chapter 6 is now up, i'm not Stephanie Meyer, i own nothing, nothing is mine, yadda yadda.

sex scene alert.

well here is is......

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chp.6 - first time

My lips where moving with his in new and exiting ways, how I'd yearned to kiss them, how I'd dreamed and fantasized about this moment for so long, I felt his hot breath in my mouth, I traced the contours of his bottom lip with my tongue, my fingers tangled into his hair pulling his face closer.

Jacob's hands where everywhere, running up and down my side, I tried to push him down back on the bed, he realized what I was trying to do and instead of letting me push him down, he grabbed me around the waist and pulled me down under his body on the bed with force instead.

I clawed at the buttons on the front of his shirt that was obviously new, brought especially for my birthday, the only day he ever wore a button up shirt was the only day he should have been wearing something easier to get off.

Jacob noticed my struggling and shaky fingers and instead of undoing the buttons just ripped the shirt open, so much for his new shirt, I ran my hands up and down his perfect body, over his chest, his broad shoulders, over his perfectly sculpted stomach.

Jacob half tried to undo the buttons on my blouse, damn buttons I thought annoyed, I was just about to rip my shirt open like Jacob had, but he did it for me, it was not just the buttons that where ruined I heard the delicate silk of the shirt tear with them.

I pulled the tattered remains of the shirt off and chucked them across the room, I felt Jacob's warm large hands roam up and down my bare back, pulling me closer into him, I crushed my body harder against his, I felt my nails dig into his shoulder blades yearning to be even closer.

I felt Jacob's fingers grip the back of my lace bra, trying to undo it, I liked this bra I didn't want it ruined, so instead of letting him rip it off like the shirt, I pushed his hands away and undid it myself in less than half a second before flinging it away.

Jacob's hands where covering my breasts in the same second, his large hands covered my breasts completely, I wasn't what anyone would ever call busty, but I wasn't flat chested either.

Jacob moved his mouth from mine, and kissed down my jaw, down my neck, kissing me down lower, down in between my breasts, down my stomach, he gripped the top of my skirt and pulled it off easily, before crushing his mouth back up to mine.

I roamed my hands back down his perfect body and hastened to undo his jeans, Jake moved back off me slightly before pulling his shoes off then ripping his jeans down flinging them across the room with the rest of our discarded clothing, he pushed his body heavily back down on top of mine, I felt the eagerness and excitement pulsing through his body.

I pushed my pelvis hard into his, I felt just how exited he was, I moaned into his mouth pushing him back slightly to give me room to pull down his underwear, Jacob obliged immediately ripping them off, before pushing me back down onto my back, he roamed his hands down my body before pulling my panties off also.

Jacob's eyes trailed over my body, I bit my lip suddenly feeling slightly self conscious, he saw the slight blush that started to creep into my cheeks, he smiled and sighed "Nessie, you don't ever have to be embarrassed with me, your the most beautiful, most stunning most perfect girl in this world, your just so beautiful to me right now it hurts" he laughed slightly putting his hand to his heart.

I laughed back, but it was more out of embarrassment, my eyes took in his body with all it's masculine glory, I sat up and trailed my fingers slowly down his body again, this time really taking him in.

I saw his eyes watching my face, "your so beautiful as well Jake, I can't even believe how anyone could be so perfect" I said with wonder, this time it was Jacob's turn to blush, I saw the diffident flush under his dark gorgeous russet skin, he smirked slightly and shook his head "sure, sure Nessie" he laughed.

I kissed him again for one long hard second before saying "I'm dead serious Jacob, your utterly stunning" I said moving my hands down lower over his hips, his breath caught in his throat as I touched his exited state.

"And not to mention huge" I said in slight awe, trailing my finger tips gently down his long, long hard member, I gripped my fingers around it, it wasn't just long, it was thick, it was as massive as the rest of his body, I felt the excitement pulse through him.

I trailed my hands up and down his ridiculously huge cock for a few seconds, before he grabbed my hand, I looked up at him confused "did I hurt you? I didn't mean to" I said suddenly feeling scared that I had, even though I wad being overly gentle.

