Chapter 6: Fly around in circles

A/N:Just saying this one thing: This is based off of real things- from where? I will not tell, it's confidentual! Everything I mention, really did happen somewhere- sometime, like I said, confidentual stuff here.

Okay, so let me try to say this again,

I'm...j-je-jealous?

But why should I be? It was nothing more than help, and he needed help.

But I wanted to be the one holding him.

Growing strong, dreaming on. I crave more.

Closer.

Closer.

Closer.

"Roxas! Are you okay? What happened?!" My small legs carry themselves towards Roxas's figure, limping around.

"R-Roxas, wh-what is it?" I ask, reaching out to touch his snaps away and walks right past me, Xion on his side. I swing over to her, "Xion? What is it?"

She looks at me, hurt. "I thought you were our friend." She mumbles and looks away, walking away.

What?

What did I do wrong?

"Namine, what's upppp?" Kairi danced around me, shaking her hips in a happy mood. "Why the long face? Get a B+ on your test? Awww." She teases.

I bite my lip, and frown.

"You're going to trace blood if you keep biting like that." She mentions and pats my shoulder. "What is it?"

"Roxas-and Xion, they-" I start, looking Kairi into her steel eyes.

She raises a hand for me to stop. "Don't worry about them. If they hurt you once, they probably will again." She says.

"But I don't even know why they are mad at me! I didn't do anything to them!" I protest squeaking like a child that I was acting like.

"They're not very nice if they didn't even tell you what you did. Don't wooz your cute little head about it!" She said, ruffeling my hair.

Something about her was-suspicious.

- - - - - - -

I couldn't restrain it when I heard Xion and Roxas in the abandond place that I un-locked this morining. I had to talk to them. It was inevitable to not talk to them.

"What do you think she did in here?" I heard the faint voices from upstairs.

I carried my little legs up the stairs and tried to follow the voices upstairs.

They were turned, back towards me, so they didn't hear me or see me coming at them.

I proceeded to let them know where I was at all cost, I wanted them to see that I was here, that I knew where they were. I wanted an explaination from them.

I knocked on the door and Xion shrieked, grabbing on to Roxas's shirt as they turned to me.

"What are you doing here?" Xion says very slowly.

I fumble for a minute thinking, "I, I needed to talk to you two." I look to the floor.

"About what?" Roxas hissed, stepping towards me in a threatening format. "So that you can spread more rumors about me? So you can let your 'friends' know how cool you are insulting us?!" He rages.

"I don't know what I did!" I cry loudly, clutching my chest, I've always had problems, keeping my heart still when I was mortified or high on emotion.

"You spread those mean things about Roxas! When another kid started to tease and mock him about it, Roxas snapped and thats how the fight went on!" Xion walks towards me but Roxas pulls her back.

"She knows what happened." He assure her.

"But I don't, Roxas, I don't!" I scream at them, scared and angry. Sad and hurt. "What are you saying?"

"You mean, what did Kairi say? The person I was in a fight with was Axel." Roxas glared. "Yes, her brother!"

I shake my head, "But I still don't understand!"

They both proceede to walk towards the door I was right next to, "Oh, but you do, I know you do." Roxas hisses as he passes me.

I stay still. Listen to the door close, sink down to the floor.

And cry.

I close the windows curtains and stride towards my closet.

Hiding place.

I hear the scream downstairs, hear the yells of threat.

I've had it. I've yelled at them about it before. I told them all of it! I told them how hard I was working before, ho much I wanted them to stay together.

But my opinion doesn't matter.

It still went on and I had problems. I developed paranoia.

Now they're screaming and I gave up.

No more yelling, "JUST GET A DIVORCE!" No more crying and pleading for them to stop. No more of it all. I gave up. If they think I would do this again then they would be wrong. So wrong they would be...

The sound of breaking glass. The sound of a bloody scream. The sound of death.

My eyes go wide and stay in horror as I lean under my bed sheets and hold my ears to block all sounds.

"Why don't they just leave each other alone?" I ask myself.

I hear the door slamming shut, the car starting.

It's over for today.

I walk downstairs and listen to the sobs, leading me to the door, closed off.

No knocks this time, I will not do it.

I will only cry again.

- - - - - - -

"Hey, how's it goin'?" Kairi stormed towards me, I felt 2 familiar looks on my back as I did not even dare to look behind me.

"Family. I hate it." I quietly spoke, trying to push it out of the way.

"Hey, did you hear-" She started.

I remembered, Roxas, Xion.

"Stop." I order her, standing still in my tracks, not moving forward with her as she turns back to look at me in wonder.

"What is it?" She asked, furrowing her eyebrows.

"You- what did you do?!" I cry and almost shout at her loudly, clutching her shoulders.

Kairi tilted her head. "What do you mean?"

"You said those things about Xion and Roxas! You spread it?! WHY?" I cry. "Don't you want me to be happy at all?" I restrain the tears from falling.

I let my hands fall from Kairi's shoulders. "Namine, I was trying to protect you. Sometime, you'll understand." Kairi spoke, between her clenched teeth.

"From what?! FROM HAVING A LIFE?! OTHER FRIENDS?" I scream at her and turn to run away.

How could she do this to me?