Dean POV
"Oh Dean, it's going to be okay. Just try not to watch what happens. Turn away and it will be over before you know it. I know about the bond you felt towards my brother and I feel your pain at his passing, but it wasn't your fault Dean. Now the sooner we go in the sooner we can leave." Cas spoke while gently herding me toward the door. We walked pass Sam and he reached out and opened it before ushering me inside before following. Sam brought up the rear and closed the door once we were inside.
I turned to face the fall away from the scene that was appearing in front of us, but I quickly lost the will to ignore it when I heard his voice. I hastily decided that seeing him now would be better than never seeing him again. Even if it was a horrible memory.
[Memory 7 starts]
(Dean and Sam are hiding behind a table while Lucifer and Kali fight.)
Sam-Are you okay?
(Gabriel appears behind Dean and Sam and they jerk their heads around to face him.)
Gabriel-Not really. Better late than never, huh?
(Gabriel slams DVD case against Dean's abdomen.)
Gabriel-Guard this with your life.
(Lucifer gets tossed away from Kali before he can kill her and Gabriel is standing over her angel sword at the ready.)
Gabriel -Lucy. I'm home.
(Lucifer stands and stalks toward Kali but Gabriel moves in front of her and raises his sword.)
Gabriel-Not this time.
(Gabriel reaches down and pulls Kali up beside him still holding his sword out against Lucifer.)
Gabriel-Guys! Get her out of here.
(Sam and Dean stand up and come around the table taking Kali from Gabriel when he hands her off to them. Gabriel stays in front of them with his sword raised and circles around Lucifer till he's standing in front of the door while Lucifer in front of him.)
Lucifer-Over a girl. Gabriel, really? I mean I knew you were slumming, but…I hope you didn't catch anything. (disgusted look crosses Lucifer's face)
Gabriel-Lucifer, you're my brother, and I love you. But you are a great big bag of dicks.
Lucifer-What did you just say to me?
(Lucifer steps toward Gabriel and Gabriel raises his sword and Lucifer stops.)
Gabriel-Look at yourself. "Boo-hoo. Daddy was mean to me, so I'm gonna smash up all of his toys."
Lucifer-Watch your tone.
Gabriel-Play the victim all you want. But you and me—we know the truth. Dad loved you best. More than Michael. More than me. Then he brought the new baby home, and you couldn't handle it. So all this is just a great big temper tantrum. (lifts his sword) Time to grow up.
Meanwhile outside…
(Dean and Sam usher Kali into the car and then once Sam is in Dean runs back inside to help Gabriel he gets in and has a vantage point of the room and stays and atches he can see Gabriel behind Lucifer and a visage of Gabriel in front of Lucifer engaging him in conversation. Dean stays out of sight to not give Gabriel away.)
In the room…
Lucifer-Gabriel, if you're doing this for Michael—
Gabriel-Screw him. If he were standing here, I'd shiv his ass too.
Lucifer-(Scoffs) You disloyal—
Gabriel-Oh, I'm loyal. To them.
Lucifer-Who? These…so-called Gods?
Gabriel-To people, Lucifer. People.
Lucifer-So you're willing to die for a pile of cockroaches? Why?
Gabriel-Because Dad was right. They are better than us.
Lucifer-They are broken, flawed abortions.
Gabriel-Damn right, they're flawed. (Deep breath) But a lot of them try…to do better. To forgive. And you should see the spearmint rhino. I've been riding the pine a long time, but I'm in the game now. And I'm not on your side or Michael's. I'm on theirs.
Lucifer-Brother, don't make me do this.
Gabriel-No one makes us do anything.
Lucifer-I know you think you're doing the right thing, Gabriel. But I know where your heart truly lies.
(Gabriel raises his sword and goes to stab Lucifer in the back but Lucifer spins around and uses Gabriel's momentum against him and shoves the sword into Gabriel's heart.)
Lucifer-Here.
(The visage of Gabriel disappears.)
Lucifer-Amateur hocus-pocus. Don't forget—you learned all your tricks from me, little brother.
(Lucifer slams the sword into Gabriel's heart and instantly Gabriel's grace flies out of his eyes and mouth. And his wings burn into the floor.)
(Dean watches Gabriel's body fall to the floor helpless to do anything to save him. He turns and runs out of the building, hops into the impala, ignores Sam's questions, and speeds off.)
[Memory 7 ends]
I couldn't breathe that was the first thing I noticed as the scene faded away and I continued to stare at the space where Gabriel's body had previously occupied. I faintly heard my name being called and looked in the direction I thought it was coming from. Cas' face filled my vision and slowly his voice filtered into my consciousness.
"Dean. Dean! You need to breathe. That's right. Good. Again. Breathe with me. In. out. In. out. Keep going. That's better. Are you okay?" Cas calmly and patiently talked me through my panic attack at seeing Gabriel killed again.
I couldn't talk so I just shook my head; I wasn't okay and I didn't have the energy to put up a front. It felt like someone had ripped the scab off a raw, deep, bloody wound and expected a band aid to fix the problem.
