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"No way!" Kagome laughed as she poked a stick into her container of takoyaki that Kikyo bought her. She was getting sick of the hospital food. She's been stuck in this place for nearly three months and became pretty familiar to the taste of blandness by now. She has gotten much more healthy since day one. She was so surprised to see how bony she was, but hey, she was able to eat as much food as she wanted and no one would stop her. Being 5' 6", she turned from that ghastly 86 pounds to a more healthy 115. Of course she was still considered fairly skinny, so she has a few more pounds to go until she has to worry about what she eats.

"Yes way! Even ask Sango, I swear, you actually did that," Kikyo chuckled in return as she pointed towards the mentioned woman, a gentle laugh rolling off her tongue when she saw how red she was.

Of course during her hospital stay she was able to familiarise and re-introduce herself to a few of her friends, like Miroku and Sango. She learned from Kikyo that she was close friends with those two, especially that Sango girl. Apparently the two of them were best friends since middle school. She met Miroku later in high school. She was having a riot hearing all the stories and memories they all did together, although she wished she could remember them. It would've been funner if she was able to remember the experience.

"It's true," Sango huffed as she chewed on her dango, her cheeks a rosy red. "When the both of us first entered high school together, Miroku was the first person that we met to give us an orientation. But we didn't know he was just as new and actually thought he was a sensei or something, right? And-" She shook her head as laughter started to rumble in her throat. "I can't say it! Oh Kami it was too embarrassing," Her shoulders began to shake. "We were so lucky that Inuya-"

Kikyo made a loud coughing sound as she shifted in her seat, placing her box of yakitori on her lap. Sango quickly closed her mouth as she flashed a smile at her in-bed friend. Kagome sighed as she heard a knock on her room door, a nurse in the doorframe. She sent a small smile as she waved the two goodbye, sighing the moment they left. She didn't understand.

For the past three months, this "Inuyasha" man was never allowed to be mentioned in her presence. Wasn't he important to her somehow? He was one of those four people that was at her bedside when she first arrived in the compound. And since then, she has never heard of a single thing about him. Just his name. In every story, inside joke, or memory Kikyo, Miroku, or Sango told her his name and just plain existence seemed to be censored from her. She even remembers this one time, after a week or so she was here, he was trying to get inside her room but her sister seemed to be always keeping him out.

It made her so curious.

She felt herself grin as the familiar sound of rustling pricked her ears. Her room was only on the second story, it wasn't that far off the ground. And just her luck, a tree was grown right outside her window. She propped herself up as she grabbed her IV drip. She knew she shouldn't question her sister's purpose of protectiveness, but technically Kikyo just avoided the question and didn't actually give her a reason. And besides, who said curiosity kills? Aside from that cat.

"Hey you," She beamed as she unlocked her window, letting the late-night visitor in. Visiting hours ended at nine o'clock, so it wasn't that late she guessed.

The visitor gave her a smirk as he wrapped an arm around her waist, leading her back to her bed. "You shouldn't get out of bed so much, you're still under bed-rest," The man scolded gently as he laid her down on her bed.

She rolled her eyes. He was always so gentle with her. It was sweet for the first month, but come on, she was a fully grown woman, she's feeling fine. "I'm alright, Inuyasha," She grinned, punching said man's arm softly. "I'm a tough girl!"

Golden orbs rolled as he flicked the onna's forehead. He scoffed when she cooed as she nursed the small wound. "Right, tough girl." He couldn't help but feel his heart swell. She looked completely innocent at this moment, although childish but at the same time cute. She wasn't giving him that deadman stare that haunted his dreams, a shallow smile that was probably forced, and hell - she didn't look dead. She was actually enjoying his company.

And hopefully it'll stay like that.

"I feel so rebellious letting you visit me after visiting hours," The raven-haired beauty spoke, "Like I'm a kid staying past my curfew."

He rolled his eyes at the lame joke, but couldn't resist the tug pulling at the corner of his lips. He should be feeling guilty, not happy. This was wrong. This was Kagome's chance of a new life, a fresh start. One that she's laughing in, one that she's smiling in, one that has her standing by the man she loves. She deserves that; love. She deserved a family, a big family, one that has a dog and a cat. And there'll be a roof over that loving family, with a white-picket fence protecting that house.

She deserved every dream, every fantasy, every wish she's ever had to come true because does Kami know she deserves it.

But instead, here she is, building her new house out of the bricks from the old one.

And he's not stopping it.

"Such a badass I have over here," He smirked, trying to ignore the thought. "But it's not like I come at this time by choice."

Cobalt irises rolled as she scoffed. "I know, I know. Honestly, you must have picked some bone with Kikyo in order for her to keep you out all the time." She turned to him and gave him a mischievous smile. "Trouble in paradise?"

