The Royal Guard
by little brown sumo
AN: I don't own Sailor Moon. Some lemony scenes. Originally I had planned to write this story from Mamoru's perspective, but as each chp comes along its been more from Usagi's perspective. I guess I should have titled this the story The Earth Queen instead of the The Royal Guard, but whatever. I hope you guy like this chp. It's a bit longer than the others, I hope its not too rushed. Let me know how you liked it. Thanks!
Chapter 6: Action Reaction
Every Sunday Usagi took a pregnancy test she had stolen from the castle's medical unit. Every Sunday it was negative until today. Usagi was, at most, a week pregnant. It was prefect timing really, she had to go back to Earth this week to make the Harvest Celebrations. She should feel happy, relieved, accomplished. But all she could feel was a heavy weight in her stomach and she doubted it was the baby. The blue Earth hung outside her window, shining at her, glaring at her. She didn't want to leave the Moon, didn't want to face the repercussions of her decision. She wanted to create a world where she would spend her life with Mamoru, raise this child with him, grow old with him, and love him eternally, the way she was meant to. But such a world did not exist, it would never exist. Sapphire was right, loving someone and not having them was bullshit. Usagi destroyed the pregnancy test and got ready. She was meeting Mamoru at the cottage before breakfast. She put on a wispy cream dress, it was Mamoru's favorite, small diamond earrings and light makeup.
They both arrived at the cottage at the same time from different directions. Usagi pulled her horse up next to his and said "follow me." She led him deeper into the forest; the trees became thicker, whiter, their silver leaves reflecting the morning light. After a few minutes Mamoru could hear trickling water, the trees opened to clear blue pond with a tiny waterfall. There were a few flowers around the perimeter and mossy rocks. Usagi slipped off her horse and walked toward the pond, her dress swishing around her elegant frame. Mamoru stood by his horse and watched his lover. She slipped off her small shoes and pulled at the ribbons of her dress till it fell in a milky heap at her feet. She stood in skin and golden hair and Mamoru wondered if he had died, this must be heaven, all silver and gold with an angel waiting for his touch. He pulled off his own clothes as Usagi walked gracefully into the pond her hair swirling around her. Mamoru followed, surprised to find the water pleasantly warm. It was comfortably deep, they moved to the center, the water just under his pecs.
Usagi's skin was jumping, small shocks rippling through her. Would this be their last time together? Would he even miss her? She realized with sudden clarity why Sapphire had refused her. She could never be with anyone but Mamoru. She knew she would never 'get over it'. He had touched her too deeply. But what about Mamoru, would she be able to handle seeing him with other women, with a wife, with children? Small tears trailed down her round cheeks. 'Why did I do this? It wasn't worth it' she thought.
Mamoru brushed away her salty tears. "What's this Usako?"
"Mamo-chan" she whispered and hurled into his arms, hugging him tight. She wrapped her legs around his waist, water rippling around them as her light tears fell on his neck.
"Shh, Usako, what's wrong?" he said rubbing her bare back. She didn't say anything; he kissed her shoulder, her neck, whispered sweet things in her ear, told her the only time she should whimper is when he was teasing her body, licking her nipples. It made her smile, made her pull back and look into his sharp eyes. She placed a hand on his face, tracing his dark eyebrow, his jaw, her thumb grazing over his full lips.
"We should leave for Earth tonight. I…I'm pregnant."
Mamoru stilled for several moments until finally he brought his hand up to cover her stomach. Looking into her sad eyes he spoke quietly, desperately. "I love you, did you know that Usako? I'll always love you, I'll always want you."
He started kissing her, so sweetly. "Don't please" she whispered into his mouth "it's too much, I love you too much…Mamo-chan." But he didn't stop, he just kept kissing her softly, fucking her desperately, loving her hopelessly. They skipped breakfast, lying in a sunny patch of grass till Usagi's hair dried. She kissed his body, touched him, trying to memorize his feel, his scent. There were several long drawn out orgasms that day. Their cries, their gentle love, their beautiful affair filled the forest.
They left for Earth after dinner and it seemed like only moments ago this relationship had started and now…now it was over. Each day they inched toward home and further and further away from paradise.
Usagi and Mamoru found a few changes when they came back to the Earth Castle. October had painted oranges, reds, and yellows around the grounds. High Queen Amber started grilling her for gossip from the Moon Court the moment she arrived and Sapphire was…well he was well rested. Rei and Jadeite were engaged and much to Usagi's surprise Zoicite began courting Ami. The first days back she couldn't help but feel a bit robbed. The people around her seemed to find happiness, their loving glances heightened her sense of loss. Usagi tried to focus on the positives, she may have lost physical love with Mamoru but he was still around, she could still look at him, talk to him and she had gained a child, gained security. Wasn't that more important? She told herself it was.
