A/N: It's been a while since I last updated. I have my reasons and I'm sorry for being delayed.

A huge flashback is present in this chapter since this one is important. Hope you like this no matter what. The reason behind the whole break up is finally here.

Thanks for the reviews though they are starting to dwindle down. *sigh*

Sorry for the mistakes that you will found.

Disclaimer: Not own everything, just a few, I guess.

He knows that something was up when she arrived that morning to his office. He was busy with a new business plan for his company when Rachel entered his office looking a bit dejected.

He came to her right away, the papers on his table already forgotten.

"Rach, what's wrong?" He took him in his arms right away, rubbing circles on her back to make soothe her at least.

"It's - it's my dad." She muttered. "He's in rehab. My aunt says that he started drinking again and when they tried to stop him, he attacked them. They didn't know what else to do so they made some calls and immediately took him in rehab even without his consent." She managed to say to Finn before tears started to fall down her cheeks.

"Oh, Rachel," He mumbled softly and brought her face closely to his chest.

She leaned back and looks up to meet his gaze. "I need to be there, Finn. He needs me there."

"I know, Rach," he replied quickly. "We'll fly to LA tonight. I just need to - "

"No, Finn," she shook her head and stopped him. "You don't need to come with me. I need to do this on my own and you can't leave your work here."

"Rachel your dad needs you and I don't want you going there by yourself." Finn argued. "I can go with you. You don't have to worry about my job. I own my company, remember."

"I know you do but I don't want you leaving it because of me. It's my own problem and I have to fix it on my own." Rachel said, getting frustrated already. She just wanted to really have some alone time with his father and she don't want Finn seeing his father like that. She's ashamed about it and although she knows that Finn won't judge her or her father, she still doesn't want him getting involves in her own problems. He already has a lot of things to think about and she doesn't him to put it all aside for just this.

"Either I go with you or you won't go, Rach." Finn said to her, his voice determined.

"Are you being serious right now?" Rachel asked him incredulously. "I'm going there Finn, by myself. And nothing can make me change my mind about it." She bit out, already getting mad at him.

Finn sighed in frustration. He steps away from her and runs a hand to his hair. He's being unfair, he knows that but they've been there before and he doesn't want it to happen again.

He's scared of Rachel leaving his sight. He is scared that once Rachel leave without him, she will not come back. Just like what happened before. So he maybe being so selfish right now but he doesn't care at all. Rachel is part of him now and he doesn't want to let her go. Not ever.

He then turns his eyes back to her and sighed. "I'm sorry okay?" He said as he came closer to her and took her hands with his. "I just - this happened before with us, remember? And I can't get it out of my head that it's going to happen again."

Rachel's eyes widened when she realized what Finn was saying. She never thought that Finn still thinks that she may leave him every time. She felt guilty and sorry because she was the reason why he's feeling like that.

"I don't want you to go alone because I'm afraid that you will never come back, just like what happened before. I'm sorry I just - "

"Hey," she said softly, putting her hand on his jaw. "I'm not going to run, Finn. Not anymore. You're the love of my life and I will never ever do that to you again, okay?" she smiled softly at him.

She still saw some hesitance in his eyes when he nodded.

"Look, if it will make you feel better, I'll even let you fly there using your private plane and maybe even Rory with me just so you have someone looking out for me." She smiles.

Finn really likes the idea and even when he is still not sure about everything, Rachel gave him a great idea that both of them knows he will agree.

"Maybe even call me every day?" he suggested, arching his eyebrow.

Rachel laughs softly. "Okay, that's reasonable enough."

He pulls her closer to him as if it's not enough. "We're gonna be okay, right?" he asked her softly.

"Yeah. You're stuck with me remember?"

He chuckled and kissed her on the head. "Glad to hear that."

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Two weeks after Rachel flew to LA, Finn is on the phone talking to Rachel who is a mess right now. Her dad had been brought to the hospital due to his problem on the liver. She said her dad might need a surgery but they are still waiting for the scans.

Finn wanted to be there for her but Rachel insisted that she's fine and that he has nothing to worry about. She's just shocked about what happened and that she can't control her emotions. She assured him a couple of times that she really is fine and that he don't have to be worried.

Finn wasn't sure if he should just let her be but he just agreed to her, even if he himself wanted to just ignore her wishes and be there as soon as he can.

