Hey everyone! Here is the next chapter!
I switched computers because I'm off vacation, and the other keyboard was much smaller than the one I'm using now… so it's hard to adjust to it! Everything is spaced out so much! Makes it very hard to type…
Chapter six~ Ink and paper
It had been two weeks.
Naruto, the blonde loved dearly by many… He had been gone a few, selfishly long weeks.
The rain was pouring, for a matter of fact; the rain hadn't stopped since the blue eyed boy ran off.
"Sakura… please calm down." The blonde hokaga sat at her desk, sighing and shaking her head.
The pink haired girl paced back and forth across the office, breathing heavily.
"Are you seriously telling me to calm down after you pushed my broken hearted best friend, to run away!?"
Tsunade stood up at her desk, her face hardening. "You know that having Naruto run away, was never my intention."
"Then what was your intention?! Breaking his heart even further than it was? What could you want to possibly achieve by telling Naruto that Sasuke cheated on him multiple times! That Sasuke only used him and that he never really loved him to start with?! What could you accomplish with all of that?!" Sakura thrashed out, her green eyes filled with anger.
"The reason I told Naruto all of this, is so that maybe… by some chance he can erase Sasuke from his heart."
The pink haired girl slammed her fist into Tstunades desk. "How the hell?! You know how Naruto is, and how he feels about Sasuke! Even though he was pissed at Sasuke for hurting me, the love Naruto has for that bastard…"
"Sakura…" Cracks went don't the center of the wooden desk as Tsunade called out her younger lovers name.
"Don't even say my name. Naruto is forgiving when it comes to Sasuke, he has always been. You know this, better than the rest of us. Do you remember when you put out the order for Sasukes death? Who stopped it, almost dying himself? That would be Naruto. Risking everything for Sasuke, before he even started to love him like he does now… So Naruto will forgive all of this. He loves sasuke… when he loves any one, no matter what they do… Naruto will love them anyways. So how could you think that Naruto of all people would hate Sasuke…?" Sakura lifter her clenched hands from the broken desk, as it fell in half.
Tsunades lip started to waver, as she watched the papers fly around her younger lover.
"You will understand soon enough… just be patient. Just wait… Sakura, this will all come together in time."
The pink haired girl looked down to the ground, a single tear crawling down her pale face. "Then tell me, what your plan is…? I hear you say things like this, and I want to know. No, I need to know! What is your plan for getting rid of Sasuke? Because I know that's what you're trying to do."
Tsunade took a hopeful step forward, towards her younger lover. "No… I can't tell you the details of what will happen."
Sakuras green eyes burned into Tstunades brown orbs. "You can't, or you won't?"
"I… don't want you to know."
The younger medic nin turned around, as more drops of clarifying tears fell from her pain filled eyes. "You can be such a bitch…!"
Tsunade went wide eyed from surprise, as her younger lover ran from the room.
"Dammit Sakura… dammit." The brown eyed woman sat back in her chair, holding her hand over her eyes.
"Tsunade-sama…?" Shizune came through the door, to see papers all over the room. The large wooden desk broken in half, and her sempai laid back in her chair. Tears rolling from under her fair skinned hand.
"Shizune… close the door on your way out."
Shizune stepped closer, looking at the papers that she held. Debating on whether or not to give them, to the dismantled hokaga. "But there are these pa…"-
Tsunade squeezed the arm of her chair, shattering it. "I said… to close the door on your way out, Shizune."
The black haired girl backed out of the room. "Ahh, umm okay. Sorry Tsunade-sama."
Derp~
"Kakashi sempai, Naruto will come back. The note that he left said he would, so you should rest." Yamato, the ex-leader of team seven was standing behind his drenched sempai.
"I can't stop… Naruto is an important member of my team, my life. Even if the note he left me said he would come back… but it didn't say when. Naruto is hurting with no one there to save him. I am supposed to be that person, I am supposed to protect him from all this." The silver haired jounin, panting, and leaning against a tree just hoping that he could find his special blonde.
"I know that you love Naruto… I know this better than anyone. But working yourself to this extent, just to find him… Kakashi sempai, if he doesn't want to be found then you're not going to. He has surpassed us greatly and learned so much that Naruto could stay hidden very easily."
Kakashi closed his eye, sighing heavily. "So what are you saying, Tenzo?"
