DISCLAIMER: I DON'T OWN BISCO HATORI'S WORK. THIS ENTIRE STORY IS PURELY FANFICTION AND NONCANNON.

The winter exams were piling up on us and it took me a while to realize it was already three months since I first met Andou. We have been dating for two months as well and the thought of being together with him this long gave me a warm feeling. It was not yet at the stage where I took everything for granted, in fact, I treasured a very moment of my life during this time.

I wondered if it was a phase or if I just became this type of person. This type of person was Haruhi now, and it made me feel content with my life at the moment.

"Haruhi, are you going to be able to make it to the Christmas ball?" Hikaru asked after class. Hikaru and Kaoru were in the same class as me and sat next to me. They traded their seats to sit specifically next to me. At first I did not mind, since they were my only friends. But if Andou came to school more often, I would have loved to sit next to him.

"Most likely, but I signed up to help out with the supplementary lessons." I mentioned. Since I was an honor student, the teachers always asked if I had time to be extra help for the students who failed the winter exams. I accepted it at first, but for some reason I felt a little weary about it. I would have not minded going to the Winter ball since it was an event where we would all be together. I would be hosting however, but the hosts were my friends and I treasured our time together.

"Boring~" Kaoru chimed in after turning in his work. "Make sure you make it on time-"

"Or else." Hikaru added in.

"Is that a threat?" I chuckled.

"He's here~!"

All the girls' attention was deterred to Andou's arrival. Usually he would show up just to present himself as a student, and then return to take care of Sou-chan. I highly doubt he would stay longer though. I kind of longed for as much time as I spent at school with the twins, with Andou despite that we spend home-time together.

I mentally shake my head. School was for school and not to mingle with your boyfriend. Besides, nobody really knew about us except Mori-senpai and Kyouya-senpai.

Andou arrived with Sou-chan today. He rarely showed up with him which might be why all the girls were extra excited for his arrival. I wasn't the jealous type, but for some reason I felt pride in knowing that I got to see Sou-chan everyday.

That's right.

Sou-chan sees me as his mother now. My heart quenched for a second and a smile escaped me while I was looking at Andou's direction.

"Even Haruhi is moved by Andou's spawn." Hikaru mentions.

"If I get pregnant will you smile for me like that?" Kaoru says.

"Gross." I giggle.

Andou approaches us and as he passes by he pats my head. Andou sits in the back where he would be unnoticed, but with the baby on his back I'm pretty sure he gets attention. From girls mainly.

"Ey Andou. Careful how you touch Haruhi-" Hikaru mentions.

"He's off limits." Kaoru adds.

"I'm noone's property." I add.

The girls react to us as if they got to witness one of our hosting sessions. Usually it's a small group of girls in our class who are actually guests at the club, but Andou attracted other classes as well.

"Andou are you going to the ball?" A girl asks.

Andou is feeding Sou-chan with a bottle.

"Nah."

"Awe~ come on~! Wouldn't it be amazing if we got to dance with Andou?"

"Yes! I want to dance with a cute Sou-chan in a mini tux~!"

"KAWAII!"

A giggle. If Andou did go to the ball, he would take a lot of attention. Usually Tamaki and Kyouya get the most attention during events, but if Andou showed up to one he'd sure get more ratings than Tamaki. I felt almost amused to see Tamaki upset about it.

"No way!" Hikaru shouts.

"No delinquents allowed!" Kaoru adds. They make an x with their hands.

"You guys are just jealous." Andou smirks soothing Sou-chan who stifled from the shouts.

"I think I'll go if Andou goes…" I say under my breath with a smile. It would be great if everyone was together.

Hikaru is the only one to hear my muffled voice.

Dad hadn't talked to me since last night when Sou-chan addressed me as his mother. He got called in to work soon after Andou left, and he left out somewhere that morning I woke up for school.

I began to wonder if my dad would ever accept Andou or even Sou-chan. He doesn't like the idea of me taking on the responsibility of a mother at such a young age. But honestly, since mom passed away, I don't think I ever cared for my youth. I was always trying to grow up fast so I could take care of both me and my dad. And now, I was dating a delinquent with a baby, and became the child's mother.

My father sent me a text, which meant he wasn't coming home tonight. So I decided to make dinner for him anyways just in case he does. But that same day Andou didn't mention whether he wasn't coming or not. Since him and I always came home together the days he'd come to school, this time he went off before me when I stayed to talk to a teacher. So I wonder if he was going to show up like the days he didn't come to school and he would casually show up.

Today he didn't call or text where he went off to.

I became a little impatient about it even though it wasn't anything serious or to worry about. Was it motherly instincts? Jealousy? Or teenage bittersweet longing to see the person you love. Maybe I was just lonely today since no one was around.

