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Chapter 6: My Thoughts Exactly

The next day I woke up with pain in my heart. I still love Roxas, I have to admit it. But I can't continue with this feeling. It's destroying me, tearing me apart. It only causes me pain and it's driving me crazy…

"Hey, I heard that!"

I smirked. And then it hit me. Today's the day. The day that Hayner assured me he would tell Olette. I rushed to my bathroom, shouting to make Kai wake up, changed as quickly as humanly possible, grabbed my books and flew to school.

It was very early, so school was still a bit empty. I looked around, searching for some brown hair. I saw Selphie, chatting with Tidus and Wakka. Well, if I know her well, probably she's the only one talking… She talks so fast that usually no one gets the chance to chat back... I saw Sora and Riku heading their direction and Kai went there too. I saw Pence taking some photos, probably for the school's newspaper…

But no sign of Hayner. I sighed. Where is that little devil…?

"Have you noticed yet that Olette is nowhere to be seen either?"

I scrutinized my surroundings again. Selphie, Tidus, Wakka, Sora, Riku, Kai, Pence… But Olette was nowhere to be seen.

"What would you do without me?"

Probably I would still be sane. But no time to argue now. I have to hinder Hayner from telling Olette or else…

"Or else you'll embarrass yourself in front of all school and will be seen as the freaky-talent-show-girl forever."

That's very comforting you know?

"Yes, I do…"

I started looking for Hayner and Olette all over school. They weren't at the cafeteria (seriously, why would they anyway? Our cafeteria sucks…), in the bathrooms (still another strange place to be at), in any of the classrooms…

I was running out of places… Then I remembered… How could I ever forget to look there? I totally forgot the spot. Where every boy and girl goes to when trying to find a date. I scooted there and arrived in the nick of time. They were really there, sitting on the grass. I hid behind some trash cans that were there, so they couldn't see me.

"Ewww! Couldn't you have found a better place to hide?!"

I ignored the comment. Hayner looked like he was ready to explode from all the redness on his cheeks and Olette was smiling and blushing in a way that I've never seen before. I listened to Hayner's voice.

"So, I've told you everything and asked you on a date, but you still haven't said anything…"

Olette's emerald eyes were shining brightly, but she didn't let any word escape her lips. Instead, she leaned forward, almost touching Hayner's, and held still, waiting for his reaction.

I watched this completely dumbstruck. Olette likes Hayner??!

I saw him grinning and leaning forward to reach Olette's lips. I feel like I should give them a little privacy…

"No way! Let me at least enjoy the show!"

I rolled my eyes and went inside.

I know well that spot. I used to frequent it a lot. With Roxas.

Feeling his touch felt good. Really good. We were lying on the grass, my head on his legs, his hand stroking my blond hair. We weren't talking. We were just looking at the clouds, lost on our thoughts.

I've been thinking a lot lately. About us, about our future… I've been like this since Roxas told me that he was going to move. Thoughtful, and a little fearful too. I don't want to lose him, that's for sure. I want him to be next to me forever, until we let our last breaths.

But I guess wanting just isn't enough. Destiny chose our ways. We have to follow them. Although we may not like what the future holds, we just have to grin and bear it. Like little lost kids. Just as I feel now. Lost.

But I know that I wont' feel like this forever. Roxas will come back, and when he does, I'll be here, waiting to hold him in my arms and welcome him home. We won't tear apart... That's for sure.

"Hey."

I turned around to face Roxas, looking at his profound eyes, gazing the second sea that lived in them.

"What is it?" I asked.

"I've been thinking..." Roxas looked at me, leaned forward and grabbed my hands, so close that I could feel his hot breath on my neck. "Even if I go away, you'll wait for me, right? We have to accept our future for now, but when I come back, you'll be with your door open, knowing that we won't tear apart, no matter the distance..."

I gave a wide smile and replied.

"My thoughts exactly."

"My thoughts exactly..."

I've been thinking about this girl a lot. I remembered alll sort of things these days. Happy moments that I shared with her, some sad ones as well, but her name... That I can't really remember. It seems the harder I try to, the more distant it is. But at least I know that she made me feel happy, whole. She was my better half.

I can walk now. Only short distances, but still... I put the drawing next to my stuff right on my left, where my clothes are as well. They're still looking foor someone searching for Roxas, but still no luck. I guess I'll just have to wait.

I know this hospital well. I've already looked around, with the nurse's help of course. She is very kind. I told her about the girl and she said that I'll remember when the time is right. That I mustn't give up. If I do, in that moment I lose her...

So I'm not giving up...

Wait for me...

N---...

This class is so boring. There's nothing better to do than to hear what happened a long time ago to some dead guy? Jeez...

I grabbed my pencil and started sketching on my book. I wasn't drawing anything concrete, just letting my hand do the sketch. It ended on a heart. Bleeding.

"Miss Numari, could you honour us with your attention?" my teacher shouted, making everyone look at me. I felt my face hot. "Drawing class isn't the same as History class, alright? Now, about Naruto..."

I sighed. This day couldn't get any better...

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When the bell rang, I went outside and waited for Kai. I waited one minute. Five minutes. Ten minutes. I was tired of waiting. Kai must have gone home without me and...

"Hey."

A brown-haired boy was looking at me, his eyes still shining,

"Hey." I replied. "Have you seen Kai?"

"Nop." and he added with a smile. "But I have seen Olette..."

The bet. I totally forgot that I had lost it. Maybe if I beg...

"So uh... I'm not going to need to sing... right?" I asked hopefully.

Hayner looked at me, surprised. How do I even dare to ask that? Of course I'll have to. There's no way out of this. I must do it... At least for my pride...

"Don't worry... You won't have it after this..."

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Hayner walked me home and I went to my room. I opened the door and found Sora and Kai making out. I closed the door and went to the kitchen.

"Ok, let's write the stupid song..."

I spent hours on it. None of the songs were good. There was already a pile of white paper behind me. A very big one. I was desperate...

"This looks like a drawing that I made one day..." I smiled. It really did.

Then I had an idea. It won't be as perfect as last time but... it will get close.