A/N: Well, be happy reviews cheer me up cuz today has not been my day. I….HATE….SCHOOL! Mrs Savoy has given us SOOOO much homework AND a test tomorrow, then Mr ogle gave us his stupid hard vocab words and made us write an essay and gave us a worksheet for h/w. Then we had to play hockey in gym. Sorry to anyone who likes hockey, but it is NOT my sport. (actually no sport is my sport cuz I'm not athletic whatsoever) and then we had to march…outside…in 95 degree weather. God, I hate school! But ya'll make it so much better, so thanks cuz now I'm happy and I've been coming up with new characters/plots for future stuff for when I need it and it's just cuz you people reviewed so much. -
Thank you to everyone who reviewed and made my happy! Yay happiness! And see, if you review, you're rewarded cuz now I can give you pizza and candy and ice cream and cookies and all the other fun junk food you people like (and me too, so get it before it's gone!) :holds out large platter: Come on, help yourselves!
EDIT (8/5/08): This chapter edited fairly easily. I didn't change much of the wording scheme at all. I really only changed the tense, as most of this one had previously been in past. I took out the part about Inuyasha crying because it seemed too cheesy and lame, and I also tried to make it seem as though Kagome had more trouble remembering the translation to "Blue Flow", since I did say she hadn't repeated the translation in six years. If it seems too strange, let me know and I'll take it out again.
DISCLAIMER: I don't own Inuyasha, so don't sue me. Not that I could give you anything cuz I'm totally broke since I spend all my money on jewelry and manga the day that I get it…haha. The song "Blue Flow" is the credit song for Haibone Renmei which also does not belong to me. I give full credit to the numerous anime people, artists, and designers who created it. The translation to the song, which is also posted in this chapter, is the translation from the DVDs. The opening song is "-Inori- You Raise Me Up" from the anime Romeo x Juliet. The artist is LENA PARK and not me. The translation of it (shown at the end of the chapter) was done by DarkMirage on anime lyrics . com, so please don't review with something like "you spelled this wrong" or "you translated that wrong". I don't know much Japanese yet, so I am unfortunately unable to tell.
urunda hitomi no oku ni
kawaranu kimi no sugata
"doko made sekai wa tsudzuku no"
todaeta hibi no kotoba
kogoeru arashi no yoru mo
mada minu kimi e tsudzuku
oshiete umi wataru kaze
inori wa toki wo koeru
kasunda chihei no mukou ni
nemureru hoshi no souwa
"akenai yoru wa nai yo" to
ano hi no tsumi ga warau
furueru kimi wo dakiyose
todokanu kokuu wo aogu
kikoeru yami terasu kane
kimi eto michi wa tooku
Forget Me Not
Chapter 4
Back to Kagome's POV
As I woke up, the first thing I notice is that I'm lying on the ground. And my head really hurts. Not like a cold headache either, oh no. It's more like a throbbing pain. For a brief moment, I wonder why. But as I remember what happened, I realize that I'm not covered in blood anymore. Regardless of my state of being, however, I find I have only one thought.
'Did it really happen? Did I really go through the well?'
There's only one way to find out…
I open my eyes quickly. Maybe a little too quickly, I note as the world spins around me. But after a couple seconds, I am able to make out someone standing over me. Someone with silvery white hair and…and…dog ears…
"Inuyasha!"
I sit bolt upright and within seconds I've thrown my arms around him, hugging him tighter than I ever remembered doing before.
"Inuyasha!"
I want to laugh and cry and smile all at the same time, which, I figure, might be possible, but is probably kinda hard to do. So I choose cry to begin with.
"I thought I'd never see you again!"
He only hugged me back, one hand around my waist and the other holding my head into his haiori.
Suddenly, I feel someone tugging on what I realize is Kikyo's old miko clothing. My others must have been ruined. But I push that thought away from my mind as I saw Sango, still in her slightly torn nightshirt. She looks sleepy, though she's smiling.
"Mommy, why didn't you tell me the stories were about you?"
I look down at her innocent little face and smile.
"Because Mommy was trying to forget. But it wasn't working."
"Wait, you wanted to forget?" Inuyasha was looking at me questioningly.
"Well, I thought you'd use the jewel to become full demon so there was no point in me remembering. If I were to ever find out that you had used it and my hopes said you hadn't, my heart would break. Not like it wasn't already broken, though."
"Why did you leave if it meant so much to you?"
"I couldn't stand to see everyone forget about me. My job was done and no one else needed me."
"Now you know that's not…" Suddenly, he was interrupted.
"Mommy?" I look down at Sango again. "Can you sing me the song, please? You said you would if Daddy wouldn't."
"I guess I can this once." I close my eyes and try to think of the words that seem so far away to me.
"Naze wasuretai no
Nee omoidashite
Atatakai hoho ni furu
Namida no negai
Naze furue nagara
Ima motome auno
Kimi dake o nando demo
Dakishime tai kara
Aoi hoshi no umi
Namima hi tadayou hane
Kietevuku kanashimi wa
Ashita eno inori nano
Blue flow."
She smiles.
"You sing good."
I laugh silently as she yawns and lies down. It's not long before she's asleep.
