Chapter 6
The feeling of Arizona's lips on my own was enough to practically send me into a hormonal spiral out of control. Her lips were softer than any lips I had ever kissed, and it was like our bodies moved together to lyrics from an unsung song. I was almost too afraid to open my eyes in fear of this all being a dream. And if this is a dream, I don't want to ever wake up. Because this dream was perfect. I have a beautiful woman in my arms, and in this moment, the two of them were all that mattered. Arizona didn't have a girlfriend waiting for her and Callie wasn't doomed to get her heart broken. Even if this was a dream, she was going to enjoy it for a long as she could and keep hitting the 'snooze' button on her imaginary alarm clock.
"I could kiss you all day." Arizona said softly, their lips only millimeters apart. "Well it's not like we have a lot of other things to be doing right now." Arizona said with a smile before leaning in to kiss Callie again. Their kiss started out slow and soft, but grew more passionate by the second. The desire that I had been fighting over the last week had become too much to handle and I was finally giving in. We kissed for what felt like hours, and finally I had to pull away. So many things were running through my mind and I needed to ask questions, because I desperately needed answers. Arizona looked at me, and my worries must have been written all across my face. "What's wrong? Did I do something?" Arizona asked me, touching my cheek with her hand softly.
"No. You didn't do anything. But I… never mind." I said, trying to find the right words to ask a question that I was scared to know the answers to. "You can't just say never mind. I can tell something is wrong. But I can't try to make it better if you don't tell me what it is that is bothering you." Arizona asked me, once again trying to pry it out of me. I knew I had to come out and say what it was that was bothering me, even if the answer could be the end of whatever this was that hadn't been able to truly begin between she and I. "Ok, I'll just say it. Uh, what am I? Like what is this? Between me and you? Once we go home. You have a girlfriend, and I know that I am feeling things for you… strong things.. but I don't want to be the girl you had a fling with on the island because you were lonely and missing your girlfriend." I let out a deep breath, feeling like a huge weight had been lifted from my chest. But the feeling of relief was quickly replaced with the feeling of fear as realization set it in as Arizona was fixing to answer.
"Callie, I know that this situation is stressful, and I know that neither of us expected this to happen.. I mean I definitely didn't expect this to happen, but it did happen. It IS happening. I have feelings for you too. I don't know where we are going with this, and I don't know what to expect, but I do know that want to take this ride with you. We are in the middle of who the hell knows, but yet the only thing I have been thinking about is you. Not when we are getting out of here, even though that would be amazing, all I think about is you. You make me feel things that I have never felt before. And I know that is a cliché. People say that all the time. But in my defense… I actually mean it. You make me feel like I am seeing life through someone else's eyes. I feel like I am just now discovering what a crush, or romantic feelings are. Even though we are in one of the most miserable situations we will ever experience in our lives… I am glad that I am here with you through it. And I feel it too. I feel so many things for you. I can't say what the future holds, because being stuck on this island just goes to show us that we have no clue what can happen in the blink of an eye. But I understand if you want to stop this." Arizona looked deep into Callies eyes, and Callie thought she could see all the way into her soul, but Callie had been hurt before too many times, so she needed to be more guarded. And she needed to know that Arizona wouldn't run back to Carley the minute they were found. "I feel so much for you, but I have had my heart broken really badly before. And I haven't felt these things for anyone in so long, but the big question here is, what do you want Arizona? You live with someone back home, and she is probably worried sick about you. I need to know, what do you want." Callie felt a tear roll down her cheek, and brushed it away. She hadn't even realized she was crying until then.
