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Log 5
Kagome never allowed herself to not think. It wasn't healthy for the brain to just not think. It was why she didn't watch much TV. However, for the first time in her life, Kagome allowed herself to just not think.
Inuyasha had taken them to the beach and had placed her on the sand behind a cluster of rocks that kept her hidden and provided a bit of shade. Then he had just left.
Kagome knew she should call him back, knew she shouldn't let him go off alone but she also knew she just couldn't look at him at thta moment.
Six men.
Six lives.
Six families.
He had ripped through them without thought or care. She hadn't seen him hesitate even for a moment before killing them. How could she be so close to someone and not even know them enough to sense that deadliness in them.
She looked down at her arm and leg, both of which had his handprints in dark dried blood.
She felt sick.
She stood and ran down to the water and sat in the shallow end and began scrubbing the areas with sand. Then she scrubbed her whole leg and arm. Then moved on to her whole body.
She kept reaching down and grabbing sand and scrubbing furiously at her skin.
She was a scientist! She was an observer! She didn't participate in the world, she watched it and told the participents how it worked.
She was never meant to be covered in blood, never meant to affect the lives she watched.
Now, because of her, six poeple were dead.
It was stupid, a part of her brain whispered.
Inuyasha had done exactly what he had been genetically engineered, exactly what she had genetically engineered him, to do. He had found a threat and took it out with military pricision and without a single thought of remorse.
But he was just a puppy!
"Kagome."
She turned and stared at him as he approached.
His hands were clean now but Kagome could still see the blood as if it had stained them permenantly. In them, instead, were two apples he must have stolen because she hadn't given him money and he didn't understand the concept of buying and selling.
He followed her into the water and sat beside her.
He offered the apple to her but she just stared, stared at the claws that had pierced and torn flesh so easily.
Slowly, she reached up and took it from him.
But she couldn't bring herself to eat it. She just stared at the dark red flesh as she carressed it, wondering how an innocent apple could look so much like blood.
She blinked in surprise when she felt a pair of arms go around her.
Inuyasha had moved behind her and pulled her between his legs. He had his arms around her neck, just holding her as he licked her neck in the only appology he knew how to make.
"I'm not mad." she said honestly as she reached up and held onto his arm with both hands as she watched the apple float away on the water. "I'm...sad."
He said nothing in return. Did he not know that many words?
"You're...mine." she continued. "So those deaths...they're on my head."
He didn't understand.
How could he?
She sighed. "You probably don't know the difference between life and death."
He said nothing, just held onto her.
"I wish..." she sighed again as she felt tears in her eyes. "I wish the world would just dissappear."
As they watched, the sun began sinking at the edge of the water.
"I wish I had never created you." she said as she began crying. "I love you, with all my heart. But..."
"No cry."
She turned to look at him.
"How many words do you know?" she asked, the scientist in her couldn't help but want to know.
He had no answer for her so she burried her face in the crook of his neck.
She had no idea how long they sat there, but by the time she turned away from him, the sun had fully set and the line between the water and the sky was impossible to detect. The stars winked at her from the sky, dulled from the lights of the city but pretty all the same.
It was then that he stood up and she heard him walk out of the water then his footsteps as his bare feet crunched on the sand.
"You're leaving?" she asked feeling strangely numb.
She heard him pause.
"Kagome. I love you."
Kagome gasped and cried all the harder, hiding her face in her hands as her shoulders shook.
A pair of clawed hands didn't comfort her, a pair of golden eyes didn't see it, but his ears still heard it as he ran from her.
He had to go, he couldn't stay.
Kagome feared him, that was all he could think. Even holding her hadn't been the same. He needed to leave her, he needed to learn.
She sat there, alone until the tide began to rise. Then she moved further up the beach and laid in the sand. She knew he was going, she knew she couldn't stop him.
When the sun began rising in the east, she stood up and watched the delicate colors, her arms around her body trying in vain to keep warm.
With no other choice, with him gone and not needing to be explained, Kagome went to the cops.
Three days later, in a government protected facility, Kagome began researching cures for cancer. In exchange for all the information she had and working for them, Kagome was given their protection.
