I apologize for this chapter, I have changed a controversial scene but I do plan to incorporate it later on. Sorry everyone.
Summarized responses:
She wont learn Jinto its too op, her floating is inefficient because it was self taught but it does work on rocky terrain. She can tree hop by swapping to strengthening her legs then switching back to levitating.
She is not in the chunin exams but will have an event to make up for it, her team gets severely wounded because of the continuous and coordinated attacks resulting in physical exhaustion. Remember that her team specializes in stealth and tracking not fighting! Additionally chakra usage and control does not equal stamina, those are two different things.
Her mental instability has to do with her sharingan awakening and usage. After she awakens her mangekyo she will basically go mad from the continuous stream of voices that demand bizarre things from her. So as a result anytime she activates her sharingan she will hear the voices during and afterwards, she will be prescribed medication in the next chapter to help cope with the voices.
After having a debate with my friend I have settled on that she will stay in Konoha for a while but she will eventually fall to madness, she will be both a hero and a villain.
Surprisingly this morning I woke up before Sasuke, What the hell? How I figured he was sleeping still because no one woke me from my sleep, plus I might have walked down the hall to peak into his room. He was indeed still sleeping so I figured i'll wake him after I make something for us to eat.
I have noticed when we had dinner last night that Sasuke was already starting to change how he acts. Sure he still is chatty with me, sort of, and tells me information but I feel like he just doesn't want to talk. The looks he gives me when I go to speak with him, although he means nothing bad I am sure but I just feel insecure, a look of judgment is all I see. Stepping away from these negative thoughts, I went to the kitchen humming in a weak voice.
Why weak you might say?
Well when I wake up I can either be loud and sound normal or be on the quieter side and have the weakest and scratchiest voice ever. Tones will end up dying and my voice will have empty pauses, its like having a miniature version of losing your voice which is scary as fuck! It has happened to me before and it took about a week in a half to two before I could properly speak without my voice just coming out as wheezing noises. Absolutely horrible.
Deciding to test the waters, I figured hell lets see how my memory holds up. I grabbed a bag of flour, a single egg, and salt. Dumping about two to three cups of flour inside the bowl and cracked one egg, mixing it slightly. I then went and put some salt, going on the lighter side just in case. After that was in I went to the sink and turned it on, the water filling the bowl slowly. I would pull it from the water to stir but continued to add more water until the mixture came to kind of a pancake density. I continued to stir it to make sure that all flour bubbles were gone before trying to hunt down our pan. Seriously that thing gets moved to a new place everyday and its a hassle to find. Once I located it I oiled the pan heavily and poured the mixture into small clumps, the clumps turning solid rather quickly allowing me to flip it. I continued this procedure until there was no mixture left and all the clumps looked golden and crispy. I took a test bite, making sure to take a colder one and to my satisfaction they tasted very familiar. I threw my arms into the air and cheered, dancing around in joy. I heard a 'Ahem' from the side, my body freezing to look at the doorway where Sasuke stood in all his sleepy glory.
"Good morning sleeping prince~!" I gave a large grin and clapped my hands, this was a prideful moment for me. Sasuke yawned and scratched at his eye before walking closer to see what I was up to. His expression looked unreadable, is that good?
"What did you do?" He gave me a look of disdain probably thinking I messed up what I was attempting to cook, well sucker I didn't!
"I made what I call poor mans bread!" I clapped again and picked up the plate to shove it near him, gesturing him to take one. He gave another look before grabbing one to nibble on it. He paused after swallowing his first bite, pulling the 'bread' away from him. "So~? How is it?" I asked in excitement.
He stayed quiet a moment before stating, "Terrible." My grin fell immediately and my posture slumped, well talk about shitting on my mood. I heard a small huff and looked at Sasuke, he had a smirk on his face. My eyebrows scrunched in confusion, what was he up to?
"Megumi-chan if you are going to make something like this you need something to add to it, it's too plain." Oh shit that's right! I set the plate down so I could do a face palm, that's the most important thing! I shuffled towards the fridge to pull out a plum flavored jam, Sasuke's face scrunching for a moment. He really doesn't like sweet things. I grabbed a spoon and scooped some out before plopping it onto the bread, spreading it lightly and shoving it towards Sasuke. He shook his head, "I'm not really that hungry." I growled at him.