Arizona let out a deep breath. She looked away from Callie and her eyes focused on the water in front of her. "Tell me about Sam." Callie didn't expect those words to come out of her mouth. "Um." She was the one that broke your heart, wasn't she?" Callie nodded. She hadn't talked about the person that ripped her heart out in years. She didn't know where to begin. "What do you want to know?" She finally asked. Arizona turned to face Callie, her hands finding the other womans and laced their fingers together. "I loved her. I really loved her. I had always known that I was a lesbian, but my family is very religious so I hid it. I figured I would spend my entire life hiding it. Until one spring break in college. When I met Sam, everything changed. We instantly clicked and the first night we met we spent hours just talking. She lived so far away and me in Florida, but that didn't matter at the time. We spent every minute together that week. After spring break was over and it was time to get back to the real world, we talked every chance we had. I went to see her a few times, and she came to Florida once." Callie took a minute, looked around and wiped another tear away before continuing. "I loved her. And I knew it. So one night I went to my parents house for dinner, and I told them everything. I told them that I had met the most amazing woman in the entire world, and that I planned to ask her to marry me. I was THAT sure of her and of us." Callie's tears were falling faster now, and Arizona reached up to wipe them away. "It's ok, you don't have to tell me this… you can—" Callie cut her off, for some reason she wanted to tell Arizona everything about her life, and she wanted to know everything about Arizona's. "No. It's ok. I want to tell you." "I flew there to see her and surprise her. But when I got there, she wasn't home. Her roommate Carley opened…" Callie stopped talking as realization hit her. "Carley." She mumbled. "Your Carley? That was Sam's roommate. That's how you know about Sam?" Arizona nodded. "That's how I know about Sam." She confirmed. "You already know all of this. Then why are you asking me?" Callie asked, feeling stupid for even talking about it. "No. No. Sam never told Carley what happened. She said she never told her how the two of you ended. Just that one day she was not with you any longer." Callie didn't want to continue, but for some reason she felt like telling Arizona everything. "After Carley told me that Sam wasn't home, I told her where Sam could reach me, and went to check into a hotel. Later that night, Sam showed up. I knew right away from the look on her face that she wasn't as excited to see me. She told me she had met someone. A male someone, and she didn't plan to, but had fallen in love with him. That was the last time I had heard from or about her. Well, until right before the crash." Arizona whipped her head around. "What do you mean?" Callie explained how Sam had contacted her for medical reasons, and she had not responded and then the crash happened. Arizona felt a tinge of jealousy run through her body. What if Callie saw Sam again and all of the old feelings came rushing back? But how could she feel jealous when she had Carley at home?
"I need to know, if you think that we need to stop whatever this is. Because I can't handle getting my heart broken, especially if it can be avoided." Callie said finally.
"I feel things for you Callie, I really do. And I didn't expect for this to happen, butat the same time, I know Carley doesn't deserve to be hurt this way. Even if I know how hard this will be now. After this… after how I will go back to just seeing you at work… I think maybe we should wait." Arizona wanted to take the words back the second they left her lips, but it was too late. She didn't have a chance to say anything else Callie stood up. "I need to help you get back to camp." Callie tried to keep herself from crying more than she already was. "Callie please." Arizona began. But suddenly Mark came ripping through the bushes. "Callie! A plane! There's a plane coming!" "What?"! the women said in unison. "Hurry, we have to get back to the beach." He scooped Arizona up into his arms as Callie led the way back towards the water. Derek, Meredith, Lexie, Cristina, Alex and Jo were all jumping up and down, yelling and waving their arms around hoping to get the planes attention. The fire was lit that they had prepared in the event a plane had come looking for them. "Mark set me down." Arizona said, and he did before joining the others. What felt like forever, but had only been a matter of minutes, a helicopter from the national guard touched down on the lone beach. The group was pulled on board and wrapped in blankets. Crying and smilng lined all of their faces. The flight to a hospital on the mainland semed to drag on, but soon the group touched down and were quicly rushed off into individual rooms. Callie watched Arizona until she was pushed around a corner and out of sight. After the initial exam, all of the rescued surgeons unanimously agreed they wanted to be transferred to Seattle for further treatment. Being back home with their hospital family seemed to be the best option for them all. And the easiest way to cope with things that had happened as well.
The next morning Callie woke up, opening her eyes and trying to focus on her surroundings. The familiar smells, the room, it was all a peaceful feeling of home. She heard a noise next to her and turned to see Bailey reading the monitor and jotting down notes on her chart. "I never thought I would say that I am happy to see your face, but I surely am." Bailey said with a smile. "You had us all in quite a scare around here." Callie sat up in her bed and stretched. How is everyone?" She asked. Really wanting to know how Arizona was, but she forced herself not to ask specifically for her. "Everyone is stable. All of you are extremely dehydrated and we want to keep you for 24 hours for monitoring, but otherwise you are well. You had some angels watching over you out there, that's for sure. Dr. Robbins leg suffered some extensive damage, but they are having Dr. Chang look at her first thing tomorrow. We are hopeful that she can keep the leg, and with some serious physical therapy, she will regain all mobility in it."
"Dr. Chang? The man that still believes in the "let nature take its course" treatment plan? No. No Way!" Callie threw her legs over the side of the bed, pulling the wires off of her chest. "I'll treat her myself." Bailey stepped in front of her, stopping the angry woman from standing. "Torres are you crazy? You just survived a plan crash for Christ sake. You are going to stay right here in this bed and get better. You can't help Dr. Robbins or anyone if you don't get yourself better first. If you are so persistant, I will speak to her and bring you her chart. Ok?" Callie seemed to calm down after Bailey said that. She nodded her head. She wanted to go check on Arizona so badly. She already missed the blonde more than she had expected to. Bailey gathered her papers and walk out of the room. Mumbling and shaking her head. "Stubborn ass woman. Trying to get herself killed." Just as Callie closed her eyes with her head against a pillow, a knock on the door made her re-open them. A blonde headed woman that Callie quickly remembered was standing in the door. "Callie?" She said shyly. Callie sat up straighter. She didn't expect to see this person and she wasn't sure how to react. "Carley?"