"Can we just leave?" I asked as I turned to the door noticing Sam for the first time since this memory started. He was standing by the door impatiently tapping his foot. I walked past him slowly and opened the door letting Sam pass me and walk through disappearing from sight.
Cas walked up beside me and turned to face me. He looked into my eyes as if searching for something and then placed a hand on my shoulder.
"Dean I have my powers back and I can take you to a pleasant memory of Gabriel if you would like before we leave?" he asked.
"N-no. That's okay. I just want to get out of here and put it behind me." I spoke as I turned and began walking out the door.
I gasped and jerked up into a sitting position. I was sitting on the floor of the old abandoned house in front of the door I had opened earlier Sam a few steps behind me. I looked up when a hand materialized in front of me to see Cas. He had obviously followed us here. I grabbed his hand and let him pull me to my feet. Once standing I turned and offered my hand to Sam but he ignored it and got up on his own. Obviously he was still pissed about what had just happened.
We all walked out and climbed in the impala and drove back to the hotel we were staying at. No one talked the whole ride. We all knew we had lost the witches, but there was always the chance we'd run into them again in the future. Once inside the hotel room Sam packed his bag and then turned to stare at me as I finished packing mine.
"Well can we talk now? Or is your guardian angel going to step in and stop it this time too?" Sam asked while glaring at Cas.
"Go ahead and say what you have too. Get it over with so we can get the hell out of this damn town." I sat my bag on the bed and turned to face Sam while Cas watched from the sidelines.
"What the hell was all that!? I thought we had moved passed all that shit and put it in the past, but obviously you're still clinging to the past mistakes I made and holding them against me. All of your worst memories were of me. Am I that bad Dean? Why wasn't Mom and Dad, hell even Bobby, why weren't their deaths there? All you see is the mistakes I've made. And why was Gabriel the 'worst' memory of all? After all that winged-dick did to us." Sam was red in the face and slowly getting louder and louder.
"Sam I do have those as bad memories. They're just so bad I keep them locked away with my memories of hell. And don't you even start talking bad about Gabriel. He gave up his life for us. Yeah he might've made some mistakes in the way he tried to keep us from starting the apocalypse, but when we needed him he was always there! It's not like I could control where we were ending up. It's not like I tried to personally think bad thoughts about you. It wasn't up to me. I'm so sorry that it was hard for you too have to go through that, but what about me!? I had to relieve some of the worst moments in my life and listen to you bitch about them. I had to let my little brother and my best friend see the worst things in my head. My private thoughts." I was getting just as mad as Sam now.
"While we're talking about that what's with the lying to me about some of that Dean? And you know you had plenty of stuff in there that was considered my fault, but what about the stuff you did? I might have let Lucifer out, but I never would've got the chance if you hadn't have started the apocalypse. Or you know all of it might not have happened if you weren't so scared of being alone and so needy that you came and got me out of college, where I had a normal life for once, and pulled me back into the life. I know you were mad after purgatory because I left the life, but have you ever considered that if it wasn't for you I would still have a normal life?" Sam said reaching down and grabbing his bags.
"Well I'm sorry your life is so bad. And that I wanted you in mine. And if I lied to you or did things it was to protect you. I thought that's what brothers did?" I asked.
"Yeah, well Dean you would know. I'm leaving, and I'm going back to Amelia to have the normal life that I deserve. Don't try to contact me. I need time away from you and this life." Sam said before walking out the door and slamming it behind him with a note of finality before I could say anything else.
After Sam was gone I turned to look at Cas as my knees gave out and I fell on the bed. I couldn't believe this is what broke us up. Oh great, now I sound like some teenage girl angsting over her first relationship. I fall back on the bed and just stare at the ceiling. I feel the bed dip beside me and know that Cas was sitting there.
He didn't say anything and neither did I just layer there thinking over the events of the past few hours. I tried my best to keep my mind from going to Gabriel. It felt wonderful again after so many years—God I can't believe it's been years—of him being gone. We successfully stopped the apocalypse, saved Sam, stopped Raphael, stopped the Leviathans, made it back from purgatory, defeated Metatron, opened heaven once again, and cured me of being a demon. Now all we needed to do was find a way to get rid of this damn Mark of Cain before it made me Demon Dean 2.0.
It's hard to believe we did so much in so little time. Now that I think about it I never really had time to grieve for Gabriel I went straight from seeing him killed to fighting off Pestilence and finding Death. Now thought seeing him die in front of me all over again and still being unable to save him just ripped that wound open again. I knew if I ignored this it would fester until eventually it blew up in my face, but I'm Dean Winchester, and I'm nothing if not a great ignorer.
So I pushed thoughts of Gabriel to the back of my mind rolled over in bed and got some shut eye. We could leave soon enough in the morning. I knew Cas would still be there in the morning watching over me and ready to talk when I was.
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4X21 When the Levee Breaks
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4X22 Lucifer Rising
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