night, made my heart flutter. Since I had scored so well in my training class, it seemed as if most people at least knew who I was by sight. Some wanted to talk to me about the training and asked me some questions about what I was going to do now that training was over. Since I don't really know, I just made small talk and some suggested jobs I might enjoy. We have to pick them soon.
As the night went on, more and more alcohol came out. No one can accuse the Dauntless of not being able to hold their alcohol. I had never imagined that people could drink so much. Christina decided to start "training her body" by getting really drunk. Will had to take her home before the party was even close to finishing. I didn't drink too much. I was having too much fun to ruin it by acting crazy. Besides, Tobias was drinking enough for the both of us. He and his friends played some drinking games and I was the referee a few different times. That was fun. They were all having fun and just seemed to enjoy this time together. Tobias kept me pretty close. I didn't want to get in the way of him and his friends but he always insisted that I be close by and while I wasn't drinking as much as they were, I was still participating in their activities so I didn't feel like I was just sitting there watching the action.
As I lay in bed thinking back on the previous night, I realize that my favorite part of the whole thing was as Tobias and I were walking back to our place. He had been drinking quite a bit and wasn't walking as well as he normally does, but it wasn't awful. "This has been my favorite party, by far." He said as we rounded the last corner.
"Why?"
"Because, I get to go home with you." I couldn't help the grin that spread across my face after hearing his endearing line and seeing the sheepish look on his face. "The last time I was at a party, you couldn't be there because of training. I didn't really have fun."
I opened our door and Tobias flopped down on the bed. "I'll just be a minute" I said as I moved into the bathroom to get ready for bed. When I came out, Tobias hadn't moved from the position he fell in. His shoes were still on, he was in all of his clothes and he was quietly snoring. I managed to get his shoes off but knew that was the best I was going to do. I grabbed another blanket from the closet and laid that on top of him so we wouldn't get cold. I gave him a kiss on the cheek and I joined him in a night of sleep.
I woke up as my stomach growled loudly. I opened my eyes and could still see Tobias asleep in his clothes. I looked at the clock and it said 9 am. I decided to get up and go get some breakfast for both of us and bring it back. I'm not sure how long Tobias will sleep.
I quietly get ready so I don't wake him up. I grab some muffins, and while he doesn't usually drink it, I also grabbed some coffee. There weren't very many people at breakfast. Everyone must still be sleeping.
When I get back to the apartment, I can see that Tobias has stirred. He looks up at me and smiles when he sees that I have food.
"I'm sorry I woke up you. I tried to be really quite. I got us some food. I didn't know how long you were going to sleep."
"You didn't wake me up. I didn't feel you in bed. I figured you would have been hungry. I do plan on going back to sleep, though." He rubs his eyes as he explains this to me.
I hand him a muffin and his coffee and he eats. "Thanks for bringing me food again. If I knew food delivery came with having a girlfriend, I might have gotten one sooner than this." He laughs as he moves his hand away from the slap I just sent his way. "Tris, why do I have all of my clothes on?"
"When we got in last night you fell right asleep. I was lucky I got your shoes off of you. I couldn't lift you to get the rest."
"So, you wanted to take my clothes off last night? That's what I'm hearing, right?" A devilish grin spreads across his face.
I blush red, hit him full on the arm this time and say "oh, shut up." He is definitely in a playful mood.
After we get done eating, he takes his party clothes off, puts on lounging clothes and gets back in bed. I crawl in next to him. "I didn't think you were tired," he said.
"I'm not but I'll spend the morning with you in bed, if you want."
"That's exactly what I want." He smiles and kisses me on the forehead, then on my nose and finally on my mouth. "Do you want to do something later? My friends and I always get together the day after the party and just sit around and talk some. It's no big deal but we have done it since we went through training together. I would love it if you were there."
"That sounds great."
"Okay, we can't sleep past two. Maybe we should set an alarm."
"No, I'll make sure you're up. Go back to sleep." I kiss him as he drifts off for a second time.
As Tobias sleeps, I just lay there in his arms. I could be doing things around the apartment, but I like this feeling too much to move. Besides, I'm afraid if I get up, he will feel my absence and wake up. I don't know how he is going to make it to work tomorrow. I let my mind wander to all of the jobs I could have. I need to decide because we start our training this week. I don't feel too much pressure because in Dauntless, you can change jobs if you want. Tobias and his friends were talking last night and a few of them have moved around to try out a few different jobs since they have become members. You go through the training period of the job and then work three months. After that, you can transfer to something else. The leaders want everyone to do something that they like so they allow for time to figure it out. I like this idea but I don't even know where to start. I had been thinking of trying out tattooing. Then again, I could also help with the training. There are tons of options; I just have to pick one.
At two, I make sure Tobias is up. He is pretty slow to get dressed. It must be the effects of all the drinking from last night. Though I will admit, he isn't as bad off as I thought he would be. We don't leave the apartment until a little after three.
As we walk out the door, I realize I have no idea where we are going. "Where are we going and what are we doing?"
"First, we are going to get some food. I'm starving. We also have to have some packed for us. We won't be coming back in time for dinner."
