A/N: Hey Everyone! So this is the last chapter before the big talk. Like I have said before the outcome is still wishy-washy only because of how the story has progressed. I think this chapter and two more maybe should do it for this story. Unless you guys have other ideas than let me know! Anyway I think I have the hang of FF finally, also I will try to update as soon as I can. That goes for my other two stories. Sorry for the delay if you are following those. Though I did update one earlier. As always I do not own anything except the storyline and mistakes. And thank you to everyone else who commented but I didn't get back to you. It means a lot all the reviews and followings.
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Now on with the show…
"What did you say to her Chloe?" Aubrey said after Emily had walked off. Emily though hesitant at first, did seem to understand that I should have a chance to explain myself. She at least understood me. It's not like Aubrey didn't, it's just that Emily and I are very similar in character and she must have heard the desperation in my voice.
"Aubrey I didn't say anything. I just wanted Emily to not judge me like everyone else has. I want Emily to understand that I know what I did but I had to do it."
"You know Emily will tell her. She will tell Beca that she saw you and she will tell her that you guys talked." I sigh and put my head back on the couch. It's not like I intentionally did it so maybe Emily could tell her. But this could lead to something Chloe. I pull my head back up and see Aubrey eyeing me. "You did it on purpose, didn't you?" Aubrey says with her arms crossed, standing in from of me. Her piercing stare is enough to make me look down and fidget with my hands.
"Aubrey, no. I mean, I didn't tell her to do anything. Matter of fact I told her not to tell Beca we saw each other." I say shrugging.
"And we both know how terrible Emily is at secrets Chloe! Listen Chloe…" She takes a seat next to me and grabs my hand. "Chloe, I know you want your chance. A chance that you had long ago…" I look at her and my vision blurs. Jesus Chloe can you not cry for like 5 seconds. "But I know, that you know, Emily is a path to get Beca to talk to you. And as much as I want Beca to talk to you, you can't do this. Who knows what kind of mood Beca is in, and if Emily even mentions you I am sure it will not be a good time. Hell Chloe, I tried a couple of weeks ago to suggest calling you, and she was in a great mood by the way, and she lost her shit. Literally, she about exploded." I blink the tears away. I look at Aubrey and see worry in her face. I know I should have known better, but I in no way did it intentionally.
"I know Aubrey, I know how Beca is. And believe me in the moment I just wanted to tell Emily that I didn't do anything without knowing what I was doing. It was a bit after I realized that this would get to Beca and maybe that wasn't a bad thing. God I just want this all to end." Pulling my whole body to lay on the couch, Aubrey nods.
"You know, Beca say something interesting when I suggested calling you…" I pick up my head and search through Aubrey's eyes.
"Yea and what was that?"
"She said something about you not loving her…" Aubrey eyes have now changed to a glare that pierced my soul. I quickly get up. She told her?
"Is that so?" I say trying to buy some time.
"Quit the crap Chloe. You said that to her?"
"Look Aubrey, you have to understand that I had to do what I had to do."
"And that is?"
"There was only one way to get Beca to hate me Aubrey, hate me enough to leave me. Which didn't work the first couple of months may I remind you."
"And you did it by lying?" Aubrey whispers out. I am avoiding all eye contact because I hate talking about it. "See I tired talking to her about it but I saw the panic in her eyes and she shut me out." She shakes her head.
"I had to lie."
"And I thought you were a terrible liar." I shrug. "Apparently you did a damn good job of saying you didn't love her." I slightly wince because her tone was sharp and harsh, and I couldn't blame her. Great acting Chloe.
"Aubrey that day I was at rock bottom and it happened in a matter of hours." I have tears slipping down my face. "That day did a 180. I just… It wasn't true, most of the things I said… I just had to leave…" The tears are dripping down my face and I look at Aubrey and see she is crying too. "I want to tell you Aubrey I do but I have made a commitment to myself to not do this until I speak with Beca." I am trembling all over. I never understood why I made this more difficult than it needed to be. I mean I could have easily told Aubrey why I did it, and she could have coaxed Beca into showing me mercy. I really could have. But now I see that the individual damaged I did, that harm I caused to someone I loved most in this world, was something that needed to be addressed face to face. Looking her in the eye and admitting the flaws I have, the flaws that left her broken, was something that needed to happen.