The first days back were horrible for Mamoru, he had gotten so use to her body being around him. He swore he could smell sweet fragrance at night. A stiffness entered his body, he could never quite relax, always on edge. His was aching to kiss her, his mind in a constant worry. Now that he was back he began to see cracks in their plan. On the Moon everything seemed so perfect, so ideal, the plan, the affair, the love. But now Mamoru just thought about his King. How would Sapphire react to the news? He knew Usagi was confident Sapphire would forgive her, accept the baby. But Mamoru knew the King very well. He had stood by his King, seen him make every decision since he was thirteen. There was no way to predict how this would play out. He had seen Sapphire spread peace through out the land like no King before him but to get there the King had killed ruthlessly and punished harshly. There was a strange duality in the King, he ruled his kingdom with a kind soul but at times he displayed a cold, bitterly cruel heart. Everyday he tried to calm his fears, willed himself to believe Usagi was right. He did truly believe Usagi had made the right choice given the circumstances and so he had to believe Sapphire would judge her fairly and forgive her adultery. He had to have faith in choices of his leaders.
Soon things went back to the way they were. Usagi went to her lessons and ate her meals with the King. The training sessions with Mamoru stopped, partially because of her condition and partially because they both knew they couldn't be that close without revealing themselves. Usagi told no one of the pregnancy, she just waited, waited for it to become obvious. As the weeks passed Mamoru couldn't believe no one had noticed her pregnancy yet. Didn't they see her breast were larger, rounder? Her hair was shiner, her glowing skin? Sooner then she would have thought she fell into a normal routine. She saw Mamoru at court, random festivals, and dinner. Their old bantering relationship came back, there were moments when they slipped up, their comments become a bit too intimate. His love was still there, she could see it his eyes, moments when his gaze was a little too heated, lingering a little too long. But all and all Usagi and Mamoru were doing pretty well, emotions were pretty controlled, their behaviors very mature. The Harvest season was the busiest time of the year, organizing and preparing the castle and Kingdom for winter kept the lovers occupied and exhausted throughout the day. But at night, at night memories of their time on the Moon began to seem like an alternate reality, a recurrent dream that gripped your heart and tortured your soul.
The busy fall passed away to a cold winter. Usagi's pregnancy went into the third month. Her stomach had a small swell, it wasn't really noticeable as she was wearing very loose dresses and coats. Minako had shrieked with happiness when she saw it but Usagi swore her to silence till it became more pronounced. Up until now she hadn't really had any symptoms, but as soon as the third month came it was as if someone had lit a fire under her. She wanted Mamoru, badly. The winter days were boring; she just sat around her room or the library. Her thought completely consumed with Mamoru. Lust seemed to fog up her mind, drive all her thoughts. Suddenly everything reminded her of him. Water reminded her of the hot springs, breakfast of the time is licked and sucked sticky syrup off of her fingers, her clothes of the way he would undress her, and the Moon, the Moon reminded her of far too much. To make matters worse Mamoru had become lazy in the cold days and stopped shaving as frequently. His stubble made him look more masculine and sexier, if that was possible. Just the sight of him made her wet and she wondered if he could smell her when they were close. She would think of him, naked and coming beneath her. She would touch herself, but it wasn't enough, she needed Mamoru.
She became irritated and snappy. Soon all the servants were complaining about her ridiculous demands and poor behavior. When she sent back a plate of pancakes because the syrup was 'too sticky' Makoto howled in irritation. That night Mamoru ate dinner with the other Royal Guards and Makoto and Minako. All the girls did was complain about Usagi, how she sent all the food back for random reasons, how she would never pick a dress to wear, throwing her jewelry in random fits, how she snapped at them constantly. When Mamoru heard of her behavior his worry came back full force. Did the King know? Was the baby okay? Mamoru needed to see her, he decided it was time they met privately. 'Just to discuss developments' he told himself.
He waited for a Moonless night to visit her. Late at night he dressed in all black and wrapped a black cloth around his nose and mouth to mask his face. Swiftly and quietly he made his way through the Royal gardens. Tossing a rope up to her balcony he climbed up. Luckily the door wasn't locked, with a steady hand he pushed it open and slithered in. There was soft glow in the warm room from the crackling fire. It was quiet, 'she must be asleep' he thought. As he edged closer to the bed he began to hear soft moans and whispers. She was whispering his name, as if she knew he would come, as if she was calling him. Mamoru cautiously peaked through the heavy velvet curtains surrounding her bed. What he saw was permanently burned into his brain. There she was, his Queen, in a sheer night dress pulled up around her waist, one hand between her open legs her other arm above her head, moaning his name over and over. He couldn't move, he just watched her, watched the most beautiful woman perform the most erotic thing he had ever seen.
