Dear Diary,
So I made my mind up to dump Henry and boy did I do just that! I didn't want to hurt him badly though, I only wanted to make it clear to him that we are no longer and there will never be an 'us' ever again. I think it worked...but here's how it went...
So I walked into the library before
homeroom, knowing full well that Henry would be there – studying of
course – he's so boring that way (I can't believe I even liked
him that much). Anyway, so I walked over to the desk he was
sitting at and started the ball rolling. He was really happy to see
me, grabbing my hands and holding them in his as he got excited
making plans for us to catch up and hang out – but all I could do
was wear a fake smile and appear excited too. Then it hit me! I was
leading him on! I couldn't have that happen, so I cut the crap and
butted in.
I started off by explaining to him that I wasn't
truly happy in our relationship and that I was kidding myself into
thinking that I was in love with him (here I was not wanting to hurt
they guy and there he was confused as ever!). I went on to say that
whilst he was away on camp, I had time to think about where it was
going – which was nowhere, and with that realisation, I made the
decision to end it all and start fresh – without him.
I didn't
dare want to bring Gio into the story (even though he was the major
reason for me leaving Henry) but he knew that it was all Gio's
fault for our breakup. I saw it when his eyes changed from saddened
to vengeful. Uh-oh I thought – now there's going to be trouble.
Thankfully, the bell went and I headed off to homeroom.
When I got to the room, no one had turned up as yet. So I sat down at my table and started to write a quick note whilst waiting. Gio arrived a few minutes later and took his usual seat - next to me. Before he could do anything though, I slid him the note that I was writing earlier. I needed to tell him what I had done and to be prepared. After reading the note, he nodded and winked at me. Henry then walked in and my stomach started to do somersaults. I didn't know what to expect, I've never seen Henry really angry before. However, he seemed pretty tame. All he did was shoot us a disgusted look and saunter off to a free desk down the back (Gio had taken his seat (as well as his girlfriend hehe) whilst he was gone – I guess that's not going to help the situation).
Anyway, for the whole of today, Gio and I hardly spoke. We didn't want to cause any more trouble today. Oh how much I miss him so much. Sure he was there the whole time, but it was like he was in a bubble and I couldn't talk to him...touch him...kiss him... (ok ok maybe I'm getting a little carried away there...)
The day continued and was full of stares and glances from not only Henry, but the others in the class. Obviously word had gotten out that I broke up with him, but gossip was flying faster than a snitch about what's going on between me and Gio. Funny thing is, there's nothing going on --- yet! hahaha
The end of the day couldn't come
fast enough. Although, as it neared, I felt a heavy weight being
lifted off my chest. The last bell rang and my heart leapt for joy! I
was free! (sounds like it was a prison sentence LOL) So I packed up
my things and headed out the door faster than ever before. I was
excited to tell Hilda what I had done today – I know she didn't
understand what I saw in Henry (and thinking about it now, I'm not
so sure either!) but she did like Gio a lot more (mind you, she had
only ever spoken to him when he called the house. She said he was
very polite and sounded charming. But get this, as I was running
through the school grounds, I heard my name being called out. I
stopped and turned around and saw Gio following me. He asked me if I
wanted some company walking home!! WOW! He's so sweet – how could
I not fall for this guy!?!? Anyway, long story short, he walked me
home WHILST HOLDING MY HAND!!! Not once did he let go! And when he
had to, he was hesitant (I won't deny it, so was I) but I had to go
inside - Hilda was peeking from the window and I could tell that she
waiting for me to 'spill it'.
Anyway, so it seemed a bit
awkward when it came to saying bye for the night, but Gio just knows
how to put someone at ease! He lifted the hand he was holding and
kissed it gently. Looking into my eyes afterwards, I shied away
feeling embarrassed. I don't know why – this was THE sign
I was after. Heck, walking home with me was a sign! We had such a
wonderful time. I don't think we've ever covered so many topics
before! Although, neither of us brought up what was going to happen
with us. Is it too soon? Do I wait? Does he want to wait? I have to
ask these questions. But what if he's just playing around with me
and doesn't want anything at all?? Nah! He wouldn't have held my
hand and kissed it if he didn't want more. (Hilda's right).
So this is what it feels like to be in love...
Suarez xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
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