Someone knocked on my door and I quickly stood up thinking it would be Andou or my dad.

"Hi Haruhi~!"

It was Mika.

"Hi. What's up?" I ask her to come in.

"Nah, it's okay I just came to invite you somewhere!" She took a pamphlet from her purse. "Usually on Christmas young families like us can't afford anything big or even Santa Claus for the children. The daycare is hosting an event where we'll all show up like a family Christmas party. There will be lots of fun things for the kids and there will even be a Santa Claus~!"

She offered me the pamphlet. "Haruhi, I know it's a big step to be a mother so suddenly, but I learned that no matter what happens fate has a reason for making our lives the way they become. I wouldn't trade my daughter for the world!"

I grip the pamphlet.

"Make sure to let Andou-kun know~! I'm really happy you're still an honor student even after birthing Sou-chan. It must have been hard but you're like super mom and even though mine was earlier I look up to you as a mother!"

I nod and Mika says goodbye to me as she leaves. I hadn't shut the door yet before my knees give out.

I felt really really sad.

I thought I would get lost, but after asking for directions, I ventured deep into Shibuya to find the Penthouse where Andou is supposed to be living in. I took 4 trains to get here and a bus. Does Andou usually travel this much to get to school? Of course, now I kind of understand why he barely shows up. Maybe he wouldn't be much of a delinquent if he went to a school closer.

"Excuse me, I'm looking for Apartment 504." I ask.

"Are you on the visitors list?"

"Huh?"

"Floors 400 and above are Private Penthouse suites with very high security. We get a lot of fans stalking celebrities here so the security is very high." She mentions.

"Um," I was scrambling for words. What was I doing here? If Andou didn't want to show me where he lives it must have been because of the high security. I felt like a flea in a butterfly's den. Was I really that lonely?

"Where are the security gaurds?" A celebrity whit sunglasses asks as he walks in. "I thought you didn't let anyone in that easily?"

The receptionist replies. "I'm sorry ma'am I might have to ask you to leave unless you present to me a visitor's pass."

"But I don't have one…"

"Look, who's autograph do you want? Mine? Or Lee Huang?" He says now in my space like he was allowed to the same way his fans must invade his.

"I don't even know who you are." I tell him.

He gives me an insulted look.

"Can you please send some more sheets to room 504? I just got a call about an accident."

Sheets? Sou-chan's diaper must have leaked. Honestly, unless I'm around he always forgets to change his diaper before he puts him to nap.

"Excuse me! I can take them." I say trying to grab the extra sheets.

"No way! She doesn't work here! She's someone's deranged fan who obviously doesn't listen to good music." The man tries to push me towards the door.

"Haruhi?"

I turn around to see Honey-senpais standing across the lobby with a female child the same size as him.

"Honey-senpai!" I shout unhanding myself from the deranged celebrity.

"You know this person?" The security gaurds that must have been called sometime inbetween say as they arrive.

"Yeah! She's my guest!"

I take a deep sigh. "Thanks Honey-senpai. Don't you live in a mansion?"

"I came to visit Mina! She's my baby cousin." He said happily.

"Nice to meet you. My name is Minata Asahina. I'm known as Mina, I'm a child actress." She says very politely.

"I thought I saw you in a PSA about safety after that movie you were in about child-kidnapping." I say a little starstruck. We only had three channels that didn't cost money to order and one of them were family-oriented movies. Usually that channel was for middle-aged parents and the rest of the family, but kids now a days are interested in anime and idols.

"Yeah, I came to invite her to the Christmas ball! "

That's right. Even Mina-chan was going to show up to the ball. The more I heard about the ball the more jittery I felt for it's arrival.

"Why are you here Haruhi? I never thought to see you around here or even in here."

I wonder if Mori-senpai knew about Andou and I, if Honey-senpai would happen to know about us as well. Maybe Mori-senpai actually gossips to Honey-senpai about everyday things.

"I came to visit someone but I had no idea the type of place this was." I shrug.

"Did they forget to give u a visitor's pass or put you on the list?" He asks tilting his head.

"I'll put you on mine since you are nii-chan's friend." Mina-chan mentioned.

"Oh thank you, you don't have to." I mention. I wonder what I would be doing showing up at an 8 year old child star's home.

"Yeah, so even if your friend forgets again, you just need a pass to be allowed in the elevators. Then you can meet anyone here." She says innocently.

"We forge a lot of Mina's fans passes to see her."

That's really cute but kind of dangerous for her.

"Thank you." I bow to them as I head for the elevator.

"Your welcome~! Say hi to Andou for me!" Honey-senpai giggle as they turn and disappear out of my sight.

He knew this whole time I came to see Andou. But who else would I come to see here? Andou was a host and a classmate so of course I would come to see him unless I really was someone's deranged fan. It probably wasn't that he knew about us having a type of relationship.

