Small lemon in this chapter, finally!


Previously...

There was no denying where I was going to end up when we go back home. I made a decision to talk to Jake, whether it be tonight or tomorrow. He needed to know that I was all in and that I wanted him as much as he wanted me. I didn't need to take the week or a month.

Tomorrow I decided. I would do it tomorrow...

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Day 7

Today's the day. I'm going to do it. I'm going to tell Jacob exactly how I feel and how I don't want to wait to be together. But honestly, I'm scared shitless. Not of Jacob, but of myself. Because I don't have to hold myself back when I'm with him. Things could literally go 0 to 100 in two seconds. It excites me. It makes my skin hot and my heart race and my hands clammy and the heat between my thighs multiply. I'm awake before he is and I can't help but stare at him again. His humbleness and beauty literally blows me away. I quietly get up from the bed and make my way to the kitchen to get some coffee. I'll need the sustenance to keep my mind up and alert. I decide to sit in the attached patio-porch with a light blanket and wait for Jake to join me. I don't have to wait long. He comes up behind me with his own cup of coffee and a sweet kiss to my cheek.
"Good morning, Bells."
Just the deep timbre of his voice gives me chills.
"How did you sleep?" I ask him.
"Mmm good, thank you. What about you?" He sits next to me on the big wooden swing that's attached to the porch. I share my blanket with him, not that he needs it.
"Good... good..." The air was hot and thick despite being a semi-chilly 62 degrees.
"So..."
"So..."
We both say at the same time. I laugh first, breaking the awkwardness.
"I wanted to talk to you about yesterday." He immediately stiffened.
"It's nothing bad." I promised him. "I should have made it clear once I figured it out but I just wanted a fresh start. Yesterday sucked so bad and I wanted today to be a clean slate for us. That's if... you know, you still wanted me..." I say with uncertainty,
He puts his mug down and grabs mine to do the same before taking my hands into his large ones.
"You absolutely silly girl. Of course I still want you. I've wanted you since forever."
I release a breath I didn't know I was holding and smile.
"So we're really doing this? We're gonna... be together now?" He asks. I lean forward and kiss him fully on his pouty lips.
"Alright, Black. You're stuck with me now. There's no escaping me once we get back home." He laughs at me and kisses me again.
"Oh, I count on it Bells. Good luck getting rid of me now."
We sit there, hands intertwined, alternating between kissing and talking about our plans for the week. I tell him this is the happiest moment by far, swinging with him and talking. He promises me that he'll make me a swing just like this, just so I can swing everyday if I want, as long as I promise to smile like I am smiling right in that moment. And in that moment, I couldn't help but fall a little deeper for him. I definitely made the right decision...

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The rest of the day consisted of silly jokes and sneaky kisses. Why we were being sneaky about it, I don't know. It's not like Renee didn't know about us and our decision to be together. She knew it as soon as we walked in this morning from the patio. She squealed like a preteen and hugged Jacob tightly, tip-toeing to kiss his reddened cheeks.
"I'm sorry about yesterday, mom. I didn't know Edward was just going to... show up here unannounced." "It's okay, baby. I was surprised but then again... not so much."
She left the kitchen with a promise to pick up some Chinese food on the way back home from errands.
"I'll be back by 6 and Phil's out with some buddies so don't expect him till late!" She yells on her way out with a not so secretive wink to me.
Hours alone with Jacob?