Jacob laughed "hurt me? are you serious?" he said shaking his head and smirking, "oh, well why are you stopping me? am I crap? don't you like it? I mean I've never done anything like this before, this is my first time, sorry" I mumbled feeling humiliated.

Jacob was looking at me like I was mad "Remesmee, honey, don't look so horrified, how the hell could I not like you stroking and touching me like that?, sorry if I made you think I was rejecting you or something, it was just, well if you kept going we would have to wait a little longer before we made love" he said biting his lip.

I looked at him confused for a second "what?" I asked, he laughed quietly I could see the blush resurface "what I meant was, well, Nessie you see it feel's quite good" he said raising his eye-brows at me, I was still clueless, he sighed before saying slowly "I meant if you kept touching me I was going to blow my load ok?" he looked away embarrassed.

I got it now, "oh...sorry" I said looking away embarrassed also, their was silence for a second before he put his finger under my chin and pulled my face around so he could look into my eyes, I could still see his blush, but there was an intense blazing look in his eyes before he pushed his lips back to mine, he kissed me intensely pushing me back down onto the bed underneath him slowly.

My nails dug into his back, gripping him and trying to pull him closer, I pushed my pelvis against his, he moaned into my mouth, I took advantage of his half parted lips and pushed my tongue into his mouth, I traced my tongue slowly over his lip, tasting the tip of his tongue.

I felt Jacob's hand's slowly start to open my leg's wider, I felt a sudden thrill of fear, I pushed him back, he was panting his lips slightly swollen "are you ok? what did I do?" he asked breathless looking alarmed that he'd done something wrong, I laughed slightly and said breathlessly also "its nothing, it's silly, it doesn't matter" I said trying to kiss him again.

He pulled his face away still looking concerned "Nessie, you can tell me anything, I want you to tell me if I did something wrong, please I don't want to do anything that will make you feel uncomfortable" he said scrutinizing my face, I felt myself blush again "Jake really, its just...forget ok?" I said biting my lip, he shook his head "Nessie, please just tell me, I promise I won't laugh if that's what your afraid of" he said honestly.

I laughed embarrassed before admitting "it's just that, this is embarrassing, it's just that well, like I said before, your just so huge Jake, it's just a little scary, I mean I doubt it will even fit anyway, just forget it, it doesn't matter" I said all this very fast and looking down avoiding his eyes, "I feel like an idiot now" I said looking back up at him.

Jacob's eyes where still scrutinizing my face before he said slowly "Nessie, sweetly, I would never hurt you, we don't have to do this if you've changed your mind" he said, "no! no Jake, I haven't changed my mind, I want to do this, really, and I know that you would never hurt me, it's just that you might hurt me without meaning to" I said.

Jacob traced my cheek with his finger before dropping his voice lower and huskier "Nessie, I promise I'll be so very, very gentle, if at any time I hurt you or you want me to stop don't hesitate to tell me, please, I'll stop strait away I promise" he said looking into my eyes honestly.

I smiled at him before saying "I know, I trust you Jacob, I was being silly that's all, I'm ready" I kissed him again, he kissed me back for a long passionate moment, he looked into my face worried "are you sure your ready?" he asked positioning himself in between my legs, I could feel him pushing slightly at my entrance, I nodded, he smiled and I felt some pressure before I felt him enter me, he pushed his way in very slowly and gently, I was so tight it hurt a little, I placed my hand to his cheek, showing him exactly how I was feeling.

Jacob closed his eyes for a second before looking back into mine, I kept my hand to his cheek showing him everything, he pushed his way further up into me, he clenched his teeth as he felt how it stretched me uncomfortably, he stopped "Nessie I'm sorry, do you want me to stop?" he asked I could hear the pain in his voice.

I answered through showing him that I wanted him to continue, he looked doubtful before pushing in deeper, he reached as far as he could go, now needing some more force to break my virginity, he looked at me not knowing to continue, I pulled myself closer into him, wrapping my legs around his waist and pulling him in deeper.