I walked casually until I reached his apartment door.

I found myself scrambling for the courage to knock on his door. I was definitely an unwanted visitor if I wasn't on his visitation list. I wasn't conscious when I rang the doorbell and I felt myself jerk my hand back in realization.

I expected to hear his voice on the intercom when the door opened before me.

"Hello?"

The person before me wasn't Andou. It was a celebrity of some sort because she was extremely pretty. She was wearing a tight black dress as if she just finished an event and decided to lounge. She was lounging in Andou's home though. Who was she? Why was she here?

"Um- I-"

She scoffed silently. "Andou has fans?"

"I-is he home?" I say not looking her in her eyes.

"He's in the shower. Who are you?"

"Ha-Haruhi.. Fu-"

I could begin to hear Sou-chan's wails before I realized that I was now fully conscious of reality. As if I had returned from a dimension where I was trying to hide from reality. I felt myself spring into the apartment before I reached Sou-chan who laying on the table, butt bare, and poo sprayed around.

"W-what happened-"

"That kid can't change his own child's diaper."

She could have helped. Andou usually calls me before he changes Sou-chan's diaper on his own, because he always forgets the cautions that he might still be pooping. He also forgets that he's supposed to clean him before he removes the diaper.

I finally manage to clean Sou-chan up and rap him with the extra sheets the sent up. "He ran out of diapers…"

"Did he hire you to babysit that brat?"

"N-no.."

"Then who are you?"

"Who are you?" Sou-chan is finally soothed and finished crying.

"I'm Nana, a model and actress? You honestly don't know?"

"No."

"Ugh, you're one of those girls. I could already tell from your hair."

"How do you know Andou?"

"He's my rendezvous. Good thing I haven't had a scandal with him, but honestly this baby crap is kind of a turn off." She starts lighting a cigarette.

"Do that outside that's bad for him!" I shout at her.

She scoffs. "Whatever, I gotta go. Tell that guy he can just ask someone to send my clothes to my apartment." She starts putting her heels on and heads for the door. "I leave that crap to you." She snickers.

I managed to atleast clean up the poop that was scattered around. The smell was still lingering around and it made me wonder if it was the poo or the dirty kitchen with leftover food laying around. I decide to atleast throw it away.

"She actually shut you up, huh."

Andou finally came out of the shower to see me taking out the dirty sheets in a plastic bag.

"What are you doing here?"

"You could have come over today, and you probably wouldn't have had trouble." I grip the bag. "Honestly you're so reckless when it comes to changing his diaper." I felt my voice changing. "Sou-chan has diarrhea, I think we need to change the type of powdered of milk he is using. Maybe…if I had breast milk i-it wouldn't be a problem..he's gonna get sick at this rate-"

"Haruhi."

"Maybe he has a fever." I touch his head. "W-we need to make sure we change the powder soon-"

"Haruhi!"

Andou had his arms around me. His bare humid arms were gripping me from behind to shut me up probably. Andou's smell was of his hair shampoo and products, and his recently applied deodorant. I felt it overwhelming and my crocodile tears were no longer themselves as they dripped down my crumpled up face. It was a good thing he was behind me because it would be emberassing if he saw my facial expression.

Why is this all I can think of while I'm crying?

"Let's break up."

His voice echoed through my ears as if they wanted to force themselves into my conscience. They were like bullets and I didn't want them to strike me. But they did and he said them.

"I'm sorry."

That was all he could say?

"T-take..him to the doctor…" I felt myself wrap my hands around Sou-chan unconsciously.

"Haruhi."

"Please.. I don't want him *hic* to get a fever…"

Andou took him from my arms. "I'll take you home."

We were reaching the fourth station when I finally talk.

"Is she on your visitor's list?"

"She's an intruder."

"And I'm a deranged fan." I retort.

The train approaches when I finally mention. "My parents were my age when they got together. Some parents just don't want their children to follow their footsteps."

"You should listen to them."

"Did you follow yours?"

Andou doesn't reply but just looks at me.

"Come to the ball, atleast." I say as I board the train.

I start waving bye to him, and he just lifts his hand as well as Sou-chan, and just like that the train starts going. They start disappearing in the distance and the loneliness overfills me more than the sadness that follows. The sadness that strangled me to cry it out.

The sadness that I thought was just a longing for something. I scrambled through my purse to look at the pamphlet, only to not be able to find it. Despite that I brought it to show it to Andou. It must have fallen when I leaped to Sou-chan's aid.

The sadness was still strangling me.

It was now that I realized I didn't just have the feelings of first love for Souhei Andou. But that I have also fallen in love with his child. I loved him so much. So much that I wanted everything that Mika had told me to be true.

I was a teenager who actually yearned to be 16 and pregnant.

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