"Listen here you stick, I got the recipe down in my first try from memory so you better approve it and eat it how it's meant to be!"
"No." That piece of shit, he had another smirk on his face and basically was hinting at for me to make him. Well that's atleast how it felt to me. I folded the 'bread' in half so the jam wouldn't get anything dirty, and got into position. Sasuke's form slightly adjusted in preparation but of course it wouldn't matter hes too fast. I pounced into his direction hoping to tackle him but he moved to the side so I ended up painfully belly flopping on the floor. I groaned out in pain before giving him the stink eye, that douche. He actually didn't even bother to look back to see if I was okay, instead he went and grabbed another plain one to eat. I huffed before deciding to stop screwing around and get to eating so we could leave. I gulped down part of the food and stored the rest into a container with jam on the side, perhaps my teammates will want to try it.
As we walked towards the training grounds I remembered something very crucial, the chunin exams duh! "Hey Sasuke-kun are you gonna be in the chunin exams this month?" Sasuke shrugged, a look of determination running across his expression.
"I better be, I want to test my strength against people like Gaara. What about you?" I grinned, I wanna see Gaara in action too! Talk about awesome!
"Gonna find out in a bit, I hope I am. Imagine if we had to fight each other, I would totally kick your ass!"
Sasuke let out a snort and waved me off, "Yeah right, you wouldn't be able to even land a hit on me." I growled, this asshole thinks he can go against me? Me? I felt fire burn in my eyes, not literally but the determination kind ya know?
"Your on you ass! Don't come begging to me when your on the floor cryin from how badly you got your ass handed to you!" Sasuke shot a smirk in my direction before starting to head to the left, we reached the training grounds and had to reach our specific ones.
"I'll look forward to it." He called out as he walked away, I felt anger boil in my veins. That son of a douche, just you wait Sasuke i'll own you! Actually... Damn I probably should have shot him a warning about the chunin exams, or should I? Orochimaru was crucial for developing Sasuke to his god status that is necessary for taking Madara down, but if he gets the curse mark he will be able to kick my ass then. Gah priorities! I kept walking down the path until I saw my team lurking around at our usual training spot.
"Mornin guys!" I called out with a wave, my excitement creeping back in at the thought of the chunin exams. Yori waved at me, a grin on his features. He was certainly happy.
"Good morning Megumi-chan." Both boys greeted, Takeo shooting a look at Yori before giving me a large grin.
Takeo then leaned forward with his arms behind his back, his form still for a moment. I got closer to put my hand onto his shoulder, "You okay?" Takeo then sprung forward, his clenched fist stretched outwards.
"We will progress as a team! Imagine our upper hand against everyone~! Ah, I am well~, It is excitement Megumi-chan~! " Takeo scratched the back of his head for a moment for causing me concern before starting to fidget with energy again.
"As much as I'd love to agree with you Takeo-san, we have to wait on Masahiro-sensei's word." Yori stated, coming closer to pat Takeo on the shoulder before retreating his hand. Takeo started to grumble out a few words in annoyment before spiking back up with energy.
"There is no reason why we can't continue~! Our team is perfect~! We could defeat anyone who tries!" I was going to comment how that wasn't necessarily true but I was beat.
"Your comment Takeo-chan further validates my reasoning for not allowing you three to participate in the chunin exams." Masahiro-sensei's voice spoke up behind us but we all froze, he was not going to allow us?
My anger from earlier bubbled up, how dare he? "Why can't we go!? We are trained to survive we can fight our teamwork is good so why can't we?" I stomped my foot, I demand answers. I felt a hand on my back, it was Yori and he had a disappointed but accepting look.
"I agree with Megumi-chan. We know how to track and disguise ourselves, additionally we know how to fend off people. We are against genin how difficult can it be?" Takeo spoke up, a glimmer of hope in his eyes.
"If you ducklings are done?" Masahiro-sensei uncrossed his arms before raising his hand to start a count down.
"First, you three are not fully trained in the art of stealth which could easily get you killed. Second, only Takeo-chan knows how to fight decently which can cause problems if Yori-chan or Megumi-chan get taken hostage. Thirdly, you three have low stamina and are too impulsive, you will only get yourselves killed. Lastly you three don't have the maturity and awareness of how important the chunin exams are so I will not register you for this exam. Perhaps for the next one I will but at this current moment you three will only drag each other down and will end up dying as a result. I am concerned for you my little ducklings, you three are like my children."
