I highly recommend listening to songs on repeat when reading a songfic. It gives you a new feel and appreciation for the story.
Disclaimer: I'm not Dutch, so I own anything that belongs to Within Temptation or The Metal Cemetery. Last I checked, I wasn't Japanese, so I don't own anything that belongs to Bisco Hatori.
Within Temptation
Blue eyes just smile to the world
I've heard that's what my eyes look like. I completely agree. How could I not? It's true.
Full of dreams and with fascination
What else could the child I was then be? Even now, torn away from my mother, I have to keep dreaming. Don't the commoners have some saying about that?
Too soon she saw that her hands were chained
The moment when my grandmother demanded I go to Japan without my mother, I knew that my hands were tied.
And pulled without any freedom
What other choice did I have without compromising my mother's health? No child who truly loved his mother would do any other thing.
It's always the same
In the circle of the influential, we are often faced with leaving our loved ones. It's always the same.
They fear no way out
What other way is there? It's been going on for so long, we cannot see any other way.
I cannot break it
The commoners are so ingenious. They could probably see a way out, to break these chains you placed on me.
I can take it no more
But I can, for my mother. A life is irreplaceable.
It's burning me up inside
I only just want it to end, sometimes.
Lost all my tears, can't cry
If I cry, that would mean giving up. I have to stay strong for mother. If I give up, I would be letting down my daughter, Mommy, the twins, and our neighbors.
No reason, no meaning
There is no reason for you want to hurt me or my mother, Grandmother. One can't help who they love, it just happens. But, you never had a choice, did you?
Just hatred
Is that what you feel for me and my mother?
No matter how hard I try
I think that I will never be able to please you, but what else is there to do but pick myself back up again and keep trying.
You fear the beast inside
Sometimes, I think of you as a super powerful monster, grandmother. In a good way though…I think. But that was back when I had an overly powerful imagination. Now, my imagination isn't that big at all.
It's growing, it's waiting
Each day, I wish I could see my mother more than before. I think that the one thing that has kept me here and helped me to pull through is the rest of the Host Club, my friends.
Just to hurt you
Why do you hurt me and my mother so much?
This heart was hurt by the light
I hate seeing things in such evil light.
And I see your world that tries to deny
The world isn't perfect, I know that. Heck, even I, the Prince of the Host Club, can't be perfect. But…what is so wrong with me that you hate me for, grandmother?
Now everything that I love has died
I made the Host Club for a reason. It was because I had nothing else.
Or has been shattered to pieces
What was there left for me after you pulled out of my life with my mother? Granted, it was a bit sad, what with my mother always being sick, but I was happy. You shattered my life.
It's always the same
But, I am lucky. At least my family, my mother, is still there, somewhere in France.
They fear no way out
At least I know that one day you will accept me. My personality and looks are so immaculate, no one can hate for that long. I'm the princely type!
I cannot break it
At least I have friends that can help me!
I can take it no more
AT LEAST I'M STILL ALIVE!
Just to hurt you
Just to hurt you
You can't really want that, can you? After all, family is all we have. You don't want to hurt me.
Can't you see their eyes, what lies inside
So many in this world have given up, I don't want to think about it. It would be terrible to know the exact number, and only be able to watch as kept rising.
They've given up, they no longer shine
I'm lucky not to be a part of that number.
Too soon they close with one last cry
I just know that will never happen to me. Not unless my mother dies before I see her.
Before they turn to light
Then I will give up.
Just to hurt you
Is that what you want to achieve, grandmother?
Blue Eyes
I have to—no, want to—thank Starwolf Magic for suggesting this song for Tamaki. As well as helping me out with this story, she also introduced me to an awesome band with awesome music. I'm not extremely selective with music, as long as it's not Justin Bieber, but this band made my favorites.
I'm going to pace myself when I'm writing, so even when I have something ready, I'm not going to post it until two days pass. I'm going to assume you just said "WHAT!" and explain.
If I post everything as soon as it's ready, you might get two weeks without updates and then a week with an update every day. I use the time between updates to get a story ready for posting, and if I have time, more than one for when I'm unable to write or have no inspiration.
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