Yamatos brow furrowed with aggravation. "Please, not that name. It's Yamato now! But to the point… when Naruto wants to be found, then he will make himself findable."
"So I should just stop searching, I should just wait obediently until he returns home? Is that what your saying?"
"Kakashi, were in the middle of the woods, it's pouring out here. Were soaked to the bone, let me take you home…" Yamato grabbed Kakashis shoulder sympathetically.
"I'm not done searching today… and I can make it back home on my own. Don't need a personal escort."
Yamato held on tighter, not letting go. "No, you're going home. Now come on, I'm not against using pure force."
"Tenzo… why won't you just leave me be? All I want is to find Naruto, so I'm not going to give up until I do. Plus, we both know that when it comes to pure force… then I would kick your ass." Kakashi shrugged the ANBU's hand off his shoulder angrily.
Yamato sighed a hopeless filled sigh. "I'm doing this because Tsunade-sama and Sakura are worried about you. For the past two weeks you have been home once, and to hokagas office twice. The only thing you have done for the past two weeks is search for Naruto. Take a break, like I said before… Naruto will return when he's ready."
Kakashi filled the distance between the two shinobi. "Tell me the real reason why you're trying to get me back home to rest."
The brown eyed shinobi glanced to the ground and back to his sempais face repeatedly. "The real reason…? Well, because they are worried about you and because I am too. And because…I still care. We might be over, and you might be in love with someone else… but I haven't forgotten a single day that I was with you."
Kakashi looked slightly stunned and regrettable. While looking directly into the brown eyes across from him.
"Tenzo… I'm sorry."
The younger shinobi rubbed the back of his head, smiling a clearly fake smile. Rays of blush, running over his exposed cheeks. "That's the first time you've said sorry…. But seriously Kakashi sempai, don't call me Tenzo. That name is a complete part of my past now."
The silver haired jounin ran his fingers through his soaked hair. "You're not supposed to forget your past, Tenzo. But I understand and I will go home right away…"
'Now I feel guilty… Tenzo is worried. He still cares after all I put him through.'
Merp~
The rain was falling down even harder, as Kakashi unlocked his door and started walking in.
'This smell…'
The shinobi got three feet inside the door of his house before it hit him.
"Roof roof, wheres the food at, Kakashi!" Pakkun, the smallest of the ninken whined while shaking the rain off is fur.
"No wonder my house smells so bad… it's from the eight of you. How long have all of you been in here?" Kakashi opened his fridge, wincing at the emptiness of it.
"What?! No food here?! Then go shopping!" Urushi one of the very upset, and very hungry ninken complained.
The dog summoner shook his hair out, in hopes of it drying at least a little. "What do all of you expect me to do? Go out and chop up some random animal for you to munch on?"
Pakkun crawled on top of his owners, dripping silver locks. "We've been here about twenty minutes. Now, how about you go out and buy some food for this place. You've lived here longer than a month and nothing is unpacked. Not even Narutos things."
"Ahh, if I don't go to the store, then what? Are you going to pick my flesh off to the bone?"
Pakkun gently bit the top of his master's head. "Exactly, you will be our meal. So chop, chop! Or you will be our chops."
The silver haired jounin sighed, while punting Pakkun onto the couch. "Okay, okay, I will go to the store. What dog food do you guys prefer? And I'm going to warn you, if any of you ever decide to eat me; then I wouldn't taste very good."
The small ninken rolled over on the couch, scratching his floppy ears. "Yeah, we know. You're thin and bony. Not much taste to you… believes me. I've gnawed on your arm before. Now go to the store!"
Merp~
Thirty minutes later, Kakashi returned with four; very large bags of doggy food.
And as soon as that sexy dog master walked through his house door…
BAM!
That so called dog master was jumped, landing on his perfect ass, on the floor.
"I'm home… as you can obviously tell. Since you all jumped me, using me to get to the food." Kakashi sat up, watching all his dogs tear into the bags of food.
"Thank you Kakashi!" All of the ninken said simultaneously.
"Yeah whatever. But you're all going back after you finish up here. "The silver haired jounin said aggravated.
An hour later, the dogs disappeared in clouds of smoke, leaving the sad and alone Kakashi to his thoughts.