Usagi suddenly had a light feeling trickle across her neck, as if someone was watching her. Stopping her movements and opened her eyes to find a masked man peaking through her curtains. Before she could scream his gloved hand came down on her mouth. He pulled off his mask and Usagi was relieved to find Mamoru behind it. He pulled open the curtains letting the glowing firelight in and sat on her bed. For a moment neither could believe he was there. He pulled off his gloves and stroked her flushed cheek. How long had it been since he had touched her? As they looked at each other the sadness of separation, the tragedy of their love affair crept into their hearts. But then Mamoru smelled her arousal and smiled wide. "Well you obviously missed me." He pushed his hand in between her legs "I never knew I could inspire such wet dreams."
"Mamo-chan!" Usagi whispered. She pushed his hand away and threw a pillow at him.
"You know, technically I am your loyal servant. You could just order me to service you" he said with a laugh.
"Oh my God, stop it…men are suppose to say beautiful lines of poetry when they meet their secret lovers…but of course I pick and inappropriate comedian to be my lover" she said in a huff. Sitting up she fixed her nightdress and tried to smooth out some tangles in her hair. "What are you doing here? This is risky. No one saw you did they?"
"No, there's no Moon tonight, its way too dark and cold for anyone to have noticed me" he said. He hadn't realized how deeply depressed he had been without her until that moment. It was so nice to talk openly with her again. His heart and soul felt light and dizzy. He pulled her into his lap, welcoming the weight of her in his arms. "So, lovers are supposed to spout poetry?"
"Yes, not make crude comments" Usagi said turning her nose up and away from him. He couldn't resist placing an open kiss on her exposed neck. Her fingers went immediately to his silky black hair, her hips grinding slowly against him. His kisses trailed up to her ear. He whispered in a husky voice: "What do you want to hear Usako? How much I love you? Miss you? Ache for you?"
Her breath wavered. "No…No, I just want you inside me." She pulled off her night dress and rubbed herself wantonly against him, sucking and biting his lips, his ear, his neck. Groaning his threw her off and quickly stripped out of his dark clothes. For one moment he gazed at her open naked body, he grabbed her ankle he pulled her back. His hands at her hips he pushed into her fast, both groaning at the connection. He tried to stay calm but it had been so unbelievably long. The movements, the noises were all like before, but they felt new some how.
"My God" he groaned. Had there ever been anything as sweet as her willing, exposed, body beneath him?
"Harder" she whispered. Grabbing her thighs he pulled her to the edge of the bed, he was standing on the cold floor, her ass hanging off the edge. Grabbing as much of her as he could, made each thrust hard and deep. Her legs were wound tight around his back, her torso stretched and panting. She was a vision of raw desire. The need to satisfy her pulsed through him, he pounded into her at a steady pace till she came in swirls around him. She sucked him in so hard, contracted so tightly he could barely breathe when he came. For a few minutes he just stood there, inside her, basking in the completion, the gratification of the act. Eventually both pushed back into the bed, lying next to each other still breathing heavy, seeing stars. Mamoru placed his hand on the swell of her stomach and wondered if he had been too rough. She just curled into him, relief and satisfaction reflecting off her face.
Long quiet moments passed till finally Mamoru remembered why he had come, Usagi horrible behavior. "Usako?" She looked up and he couldn't resist kissing her pink lips. "Usako…people have been complaining about you lately. What's going on? Is something wrong? All I hear these days is how spoiled you've been acting." She pushed away from him, sitting up her back to him.
"Its nothing, nothing's wrong."
Sitting up he pulled on her shoulder "tell me Usako. Why are you making such crazy demands in the dead of winter? Makoto was shaking with anger the other day, you sending all the food back, the pancakes were too sticky?"
She pushed his hand away. "What would you know of my suffering? Everything I see reminds me of you" she accused. She pressed a hand to her mouth and let out a quiet sob his arms around her in seconds. "It wasn't so bad in the beginning, but lately I just, I just want you so much, all the time" she whispered. "I didn't know it would be this hard, I can't do this Mamo-chan. Just take me away from here, just take me away."
"Shh, I can't do that Usako. We"
She cut him off "Why not, why can't you take me away? We could go anywhere start a new life. Start a farm, live happily."
"That is a complete fantasy. We would be found easily. We have duties here, people depend on us, depend on our decisions. You said yourself this affair isn't about lust."
"But I didn't know I'd love you then, I didn't know the desires would be this strong. I didn't think this would happen. Why don't you want to be with me? Why aren't you suffering? You just get some tavern girl to take out your frustrations?" Usagi said her face red with anger.
