Ashley pov

I'm in the studio working on a new song, all the songs that I've wrote so far, are always about one thing, to get back to her.
'URG! Why can't she get out of my head?' my head's lying on my desk.
why did I let her get away? That's a question thats always on my mind. Why did I let her get away? What she did was wrong, but I can understand it a bit, I think. This situation is far from perfect, the only thing that is perfect is the love that we share.

'Ash are you there? The band is here, they want to rehears the new song for next week. You know the concert in France?' my sister Kyla asks me.
'concert? In France? Since when did I agree to that? Kyla you know I don't want any concerts soon.'
'Yes concerts in France, we agreed to that last week. But I suppose your mind wasn't there, are you still not over that girl?' I must have looked surprised, because I never told her about Spencer. 'Did you really think that I haven't noticed? You weren't happy when Aiden was with you. And maybe I accidently took a look at your computer when you were having a conversation with her. You were always smiling and laughing around with the guys. You haven't done that since dad died. And now you are always depressed and writing heart broke songs. I'm actually mad that you haven't talked to me, you know. You are my sister, you don't want me to be involved in your life, you don't talk to me about your life. Do you even consider me as your sister?'
Kyla has tears in her eyes, I just look at her, I don't know how to answer her. Kyla is my half sister, I only found out about her 3 years ago. My dad is Raife Davies a rock star, he lived the rock star life too. He was married to my mom when he got Kyla's mother pregnant. I never knew I had a sister, so when Raife introduced me to Kyla I was mad, and that's an understatement. I was a daddy's girl when I grew up, but when Kyla showed up my dad didn't have time for me anymore, he was always busy with her. Kyla is a big fan of Lady gaga, she begged my dad to go with her to an concert. They got in an car accident on the way back. My dad didn't make it, I blamed Kyla for his dead.

Before I could answer Kyla she ran out of the door. After a few minutes to compose myself I went to the band.
' Ash, what did you say to Kyla? She ran out of the studio with tears in her eyes.' That was Clay our drummer.
'it's just Kyla being Kyla' I say to him. I pick up my guitar and start rehearsing.

Band practice is over. I'm sitting on the couch with Clay next to me. We've been talking about the upcoming concerts in France.
' you are ready to perform again, Ash. The fans are begging us to release another song. Whatever that is going on with you, you need to get over it. You need to get on with your life. I know you're probably upset that your dad isn't going to be at your wedding, but he wants you to be happy. Even if that means you have to move on.' Clay says to me.
He couldn't be more wrong. Everybody thinks that I'm so in love with Aiden but he's only a friend. He proposed to me 6 months ago, I said no. The only reason that I said yes to him was to hurt Spencer just like she hurt me. That was obvious a bad decision…

Speaking of the devil, Aiden enters the room.
'whats up guys?' he says to the band. He sits next to, and leans in to give me a kiss. I turn my head so that he kisses my cheek. Aiden looks funny at me.

'what was that?'
'the band is here, Aiden. I hate it when people show PDA.' I lie to him.
'its not like they would care, Ash. I just want to kiss my fiancé.'
'not now, ok? I'm having a bad day'
' you're always having a bad day, I'm starting to think you don't want to marry me.'
'Can we not talk about that here? We'll talk at home.'

We're in the living room.
'Whats going on? You have been acting strange this few months. Do you have second thoughts about marrying me? Because Ash, I love you so much. You have no idea have happy I was when you finally said yes. But everything changed since then. So what happened?'

it's now or never. I have to tell him. Aiden is like a brother to me. I don't want to hurt him, but I cant marry him.
'Aiden you know I love you right? But I'm not in love with you. I was never in love with you. You are more like a brother to me.'
Aiden just looks at me. So I continue.
'I never wanted to hurt you. But I thought that by marrying you, I would forget my own heartache.'
'You were never in love with me? Forget your own heartache? What are you talking about?' he demands.
'I'm in love with someone else for a long time now. She cheated on me, so I thought If I would marry you, I would forget about her. That I could love you instead. But I cant. Aiden you have to believe me when i say that I never meant to hurt you.'

Aiden just grabs his jacket and leaves the house. He was my best friend, and I broke his heart.

The next morning I was so tired. I didn't have much sleep. I know its probably a bad thing but I couldn't help but find ways to get Spencer back. I am such a bad person, I just broke Aidens heart and I'm looking for ways to get the love of my life back.
But I'm determined, I know a way to get Spencer back. I know in what city she lives. When I'm in France I'll just cross the border to Belgium. And I will find her. I need to find her.
I just hope that she will be waiting for me. In a week I will be in France, and hopefully after the concerts I will be with my love.

A week later

The concerts are over. Everything went well. The only thing that I have to do now is make things right with Kyla.
'Kyla, can we talk for a moment?' we walk to a secluded area. 'I know I have been a bitch to you, it wasn't right to blame you for dad's dead. It was an accident. I released that you lost a father too, and that you needed your sister. I'm sorry that I wasn't there for you. But I promise that I am here now. I know its late, but I will be here for the rest of your life. I love you.'
'Wow. Are you high? That was like the longest conversation that we had without yelling or crying. It means a lot to me that you don't blame me for dad's dead. I love you too, even if you have been a bitch to me.'
'sorry, if I'm a bitch right now but I need to go. I have some stuff I need to sort out. I wont be going back with you guys.'

'where are you going?'
'I'm going after my girl. But I need to go. I'll call you when I can.'

I'm in Belgium, I just checked in my hotel, I asked where I could find a bar called 'ritz' that's the bar that Spencers dad owns. hopefully Spencer will be there.

I arrived at the bar, its packed. I sit at a table close to the bar. An older man walks up to me.
'hallo, wat zal het zijn? ( hy, what do you want to drink)'
'english?'
' you speak English?' I just nod my head. ' what do you want to drink?'
'water please. Euhm can I ask you something? Are you the owner of this bar?'
' yes I am. Are you new in town?'
' yes, i'm actually looking for someone. You know her. It's your daughter, Spencer. We already spoke to each other, you know? I am the pen pall.'
'oh, was that you? Well Spencer is out. Do you want me to call her?'
'I actually wanted to surprise her. Do you know where she is?'
'She's at the Qubus, in the next city.'
'okay, thank you. Do you mind if I leave? I'll come back tomorrow.'
'no problem. I hope you'll find here.'

I'm back at the hotel, I'm looking for the address of the Qubus on the internet. After finding the address I took a shower and made myself ready.

My car is parked befor the Qubus. The place is packed with teenagers. I hope I'll find her. I'm so nervous. This will be the first time that I'll see her. I hope everything will be alright. I get out of my car and head to the entrance. I pay for my ticket and get in.
It's been 30minutes since I've been here. I haven't found her yet. Maybe she's outside.

I'm outside. There are a couple of kids pukking, I look for her but I cant find her. A couple of kids pass me.
'Chels, do you know where Spencer went?' a blond girl asks.
'she's smoking, they're probably behind the building'.
I follow those girl. They are my only hope in finding Spencer.

When I turn the corner, I cant believe what I'm seeing. I'm seeing Spencer on the lap of some girl. The girl is practically having sex with her. Spencer looks so out of it. I cant help but yell at them.

'take your hands of her bitch!' Spencer looks up at the sound of my voice.
'who the hell are you? I can touch my girlfriend if I want. If you have a problem with that you just have to say it, and we'll see who will win?' I just ignore the girl.

I cant believe this, girlfriend?