My most important man...

by Kaiya Sara

24 december...

-Those boxes there?Hotaru asked as she helped Usaghi with her package.She was helping her with moving her old man's things back in the house...her parentes where divorced but now reconciled.
-Yes...next to the lamp please!Usaghi desperatly voice came from down.
Hotaru put the box down and stoped to catch her breath.She was dressed in a black sweater with neck and all,white pants,a silver black belt and low boots.Her hair was tied up in a ponytail.She breath relaxed and then when she was about to go down,she was stopped by Usaghi's sudden appearence.
-There're more!Hotaru asked amazed at the view of Usaghi's box.
-The last one...FINALLY!she said as she put it down.
Then she sat,almost crushed better said on the couch.
-Stay with me..she invited.
-Of course.
After a moment of silence Usaghi began.
-Hotaru...I heard from Sesshoumaru.
-Usaghi if you're mad that I went there when he was there,please I'm really sorry!I have-
-No problem Hotaru...I know you care so much about him like Kurama did but...I care at you in the same way...You're my sister Hotaru...I'm worried about you...This isn't normal.
-What isn't?
-Leaving the hospital like that even if you where fine...In the blizer...You could of died...she said worried.
-But I didn't...it seems...the raiven hair beauty said almost shaking-I didn't...it seems that I'm not...allowed yet.
-Oh Hotaru...I can't say I know how you feel because I don't know...But I can understand!You where so happy with him.
-I was yes...she said teary.
-Don't cry!You have to...accept that...he is not here anymore...and move on with life.
Hotaru stood,and Usaghi thought she was looking wonderfull,standing like that...from that angle...she was looking like the princess she really was.
-I know that too...But it's too soon...And besides...she said placing hands on her chest.I have him...here.Never to leave...Usaghi.
-Hotaru.
Hotaru's gentle eyes looked at her princess.
-I'll keep singing...for him.The only reason...For him.
-Are you sure?
-Yes...if I'll sing I'll be even closer to him.
Silence came upon them both.A music began to sing in the silence...A gentle song...The song of life...But Hotaru wasn't ready to accompany that song yet.
-Then...let's spend the night together...Like we used too...Usaghi proposed smiling.
-No.
-Why?
Hotaru sat in her knees to face her.
-Because tonight and the next one you have to be with Seshsoumaru-sama.
Usaghi blushed.
-You love him don't you?
Nodd.
-Then love him...with no stopps...love him while you have him with you...Show him your love even if he's not responding like Kurama did with me...He has his own kind of way to be...Accept it...And be happy.
Next,Usaghi was crying.
-Why...are you crying?a voice came and the girls saw Sesshoumaru in the door,with few boxes.
-Ses...Sesshoumaru!Usaghi gasped.Why are you here?
-Came to help...he whispered and then looked at the other girl.You make her cry?She doesn't need to carry the pain you say you feel too!he growled.
Hotaru said nothing and stood.
-I'll be leaving you..See you Usaghi.
Sesshoumaru glared her as she left.
-You got it wrong!Usaghi bursted and standing,she threaten him with a finger.She was only advicing me!
-Advicing?Her?She wasn't even able to keeep HIS child! he grolwed in anger and droped the box slowly down.
A terrible noise,like breaking glass was heard and the two of them rushed down.They saw Hotaru on the stairs,shaking...she was in shock...she just had hit a picture from the hall wall and breaked the glass.Her right hand was bleeding.Sesshoumaru said nothing but looked closely at the fragile form...he just...smashed her again...wounded her...with this secret.
-C...child?she mumbled.
Usaghi came and took her hand in ehrs only to be refused.
-You lost his child in the accident...Sesshoumaru began cruel.
-Sesshouamru stop!Usaghi yelled.Look what you do to her!
-He died protecting you and his child...he knew about it after I told him...I'm a doctor saw I heard it at the hospital where you were...You where in 2 months.But you couldn't even keep it!Was it so hard!
-Stop it...Hotaru whispered as she rememebered.Her head began to hurt as she turned her now tearing eyes to him.Stop it.
-Stop!I din't even began!You lost his child after all happened!He did so many for you,he fought father so he could remain a singer...for who?For YOU!And you.
Slap.
Not Hotaru.Usaghi.
-How can...you?she asked crying.I don't know you...you monster!she yelled.
When she turned to Hotaru she wasn't there anymore.The house door was open wide...Hotaru runed thru the snow,her tears freezing on her face..

Flashback..

-Can you feel him?the doctor asked.
Hotaru's emotioned face formed a smile as she hugged her belly.
-Somehow...I do.
-Well,if you decide not to have him.
-Not too?
-You know well your condition...You are not able too.
-I'll keep him.
-But...it will only get worse your-
-I'll keep him!I love him already...It's part of me.
-You're brave...but having a child it means.
-I know what it means...but I ...like I said...I love him.

End of flashback...

Usgahi's shaking frame was holded by Sesshouamru's strong arms.
-I was taking away.
-But you didn't mean it don't you?
-I can't say that.
-Oh Sesshoumaru...how could you say that to her?
-It was the truth.
-You don't know all of it!she gasped as she realised she was talking too much.
Sesshoumaru's golden eyes fixed her.
-What do you mean?
-Well...I.
-Tell me.
-I can't!It was a secret!
-Usaghi.
-If Kurama would of known...he would of forced her to not have the child she loved so much!Usaghi sobbed.
-She was forbbidened to have any...kids...She developed...Cancer.
Sesshouamaru's eyes narrowed.
-Cancer?
-Yes...and I'm not kidding.
-There is no such thing at having cancer there when you're already pregnant...only if...he said as his face went pale,rememebering Hotaru's always to be fragile state.
-She kept it a secret for him too...Having such a diseas was nothing new for her but...She wanted to have his child...Knowing it was what he wanted the most...So she...kept it...Wishing it herself...You hurt her so bad Sesshoumaru...She always said that she eventualy die...The cancer would od develope even if she wasn't having the child...Spreading to her throat...affecting her voice...And then die...But so...she wanted him to have someone...it was all-she said-all she could give him...And for you too.
-Me?he asked surprised.
-She knows...I can't...you know...And the child was for both of you...She wished for him to have Kurama parts...but also soemhow to have the power of your...eyes...Sharp eyes like she sais...Not beeing able to lie.
Sesshoumaru was speechless.
-For you to have a child thru her...And I helping you 2 growing him up.
-It's like...she made her...will after death.
-Yes...because..after Kurama...you're her most important man.
His heart sank as he realised what he did...he looked over the window and imagined her,runing thru the snow...Hurt and dissapointed...He stabed her again...Maybe he did something taht can't be undone...Was her heart...so strong for such big emotionally pain?