Maybe if he just didn't think about the blue eyed blonde… then it might not hurt?
Or maybe if the silver haired jounin went to sleep, then he wouldn't remember as soon as he woke up…?
Even if only for a few minutes, at least he wouldn't be stressing over it. The jounin wouldn't be going crazy out of his mind on where his Naruto could be.
At this moment.
Right now.
What is the blonde doing?
Is he hurt…
Crying…
In pain…?
Could the one person in the masked man's life, who he would die for without any regrets or any second thoughts… be lying in a ditch somewhere?
Calling his sensei's name…
Possibly… screaming for help…?
The thought of that happening… is unbearable.
"Ahhhh! I need something to distract myself with…" The silver haired man got up off the floor, where he was surrounded by pieces of dog food and drool.
"Well there is plenty of things I could do…"
Kakashi started to look around his house, the disaster that it was.
There were half unpacked boxes as far as his one dark eye could see.
"Or not..."
The only remotely tidy room in his big house was the jounin's master bedroom.
Kakashi walked through his bedroom door, taking in the neatly made bed and the rain going down his window. "I haven't even slept in this bed since that last morning with Naruto two weeks ago. His scent still lingers… well he did sweat allot that night. Especially on me… that whole night."
"I will just sleep on the couch… won't be able to relax if I do it in here."
The sexy sensei headed back downstairs, removing the dirty blankets from his back throbbing, but cushiony goodness of a couch.
Plop*
He landed on his stomach, face squished into the seat cushion.
'Sniffle…sniffles…'
"You have to be kidding… this couch smells just like wet dog." Kakashi did a push up and rolled of his couch, landing on his vested back.
"Oww… I can't sleep like this either! I'm just going to stay up and… maybe unpack Narutos things..."
The silver haired man got up from the floor, walking in the fine direction of his box cluttered kitchen.
"Okay… so about five of these are Narutos…?" His gloved hands started to rummage through the opened ones.
"Clothes, more clothes, and boxers…? What the hell is this?!" Kakashi pulled out five pairs of personnaly decorated boxers.
"Is this… supposed to be me?! On his ass?" The boxers were black and silver with the village symbol decorated on it randomly with Kakashis face, and smiling eye plastered across the ass area.
'Then this… Sasuke…" It was dark blue and Sasukes name printed in the fabric multiple times, in a red color.
'Sakura and Narutos name, with best friend written below." These boxers were light blue and two different shades of pink. 'Even if Naruto has run away… If nothing else, then I'm sure he would come back just for her.'
Kakashi unfolded another pair, which had team seven written on it. With all four of their names, Sasuke, Sakura, Naruto and Kakashi sewn in.
"Now what's this last one… ahh what is this?" The masked nin heard a thud* and saw a book fall from the last pair of boxers.
Kakashi discarded the cloth back into the box, and picked up the fallen book.
"It's just a black book..? So why was it hidden?" The jounin opened the book to the first page, and mumbled the words out loud.
He read the first paragraph wrote within the mysterious book.
I know this may seem silly, me of all people writing in a diary… but because of my best friend Sakura, I finally sank this low! She convinced me to write down my feelings here ever since I told her my secret. About my sensei… It's just that… I have these weird feelings for him and…-
"This is Narutos personnel journal… and he wrote about me… I… Must put this book down."
Kakashi closed the book, sitting back in the box. "That's right, none of my business. It's filled with Narutos personnel thoughts and I can't disrespect that."
The sexy sensei might have said that, and thought that…. But did he really mean it?
No.
Simple as that.
Just no.
All Kakashi wanted to do was pick that book back up and read to his hearts content.
After all, the blonde was admitting some feelings for his sensei… How could the silver haired man pass up on finding out how Naruto really feels…?
Deep down inside, does he love his sensei?
Did he ever hate him?
What the truth is behind his two year long relationship wth Sasuke…?
The only way the jounin would get the answerers to the questions he has… Is to read.
So… Kakashi slowly walked back over to the table, letting the curious emotions take over his will.
And the masked nin, opened the diary of a blonde boy.
And… I just don't know what it is quite yet. When I'm around sensei, my heart beats so fast and my palms start to sweat along with this feeling in my stomach. Like a nervouse feeling, ya know what I mean Diary? Ahh what am I saying, I cant just keep calling you diary every time I talk to you like this. You must be named! How about… Maru! That would be a perfect name for you!