She heard nothing from her hybrid, but the first night in her new quarters on the government, real government base, Kagome woke up to a bright yellow wildflower on her pillow with a single strand of silver hair wrapped around the stem.
She cried over it and missed him.
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1 year later...
"Inuyasha!"
The hybrid jumped up in bed and cried out and pain. "Jesus, Sango! What the hell?"
He glared at his friend and rubbed his sensative ears.
Sango crossed her arms and smiled triumphantly. "I'm not the one sleeping like the dead, dog-boy. Get up."
"Can't go back to sleep with my ears ringing." he snapped as he swung his legs out of bed.
"Miroku has a job for us, you were supposed to be up half an hour ago." she pointed out. Sango was't beautiful, but she was lovely in her own way. Her hair was dark brown, toeing the line between brown and black but never quite crossing it. Her skin was milky smooth, all but a large scar on her back. She was strong and deadly and there was no one Inuyasha would rather have guarding his back in a fight.
She was dressed casually in a pair of baggy cargo pants and a maroon tank top. At the small of her back was a black tattoo she called The Eye though it looked nothing like an eye just a series of swirles inside a larger swirl with tendrals of the swirl surrounding it.
Inuyasha had only hooked up with Miroku's merry band of assholes a few months ago but he knew it was a place where he fit like a glove.
That day he left Kagome, Inuyasha had done what he needed to to survive, namely steal. Not long after that, he was picked up by a gang that taught Inuyasha how to speak and how to fight. It wasn't long that he was with them because everytime he did somethine wrong he saw Kagome's tears.
So he left them and tried working but Inuyasha didn't really exsist. At least, he had no real ID or anything of the like. So he got a job doing manual labor and it was there he met an old man named Myoga who took a real liking to him. The old man had taken it into his head that he was in charge of teaching Inuyasha everything important about life.
When Inuyasha was fired from the manual labor job, no ID no job, the old man followed him. His wife was dead, his kids grown up and gone, and Inuyasha needed him more.
Three more of such jobs later, Inuyasha went back to a more questionable lifestyle, Myoga still following. But Kagome's sad face still invaded his thoughts doing wrong things, for he knew right from wrong now. So he knew it wouldn't last long.
That was when he met Miroku. Miroku had heard whispers of the dog like mna who could do anything and survive the impossible. He had offered Inuyasha a job.
Miroku belonged to a group that, like Inuyasha, didn't exsist. They weren't government run, exactly, but they had been a government brainchild. They opperated under their own rules, raised their own money, bought their own equipment, and killed people the government needed killing. In return, the government looked the other way about what they did and stepped in if any of them got in real trouble.
Inuyasha, being stronger, faster, and better than the others, quickly became the best overshadowing Sango, the former best, in a week.
He had learned that killing was wrong, learned why Kagome cried at him, and knew the difference between bad and good. But he also knew that this was where he belonged. Protecting people was what he was, litterally, created to do. So that was what he did.
In return for his services, Inuyasha was given an official government ID, one that stood up to real scrutiny, and even an artificial past. He was paid but since he was given everything he needed, food, shelter, ect, he never actually used it.
Instead, every month, he gave his pay to a special government delivery boy who took it to MedLab Inc and gave it to the best scientist there. The only scientist who never left the compound and who had a guard at her door everynight.
That, and a single flower. Different everytime, but perfect in every way.
"You're brooding again." Sango chastised.
Inuyasha flipped her off but otherwise had no reaction.
Would Kagome be proud of him, he often wondered. Of what he had become. He still killed, but everyone he took down was bad. That was worth something, right?
He hadn't seen her in a year and he missed her like crazy.
"You weren't at the mission briefing last night." Sango said.
"Didn't need to be." Inuyasha stood up and stretched. "I don't care about the details. Just point and say go."
"Fine." Sango shrugged. "I guess that the mission has to do with MedLabs isn't interesting to you at all."
"What?" Inuyasha snapped to attention, his eyes focusing hard on her.
"Nope, you said that wasn't important." Sango shrugged and made to leave.
A second later, Inuyasha was blocking her path. "That's not funny. Sango."
She smiled in pity at him. "The attacks from Kikyo's men have reached levels their security can't handle. The men up top know about your...connection with their target and thought it would be perfect."
