chapter 6

Omg i cant believe Bart had seen us kiss.

' I feel dizzy i need to sit down'

Tilly was quite worried about me ' Jen you ok, you look very pale'

i didn't give her an answer i couldn't.i thorght i was going to faint or something i managed to get out ' can i have a drink of water please'

'Bart you can go get it NOW' Tilly said angrily

i knew Tilly cared for me because i love her but i didn't expect Bart to come out with this no way. I really dont know what to do should i dump her or should i stay with her.

' here you go Miss' Bart says while passing the water over

' Thanks Bart'

i didn't know what to do, seeing Jen like that i hated it. i just want to sit with her and tell her how much i love he, how its going to be ok. But i cant what if that makes her really scared and she runs away. I was about to say something to Jen but Bart got in front of me.

'look Miss Gilmore im really sorry o, i think its cool that you and our Tils are together we all knew it was going to happen one day. its not like were going to tell no one, why would we shes are mate, not just any old mate but a really good one, she cares when no one else does, she sees the good side of things when other people always look at the helps us when we are in a really bad situation'.

'Bart i know you all care for Tils because i do too and i love her very much and don't know what i would do if i lost her, that's why i froze, and sat down i needed time to think. Think about her futcher. How better you would be without me Tilly. like i said before you need time to live your life your only 18.

My eyes were falling with tears as i was saying this the moment i had finished what i had said i regretted it straight away, why did i say this she is never going to forgive me now.

' Jen no please you cant break up with me i love you you and i know you love me too and we both cant live without each other please Jen you don't want to do this not again'

i was devastated when Jen said that how could she want to break up with me when she says she loves me so much and couldn't live without me i just don't get it. i went over to Bart and started hitting him, this isn't like me at all i wouldn't normal do something like this. Tears uncontrollably falling down my face i could stop the tears wouldn't stop.

' This is your fault Bart i hate you so much we was fine before you had to butt in'.

Maddie and Sinead had to drag me off him i couldn't control myself i wasn't letting Jen do this to me again.

I cant believe what i just saw i have never seen that side to Tilly before does she really care that much for are relationship, How can she keep coming back when i keep breaking her heart, she keeps fighting for are relationship to work. What am i going to do.

Great now Tilly hates me well done Bart why did i have to shout Jen over i knew i should have just left it, the would have told us when they wanted to tell us i always have to go and wreck things. Why am i so stupid.

i have to go and sit on the sofa to calm myself down, Sinead sits with me so im not on my own then Bart comes over ' oh great' i say.

' Look Tilly i am really sorry please forgive me your an ace mate and i don't know what i would do without you your amazing just please forgive me'.

i know Bart is truly sorry i can tell he never meant for this to happen he doesn't see the other side to it but i suppose i have to forgive him hes my best friend and would do anything for me.

' Fine Bart i forgive you but if you do something else i will never forgive you okay'

' Thank you Tils your a true mate'

i am so grateful for Tilly forgiving me, i did this to her and shes forgive me i jump in joy and she starts to laugh i have to give her the most biggest hug so i pull her up and squeeze her tightly.

'Bart im sorry for hitting you'

' Tilly its fine you had a good enough reason too'.

Me, Sinead and Bart start to laugh then i notice that Maddie has been talking to Jen.

'Look Jen i know you don't want to do this, i was in the room too you know, i heard every word loud and clear. You was describing Tils like no one has ever done before i knew how much you meant to her. i know that you love her loads and you wont be able to live without her. Think about this Jen this is going to hurt like hell, Think about how you felt when you did this last time, your going to have to go through it all again'

' Maddie i know its going to hurt like hell not even that i cant explain how much this is going to hurt yeah i do love her and cant live without her, but the more people that know the worse it can get for me. what i mean is more chance of the college finding out then that bye bye job and hello prison, yeah their is a possibility that i could not go to prison but their is also a chance that i im not ready for that. Then Tilly she will be in a right state then go blaming this whole thing on herself and i cant let her deal with that knowing i wont be there to help her, comfort her at night when she needs me'.

'Jen please you cant do this to Tils she thinks the world of you. Tell you what you can come to mine and we can sort this out properly, you two can talk upstairs while me, Sinead and Bart are downstairs, but then at least you have tried'.

' Ok Mads i will trust you on this one'

i can see Maddie stand up with a big smile on her face i hope that its going to be good i say to myself.

' right guys come on were off to mine all of us'

i really don't want to go back to Maddies i want to sort this out with Jen im going to have to say something.

'Mads thanks for the offer but im going to leave it i need to sort things out with Jen i will maybe pop round later'

'God Tils the last bit i just said ALL OF US Jens coming with us you spoon'

' Oh right ahaha good then im coming too'

we all set off to Maddies house which is round the corner from college so its about a 15 minute walk. we finally get there and we all rush in as its freezing outside. As we get in i went past Jen and touched her i didn't mean too but i could tell she was longing for my touch.

i say ' Maddie where are me and Jen going to talk. That's if you still want to talk Jen'.

' Erm go to my bedroom Tils and if you make up no funny business okay you two, you know my walls are thin, and i don't think we all want to here you two having fun when were not'

we both start laughing i think typical Maddie.

i can tell Jen is embarrassed by this.

' So Jen you want to go up so we can speak then '

' Yeah sure lead the way'

We both start to make are way up with stairs, then i hear wit woo go Tils from Bart, Maddie and Sinead. i found this funny and had to laugh.
we get to Maddies bedroom and we both sit nervously on the bed getting ready to talk.

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