We grab some food, eat leisurely and Tobias gets a bag of food to take with us. There are more people eating now but some of them look like they have seen better days. Perhaps some people do have trouble holding their alcohol.
As we climb the stairs to head to the train, Tobias grabs my hand, entwines our fingers, and kisses the back of my hand. He seems to be in a really good mood today. That's rather impressive seeing as he was drunk and stayed out really late. "You seem to be in a good mood today. I thought you would be cranky when you woke up after the party."
He chuckles then says, "I am in a good mood. That was the best party, I got to have you by my side and we are about to have even more fun. And did I mention that I get to do all of this with you? I don't think I mentioned that before." He laughs and pulls me into an embrace.
"Actually, I think you mentioned it once or twice. Feel free to keep saying it though, if it makes you feel better."
When we get to where we are going, I look around a bit confused. We are near the Ferris Wheel but there doesn't seem to be much else around. "What are we doing here?"
"Well, just around this corner over here, we will probably find some of the group already."
Sure enough, as we walk past a group of trees, we are greeted by six other people. I met them all last night but I don't remember all of their names. There is a large circle in the middle of the clearing with rocks laid in the ground to make a sort of pit. Tobias puts our food down and grabs my hand and leads me away towards the trees. "What are we doing?"
"You know, for such a little thing, you ask a lot of questions." He chuckles at his joke. "We are gathering sticks for the fire. We have a big bonfire and just hang out. Really, it's nothing special but we do it after the big parties. I guess it's kind of our own party."
We all spend the next hour or so collecting wood for the fire. We have a pretty substantial pile and everyone else has arrived. Tobias and a few of the guys start working on the fire and the rest of us get our food out and get ready to eat. We all sit around each other in a sort of circle. There are some couples here but some people are just on their own.
After the fire is roaring, everyone sits down to eat. Tobias sits behind me so I am between his legs. As we are all eating, the stories begin. I am transported back to a time with Tobias was younger, timid and in training. They take turns telling stories about different things that happened during training and after training. Everyone laughs and listens to the stories. Periodically, Tobias leans in, nuzzles my neck and kisses my shoulder. It feels wonderful. I love seeing him so natural with his friends like this. It also makes me feel special because I am here with him.
It's after one of these kisses that a guy across from us says, "I remember when Four started pining for Tris." Everyone started laughing and I could feel my cheeks start to burn. "I caught him staring at her during lunch one day so I asked him why he was staring at her. He shrugged his shoulders, obviously taken back because I had caught him, and just said 'there's just something about her.' I caught him staring at her a few more times too." Everyone starts laughing.
"Oh shut up. It wasn't that bad." Tobias chuckles and I can tell he is a bit embarrassed by this.
At the same time, everyone there said, "yes, it was that bad." We all started laughing and Tobias buried his head in my neck as he laughed along, as well.
We stayed out there like this for hours. It was great. I know they all like it because they don't have to worry about responsibilities or being anywhere and they can just relax together. As we head back to the train, I take Tobias's hand in mine and say, "This was great. I'm so glad I came with you today."
"I'm glad you came too. It's a nice break from work and life."
As we enter our apartment, I am feeling really happy and content. I liked hearing stories about Tobias when he was younger and about how he would get caught staring at me while I was in training. The idea that he wanted to be with me as much as I wanted to be with him is nice. He comes up from behind me and wraps his arms around my waste. He buries his head in my hair. "Are you tired?" he asked.
"No, not really." As I turn around to face him, he has an odd look on his face. Before I can say anything about it, he starts kissing me. I love the feel of being in Tobias's arms and kissing him is one of my favorite things. We continue to make out for what seems like forever. It feels good. I feel wanted and safe in his arms. We make our way to the bed and continue our kissing. I'm not thinking of anything else until he starts to kiss my neck. This sends a shiver down my spine. It's not a shiver of fear though. I like this too much to be afraid. I'm thinking about how good this feels and then I feel his hand start trailing up the inside of my shirt.
I freeze. I don't just stop kissing him, my whole body goes rigid and my eyes pop open. He leaves his hand where it is and pulls back to look at me.
"I thought you might react this way," he says as a sheepish smile crosses his face. "What are you feeling?"
I am too stunned to say anything. He knew I would probably react this way and he did it anyway? I feel like I have been ambushed a bit. I simply stare at him wide eyed. I realize that my hands are both on his chest as if I was preparing to push him away.
"Tris, what were you feeling before I moved my hand?" He has a look of concern on his face as he asks this but there is also a look of curiosity as well.
I realize that I just can't take this anymore. As I push him away, I say, "I can't. I have to go." I stand up and head towards the door.
Tobias jumps off the bed and walks toward me. "Tris, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to upset you."
"I just need some air and time to think." As I open the door to leave I realize how this looks. It looks like I am walking out on him and leaving him alone. His nightmare floods my mind and his reaction that next day makes me stop in my tracks. I slowly turn around to face him. "I'm not leaving. I will be back, okay? I just need some space. I promise I will be back in a little while."
"You aren't leaving me? I could go with you." He sounds desperate.
"No, I'll be back." I try to smile at him to give him some reassurance. Before I realize it, I am out the door, walking away from Tobias and our apartment.