"It's pretty. What does it mean?" (Note: let's pretend Inuyasha doesn't know Japanese for right now. It is an English fic after all.)
I look up at him. I hadn't told the meaning to anyone except for Hojo and Sango. And that was six years ago. But, I would tell him if I could remember…
"Well, it's been a while…but I might be able to remember…
"Why do you want to forget?
Please try to remember
Wishes of tears that pour
On your warm cheeks
Why do you want each other now?
"Umm…oh, that's right.
"Even when you are shaking
Just want to hold you
Over and over again
The ocean of the big blue planet
The feathers drifting in the wave
The sorrow that is fading away
Is a prayer for tomorrow
Blue flow."
Oh great, now I'm crying again. It's been so long since I've said those words. It seems unreal to say it now, and to Inuyasha, no less. He looks at me, his gaze saddened, and lifts me onto his lap with ease. He lets me cry for a few minutes, and then…
"Why did you leave?"
"I thought you'd become a full demon. I didn't want to leave, but I felt I had to."
"If you'd stayed a few seconds more I would have told you that I changed my mind. I didn't want the jewel any more."
I looked away. "But you still wanted me gone. You never came back for me. But I know what you're thinking and I understand. I was just a jewel detector and nothing more. I don't belong here any more. I should just go back home forever and try to forget."
I start crying harder and try to get up, but I find he won't let me. He grabs my chin and turns my head to where he can look me in the eye.
"No. I let you go last time and I don't plan on making the same stupid mistake twice. I never wanted you gone. There's only one reason I didn't come for you, and that's because I thought you didn't want anything else to do with us. And you were never just a jewel detector, or a copy. I always wanted you here. This is where you belong and you're not going back without me ever again. Hojo won't ever get another chance to hurt you. You're never leaving me again."
It took me a couple seconds to analyze what it was he was trying to say. Maybe I'm not as unimportant to him as I thought.
He just looks at me for a while, his gaze going from sad to almost loving.
"Sango told me how much you missed me. It sounds like she was spying on you. She saw you crying, and in the tree, and looking at pictures, and even wishing on that locket. Oh, and you were right. It does grant wishes." We both smile at that. "She also said that she doesn't think you really love Hojo that much."
"I don't. He's a friend and nothing more."
"But he's you husband…and your daughter's father."
"All just stupid ideas that might help me forget. I thought that if I pretended to love someone else, all my memories and wishes would just go away."
"And of course they didn't." I just shake my head.
"What, you're surprised? You seemed fairly sure that I was this stupid back then."
"You're not stupid and you never were."
"But you said…"
"I never meant it. Not once. I missed you, too. And if it makes you feel any better, I sat by the well every day and wished on that locket. It may have taken ten years, but it worked perfectly. You have no idea how much I've missed you."
We just sit quietly then, snuggling contently. We didn't need any more words.
After a while, he lifts my chin up and looks into my eyes. They bore into my soul, as if looking for something. And then, he bends down slowly to kiss me. I can't believe it, but I don't pull away. This was our first real kiss! Well, it was nothing like before. The kiss deepens and soon, our fingers are tangling in each other's hair and our mouths are open. We break apart only when air becomes a necessity.
His strong arms wrap around me as tightly as is possible. He kisses me again and lies down on the ground, pulling me with him.
For the first time in nearly a decade, I smile a true smile. And I am truly happy as we curl up in each other's embrace and fall asleep, both knowing that we've finally gotten the one thing we want more than anything.
A/N: THE END!!
Oh, come on, I was joking. Joking!! Ok, now be honest—who out there thought it was really over? If you did, it means you don't read my a/n's and review replies cuz I've said like, five times that I have seven chappies done and more coming soon! I've even mentioned some ideas…
Too tired to threaten, so just review ok? Oh, and I let Sesshy and Rin go after I told them that I would never really hurt the poor girl. I mean, they're my fav characters! Why would I hurt them in any way at all? Oh, but Sesshy did agree to give me little demand (the princess thing), but I decided, well, it's so sweet that they're in the castle together and technically Rin is like, 19 cuz of the 10-yr span and all Sesshy has to do to get some alone time is order all his servants out, but he couldn't get me out w/o telling me what he was doing to begin with, so yeah. ;) (yes I like sess/rin. I think it's really sweet. I'm not opposed to any other pairings like sess/kagura or rin/kohaku, but I prefer them to be together cuz it's just so sweet. And anyone who wants to flame me saying it's nasty, think about it. Inu's dad mated with his human mother when he was like, at least 700 and she was probably no older than 20, so it's not that bad…)
Ok, my ranting is done. Hope you enjoyed the chappie, and review riview review! -
"Inori You Raise Me Up" translation
In the depths of my tear-filled eyes,
Is your everlasting beauty.
"How far does the world go?"
Those words from our bygone days.
Even on those freezing, stormy nights,
Though you are still out of sight, I continue on.
Please tell me, ocean-crossing winds,
That my prayers will pass through time.
Beyond the misty horizons,
Stars are fabled to lie.
"Dawn will surely follow every night."
The sins of my past laughs.
I try to embrace you trembling with uncertainty,
But I look up at the empty sky beyond reach.
I hear the chime that illuminates darkness,
Showing me that the path to you is still far.