"I know Chloe, I know I just… It shocked me and I couldn't believe you said that. I am sorry if I seemed…"
"No Aubrey I know. I am not excusing anything I just…" Aubrey has now knelt down in front of me. She is busy removing the hair from my face and pushing it behind my ears. She wipes the trial of tears. "You know, we were so happy that day in the morning… We had an incredible night before and that morning we were still feeling it…
I feel heat. Heat all over my body. Not like suffocating heat but comfortable heat. I slowly pry my eyes open. Beca has half her body on me and the other half off the bed. I must have made my way over to her side. I giggle at the sight and realize I shouldn't have because I'll wake her up. I shift under her to go to the kitchen to make her breakfast. As I try to wiggle my way out Beca speaks.
"You know, if you leave I'll end up falling completely off the bed silly." Her voice is groggy. That's when I realize she is clinging to me. No wonder I couldn't get out. I chuckle.
"Well that would be funny so let me just…" In a matter of seconds Beca tugs on me and catches me off guard and we fall over and I body slam on top of her.
"OWWWWW!" I lift my head and rub it.
"Beca what the hell?! Are you ok?" I check if I hurt her.
"I thought you would have resisted at least Beale." She rubs her forehead.
"Well I didn't think you'd do that dummy." She laughs and though I am still laying on top of her, I am supporting my weight with me left arm and have it near her face, I look her over and smile.
"Well since you don't think me breathing is important, you might as well smother me with a pillow." She smirks and I raise an eyebrow.
"Are you saying I am heavy?" I challenge her.
"Not at all but with the way you're laying, you have managed to make breathing hard, and no Beale it's not just because you are breathtaking…" She winks.
"Damn you are smooth Mitchell."
"Just for you baby." I smirk and lean down to give her a kiss. I sigh into the kiss and Beca wraps her arms around me. She slightly pulls back. "As much as I love kissing you, and you know I do, can you like not?" I give her a confused look. "I mean… Morning breath Chloe…" She says it like its obvious. I laugh. I lean in closer and she widens her eyes.
"Weeeellllllllll hhhaaaavvvvvveeeee sommmeee morrreeee ooooffff myyyyyy moooorrrrrniiingggg brrreaaaaathhhh." I huff out in her face as she screams and squirms.
"GROSSSSSS CHLOE! STOP YOU FREAK!" I roll off her and laugh. She gets up and runs into the bathroom. "You are so weird!" She yells from the bathroom.
"Thanks!" I shout back and get up to get dressed.
I make my way downstairs and smell the coffee. Beca was scrolling through her phone while drinking her coffee.
"Anything interesting?" I ask and pour myself a cup.
"No just meetings." She says lifting her head. "What about you, have anything interesting today?"
"Not really just going to the set to rehearse some stuff you know." I say and turn to sit next to her at the table.
"How will it be seeing Tom there?" Beca asks. She knows that Tom got a small part in this show and I was indifferent about it.
"I think it will be fine. I mean we didn't end bad or anything but I think we can be civil." I reach over and run my hand up and down her right forearms that lays on the table.
"Well if you need anything tell me please, I'll be over to kick his ass in a heartbeat." She leans over and plants a kiss on my forehead. She pulls away and I give her a smile.
"I doubt that will be necessary but I am glad my knight and shinning armor will be on call." I smirk.
"Anything for you baby." She says getting up to put her cup in the sink. Grabbing her keys and bag she come back and pulls me up. She gives me one more long kiss. She pulls away and grabs my left hand to bring it up to her lips to kiss my ring finger. "I will see you later tonight Chloe…"
Suddenly the front door bursts open. We both snap our attention to the entrance of the living room to see who ran through. It was Stacie and she had an unreadable look. Aubrey was by her side in a second.
"Baby what wrong?" Aubrey said pulling her into her arms. Stacie didn't answer but instead wrapped Aubrey tighter and buried her head into her neck. They held each other and I felt like I was intruding. After several moments Stacie spoke. Or more like mumbled into Aubrey's neck. "Baby I can't hear you. Please tell me what is wrong." Stacie finally picked her head up and rested against Aubrey's shoulder.
"I talked to Beca." Immediately I tense and Aubrey pulled away and looked at me. Stacie looked at me too and gave me a slight smile. "Hey Chloe."
"Hey Stace…" I fidget standing up. "Maybe I should go." I began to make my way when Stacie stops me.
"No stay Chloe." Stacie says plopping down on in the recliner. "Look, just to make this clear. I understand you and feel comfortable around you, sort of, but I talked to her for her mostly. Not that she saw it that way anyway…" I brought her hands up to her face.
