I DO NOT OWN SON

Chapter 6 – Dragging My Heart

My parents were upset that Ashley and I eloped; my mother didn't talk to either one of us till summer was over. My father decided to put his foot down and tricked my mother by inviting Ashley and I to dinner without telling her, so we could fix things with my mom. After some yelling, and crying we all sat down and ate dinner as a family.

A year after we were married I got pregnant with Dylan. Ashley took a year off of touring so she could be there for me while I was pregnant and going to school. It was a lot of sleepless nights but we got through it and we did it together.

Again we didn't tell my parents we were going to try and get pregnant so when we told them, they needed some time to cope with the news. My mother was the one to deliver Dylan Kyla Carlin – Davies. She was supposed to be a boy, so Ashley and I decided to keep it that way. Even know Dylan was supposed to be a boy she loves her name.

"Do you still love me?"

"I'll always love you Ash, but I can't do this anymore. I can't pretend that none if this happen. I need to move on and I can't if we are still married." I know this is hurting her but I can't let this go on anymore.

"Why now? You never asked me for a divorce when you were dating...her" she never could say Trina's name.

"Ashley it's …"

"No! You dated her while we were still married, but not once did you ask for a divorce. Now you do?"

"How could I ask you for one? You were in rehab Ashley. By the time I could ask for one her and I were over. I thought you were going to come home and work on are marriage but no. You had Kyla become your manager and get her pick Dylan up so you didn't have to see me." This wasn't supposed to be about us tonight, this whole conversation was making me want to leave.

"I was afraid that if I came home you were going to end it for good. I didn't want to hear those words. I still don't and it's killing me to hear them come from you."

"Why did you stop?"

"Huh?" she looked over at me like I had two heads.

"Why did you stop visiting Dylan?"

"What are you talking about Spencer?"

"When she was ten you left to go on tour, and that's when we started to have problems. After those three months you never came home, but you kept in contact with us till Dylan was 12. Then you went into Rehab and when you got out you got kyla to bring her to see you, but that only lasted for a few months and then Dylan never saw you since. Now your back, what happen?"

Ashley and I split because on that three month tour she became addicted to sleeping pills, she was unfaithful to me, and she had a drinking problem. At the time I didn't know about any of this. All I knew was that my wife was finished her three month tour and she wasn't home. When she called we got into a big fight because she was going to miss my birthday. After a month we stopped calling each other and she would only call to get up dates on Dylan. Ashley came home a couple of times but we never spoke, but we never fought either.

This kept up till almost two years then she told me the truth, about everything. I told her she had to get help or she was never to see Dylan ever again. Five months later I was dropping her off at a rehab centre and that was the last time I ever kissed my wife. Ashley went to Rehab and I tried to move on by dating. When she got out, Kyla became the middle person for us. Two moths later and Ashley stopped getting kyla to pick up Dylan. Now she is back, and wanting to see her daughter.

I was waiting for an answer and I could see her biting her lip like she was afraid to tell me the truth. I was getting frustrated that even after everything we have gone through she still couldn't tell me the truth.

"Fine don't tell me, but I know you wouldn't just stop seeing your daughter. You and I might have ended things but I know you Ashley! So please just tell me the fucking truth! Why did you leave and then come back after all this time without one phone call to Dylan"

Ashley stood up and dusted of her pants and walked over to where I was standing. Put her hands around my waste and lifted up my head so she could look me in the eyes.

"I love my daughter with all my heart and soul; I would do anything for my baby girl. You know that Spence" her hands gripped my waste tighter.

"Ashley I don't und…" her lips were on mine before I got a chance to finish my sentence, I felt tears on my cheeks but they weren't mine. Ashley was crying, I pulled away and brought my hand up to her face and slowly my thumb grazed over her bottom lip. I looked her In the eyes and waited for her to speak.

"Spence…"

A/N : What happen? R&R please