It wasn't so bad, I removed my hand from his face just in case it hurt a lot, I didn't want him to stop, I didn't want him to feel horrible and hate himself, Jacob had pushed his way as far as he could go, as I suspected he was too big to fit properly, once he was inside me, he hesitated, he grabbed my hand and put it back to his face, instead of showing him anything I pulled his lips back down onto mine.

I felt him slowly start to pull his way out, then push back in, he was being as gentle as he could as he moved inside me, I pulled him closer and pushed my pelvis down against his thrusts, I tried only to think of the slight pleasure of pushing myself down on his pelvis, the friction wasn't terrible either it felt nice in a odd way.

I listened to his heavy breathing, wondering how this was feeling for him, I arched my back against him so he could thrust in deeper, I looked into his face, he seemed torn between enjoyment and concern, he noticed me trying to catch his eye and he smiled uncertainly, I smiled back encouragingly.

After a moment or so I felt him slowly start to speed up, his breathing becoming heavier, he held me tighter into him, he wasn't being as careful anymore, he was moving faster and deeper, pushing with more force, I kind of wanted him to stop now, this defidentally wasn't as amazing or great as I thought it was going to be, I was baffled as to why everyone thought sex was so great.

Just then Jacob grunted my name before collapsing heavily on top of me, I felt something warm spread up into me, Jacob's heavy body was bearing down on mine, I felt his breathing slowing down, he pulled out of me gently before flopping down onto the bed next to me.

I laid there feeling the pain stinging me, I felt something, the warmth I'd felt before dribble out of me a little, I gritted my teeth with slight disgust, that certainly wasn't anywhere near as great as I'd imagined.

I'd been waiting for something spectacular or something better than that!, that was, well that was painful and uncomfortable, I heard Jacob's breathing slowing down with his once rapid heart-beat.

I sat up, I needed to get my clothes back on, I needed a shower, I could smell Jacob's werewolf smell all over me, I felt Jacob's sweat on my skin also, I got up off the bed hiding my wince from Jacob.

I didn't want him to feel bad, I didn't want him to know how un-enjoyable it was for me, I pulled my panties back and I held my tattered shirt up, it was beyond repair, Jacob jumped up and grabbed a large one of his t-shirts out of his open dresser drawers and handed it to me, I pulled it on, it was huge of course, it came down to my knee's.

I saw Jacob pulling on a pair of old sweats without even bothering to put any underwear back on, I crawled back down on the bed and curled up, Jacob came and laid back down next to me, he rolled onto his side and smiled at me awkwardly, I smiled back half-heartedly.

There was silence before Jacob finally asked me "I didn't hurt you did I? I mean I tried as hard as I could not to, was it ok? was I ok? I mean it was my first time, I have no experience" he asked looking worried, should I tell him the truth? I thought, or should I lie?

I hesitated for half a second before decided on the lie, "no, you didn't hurt me too bad, and yes you where amazing of course" I said giving him my best smile, I felt terrible lying to him, especially when he looked so happy about what I'd just said.

He pulled me into him, crushing his lips back to mine passionately, I could feel the joy in his kiss, when he broke apart he gave me one of his biggest smiles, I saw the happiness shining in his eyes, it made my stomach clench uncomfortably.

Just then there was a sudden loud howling from the woods, Jacob's body language changes dramatically "what is it?" I said feeling scared, Jacob listened for half a second longer to the howling, "I don't know? but their calling me" he was at the bedroom door before turning back around and looking at me apologetically.

"Nessie, I'm so sorry! I feel terrible about running off strait away after...but I really gotta see what this is about" he jumped back down on the bed and pushed his lips to mine for a moment it was brief but sweet, he pulled back and said "when I get back, Nessie, we'll do it again, don't worry I'll stay true to my word and believe me Ness, there's a lot more passion I have to give" he kissed me again before jumping up.

I felt a slight swinge of dread in my stomach, but promised him I'll be waiting eagerly for when he returned, "I'll keep the bed warm" I called after him, which made him smile as he dashed from the room, I heard the back door open and bang close, I flung my head out the window just in time to see the end of his bushy tail whip into the woods.

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well there it is, this chapter pretty much spoke for itself. comment?