He tried not to make his crooked smile flatter as he nudged her shoulder playfully. How come now he feels horrible about his relationship with Kikyo? Well, he felt that it was wrong to begin with, but for Kagome to say that him and Kikyo were a couple with such ease, as if it didn't matter...It stung. And it was completely untrue. For three months straight, Kikyo and himself never met up. Not once. Not like he has a problem with that, he is trying to patch things back up with Kagome...but that damn Kikyo won't let that happen.

He knew the exact reason why Kikyo wouldn't let him near Kagome, it wasn't rocket science. She didn't want a repeat of Kagome's episode. She didn't want Kagome to fall in love with him again only to remember everything that he and herself put her through and cut all ties with them completely. Kikyo didn't want to be hated by Kagome again, not that she was to begin with. He guessed what Sango called her out for still rung in the girl's ears for her to keep this up. But damn it all, he couldn't leave this chance to be untouched! This was the redemption he was waiting for, his new starting point. He'd be damned if he let Kagome slip through his hands twice.

She will be his.

"So what new things did you learn today," He sniffed as he pulled a chair beside her, turning it so that the backrest was pressed against his chest. "Remember anything?"

"Learned a lot, not much remembered, but once again, Kiks wouldn't let anything be talked about you," She let out a low whistle. "I don't know what you did, but it must've been big to piss her off that much." She shook her head at him. "I suggest you guys make up quickly, Kiks is the type to hold a grudge."

He let out a sigh as he rubbed the back of his ears. Again, she kept thinking that they were dating. "I don't really care if she does hate me," He groaned as he rested his hands on the backrest. "We're not dating."

She nodded her head as she gave him a doubtful look. "Alright...Kiks likes Ferro Roche and takoyaki as a 'forgive-me' gift," She gave him a wink. "You can just give them to me so I can give it to her."

For what seemed to be the umpteenth time, he rolled his eyes. "We're not dating! And those are your favorite foods." He responded blandly as he saw her snap her fingers comically.

"Aw shucks you saw right through me!" She giggled as she gave him a mock pout.

She liked being around Inuyasha. For some reason it felt natural, like they were childhood friends. According to him, they met in high school and first started hating each other. It took him a week to convince her of that. Even though she couldn't remember they're status before the accident, it couldn't have been bad if they're so buddy-buddy right now.

"I'm being discharged in a couple of days," She quipped, "Kaeda said that my physical condition has improved greatly and that it'll be safe to bring me back home," Inuyasha stiffened. "And she said it'll be better for my metal state too. Things there might help me remember." She sent him a smile. "Don't you agree?"

Shit, he didn't think she'd be discharged so soon. His mind was racing as he choked out a stuttering, "Y-Yeah" as a response. Did she mean home as in their home? Or some fake home Kikyo made up. He felt his jaw tighten. He can't allow that to happen. Kagome is going to be living with him in their home. But he was smart, he wasn't a CEO for nothing. If he brought Kagome back to their home, would she remember all the shit that went down in there? Would he be outcasted once more? He felt his throat close up as breathing seemed to be an impossible task.

"Inuyasha?"

No, please, not again. He didn't want to be alone again.

"Inuyasha!"

Any Kami up there he promises he won't let Kagome get hurt again, but don't bring him back to that corner. Please!

"Damn it Inuyasha, breathe!"

He blinked his eyes rapidly as he took a deep breath in, not realizing his lack of oxygen. He turned sheepish orbs to concerned sapphire. He felt his heart tighten as guilt clouded his mind. He wasn't worthy of her precious gaze, one that's as passionate and endearing as hers. But he was selfish. He wanted it, even if he didn't have a right for it. He wanted her, even though he lost that privilege. His human side was begging him to leave before he inflicts anymore damage, his demon side was angry with him to be so unworthy of this fragile woman.

"What's with the look, 'Gome?" He smirked, trying to lighten up the mood. "It makes you look stupid."

All concern was wiped off her face as she gave him a sarcastic look. "I'm so glad I stopped you from not breathing. Honestly, no death would've been more worthy." She trilled sarcastically. "I'd have fun explaining your cause of death: 'Here lays Inuyasha, a pompous ass that died from forgetting how to breathe.'" She giggled as she shook her head. "It'd turn from a funeral to a stand-up in seconds."

No death would've been most fit for his egocentric ass.

"Well what questions do you have tonight, Kags," He shifted topics. "Any new stories or memories you're unsure of?" He did this every night he came to visit her. She would ask him questions about how the two of them were like in high school, or to clarify any story she heard from Sango or Kiks, anything she could think of that involved the two of them.

"Let's see," She cleared her throat as she crinkled her eyebrows together. "Since we've talked about anything we could for our social life...did I have any love interests?"

His eyebrows shot up till they got lost in his bangs. "Love interests?"

She faked a gasp. "So you're telling me that I'm a 30 year old woman who has no one in her love life?" She pouted. "What next, I'm also a 30 year old virgin?"

His mind was racing for any lies or stories he can concoct to answer her questions. He couldn't lie for the second question; when she has sex she'll definitely know she's a virgin. But her love life? Since her only love would've been him...it should be safe to tell her that, right? No, his demon hissed. Since you're too selfish to release her, hanyou, It lectured, Save her from knowing this truth. She'll remember what caused her accident and you'll be resented once more. It sneered at him. Pathetic hanyou, it'll fit you justice.