I sighed in understanding, he was right. Even if majority of the people entered in this specific exam were rather weak to protect the main characters aside from Gaara's team and Orochimaru's team. If we crossed them we would be killed in an instant, in my case I might be captured for the sharingan to awake before having it extracted. A shiver ran down my spine at the thought of that, how horrific.
Yori broke the silence, his voice quiet. "Thank you Masahiro-sensei for withholding us from this exam. We are naive but we will do our best to improve our skills so that you will not need to feel worry over our actions." Takeo and I nodded, determination spreading in our features. I will improve my skills to survive, I will not be captured by Danzo's crew or Orochimaru's. I will become independent and notable, someone to never be crossed.
"Wonderful! I was expecting more resistance to be honest my little ducklings, never mind that let us continue with our day. Today we will work more on our offensive skills, afterwards we will go to retrieve a C-ranked mission." We all made noises in acknowledgment before continuing to our training session.
Everything seemed to be like usual during our session, the boys appreciated the food I brought to munch on (Of course I got teased for it, damn Takeo). We were at the mission center and already picked out a mission that sounded decent. We were going to a village to help deal with their animal issues, they were known to occasionally have bandit issues but it's been months since an occurrence so Masahiro-sensei thinks we are in the clear. We were dismissed to gather our belongings and to pack anything we think is vital, food of course being my main concern. I packed away a ton of dried meats and nutritional bars along with packing a few fruits and vegetables. I made sure I was extra stocked on my weapons, senbon being my favorite, before heading off to go to the gate to meet up with my teammates.
Nothing really notable happened for the few days we traveled aside from me starting me period again, fucking piece of shit body. I figured we reached our destination when we could hear and see little children running around playing tag. They were so little and carefree, I wonder if their parents realize the dangers? We walked through the village, getting stares from the villagers, it was a bit creepy to be honest. Everyone looked on the thinner side and looked very tired, perhaps their problems were really severe. A young man who was standing near a wall suddenly stepped away from it and walked towards us, a friendly smile on his face.
"Hello Konoha-nin, are you here for our request of assistance?" Masahiro-sensei nodded and pulled out the document showing that we indeed agreed to help. "Excellent! My name is Hiroshi Arata and I am this lovely villages leader. Please do come inside we have much to discuss." Arata gestured for us to follow him into the building he was leaning against, the room was kind of cramped with various items littered around. It didn't seem to bother him, perhaps this was normal? We followed him to a cushioned ground and sat down, a table in between us with a map on it.
"I will get right to the point, we are having issues with wolves and bears. Wolves come in through mainly this region," he pointed at the North Eastern side of the woods near the village and dragged his finger down towards the East side. ", they kill our livestock and have hurt a few children that mistook them for dogs. The bears come from all around but mainly from the South and have attacked and killed a few of my people that have gone looking for food or supplies. Please help protect my home and we will forever be in your debt." Masahiro-sensei waved him off before bringing his hand to his chin in thought.
"What attacks happen more frequently? What are the numbers usually?" The man sighed in thought before leaning back.
"They both tend to happen one after another which is why we are in need of assistance. I can't give you an exact amount but there are definitely more than thirty total beasts that threaten my home." Masahiro-sensei nodded and gave a reassuring smile.
"Do not fret Arata-san, we will do everything in our power to protect your home and people. In fact we are rather lucky, my team specializes with hunting and tracking so we shouldn't have a problem, right ducklings?" We nodded in response and waited for directions, Masahiro-sensei taught us to be secretive and quiet during our missions in case someone was observing.
"That.. That's a miracle thank you.. Ah I never did ask what are your names?" Arata's form and expression relaxed, his people were finally going to be safe again.
"Do not worry about it Arata-san, that is what we are here for. I am Makoto (Masahiro) and these are my students, Juro (Yori), Emi (Megumi), and Ken (Takeo). I must ask about our living accommodations, my team is rather drained from the trip." The man let out a breath of air before shaking his head.
"I apologize, I will take you to where you will reside for now, is one room together alright?" Masahiro-sensei responded with yes, we were then lead to a home a few streets away.
