A/n: Set after Changing Channels. Plus a fan vid to go a long with my Our Lives on the Screen series. Here's the link, just take out the spaces:
w w w . youtube . c o m /watch?v=0l7kfmOSLb8
"So go, go away, just go, run away.
But where did you run to? And where did you hide?
Go find another way, price you pay."
- Disenchanted, My Chemical Romance
Dear Dean,
I've been on Earth for a while. Long enough to recognize when I have a good thing going. Well, had thanks to you two, but that's beside the point. I spent a lot of time dishing out just desserts, always dealing with the less brighter side of humanity. It's been few and far in between that I've dealt with people who didn't have it coming in some way or another. Then you Winchester's showed up and pretty much ignored any set rules and even starting making up some of your own. I'd be a liar if I said that I don't admire that. So yeah, I might have forgotten that there are a lot of people out there who are worth a lot more than what I've been seeing. And maybe, maybe you and your brother helped me remember that.
I ran. When the going got tough, I got going. I'm not proud of it and maybe it wasn't the best choice, but it's what I did. I love my brothers, all of them. Even Castiel, despite his freakish social awkwardness (and his patented "I'm-not-angry-just-disappointed" look). So when this whole mess started, I didn't want to have anything to do with it. I didn't want to be pulled in to a fight that brought nothing but pain. And yeah, I don't want to have to be the one to tell my brothers to suck it up and deal.
It isn't often I say this, Dean. So savor it. You were right. Maybe I am afraid to stand up to my family. And maybe I should be. There ain't any rules against it, but don't mean I shouldn't at least try to do the right thing. Even if it means ruffling a few feathers, possibly literally in this case.
I guess it wouldn't hurt for me to be a bit more helpful, after all, I do owe you for not leaving me in that warehouse, and I repay my debts. Knowing your recent run of luck, I won't even have to wait that long. You and Sam attract more trouble than the trouble's worth. Just do us both a favor and try not to get yourselves or my little bro killed.
- Gabriel/The Trickster/Loki/A-lot-of-other-names-that's-probably-best-you-don't-know