October 26th - November 2st

"I will not be told what to do. We need to teach her that even though she might be useful she does not give me orders."

I was having a nice dream. It was about being home with my family having a normal halloween. We had carved so many pumpkins that most of them would not fit on our front porch. This was quite a pleasant dream, but it soon turned sour as the pain run through my veins. I opened my eyes but found my surrounding still dark. The edges of my vision were colored white from the pain. I screamed and screamed and screamed. I pulled at my hair, at my skin, and at my clothes. I wasn't able to blink because my muscles were permanently stuck in a tensed state. My body flopped around in the dirt that laid under my form. The agony that ran through my body was unexplainable in a single world. Every pain I had ever experienced, I could feel again plus so much more. My viens felt like ice and fire at the same time. With each beat of my heart it sent shards of ice and flames through my entire body. Every muscle spasmed and would continually to spasm unhindered by movement. I twisted and turned trying to find a way to stop this unbearable pain.

Though my vision was limited I could make out a figure watching me with a wand pointed at me. I could hear the whispering laughter that emanated from it. Tears stained my face as my wailing continued. Through few moments of observation I found that I was in the Forbidden Forest. I would catch small glimpses of eyes watching me from different creature that lived in the forest. I had no clue how long he watched me twitch and wiggle like a worm before he released me. The moment he released the spell I felt my body just stop moving. I was on my stomach staring at his feet unable to even move my eyes. Every part of my body would twitch every few seconds from the sudden stop of the spasms. My mouth was left agape as I did my best to force myself to breath. I heard a sneer and barely watched him leave me there.

I laid there unmoving for some time before I heard a figure in the distance with a dog as they grew close to me. Hagrid? Everything was numb and I could barely moderate my body functions. Inhale, exhale, Inhale, exhale, Inhale, blink, exhale, Inhale, exhale, Inhale, blink, and exhale. I felt a wet noise next to my neck and I recoiled from it and pulled myself into a tight ball. My body still twitching I hid myself the best I could.

"Fang, what do yo-. Oh," He moved faster to me. He touched my shoulder softly and I jerked, a spasm following. He withdrew his hand but soon picked me up with great protest from my body. I didn't mean to struggle against him but my body did it by itself. I deserve this, I should have thought harder how to talk to him. I should have known he would do something like this. "Don't worry we'll get you to the hospital wing," Hagrid had me hard against his chest to keep me from flopping out of his arms as he carried me to the castle. It was a long sleepless walk with the pain still fresh in my mind. I couldn't keep my eyes shut longer than a blink. My eyes didn't move just stayed in the same position. I was scared that if I moved them the pain would start again.

Soon Hagrid had set me on a hospital bed as the nurse there looked at me in a strange way. She forced medications into my system and after a couple of hours resisting them I found myself in a dreamless sleep.

My body twitched and I woke instantly. I didn't move just stared at the side table that had flowers and a card on it. Unblinking I heard voices close by me.

"She hasn't moved in a couple days, is she alright?" A voice I assumed was Dumbledore but I wasn't sure. Everything sounded raw and different. But who else would have cared to check up on me?

"Her vitals are fine but for some reason she doesn't move. From what I can tell it's do to prolonged torture from the Cruciatus Curse. For this type of reaction she must have been tortured for at least a few hours. Her mind is telling her that since this was the last position that the pained stopped, it's the only safe position to be in. Who would do this to her?" I felt eyes on my back as I willed my body to move. So such luck.

"I don't know but there will be an investigation on it. Call for me when she's awake." The sounds of his footsteps walking away told me the conversation was over. The nurse walked over to me to check on me and I closed my eyes. I didn't want to be questioned.

"Mrs. Pomfrey, there's been an accident on the quidditch field we need you right away," A girl called from the doorway. The nurse grabbed her things and followed them cursing about how there is always someone getting themselves hurt.

When I was sure she was gone, I forced myself up. Everything was stiff from not having moved in such a long time. I forced my eyes to find an object that could tell me the time and date. After only moments of stiff eye movements I found a calendar and a clock. It was November first. I had slept through Halloween. Fuck me, I wanted to go trick or treating. I made a stiff face and walked slowly out. It took me longer than I liked to admit to make it to the dorm room and change into robes. I need to pretend that nothing happened and that I am fine. I heaved my book bag over my shoulder and made my way through the school. Today, I had double potions with Snape and the second part of the class had already started.

I peaked through the door to see that Snape was talking and writing on a chalk board. Everyone had their eyes down taking notes. Perfect. I slipped through the door and found my seat close to the back next to Aaron. He briefly looked up and did a double take and just stared at me. I ignored him as I pulled out a notebook and started writing, acting if nothing was odd. He didn't stop staring. He looked from Snape to me, trying to figure if it was worth making a scene or not. He decided against it and continued taking notes. Every so often he would look at me to make sure I was ok.

Snape turned to talk to the class and he stopped for a second or so when he laid eyes on me but continued without a hitch. The class was as normal any other until it ended. As Snape released us and I started to pack I felt hand on my arm.

"Are you ok? What happened? What are you doing here? You were asleep for almost a week and you just walk back in here as if nothing happened," He was talking in hushed tones but some people looked over in curiosity.

"Nothing happened, I was just tired,"I gave him a smile as I had finished backing my bag. Though he gave a look that he didn't believe me, before he could protest he was interrupted by a certain potions professor.

"Miss Chizmar I think you forget you have the evenings with me," Snape spoke and I nearly jumped. He was standing right in front of us. His eyes on me then turned to Aaron. "You may leave." Aaron glared at Snape then looked at me. Not finding what he was hoping to see from my face he stormed out, obviously pissed off. I sat down back in my chair and looked at Snape.