The house looked more like a shack and seemed to be in slightly questionable condition. Takeo muttered a few words under his breath about how everything looked worn down and old. Masahiro-sensei glanced at Takeo with a cold look to which Takeo straightened up and shushed up. Masahiro-sensei could be really scary sometimes. I nudged Takeo's arm once Masahiro-sensei turned around to speak with Arata and gave a small smile, I agreed with him. Takeo stuck his tongue out with a grin before going poker faced again. Once we got inside Arata left us, he requested we work as soon as possible before leaving.
Masahiro-sensei waited a minute before speaking, a sharp look bouncing between Takeo and me. I winced, he caught what I did? "What did I tell you two?" Masahiro-sensei snapped, his brows scrunching together. "Well?" He tapped his foot loudly waiting for either Takeo or me to speak up.
"For us to restrict our personal feelings when on a mission. No personal interactions must be used." I frowned as Yori repeated what Masahiro-sensei kept drilling into our head. I understand the reasoning but its overkill.
"I still think that your going overboard Mas- er.. Makoto-sensei. This is a village where there are no shinobi, we are also still in the fire country so I doubt anything is gonna happen to us." Masahiro-sensei sighed and brought his fingers to ease the further scrunching eyebrows.
"Emi-chan~." His voice made a shiver race through my body, his eyes sharp and cold. "Do you want to be dragged off and killed? Rather do you want to be taken only to reproduce against your will? Follow protocol that's all I ask of." I nodded and gulped loudly, Fear entered my body, of course this is the ninja world what the fuck am I thinking? It's chunin exam time also there's foreign ninja all over, one wrong move and I could be used to breed the sharingan over and over and over till I collapse. Why do I keep becoming so arrogant and ignorant? I should be atleast be twice the age of this body yet I think like a child, Konoha's safety and manipulation led to this. The patriotism they try to instill in everyone, that we should all throw down our lives for the villages good. A village that had political corruption due to Danzo and Shisui's eye.
How twisted.
As the weeks progressed nothing serious happened, we heard the wolves howling in the distance but no attacks happened in the village. We scouted out the North Eastern section to see if we could find a wolf den. We did find many wolf tracks but the creatures were hiding well. We came across one bear but this bear was a mother with two cubs trailing after her, we deemed her not a threat. We also searched the Southern forest and same results, no animals. Everything was very suspicious, no attacks occurred in the village and people were able to go out and about with no dangers. So very strange. Masahiro-sensei warned us to stay on guard since this was not normal behaviors for the animals according to the villagers.
The fateful day came. We awoke to sounds of destruction, and occasional screams. Masahiro-sensei was gone and I only had Yori and Takeo with me, we ventured outside and saw a gruesome site. Buildings were getting destroyed from fires and the large animals that ran through attacking the villagers. My blood ran cold, this was dangerous. Takeo ran forward with Yori following to go help the villagers that were getting mauled nearby, I trailed afterwards but I felt distant. What am I going to do in this situation? I don't have anything offensive and these animals were larger than me, they could easily swipe and kill me. I casted weak genjutsu's into the area hoping to will the animals to stop, instead it seemed to agitate them further. Their attacks becoming more aggressive and reckless, a few turned in our direction and stalked over.
"Emi-chan focus! We need you!" Takeo called out, the boy already received a few cuts from fighting a wolf off. I shook my head, smacking my cheeks to regain focus of the situation. I am a shinobi that specializes in deception, a few animals will not scare nor wound my being nor my teammates. I grabbed a handful of senbon and threw them at the creatures at charged in our direction, successfully hitting a few in the eyes. They charged on unaffected, what the hell? I jumped and dodged the swipes, occasionally throwing a few more ninja tools in hopes that they will back up but things never work like that. We got surrounded, the animals landing swipes and bites on our forms, saliva and blood oozing from our wounds.
We were going to die here weren't we?
I heard Takeo let out a cry in pain, my body acted quickly and charged at the wolf that had a hold on his lower right leg. In the process I got nicked badly on my side but the pain was ignored, I have to help my teammates. I pulled out a kunai and stabbed the wolf in the neck, the wolf then released Takeo's leg before dying from blood loss on the floor.