"I didn't know if I should be in here, but I felt like I owe you a ton of gratitude. You saved her, and for that I can never repay you. If there is anything I can do, anything please let me know." Carley said, stepping closer to Callie's bed. "Wow. You still look exactly the same. It's such a small world." Carley added. "Yeah, really small." Callie mumbled. "But there's no reason to thank me. I'm a doctor. And every single one of us would have done the same thing. Saving lives is what we do. You don't owe me anything. Really." "Well, thank you again. For bringing her back to me. I thought I had lost her forever. That she was dead. And I can never find another Arizona. She is one of a kind." Callie smiled sadly. "Yeah…she is."
Carley smiled, squeezed Callie's hand and walked out of the room. Callie fell back onto her pillow yet again, covering her face with her hands. How was she supposed to want a woman so badly when it would result in breaking Carley's heart. Life was just so fucked up. The universie had to have been out to ruin her life. Why? Because she was certain she had fallen for Arizona during their time on the island, putting love at the edge of her fingertips only to rip it away in the form of the sweet and kind Carley. Pushing the call button, Callie waited for the nurse. Shortly one appeared and Callie asked for something to help her sleep and let the medicine over take her. She just wanted to be asleep so she could escape the pain and confusion she was feeling. Thoughts of the kiss they shared moments before the rescue filled her mind as she drifted off to sleep.
Down the Hall
"Can I get you anything? Is your leg hurting? I can tell the nurse to bring you some more pain medicine?" Carley asked Arizona. The blonde had seemed off. Sure, Carley knew that she had just been through something extremely traumatizing and she didn't expect her to act like the happy-go-lucky person that she was prior to the accident, but it was something else. Something about the way her girlfriend stuffed up when Carley touched her, or how she turned her face everytime she tried to kiss her, that told Carley that it was something else. Something about the way her girlfriend stiffened up when Carley touched her, or how she turned her face everytime she tried to kiss her, that told Carley that something had changed between them, and she had noticed it the minute she layed eyes on her girlfriend. No, her girlfriends body had come back to Seattle, but her girlfriend was gone. But she told herself that in time, she would come back and things would go back to normal.
"Knock, knock." Bailey said as she popped her head inside the room. "Sorry to disturb you Dr. Robbins, but I needed to talk to you on behalf of Dr. Torres." Arizonas eyes lit up at the sound of Callie's name, and even if Carley didn't catch it, Bailey certainly didn't. Then again, not much got passed Bailey. "Oh, ok. What about Cal… Dr. Torres?" Arizona said, trying to hide her eagerness. "Dr. Torres was requesting to look over your charts. She had asked if it would be ok if she reviewed your case since she would be returning o work soon." Arizona smiled, but tried her best to play it off. Callie wanted to know how she was. She still cared, and that made Arizona's heart beat a little faster. One more thing Bailey noticed on the vitals machine. "Um, yes. She was keeping a close eyes on my leg in the island. I would feel comfortable with her reviewing my case. Did you bring the forms?" Arizona said, playing as calm as she could. With a raised eyebrow, Bailey handed her the charts. "So you want to relieve Dr. Chang of his services?" And place Dr. Torres as your Orthopedic doctor of choice?" Bailey asked, alreay knowing the answer. "Babe? Are you sure? Dr. Torres needs to rest after all that you have went through. Don't you think?" Arizona signed the charts, and shook her head. "I'm sure Dr. Torres knows her limits and since she is familiar with my case, I feel more at ease having her take over." Arizona said, brushing off the look Bailey was giving her. "Ok then. Dr. Torres will be in to see you tomorrow. Get some rest doctor."
Bailey walked straight back towards Callie's room, and walked in to toss the chart down on the bedside table, making a loud clapping sound. "Jesus! What the fu—" Callie yelled as the sound filled the room. "What the hell Bailey?" She said, giving Miranda a go to hell look. "I don't know what funny business you two were up to out there in the middle of God knows where, but don't let your romantic feelings get in the way of doing your job to the best of your ability."
Callie pretended to be shocked and offended at Bailey's words. She knew that the woman had figured it out already, but Callie wasn't ready to admit it to herself, much less someone else. She looked down at the chart and swallowed. She knew that if she opened this chart, there woud't be any turning back. No, opening this chart meant she was opening something else as well. Her heart….