Yes, please.
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We were watching a movie.
Well, I think we were watching a movie.
Every couple of minutes we would fidget closer to each other. We started off at opposite ends of the couch and barely twenty minutes in, I could feel our thighs graze. I really hoped that he couldn't hear my breathing change or my heart race but who am I kidding, he totally can. I try paying attention to the plot. But all I gathered was some awkward girl and some rich dude and he has a ginormous secret that he's hesitant to tell her. Ugh, I sigh. Honestly, all I wanted to do was make out... and maybe something more. I can feel my hands get clammy and I must have started saying something only to stop a second later. I could tell Jacob wanted to say something but he kept quiet. It was getting ridiculous. I needed to do something. I sighed one more time. Glancing out of the corner of my eye, I saw him shift in his seat... he was squirming. I guess he felt just the same as I did because I could not stop clenching my thighs together. He tried to discreetly palm the front of his sweats... Was he getting turned on? With one more deep breath, I decided to say fuck it. I threw myself on him, straddling his lap and mashing my lips against his. He was equally responseful, nipping my bottom lip and sucking the top one. Hands were everywhere. Shoulders, our necks, into our hair, down our backs, groping, squeezing. Fuck, it was amazing. So I tell him.
"Fuck, you feel so amazing." And it was true. Everything from the heat seeping from his skin, his wide, strong hands, the thick muscles of his thighs shifting below me... It was almost too much. He moaned into my mouth and turned our bodies so he lay stretched out on top of me on the couch. His whole body, hovering over mine as he kissed down my neck and across my collar bone. My body felt incredibly hot, inside and out and I needed him closer. I pulled my lips away from him and gripped my t shirt, pulling it over my head. His eyes widened as he took me in. I had a pale pink bralette on, trimmed with lace. It's innocent look and color contradicted the way my nipples poked through the thin material. I didn't care how I looked. I wanted Jacob to see me. To look at me and know that there was no doubt I wanted him. I didn't doubt he liked what he saw. I felt that he liked it. His hardness was rubbing against my thigh as he bent down to leave open mouthed kisses along my shoulder. The air got thicker as we continued to kiss and nip and suck and lick. I wouldn't doubt we'd have bite marks on random bits of skin. I sat up, needing to feel more of him, so I gripped the bottom of his shirt and lifted it over his head. Now it was my turn to worship his skin. I pushed him back against the couch and laid out over him like he did to me. My hands roamed his muscled chest, his broad shoulders and trim waist. It felt like I was possessed. I wanted to lick every inch of his skin.
So I did.
I kissed my way down his neck, alternating between using my teeth and tongue to mark his flesh. I worked my way down his chest down to his stomach.
...I've never...
"Bells... What are you-"
I let my lips trail along the waistband of his sweats, reveling in his reactions. His hips arched off the couch as I ran my hand up his thigh and rubbed against his hardened cock.
"Ohmygod—Bell-ahhh..." He moaned out loud.
"Jacob... I want to... but you have to tell me if I... I've never done this..." I say, all of a sudden not sure if I want to go through with this. I want to make him feel so good but I've never gotten anywhere near this far before.
"Bells... believe me anything you do is going to feel good. I promise."
I nod my head and kiss his skin again. I hook my fingertips into the waistband of his sweats and pull down. My stomach is in knots as his hard length pops out of his briefs. But fucking shit he's big and beautiful. I'm very much intimidated by his size and what that means for us when we finally take that step. Shaking my fear off, I grip his cock lightly at the base and put my mouth on the tip of it. His hips jerk up and his moan is loud and gruff.
"Is that okay?" I ask. "Can you... show me what you like?"
He grips my hand in his and squeezes it tight around his member. My eyes widen at how tight he's gripping but the look on his face is pure pleasure.
"Just grip it like that... yeah like that... Oh my god Bells..."
"Like this?" I stroke up, squeeze, stroke down.
"Oh... fuck yes like that... Anything else you do will be amazing... oh fuck... I swear.Just please don't stop."
I stroke him again and on my stroke down I put my mouth over his head and suck. His face is contorted like he's in pain, but if the noises coming out of his mouth are any indication, I'd say he's more than fine. I take my time, taking in his body, his manly smell, the way he feels in my mouth and all I can think about is how I want to make him come undone. His fingers are clenching in his palm so I take his hands and rub them softly. He cradles my cheek with one palm, a mixed look of love and lust in his eyes. I suck a little harder and watch his eyes roll back into his head. His fingers clench once again and I feel like he needs something to hold on to. On my way up from his cock, I look into his eyes and massage the head with my tongue. His fingers suddenly leave his side and weave his way into my hair.
"Bells... Oh god... Baby, I'm not gonna last..." He sounds disappointed that he's going to end soon but I don't mind. I can feel him tense beneath me. His thighs clenching in anticipation... waiting for the release that I'm going to give him. I feel powerful; like I'm on top of the world. He pulls my head up and crashes his lips against mine. He cums as soon as our bare skin touches each other. I can feel him twitching as he pours out onto my stomach. He rips his mouth away from mine as he groans loud into the empty room. The veins in his neck protrude and I swear in that moment that I've never seen anything sexier than Jacob Black coming undone. I kiss his neck, his cheek and his lips as he comes down from his high.
"You're so fucking amazing, Bells." He says to me once his breathing calmed down. I chuckle against his skin, feeling elated that I got to make him feel so good.
"Thank you Jacob Black." I say, kissing him once more. "We should clean up though..." I trail off, suddenly remembering the mess against our stomachs.
"What did you have in mind?" His tone sneaky and playful. My eyes widen and I jump off of him after seeing his sneaky face turn lustful once more.
"You better run Bells, The big bad wolf is gonna getcha." I squeal like a crazy lady and make a run for the bathroom with Jacob hot on my heels. He catches me right before I make it to the shower stall and pins me against the wall, kissing me hotly and deeply. I could definitely get used to this...