"What did you say to her babe?" Aubrey said as she went next to Stacie and crouched next to her rubbing her head. Stacie leaned in to her touch.
"I was hesitant of course because I knew what her reaction would be. I basically went into her studio and told her that in order for her to heal, to get better, she had to do talk to you." Stacie groaned. And that groan wasn't leading to her saying that Beca wanted to talk. "She blew up on me and it was worse because I guess she had some fight with Emily a few hours earlier." I widen my eyes and look towards Aubrey once again. " I know you talked to Emily, Chloe. And though Beca thinks you somehow persuaded Emily to tell her to talk to you, I know that Emily wants Beca to heal, not just as her girlfriend but as a friend." Searching her eyes she stares back at me. "Whether Beca wants to believe or not, but I know why she was drawn to Emily."
"Stacie what do you mean?" Aubrey said completely clueless.
"Come on Bree, Emily is a brunette version of Chloe. With some slight differences but almost the same. Though Emily can't always make Beca break the way Chloe did." Stacie nods towards me. Gathering this information I see that Aubrey slight nods accepting that this is in fact true. I shift again because at the undeniable truth that I could do that to Beca. "Though Emily does a pretty damn god job sometimes." Stacie slightly smiles but turns back into my direction. "My point is that Emily couldn't get to her, and Beca won't listen to us. What she told me about what she was going to do was she was going to do nothing and ignore it. Which she is good at but the sudden outburst when we confront her on the subject of you, says otherwise." Aubrey gets back up and paces the floor once again.
"Well what do you suggest we do?" Aubrey says as she paces.
"I have no clue, only because I thought Emily would push her closer to breaking but she couldn't. Not earlier anyway." Knocking at the door can be heard and we all look at each other.
"What if it is Beca?" I whisper out.
"No I doubt it is, she has keys and would have walked in. Let me get that." Aubrey says walking fast to the door. And she is greeting someone at the door. "Beca said she was coming here?" The voices are getting closer and they turn the corner.
Normally this many Bellas in the room, actually 2 would suffice, would call for celebration. But considering the circumstance no one was in any mood to celebrate. In this room 4 Bellas stood. Is it hot in here? Because my palms are sweating.
"Hey guys." Emily sighs out. She seems out of it, not in any mood really.
"What wrong Emily?" I ask stepping closer on instinct.
"I just had a fight with Beca… About you…" One of the differences between Emily and Chloe was Emily's awkward train of statements. It seems like everyone shifts at the awkward admission. "Wait that sounded bad…"
"No Emily it didn't, I am so sorry about all of this. And you too Stacie I am sorry about all of this." I say with a defeated tone. Because of my mere presence they have fought with Beca, and that is something that I can't handle. "Look I should leave, I mean Beca will get here soon, that's what I think you said Aubrey, so it would be better to not keep ruining everyones day."
"No Chloe. This all has to stop, seriously guys." Aubrey says standing near me and squeezing my shoulder. "We all want Beca to get better. Whichever side we are on, we all want Beca to come back."
"Well what should we do?" Stacie says crossing her arms and staring intently.
"Yea I mean she shut me out. She was pretty mad earlier." Emily said.
"She won't willing want to see me you guys know that." I say. We all gaze from one person to the next and Aubrey is still pacing the floor. She stops after a few moments of silence.
"What if we did like an intervention type thing?"
"What?" Emily says.
"You mean like ambush her to talk to me alone?" I say because if theres anything Beca hates the most is to be blidnsided. You would know right Chloe. I shake my head at the thought.
"Well no offense Chloe but no matter what she won't talk to you alone even if we force her into this room." Stacie says.
"Yea she will sit there and ignore you." Emily adds. And I nod because of course she would.
"But what if we were all here? You know, all the people she trusted this whole time." Aubrey says.
"Like she gets her and we are sitting here and make her talk?"
"Well yea basically. I think if she feels the strength from the people that gave it to her when she needed it, it would make it easier for her to talk to you Chloe."
"Let me call Jesse…" Stacie says running into the kitchen.
"Wait guys, we are talking about blindsiding Beca right? I mean this is Beca." Emily says.
"Yea I agree maybe this isn't a good idea." I say because the panic is rising within me.
"Guys this is the only thing we have left, so we have to try. We all love Beca right?" Emily and I nod our heads. And Aubrey sighs. "I mean this isn't the best idea but this is all we have."