"So..." he said unsure of how to say the words. It wasn't that his grasp of language wasn't astronomically better than it had been just a year ago, but...the concept itself was so...
"You're going to meet your maker." Sango said dramatically then left, clapping her hand on his shoulder.
Sango didn't care that he surpassed her in skill, hell the man wasn't even human so it wasn't like it was an even playing field. She had a lot of respect and admiration for the dog-man. And they were partners, so they trusted each other unquestionably. So she knew all about his past, knew about his tie to the scientist. She was happy they would meet again.
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"I don't need a baby sitter." Kagome said rebelliously, as she slammed her notes around. The leaps made in cancer research because of her were unbelievable but she knew that it wasn't the best she could do. Her masterpiece was currently out there in the world somewhere. The only reason she knew he wasn't dead was because of her monthly gifts. The last of which had been delivered only a week ago.
She didn't know where he got money, or even what was happening to him. All she knew was that he was alive and that was all she needed.
"Kagome listen to reason..." her 'boss' Hojo said desperately. He never demanded from his employees, instead only asking politely. Kagome was normally happy to do whatever it was he wanted but not this time.
She was perfectly safe, damn it. She didn't need a shadow everywhere she went.
"The attempts to snatch you have gotten worse lately." Hojo begged. "And it's not like the guards will be some lugs off the street. They are government approved."
"No!" Kagome said stubbornly and she began peering into her microscope. There wasn't anything on the slide but a sample she had already created a perfect sketch of and examined completely. But maybe if Hojo saw she was busy he would go away.
"They're coming today." he said in as strong a voice he could muster, which wasn't all that foreceful at all. "And...and that's that! So there."
Kagome giggled once. He was cute when he was trying to be tough.
"I'm serious." Hojo said, flushing a bit in embaressment like he knew why she was laughing.
"No, thank you." Kagome said as she looked away from her miscroscope and began typing away on her computer.
She heard a knock on her lab door. "Sir, they're here." Clint, an intern with all the personality of a sponge, told Hojo.
"Good, send them in." Hojo nodded as Kagome ignored them both, typing with her back to the door. "See Kagome, they're on their way."
"Ooh, goodie." Kagome said with obviously false cheer.
"They won't inturrupt your work in any way." Hojo said. "They'll just-"
"Follow me everywhere I go and stare at me as I work." Kagome finished for him.
"You act like you want to be kidnapped." Hojo shook his head.
Kagome said nothing.
Why was she so against the guards? It didn't make sense. She had agreed to work here for the protection given to her. So why was she trying to deny that same protection?
Because she didn't want any body guards.
She wanted a guard dog.
She sighed and as her typing slowed to almost nothing.
"Ah, welcome." Hojo said behind her as the door opened again and new footsteps came into the room. "You must be the new guard. Kagome, wont you greet your new friends?"
Kagome said nothing.
Hojo laughed nervously. "She's just a bit..." he worked his lips like a fish out of water because he was unsure the right word to describe her as 'uncooperative' didn't have a good connotation. "Overworked." he finished lamely. "She's really very nice once you get to know her."
"Really?" A female asked as Kagome picked up her typing again. Maybe if she got finished early, she could go back to her room and sulk for the rest of the day in peace.
"Kagome, please?" Hojo begged pathetically.
"Go away." Kagome said quite unhappy with him for no good reason at all. The knowledge of which just served to make her irritated. Nothing was quite as frustraiting as knowing you had no basis for your anger and couldn't help but be angry.
"Just stand at the door." she heard Hojo instructing. "Try to be quiet. Maybe if you prove to be not annoying Miss Grumpy Pants will let you stay."
"You're still here." Kagome pointed out as she pulled her notes to her and began going through them.
"We'll be good." the woman said again.
Hojo sighed once more, then Kagome heard him pause, felt his stare at her back, before the door opened and was closed again.
She sighed and set her notes down.
"That was meant of me." she said not knowing if she was talking to them or herself. "He was only looking out for me."
She was staring at her lap, thinking about how to appologize later, when she heard a set of footsteps approach her.
She felt heat at her back.
"I've missed you." A destinctly male voice whispered in her ear.
Kagome turned so fast she was sure her she got whiplash.