Mamoru's eyes widened "Is that what you think?" He pulled her hand to his heart. "If you can't feel my love, can't see how much I worship you, you're too far away from reality. Open your eyes Usako, grow up, you are the Queen of Earth. You will not run away from your responsibilities, you will rule this planet till the day our son is turns eighteen and you will influence it for far longer. I will make sure of it."
His strong, righteous, voice was like a slap against her face. She hung her head in shame. He was right, she needed to grow up. The entire planet looked to her and Sapphire, their court, for guidance, for security. If the Queen and leader of the Royal Guard left it would create easy propaganda, men would start painting Sapphire as a weak pitiful man with a treacherous court. Wars would ensue and lives would be lost. He didn't deserve that, the people didn't deserve that. But she knew she needed Mamoru more than just physically, she needed his guidance, reassurance. The roads ahead would be harder, there had to be a way, a middle ground. "I'm sorry" she whispered. She kissed him. "I'm so sorry…but I…I need you Mamoru, I can't go this long again."
"I know, I know" he whispered. "Winter nights are long and cold, no one lingers around. When there is no Moon I'll come to you, I promise." He sat back against the headboard placing her between his legs, stroking her swelling stomach trying to calm her soul. Mamoru smiled boyishly behind her and said: "So what exactly am I doing to you in these masturbating fantasies you seem to have?"
"MAMO-CHAN!" He laughed as she slapped wayward hands against him and he had her again. Slowly this time, savoring and admiring her round form, marveling at the idea of his child inside her.
In the coming days Usagi's attitude went back to normal and all the servants were grateful for the sudden change. It was almost time for the New Year Celebrations and Usagi decided to announce her pregnancy at the ball. She wore a fitted ice blue gown her condition obvious. When she entered the lavish ballroom all eyes were on her and Sapphire's eyes, his eyes were unreadable, his eyes were cold. As the evening progress everyone was talking about the young Queen and her unborn child, chatting happily, cheering in celebration. High Queen Amber scolded Usagi for a good twenty minutes, she couldn't believe the couple had kept it hidden for so long. Amber was all smiles that night and soon the old woman was horribly drunk. Rei, Ami, Makoto, and all of the Royal Guards congratulated her, the girls squealing in excitement. For the first time Usagi began to enjoy her pregnancy, laughing and joking with her friends. Sapphire didn't speak to her once through out the night as if he hadn't noticed her condition. As the hours passed Usagi became tired and soon she retired for the evening. Minako helped her out of her dress, helped her get ready for bed and headed back to the Ball. Minutes after Minako left there was a knock on the door. "Come in" she said.
It was Sapphire. "Are there any servants in this room?"
"No" she said, gesturing for him to take a seat. He just stood, silent and staring at her stomach.
"I didn't expect this of you Usagi…Who is the father?"
"As far as the public is concerned you are."
He looked up into her eyes. "Who is the father?" each word was stressed, she could see his blood boiling inside him.
"No one of consequence, a Lunarian, I had an affair on the Moon with the intention of getting pregnant" she said clearly.
She must have said something wrong, Sapphire's rage bubbled out. He slapped her hard across the face and grabbed her fallen head by the hair harshly. His face was close, his voice cutting through her, "You little bitch. You think you and your brother can take over MY Kingdom, MY Planet, with this bastard? A Lunarian rule EARTH?! It's probably Crisium's child in that womb" he said with disgust pushing her to the floor.
"You go too far." Her face was hot and aching but her voice strong.
"I go too far. I asked nothing of you. Nothing. You couldn't just enjoy the luxuries of your status. You will never get the power you so obviously long for. The Moon will never control Earth!" Sapphire took a few heavy breathes trying to calm down. "If that child is girl I allow you to keep her. Regardless of who the father is I, and the Earth Kingdom, can benefit greatly from a Princess. I will marry her off at thirteen to the most politically advantageous match regardless of what you or the child wishes. And you better pray to every God you know you don't have a son. If you have a boy I will kill him. I will kill him the moment he leaves your treacherous womb and I will make you watch it, I will make you feel his blood on your fucking hands." Sapphire's voice was pure venom.
Usagi gasped. "You…You can't do that. Amber, Crisium, they won't let you"
"If my mother hears of your affair she will get rid of the child regardless of gender. No Earthling will ever protect you or your spawn, you are alone here. From this moment on every letter you write every word you breathe will be monitored. Crisium will hear nothing of this. You will not leave your chambers when Moon dignitaries visit my Kingdom." Bending down he grabbed her around the throat and squeezed. "Do not misinterpret my leniency, if you ever get pregnant again I will kill you…You obviously don't respect me but from this moment on, from this moment on you will fear me." He left the broken, gasping girl on the floor and went back to the Ball.