"Ok Jesse said he was on his way." Stacie says putting her phone back in her pocket. We all discuss what and how we should present this to Beca. We come to the conclusion that Stacie and Emily should walk her in and Jesse to make her feel like she has someone beside her. Aubrey agreed to stay by my side even though I protested. She said that she was technically on no ones side but that she was going to be there for me because I needed it.
"I will forever be grateful for helping me when I have no right to it." I say giving her hand a squeeze.
"Chloe we all make mistakes in this life, some more damaging than others, but there is always good in us. I know Chloe, I understand and I still believe you are filled with nothing but love. You have always put others before you and I think that is what you did in this case." I smile at her and thank her once again. I did this because I love Beca, it was indeed a weird way of showing it, but I did it because the person I love the most life was and still is the most important thing to me. Stacie calls Aubrey over with Jesse's arrival and they head into the kitchen. I sit and watch Emily stare out the window. She is worried, I can see that brain of her's going into overdrive. I stand up and walk over to her and stand to her.
"The more you keep thinking, it'll cause your brain to over heat you know." I say quietly and she is startled.
"You scared me." She says turning her attention back to the window. I see uncertainty draped all over her face.
"Sorry. But seriously what's wrong Emily?" The naturing side of me is taking over.
"It's just all this and Beca has yet to call me back. I told Stacie and Aubrey and they called her too but got no answer."
"I am sure she just went to let off some steam. From what I heard she had quite a day."
"Yea I guess so." Her eyebrows are still knitted and she is bitting on her thumbnail.
"I'm sorry Emily. For all of this, I know that this put's you in a weird position." She looks at me and tilts her head to the side.
"I mean not necessarily. This whole 'intervention' type thing does, but the general idea of it doesn't. Jesus did that even make sense?" Rambling, something that Beca has left with her.
"Yea but it can't be easy Emily." She thinks for a moment before she speaks.
"You know, we all admired you guys." She turns her head back to the window. I look at her and wait for her to continue. "We all looked at you both and saw love. We saw warmth, compassion, but especially love." She looks back at me and I see a hint of a glassiness. "We wanted something like that. The girls used to call it the 'it' trait. Stupid I know but we all saw 'it'. We all saw how Beca would stare at you with just some much love and how your eyes glistened when you looked at her. You guys were the one's that gave us hope. Hope that someday we could obtain that beautiful feeling." A tear falls down her cheek and I lift my hand to wipe it away. "I won't lie to you Chloe, and I am pretty sure you know, but I've always had this thing for Beca." I knew it! "I always had this crush that was pretty self explanatory to everyone except Beca obviously. " I chuckled and she smiles. Of course Beca was always oblivious. "But when I saw you guys together, I saw a forever. Something that was just so beautiful that meant this was meant to be. My crush was thrown into the abyss because you guys were so happy. I loved everything about you guys, so you can imagine my surprise when I got word of what happened." Now it's my turn to stare into the window. She lays her hand on my shoulder. "I couldn't believe it Chloe, no one could. I was certain that there must have been a misunderstanding anything because what you guys had, it wasn't supposed to end. It wasn't supposed to happen this way. Especially if it was caused by you." I look back at her and she is looking into my eyes. A stare that captivated me.
"I know, I know…" She holds up her hand and leads me to see that she wasn't done.
"I know how much she loved you, how much in a way she still loves you. I can see it in her eyes when I mention you. I don't know if she will ever let you go Chloe, but the reason this doesn't put me in a weird position is because you both need this. I will always be thinking of how to help and this is the only way to help. This need to be done. No matter the outcome Chloe, I will do anything to fix this broken relationship." I stare at her wide eyed. No matter the outcome?
"Whoa Emily I don't except Beca to come back to me." Realization hits me. No I really don't expect that. "What I want to accomplish is to fix my mistakes, fix the bridges with the people that matter the most to me and get them back into my life."
"Yea I know, but if something else happens I wouldn't stop it." We stare into each others eyes and I see that she is telling the truth.
"She wouldn't do that to you…" I whisper.
"I'm just prepared is all." She shrugs and I pull her into a hug.
"Well I wouldn't let that happen." I say into her ear and she further relaxes into my hug. I pull back and brush the hair from her face. "She loves you. I see it in the pictures."