Kakashi pulled his fingers through his damp silver locks. "Naruto… it sounds like he loves me. But this cant be right, this is on the first page. Is it dated…?"
Kakashi looked at the top of the page, it said July 22.
'July 22, of what?!'
He continued to read down the page for hints. Scanning it all, until the silver haired man came across just what he was looking for.
I know that I just passed the third test of the chunin exams... and waiting another half month for the final test. But Sensei took off with Sasuke for special training… and left me here. Is there something special about sasuke? Why did my sensei that I care for, much more than Sasuke does; get sensei all to himself? What about me? I wanted to spend time with sensei and have him train me too… but I guess that's not happening.
"What?! Naruto… I had no idea that it affected you that way… but… When Naruto started having feelings for me was when he was thirteen. But he must have gotten over it, and moved on to Sasuke. That might explain allot of things but, would still leave many questions unanswered." Kakashi stood next to his kitchen table, muttering to himself.
Going over the words he read in the journal over, and over again.
'Is there something special about Sasuke?'
The jounin repeatedly read over the pages, letting the words act as knives sticking his heart.
I learned how to walk on water today! Even if I wish Kakashi sensei would have been the one to teach me. But instead he is probably teaching sasuke at the moment, how to walk on water.
He scanned, flipping through the diary until he saw dried tear marks on a page, and smeared ink.
Ohh god… Maru… I need to tell you something that I wanted to say for awhile now… Well you see, I think sensei is seeing someone. I don't think he would be interested in guys but, sensei and Yamato sensei were acting really touchy today. I was going to check on Kakashi sensei in the hospital after being set to bed rest and I saw them holding each others hands lightly. A smile, such a bright smile was going across Yamato senseis face… and his eyes were just so shiny. It hurt… somewhere deep. Like I was just stabbed in the heart or something. Wtching that scene… (even though I hate to admit this) Made me cry. Maru… I ran to an empty room and locked the door behind me and just cried. Actually I'm crying just from remembering it so clearly right now… What should I do? Is this a sign to move on from sensei? I… I am confused and hurt. So maybe…
Kakashi continued to scan the paper, dumbfounded by everything he was absorbing through his one dark eye."Naruto… you knew? And to think that you're the reason that me and Tenzo broke up. Maybe I should explain things properly to him… to Naruto.. "
Then something dawned on the silver spikes on the jounin's head. "If Naruto knew that I dated Yamato, a guy. Then why was he so surprised when I said my special person was a guy? Naruto… you acted like this was your first time knowing any of this..?!"
Ahh, Maru… I came to a decision about the whole Kakashi and Yamato thing. Since I haven't slept in two days because of this… I've decided to make my self forget. That way it will leave my mind, and every time I see them together I wont want to cry. Don't get me wrong Maru, I still love Sensei. But he seems happy from what I have seen of them together. If I tried to steal his scare crow heart, then it might trouble Kakashi sensei more… So that's my decision. Make myself…-
'Forget?'
A million thoughts were running through the silver haired jounins mind.
'Make myself forget…?'
'Don't get me wrong… I still love sensei.'
'...Steal his scarecrow heart.'
Is this saying that Naruto literally blocked that information from his mind? Did I cause him that much pain?
Naruto.. at one time loved me so much that… me being with someone else drove him to forget?
Did I break his heart without even knowing?
All those years… I could have had Naruto. He should have been mine!
But…
But I let Sasuke take him first. And because of my carelessness, you have been heartbroken again.
Naruto…
I-
I'm sorry, Naruto.
When you return… I will make you mine. No matter how long it takes, or what it takes.
With this, Kakashi sat the diary of a certain blonde boy down; and headed back to the back hating couch. "Don't worry Maru… I will continue reading you tomorrow."
'But dammit, I need some sleep. And the couch smeels like Pakkun. Damn dog… all kinds of wet and rolling on my couch..!'
Okay! Here is the sixth chapter! Hope you enjoyed and please review! Fyi.. so theres no confusion, please know that Maru is the name that Naruto gave to the blonde! So at the end there when Kakashi says, "Don't worry Maru… I will continue reading you tomorrow." It means he is talking to the diary. Thank you for reading! Please enjoy!