Chapter 6
"Lexa! Lexa! Lexaaaaa!" Octavia sang outside of Lexa's door, knocking on it occasionally. "I know you're in there!"
The door swung open, suddenly to reveal a very dour alpha. "What Octavia?" Lexa growled.
"Oof what happened to you sour puss." Octavia teased to get the door slammed in her face.
"You disappeared for four days!" Lexa yelled through the door. "What the hell happened!? '
"Open the door and I will tell you." Octavia replied.
"No." Lexa denied cold.
"Oh come on Lexa! I bonded with Raven!" Octavia dangled the nugget of news in front of the door certain Lexa would bite.
The door opened again swiftly. "Bitch better not be lying." Lexa glared.
Octavia forced her way into Lexa's apartment before the door could be closed on her again. "I'm not Lying. And I will tell you all about it if you talk to me about what happened with Clarke."
"Did she talk to you? Did she want to see me again!? What happened!? She ran off! She never said anything! She left her packer! She didn't even finish breakfast!" Lexa questioned to a cadence of her turbulent mind, impatient and anxious.
"So she stayed long enough for you to cook breakfast! Go you!" Octavia smiled.
"What do you know that I don't. Why didn't you answer?" Lexa snapped too perceptive for her own good.
"No. She didn't ask. And no she said she doesn't want to see you again." Octavia admitted. "I… ok." Lexa stepped back, finally unable to deny the reality of the situation that she already had known for days now. "Yeah... Totally, ok. I... I understand." Lexa stumbled backward nodding trying to process it.
"Lexa." Octavia started.
"No, no I… it makes total sense. I get it. Who wants to fuck a widow with dead cousin baggage."
"Lexa!" Octavia yelled snapping Lexa from her own head. "You wanna know what Raven said?"
"Pfft I don't care, what Raven said doesn't matter to me, why would I care about what Raven said. I don't know what you are talking about." Lexa spoke faster by the moment mirroring her mile a minute mind.
"Wow, she was right. Damn Raven is magic. And geez you are losing it hun." Octavia sighed worried for her friend.
"I'm not losing anything! And I don't need to hear about your omega's pussy!"
"Dear god, so not what I meant, that said. Raven does this thing" Octavia began an intensely complex hand gesture before she stopped herself "not the time Octavia." She reminded herself.
"Well!? What did Raven say!?" Lexa asked impatient.
"You really wanna know?"
"Yes, Octavia!" Lexa snapped.
"She said Clarke loves you!" Octavia sang.
"She uugh pfft, totally not true no way, I... Love?" Lexa questioned intrigued.
"No! No way, she won't even call me, she totally doesn't love me, you are crazy!" Lexa ranted literally pacing in circles as she spoke.
"You two are so cute." Octavia cooed.
"You think!?" Lexa turned to Octavia hopeful.
"Dear god, she has a fucking summer cottage up there, doesn't she?" Octavia tapped on Lexa's forehead.
"I... Pfft. I don't know what you're talking about."
"Sure. Then explain to me why your scent reeks of trying to mark territory." Octavia smiled smug.
"I..." Lexa gave up.
"You love her!" Octavia echoed her sing-songy voice from earlier.
"I…" Lexa was done fighting.
"She is scared hun. You just need to talk to her. Raven said it was just that Clarke got scared by how strong her feelings were. But she is too embarrassed By what happened to face you." Octavia explained.
"That's ridiculous. She was nothing but beautiful, cute, and human, sexy and perfect. She has nothing to be embarrassed over!" Lexa replied.
"So. Go, grab her dick that she left here, go get that girl, give her back her dick and then if she wants, give her an extra one too!" Octavia smiled cheekily.
"No." Lexa answered confident.
"No!?" Octavia yelled in shock.
"No."
"Lexa you literally have the best excuse to go see her! She left her dick in your house!" Octavia couldn't help but laugh.
"Octavia the answer is no." Lexa insisted.
"What the hell Lexa! You love this girl!" Octavia yelled.
"I barely know her, we spent one night together and she doesn't want to see me." Lexa reasoned.
"Lexa I love you to death, but I can't believe you are being such a lying bitch right now." Octavia snapped cold.
"Octavia." Lexa gasped hurt.
"You know exactly who the hell I am talking about!"
"Don't you fucking dare!" Lexa snapped back. "You are defying her last fucking wish!" Octavia went there, cold and unwavering.
"You have no right!"
"When you betray her last breaths!? I have all the right!" Octavia yelled.
"She was my wife, she was just a friend to you." Lexa yelled.
"She was my best friend! I introduced you two!" Octavia growling, baring her teeth.
"You still have no damn right." Lexa mirrored Octavia.
"You promised her! I was there with you as you held her hand and she had one final request of you! 'if you find someone; someone you even have the slightest inkling that you've found someone you can love as much as you love me. Don't you dare hold back. Chase them with everything you have. And don't let go. Just like you did with me. ' You promised her, held her hand as she faded. And if you just let Clarke slip away without a word you forsake that promise, and you know it. If you didn't agree you wouldn't argue with me about it." Octavia quoted costia as tears began to fall to the floor from both of them, missing a woman that meant so much to them, the reason they became so close over the past two years, costia never wanted the women she loved most to be alone.
Lexa stood silent, tears flowing from her as she processed.
"I'm texting you Raven's number, she can give you a time and or place to see Clarke if you change your mind. I hope you do. Raven and I both see how happy you two could be together if you got your heads out of your asses. But we can't pull them out for you." Octavia finished cold as she turned and headed home, leaving Lexa alone in her apartment once more, haunted by the ghost of costia that lived in each picture she still had up of each of them together, the memories staring her down, the epitome of peer pressure from someone no longer there to push. Lexa collapsed crying missing the woman she loved and lost as to what to do next.
End of chapter 6