Chapter 5

I wake up with my mouth feeling like I've been eating moss in the Sahara desert. Bleugh! I reach for my nightstand, knowing I'll have a water bottle there. I reach out, unwilling to open my eyes to what will surely be the brightest day on record, hell this feels like the tequila hangover from hell!

Nothing, I feel nothing. No water, no nightstand... Where the hell am I now? I prize my eyelids apart, shit were they glued together? and observe my surroundings. I'm in a darkened room, I can make out glimmers of sunlight peeking from behind a blackout blind. There are posters on the wall of films, classic films? WTF? The room seems generic, not overtly male or female. There is no real personality.

"Kate?" I try to yell, a mere whisper leaving my lips. Oh great! I've been kidnapped and now I'm stuck in this room! As if my life couldn't get any better it just did! Maybe, it's Prince Charming that's rescued me? I feel a shudder, shit, what if it's Christian Grey? Oh my god, he's got me here at his mercy, he's going to make me his own secret sex slave... Part of my depraved brain really likes that idea, I shut my eyes and picture his. He's hovering above me, his face inches from mine I should be worried, yet in his eyes all I see is love. He gently strokes me, from my forehead to my chin. So light it's erotic, I whimper and I feel the blood rushing through my veins causing my back to arch off the bed and my legs to open wider for him. I hear his soft melodic voice,

"Don't worry Ana, I'm here, I'll look after you." His hand strokes my hair back off my face and he places a tender kiss on my forehead.

"I'm scared." I whisper. His hands still. He immediately stops what he was doing, climbing off me, I feel the bed move as his weight lifts from the mattress.

"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have come. I, I..." In a blurry haze I see him retreat from the room hurriedly.

x-x-x

I wake in a lot of pain and find Kate at my bedside.

"Kate?"

"Oh babe! I've been so worried, but then who knew that would happen? I'm mean shit Ana! How many pills did you take?"

"What? I don't know what your talking about Kate!"

"What do you remember?"

"We got in Elliott's car and went home, I got into bed and went to sleep."

"Shiiiiittttt! You got back up babe, rambling on about Prince Charming and Chris... Oh and when Chris came to check on you, you were ALL over him! It was embarrassing! That's when we found the pill bottle, it was half empty, we assumed overdose and Doc TG came over."

"But...I'd never, and what, you thought I'd od? Do you know me?"

"Ana! You were acting weird and the pills were missing, what was I supposed to think?"

"So where am I now? What did happen?"

"You'd dropped the pills in the toilet, Chris found them. Doc TG insisted you had to stay with her, so here we are... She reckons you had a mild reaction to the pills, so she changed your meds."

"You mean I'm in Dr Trevelyn-Grey's house? I'm in Christians moms house? The guy that fucking hates me? Oh great! Hang on, what do you mean 'Chris' was in our apartment?"

"He was worried... Eli called him when you were asleep and he came over to see you. No one expected to see you booty dancing for the guy, oh and FYI he was NOT complaining!"

I hang my head in complete shame. Me booty dancing, for Christian? Oh god the shame!

"Oh and honey, if you have dirty sex fantasies in the shower, don't share them with me again, even if they are fucking hot! Eli was trying to get me in a shower right there and Chris looked like he'd jizzed his pants!"

"Oh fuck... Can I get some pain pills and go home please? I'm tired and want my own bed."

"Chris's not comfy enough for you?" She burst out laughing and I felt like crying, my cheeks could fry an egg they are that hot. "I'll get the Doc and be back in a mo." She kissed my forehead and left the room.

Is it possible my Christian dream wasn't a dream?

x-x-x

Why do I keep weakening up in strange places? This is still not my room! I look around the walls, they are stark white. I feel like I'm in some kind of medical facility, I should just rent out a room I'm here more than I'm at home! My head feels fuzzy, nothing new there then, the jackhammer that is having a go at my skull however, is new. I reach up to touch my throbbing temples and see the IV in my hand. What have I done now? My other hand fumbles for the call button. Within five minutes a nurse is at my bedside.

"Good afternoon Miss Steele. How are you feeling?"

"Foggy, where am I?"

"Oh, your in the hospital sweetie. You bumped your head, I'll get Dr Trevelyn-Grey for you, she's your doctor."

"Um, okay, thanks."

I bumped my head? Again? I remember busting my nose on... Oh god Dr Grey, Christians mother. I try to prop myself up and the jackhammer cranks up a few gears so I lay back down and take deep calming breaths. In through the nose and out through the mouth, blowing out all the negative thoughts, clearing my mind, going to my calm happy place.

I don't know how long I was in my meditative state, but when I reorientate myself to the room, Kate has appeared.