"Megumi!" Takeo cried out as he jumped to push me to the floor, a claw digging through his shoulder and puncturing through to the other side. I stared in shock, my eyes watering. He saved me, our best fighter saved the worst and I had vowed to protect my team? I was trash. Utter trash. Another wolf bit at his upper arm, tugging aggressively before another joined to bite at his leg. Yori was also getting swarmed but his poisons were able to weaken the ones attacking him, his wounds to a smaller degree. Anger boiled inside me as I felt time slow slightly, the animal movements becoming predictable. I lurched forward and buried the kunai into the wolf's neck before jumping over Takeo to stab the other wolf. He gave me a look of thanks before shock took his features.
"Your eyes.." I heard him mutter as I continued to slice and stab at the animals in rage, these beasts hurt my teammates, they hurt me, they deserve to die a painful death. I felt a chuckle bubble in my throat as a sadistic grin sat on my features, blood squirting from the jugular cuts on the different animals. I could hear small whispers urging me to continue, of course I will. One after another they would collapse to the floor, twisting and twitching in pain. They will not be put out of their misery, no no they shall suffer. Suffer long and hard for agonizing us. A sound of clapping caught my attention, I turned around and saw a group of people walking towards us, more wolves and bears tagging along with them.
"What a spectacular show, do provide more entertainment children!" The animals raced in our direction, my form tensing in anticipation. I could see Takeo trying to stand up, the boy falling over to groan out in pain. I looked at him in concern and it was a mistake, a bad mistake. A bear was close enough and swiped at me hitting me right in the head, my body flying to the side. My senses were disorientated, everything was wobbling a bit. Another whisper I could make out begged for me to abandon my teammates, what the fuck? I felt nauseous but pushed it down, now was not the time. I stood up and shook my head to clear the feeling, my eyes refocusing on the situation. I charged at the animals that were near Takeo to try and protect him to the best of my ability, it seems that Yori was thinking along the same thoughts as he joined me. We fought wave after wave, our movements becoming more sluggish from exhaustion.
I could hear the man laugh, "That is it? How pathetic." I growled, how dare he? What does this son of a bitch have against us? A burst of energy spiked in my body as I fought harder and harder, slowly moving towards the man and his group of men. Just as I got a few feet away from him, the onslaught stopped. No more wolves no more bears, it appears they ran out.
I grinned and spoke loudly, my movements becoming exaggerated. "Ara? Is that all? Indeed how pathetic, perhaps your blood will satisfy more?" I cackled loudly, a few of the bandits backing up in concern. He gave a challenging smirk, "How arrogant, kill her and those two boys." The army of bandits charged forward, I rolled my shoulder before getting into a fighting stance when a thought occurred to me. These are humans, why the fuck am I not using my genjutsus?!
I dodged their weak and uncoordinated swipes as I prepped to start casting the layers I have been working on, starting with a minor sense disorientation. Some of the men started to put too much effort into their swipes resulting in them accidentally hurting each other, perfect. I next set up an environmental genjutsu that slowly made each individual block out who was around them, they could only see themselves and me. The next one I worked on was an auditory one which would block out all sounds aside from what each person made themselves. I then casted another which showed my own body moving into different directions, a few different versions of me appearing all around causing the men to attack in different directions. I was going to layer another genjutsu when I suddenly got hit from behind, my body getting knocked to the floor again. The genjutsus lifted as I tried to recover but my back got stepped on heavily, my breath coming out weak. A voice spoke from above my head.
"Such an exciting girl, an Uchiha at that. Your tricks are no-" His voice got cut off and his weight suddenly lifted, I coughed as air flooded my thirsty lungs. I heard various cries of pain and shock, bodies falling over all around. Once I felt I was strong enough I tried to stand up, my legs shaking from the gradual strength decline. I felt a hand wrap around my side and another hand grab at my shoulder, I looked to see who it was and saw Masahiro-sensei. He looked very worried and apologetic.
"You did well Emi-chan. I'm sorry Joru Ken and Emi for not being here to protect you. I am so sorry my ducklings." I let out a weak chuckle, Masahiro-sensei's brows raising in concern.
"I did damn well didn't I?" Masahiro gave a weak smile before ruffling my hair.
"Relax now Emi-chan, I will take care of everything." As if his words held a power I felt my body relax, my vision fading to black. I could hear the whispers crying out for me to stay awake, I tried to stay awake but my will was weak.