"How was the Troll? Or rather how is your leg?" I leaned forward and looked at his right leg. Though the pant leg wasn't torn, it looked like he was favoring his left. I should have warned him to be careful, not that he would have listened but at least I could have said I told you so.

"Has the Headmaster talked to you?" He ignore me, as per usual.

"No, I don't wanna be questioned. Nothing happened, I just slept walked into the forest and walked into a tree," I kept my gaze low not wanting to lie straight to Snape's face. I felt bad enough lying to him. Though if I had told him the truth he would have been more mad at me for revealing myself to Lord Voldemort.

"Don't lie to me, the Headmaster wants answer and so do I. If necessary I will get Veritaserum and we will force you to tell us." his tone grew dark and it reminded me of Voldemort.

"So instead of torturing me, your just gonna force me to bend to your will with a truth serum. That totally makes yall different from him," I let my eyes fall as the memory of that night played on the brim of my mind. I heard Snape get taken back from my comment. I shifted my gaze up and he held pity in his eyes as he watched me. "I didn't tell him anything, I swear. Ya'll secrets are safe. I know that what ya'll really wanted to know." I watched him react to my words.

"Your friend was worried about you and so was Dumbledore." He turned from me and I dropped my gaze, "Glad to hear that only two people in the existence care of my pain." I stood and grabbed my stuff and left the room. I don't know why my chest hurt the way it did. Ok, that's a lie, I knew why but I'd rather not accept it as the reason. I bit my lip as I walked slowly to the girl dorm room and quickly found my bed. Even though I had almost slept for a week my body and mind were still exhausted from that night.

Snape had informed Dumbledore about me being fine that everything was still safe. Dumbledore asked him a few questions that he answered and that was the end of it. They wouldn't bring up again to me or would ask me about what happened.

I didn't dream that night as my eyes slowly opened. I was on my back which was odd since I slept on my side or stomach more often than not. I didn't put too much thought into it as I rolled out of bed in my normal spider like manner and dressed with ease. I wasn't in a mood to deal with much of anyone today. I was still in a foul mood since yesterday. Walking down the stairs I soon found myself in the common room where I avoided Aaron and continued into the castle. I made my way back to Quirrell's room and entered without knocking and shut the door behind me. Quirrell was about to put on is act when he saw it was me and couldn't help but smile at me.

"Message received," I said in a muted tone and walked to stand in front of his desk. "Was my prediction correct?" He was a little taken back that I was this close to him but he shrugged it off.

"Yes, you were quite right that Snape stopped us and we were not able to get passed that damn dog," He stood and started to circle me as he observed me. "Oh did you enjoy the Cruciatus Curse? I was quite surprised you didn't spill random secrets and beg for death." He played with a lock of hair for a moment waiting for my response. I had to use every muscle in my body to not flinch away from him.

"Oh it was lovely, I enjoyed twitching like a dead animal," the sarcasm leaked through my words, but this made him smile more.

"Do you know how I can get passed the brute of a beast?" He was now in front of me again, sitting back in his chair as he watched me.

"Yes, but that's not information I can give you my Lord," I watched as I could see him grow mad and already start to plan my downfall again. "If I tell you and change how things are going then I can't guarantee the future. For now, my Lord you need to follow a certain time line to get to point where we can change things to help you win the war." I looked down from him as I let what I said sink in.

"How long must I wait before you become useful?" He was writing something down as he awaited my response.

I mentally thought of that answer. This year he will be destroyed, next year the chamber of secrets gets opened and the first horcrux will be destroyed which is the journal, third year will be when Sirius escapes and Harry finds out that Wormtail is the reason his parents die, and fourth year is the triwizard tournament where he will be reborn. "Four years, you will be able to fully formed and be ready to command your army," He had been watching me as my eyes had glazed over while I mentally fixated the point when he would come back.

"Four years!? Why do I have to wait four years when I have a seer that can help me get a new form faster?" He was mad as I could hear him hissing from the turban.

"Every other alternate time like where you get your body before that ends with you losing My Lord. I urge you to wait not for lack of time but for you to win when you do come back." He was still steaming as I spoke. He glared daggers at me.

"When the time comes and I find you not to be as useful as you claim to be, I will make you suffer until you do wish for death," He growled at me and then Quirrell turned back to his work looking a little paler since The Dark Lord pulled so much energy from him from being mad at me.

"Yes my Lord, I wouldn't have it any other way," I let out a small bow and left the room. I let my shoulder drop and walked with my eyes closed. Talking with him wore me out, and now every time I saw Quirrell I remember the pain of that night. I sighed and turned a corner and ran smack straight into someone. I wasn't walking with enough force to knock the person over nor did I have the energy to pull away. For a few moments I just let myself rest in his chest. This rather relaxing, I thought until I heard him clear his voice. I pulled away and I felt a small blush run across my cheeks as I looked up to see Snape looking down at me with an eyebrow raised.

"Sorry Snape, I'm a little out of it," After I said that I remember I was mad at him and quickly dropped the blush and replaced it with a glare and walked around him. I didn't want to deal with him yet.

"Miss Chizmar, I need to speak with you," I heard him call for me but I ignored him. Though he would be mad at me, I didn't care. I made a run for it. I zoomed back students in my efforts to find a safe hiding place when I remember Fred and George's secret place. After I made sure Snape wasn't following me, I made my way up the stairs to the hideout in the left most tower of the school. No one was up here so I had it all to myself as I found myself sitting in one of the windows. I saw Snape walking across the courtyard looking pissed off as he looked for me. I couldn't help myself but snicker as he looked more like a bat then ever when he walked like that. I'll get through this, and I'll be able to save them. I'll be able to keep everyone alive, I know I can. Most of all, I'll keep Snape alive to see Harry name his son's middle name after him. I let my eyes watch as Snape continued his search me for with a smile on my face. Yea, I can do this.

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