"Ana! You really want me to die from a heart attack don't you?" I just look at her confused. "You don't know?" She sounds incredulous.

"Obviously not. All the nurse said was that I bumped my head. I remember smashing my nose up and waking at a strange house you were there and were going to take me home, then I woke up here."

"Shit! Ana, you managed to fall out of the bed at Dr TG's and bounce your head off of every surface on the way down! You were brought here by ambulance, they thought you'd fractured your skull!"

"Are my Mom and Dad here?"

"Erm, well, Ray's here but Carla's not. She is on a remote Himalayan retreat with yaks for a couple of months, there's no way to get a message to her."

"Oh, yeah, I remember her telling me she was thinking about it when we came back from bathing in goats milk the last time. She's going to make me something from yaks pelt, possibly a rug for my room!" Kate is staring at me bug eyed. "What?"

"Only you would remember a stinky yak rug over Chris! Do you not remember him at all?"

"Obviously I remember him. He's not easy to forget! He made me feel like a stupid little freak." I feel the tears burning in the corners of my eyes, I won't cry, I WONT CRY!

"I dunno what happened between you but, Ana that guy is gaga about you." I can't help it, I laugh.

"Pull the other one Kate!" She just raises her eyebrows at me.

"You'll see Steele, you'll see!"

x-x-x

I'm home! Without incident, surprisingly. Well, ive been home for a week now but in that time I've had to put up with dad hovering round me, but now he's heading back to Montesano. I can feel my sanity returning. I've been able to meditate for the first time since my discharge, so I'm calm and relaxed. Christian hasn't made an appearance much to Kate's annoyance, I knew he wouldn't, but she's was so adamant. Eli has said nothing, in fact he can barely look at me, I wonder what I've done? I wish I could say I was completely back to normal but my dreams have been strange and so vivid. I'm blaming the medication, but I suppose my subconscious must have something to do with it, I blame Kate. I think I'm actually orgasming in my sleep in my recurring Christian dream...

I'm always alone when it starts, in a dark room. I'm on my knees, naked, waiting. I faintly hear a door open, my breathing increases, my body reacts to whoever has entered. The static electricity causing every hair to rise on my body. I can feel the moisture coating my thighs and an involuntary shudder ripples down my body. I hear a tut of disapproval behind me. My head drops fractionally lower acknowledging the disapproval.

"Stand up." The hot breath whispers in my ear. I oblige instantly. I have an overwhelming need to please him. I feel his gaze on me, inspecting my flesh, inch by inch. "Mmmmm" he strokes his hand up my thigh, collecting some of my moisture on his long elegant digit. I hear him suck on it, and pop it from his mouth. "So sweet. I can taste your innocence, virginal and pure." I can feel my body becoming more wanton, hungry for him, the light trickle down my thighs obviously catching his close attention. I hear a noise and can see a crop of bronze hair and I feel a silken tongue lapping at my thighs. I'm trembling so hard I think I'm gonna fall over. I'm suddenly on a cross, bound at my wrists and ankles. The bronze headed god is still lapping at me. I groan, long and loud. "You like that baby? How about this?" His mouth moves up, his lower lip trailing up my leg towards my throbbing hot core. His nose nestles on my pubic hair, I feel him inhale deeply. "Eau d'Anastasia, mmmmm! I wonder how your purity tastes directly from your font of innocence?" I shudder as his tongue dives into me, plunging in and out and up and down, he repositions himself. His nose now rubbing and bumping my clit, driving me insane as his tongue darts deep inside me. "Oh Anastasia, you sweet, sweet girl. I think your ready to come, don't you?" I nod willing his mouth to descend back to my body. He stands. I stare, I know I shouldn't but his body captivates me. The fine sheen of sweat I could see on his back is on his perfectly sculpted chest. I'm on a large bed now, it's so soft and pliant, the room is light and bright now. I can see him in his full glory, naked. Only now do I realise it's Christian. He lines himself up with me. "I promise I'll be slow." He whispers as he covers my body with his and pushes into me. I feel the connection between us, he goes so slowly until he is buried so deep, it's so good! He thrusts slowly at first bring his pace up gradually, pulling me along, intense feelings coil and twist through my body. "Come with me Ana" he says through gritted teeth, "now baby!" All of a sudden I'm flying, soaring on waves of indescribable pleasure. I stare up blinking in the sudden darkness only to realise I'm back in my room on my own.

I may not have a man, but for now my dreams are hot enough!

A/N: Do you want this story to continue? I'm trying my best to embrace my inner Ana (loosely based on Pheobe from friends, very loosely based!) I'm not quite so clumsy! Let me know if I'm getting it right... I feel like I've lost her :(

Carrie ?