I awoke some time later and was all bandaged up, my form was aching and I had painful pinches all over my body. Takeo seemed to have taken things the worst and Yori the least but we all survived. We were visited by the villagers who survived the attack and they would bring gifts and thanks along with praying that we will recover smoothly. We did recover for the most part, Takeo is having some slight issues with his shoulder that the bear pierced but aside from that we were all doing well. We stayed a few more weeks before packing our things so we could retreat to Konoha.
I should probably mention what the heck was going on exactly right? So the situation was that a group of bandits with a shinobi leader rule this area, they are known for breeding bears and wolves which is what they use to fight and ravage villages. There were no reports of them being active in this area so it was unexpected, our mission got bumped up to a B-ranked mission as a result.
Now you are probably wondering like we were, where the hell was Masahiro-sensei?
The man was evacuating civilians and trying to protect them, he was busy trying to keep everyone alive which is why he joined up with us late. He said that he left after the animals retreated to go join in the fight in the village which was when they sent everything to try and take us down. Masahiro-sensei praised our team over and over, his pride beaming at our results. He of course kept checking on my mental health to see if I was going to crack or anything, which I don't think I will. I didn't bother to mention this to him but the whispers will come in on random.
Occasionally when it's quiet I will hear soft whispers that suggest negative things. They mention death and suffering and beg of me to help ease their suffering, that if I help I will be of value. I wont lie and say that these voices have not been affecting me, they leave me in a rather dark mood when they sprout by, my mind craving to be satisfied with the vision of blood.
We returned to the village and were immediately sent to the hospital to be checked over after we reported our results at the mission center. What I didn't know was that Masahiro-sensei informed the Hokage of his growing concern of my mental state, that I was essentially a walking bomb of sorts. The doctors healed up whatever of our injuries were left and firmly told us that we needed to sleep and watch our health. No strenuous training for a few days atleast.
My dreams brought mixed feelings, I saw people of Konoha and that village getting slaughtered over and over, their expressions of fear burned into my memory. Typically I would observe someone in my dreams but this time I was living the experience, I was the killer destroying everything. Slicing through everyone one by one, I eventually fought against the different teams of shinobi but even through my losing fight I kept trying. What made this dream rather unappealing was the fact that the whispers plagued the dream, whatever they ordered my body followed unquestioningly. I had no control, I was merely an observer to the horror I was creating. The disgusting part was that I enjoyed it, I enjoyed causing fear in everyone, the power I felt was captivating. I even attacked Naruto and Sasuke, the boys fought hard and together but our bond caused them to hesitate resulting in easy targets. The dream continued on its dark path, warping to show me all alone and psychotic. I was dancing around bloodied destroyed corpses, giggling with sincerity. Who was this person? Is this really me? The other me then stopped and became stiff, looking over her shoulder to give me a dark look.
"Leave!" She screamed before I was ejected out of the dream, my heart beating at a rapid pace.
I needed fresh air. I stood up and walked down the hall, plopping to the floor to stare at the sky. It was almost daytime, the sky starting to change to colors of oranges and purples. A cold breeze blew causing me to hug my arms to create warmth, I don't feel too well. I stayed for a few more minutes before getting up to use the restroom then heading off to the kitchen to eat a basic meal.
The next few days followed very similarly, I was having a hard time sleeping normally and I felt weak. I needed to speak with Masahiro-sensei, perhaps he could help me. I had found out that the chunin exam fights were going to occur today. I met up with my teammates and we proceeded to go to the stadium and get nice front row seats. I saw Sakura and gave her a wave, the girls expression changing to concern when she saw how I looked. I dismissed her questions and said that I was having a hard time sleeping which is why I looked like shit. We exchanged information about how the exams went versus my mission and who the competition was. Everything basically was just like in the Naruto show, all the same candidates. I also asked about Sasuke, how was his health. Sakura mentioned that he was bitten by Orochimaru and that something was wrong with him but he refused to back out. I nodded, sounds about right. Our attention was drawn to the ground when an announcer started to state off the rules and who was going to fight first. I tried my best to focus on the announcer but I started to feel my anxiety spike, something wasn't right. I glanced around suspiciously but I couldn't see anything wrong, then it hit me.
Kabuto.
He was in the crowd, he is the one who starts the invasion.
What the fuck am I going to do?
EDIT: I took out the self harm insane moment, I apologize everyone it was a bit too unexpected and sudden.
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