He tried to ignore the rattling his youkai has caused as he contemplated on his reply. "Well...you have been in a relationship," He started, "But only one." He chuckled at her flabbergasted expression. "Don't worry, it was one of those 'i'm going to marry this man' kind of relationships," She gave him a so-so look. "And for your second question...yes."

Kagome blinked. "Wait...so after being in a relationship with this guy that I was all lovey-dovey with...we didn't even have sex!" Her jaw dropped. "Was I a prude or something? No, it had to be the guy. Was he one of those 'wait till marriage' kind of dudes?" She sighed. "That is just sad. I pity me. Not even knowing what sex is like."

In all honesty, he didn't know why he kept her pure for so long. He inwardly grimaced. Perhaps that's the reason itself.

"Well at least you'll have an experience that you'll remember," He offered half-heartedly, shrugging his shoulders.

She sighed. "I guess. Now I got another question," Blue clashed with gold. "Who was he?"

And there's the dreaded question. His being was screaming, begging for him to lie to her. Tell her that it was some guy that moved away, or that it was some man from college. He can't tell her that it was him. He can make up as many stories about their relationship, hide the darkest memories in the recesses of their minds, but it won't stop the inevitable from happening.

"Just some," He felt his heart give way. "Jerk that you shouldn't concern about." How is it that he can voice other's judgements on him, but he can't accept it himself?

"Yikes, sore topic. Lucky I already forget him, huh?" Kagome shuddered, shaking her head. "Why'd I stay with him again?"

He flattened his ears. "Because that's just who you are...you'd do anything to keep him happy..."

She shook her head surely at him, readjusting her body to face him properly. "That's just pathetic." He piped his head up. "C'mon, Yash, you gotta agree with me on that. To be in a relationship is a two-way street. To stay with a man for his happiness but throw yours away?" She chuckled. "I don't believe any sensible person would make such a conscious decision."

He felt his chest squeeze. "People are capable of such things when it comes to love," He argued.

She shook her head once more. "People will act silly, say ridiculous things, get angry for love," She gave him a stern look, "But never will one bend over backwards for love. That's not love, Yasha," She leaned in closer, "That's just fear for being alone."

How could someone feel so cold, yet, be sweating at the same time?

"Well love is basically just some delusion some human made up as an excuse to find a mate to pass their genes on from, right? With that in mind, is there really such a thing called love?" Why was he trying so hard?

"With that mindset love doesn't exist in that person," Kagome clipped. "To them, love is destructive- They're destructive." She frowned slightly, her head feeling heavy. "I feel bad for whomever chooses to put themselves up with people like that. That one may love that person with all their heart, stay by their side and convince themselves that patience will reward their unrequited love, but all that's happening is they're falling apart piece by aching piece."

Her head was pounding by now. "Because in all honesty, someone so ruinous will only delude the girl into believing they're loved. Delude that in order for that girl to gain love is to ensure the other's happiness while abandoning their own," She closed her eyes tight as she silently begged the shake in her brain to stop.

"B-But in the end," Why was she choking up? "He didn't love her. H-He just didn't want to be alone,"

Inuyasha felt tears prick the back of his eyes. "Kagome."

"Or maybe," Her voice was breaking. "Maybe she just made his ego feel good."

His hands were shaking, his voice coming out in a whine. "Stop."

"Or," She heard her heart monitor speed up. "Or maybe she made him f-feel better about," She inhaled a shaky breath, "about his miserable life, but he didn't love her." Her head was now hung low, her heart racing and her mind throbbing with stress. "Because no one destroys people you love, no one."

Her mind was racing but no actual thought came clear in her head as she tried to see through the pain. Her emotions were running loose as stream after stream came running down her cheeks, teardrops dripping off her chin. Why was she crying? Why did her chest feel so heavy but her brain couldn't tell her why? Was this because of this mysterious man? Did he cause her this much angst, this much torture when she put her happiness aside for his? Though she couldn't formulate any answers from her past relationship, she was sure of one thing.

Never will she let this feeling return.

Fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice, shame on me. She thought solemnly, wiping her tears away. Her brian couldn't formulate a face to connect her rapid emotions with, however, she was able to come up with a name. Or at least a letter. K. Her sadness couldn't connect with the letter, rather, her mind was able to connect her to it...Oh Kami, I forgot Inuyasha was still her, she berated inwardly as she lifted her head, pushing her curtain of hair to see his face. Much to her surprise, he was gone.

As Inuyasha stared from outside Kagome's hospital window, he felt his heart cry out for her buried one as he turned his head in shame, unable to look at the damage he dealt. If she remembers everything- He shook his head. When she remembers everything, including him, will she still keep to what she said just now? Will she honestly leave him, forget about him- He flattened his ears as he walked away.

Of course she will, because that's just who she is...