"I don't think…"
"She does whether she will let her self believe it is something different. Do you ever fell that when she looks at you you are just frozen in pure happiness, or that in that moment anything could happen and you would be the happiest person alive?"
"Sometimes…" She shyly admits. I sit there and think.
"Love is love, Emily. I can't tell you what kind but love is there." She smiles.
"I missed you Chloe."
"I missed you too."
I am sitting on the couch when I hear the door open. I hear a distinct " HEY GUYS!" and it's time. I realize I am shivering and Emily, Jesse, and Stacie have gone to the front door.
"Are you ok?" Aubrey says grabbing my hand. I shake my head.
"Maybe this isn't such a great idea Aubrey." She turns my head towards her.
"It's going to be fine. We are all here. I am here with you ok?" I nod and we sit patiently as we hear them approach the door.
"Whats going on?" I hear Beca say…
"Hey…" I say smiling as Beca open's our front door. I am holding flowers in one hand and a glass of wine in the other.
"Hey… Chloe…" She says suspiciously. She drop her keys on the table and her bag on the floor. She leans in to give me a kiss and grabs the glass of wine. "Whatchu doing?"
"Happy birthday." I say stepping closer and undetected, I blind fold her.
"Whoa Chloe that's kinky…" She smirks. I laugh and slap her arm.
"OW!"
"Oh shut it Beca."
"You know how much I hate surprises." She says as I guide her to our living room, she groans, causing me to giggle.
"Can you like zip it for five seconds?" She hold her hands up in surrender. I place her in the middle of the room and back away from her. Stacie, Aubrey, Jesse, and several other friends surround her for a surprise party. She senses the uncomfortable silence and speaks once again.
"What's going on?"
I snap out of the memory and realize where I am again. Beca is as pale as a sheet. She looks exhausted. She's leaning against Stacie and we have locked into each others gaze. Her eyes began to change. What once was filled with pure fear is now changing to what looks like anger. She yanks her hands from them.
"You guys are something else…" She's backing away. Emily see's that and tries to make her way to Beca but is stopped. Emily is in panic. Everyone's eyes are on Beca. "You guys ambush me like this, like I am the one that did something bad. Like I am the one who caused this. And you bring her… You bring her and except what huh?" My heart is further down in my stomach. She's scared and lost and I can't do anything. I am paralyzed in my seat. I feel gazes here and there shift towards me but we all look back at Beca. She is fuming. She nods her head in understanding and speaks one last time. "Fuck you guys. And especially FUCK you." I flinch at the power of that last 'fuck you'. And with that she turns her back and walks away.
I am still in shock when Emily says she will talk to her and we wait. Just leave Chloe, just get up and leave. I stare at Aubrey and grab her hand directing her gaze to me.
"Maybe I really should leave."
"No Chloe…"
"No you won't run away this time." Stacie says turning my attention away from Chloe.
"Stacie come on…"
"No Chloe I wont let you."
"I am not running. I have ruined this day enough Stacie. Don't you see?"
"No Chloe. Don't you see that this needs to happen? If you get up and leave we scared her for nothing. We trapped her for nothing. The purpose is to fix the damage not cause more of it."
"How do you know this won't do more damage Stacie? How do you know that this just won't ruin everything?" My biggest fear is this ruining it further of everyone.
"I don't, but I do know that this has to be done. This has to be done because no one will sit and say what if. Everyone needs closure because you guys still care. No one can continue with their life if they won't let go." I shake my head. "Chloe I know this is hard, but we are here for both of you. Not just Beca, we are here for you too." I look up and see the sincerity of the other three.
"Thank you." I whisper out and everyone nods. We sit and wait till Emily and Beca return. Look Chloe, if Beca doesn't forgive you, you have semi gained 4 old friend back. Positivity. That is something I have been working on. I make a promise that if things don't go the way I planned that I will still do everything in my power to fix the bridges with my friends.
Emily walks back into the room and Beca follows. Emily goes to sit on the couch and begins to make room. Beca is standing near the door, determination on her face. I look at Emily, who looks back her.
"Oh I won't be sitting." I look at Beca and she is smirking. "So the CHLOE BEALE wants to talk huh?! Some anniversary present wouldn't you say?" I look at everyone and notice the shift in the atmosphere. I look down because I feel the intensity of her anger seep into my body. "That's why you are here right? SO let's fucking talk." I have to find all the courage in the world because I can tell this time Beca is going to put up a fight this time, and it's not going to be pretty.