After that phone call, he tried to focused himself back to his work but failed several times so he just turn his chair back from his table and face the New York City skyline, thinking about how was she's there with herself and how he was supposed to convince himself that she's going to be fine without him.

The next day Rachel called Finn again saying that her dad needs a surgery, a liver transplant. She's not crying this time but he still feel that she's not alright. Finn is now more determine to fly there and be with Rachel, even if Rachel doesn't want him too.

So after that phone call, Finn told Tina that he's flying to LA that night and she needs to reschedule his every appointment. He was about to go back to his work when his phone rang again. He thought it was Rachel but when he looks at the screen, it was his step-brother Kurt.

"Kurt! Hey! What's -"

"Finn, dad is in the hospital. He had a heart attack and he's -" Kurt didn't get to finish his rambling. He was already crying.

Finn's heart went stilled for a moment, but regained immediately and stood up from his seat, taking his coat with him already going outside his office.

"I'll be there as soon as I can, Kurt." he said to him. Kurt didn't say anything back and hang up.

Everything went so fast after that. All that Finn remembers is him talking to Tina about his schedule for the day and now he's almost there to the hospital, hoping and praying that everything's fine and that Burt is alright when he arrive.

He got out of the car quickly when he arrived in front of the hospital, running as fast as he can to the front desk and not caring if he turn off the engine of his car or not. He doesn't care about everything right now except the health of his father.

When the nurse told him where to go, he runs on the way there, dodging everything and everyone that's on his way.

He stopped immediately when he found Kurt, Blaine and his mom on the hallway crying. And he knows something is not right. He knew immediately that something is wrong.

Kurt spotted him looking at them and he runs to him quickly, sobbing into his shoulders while he hugs him.

"He's - he's - he's -" Kurt can't continue what he want to say and sobbed uncontrollably into Finn's arms.

Finn can't move. He saw Blaine stepping to him and Kurt and put his hand on Kurt's back and the other to Finn's other shoulder. Still he doesn't move. He doesn't want to know what happened. He doesn't want to believe what happened.

His mom walks slowly towards them, tears are pouring from her eyes as she looked at him, shaking her head as if that is enough to say what really happened.

No, it can't be. He can't be dead. He supposed to grow old with his mom while he and Kurt visit them with their sons and daughters. He's supposed to be having a chat with him while Rachel and his mom talk on the kitchen about babies. He shouldn't be dead. He still needs to learn a lot from him.

That's what he is trying to tell himself but he know even if he say it to himself a million times, his dad is never coming back.

His knees started to feel jelly and he fall down in his knees as his eyes started to form and shed some tears. He still doesn't say anything. He doesn't even know if he can talk or move right now. His mind went blank all of a sudden and now the pain in his heart started to grow stronger, just like what he felt when he lost his dad before.

He just stays kneeling in the hallway, not hearing everything what the people around him is saying. His body started to shake as he sobbed into Kurt's arms. His father is dead and again he was too late.

The day didn't pass by without Finn trying to call Rachel. It always goes to her voicemail but he still tries multiple times. She is probably preparing for the surgery right now. He remembered that he was supposed to fly to LA tonight to support her but after that just happened a couple of hours ago, he doesn't know if he can come there at all.

The cries have now subsided but the pain was still visible at their faces. Finn never stops calling Rachel from the moment he stood up from the hallway and sat down on one of the chairs. His mother and Kurt talk to the doctors about something, probably about what will happen to his dad's body.

Blaine is sitting next to him still shocked and hurt about what happened. He looks at Finn now and then but doesn't say anything.

Finn gave up when he tried calling Rachel for the umpteenth time. He looks at the screen of his phone and waited for the last time for Rachel to answer him. He just sighed in defeat when it just went to voicemail so he just decided to leave her a message.

Rachel woke up a few hours after her surgery. Her aunt was there besides telling her that the surgery went well and that they just have to wait for his dad to wake up. She was glad of course but there's something inside of her that's making her still not alright. She has a feeling that something is not alright.

She then thought about it and immediately find for her phone from her aunt. Her aunt frowned at her sudden mood but gave it to her. She found it turned off and when she opened it, she found a lot of missed calls from Finn and a voicemail.

Her heart started beating when she listened to Finn's voicemail, feeling that something is really not fine.

"Rach," Finn said, his voice break and then she heard him sniff. "I'm at the hospital. It's - it's my dad. He's dead, Rach. He died this afternoon and I - "Finn started crying again, and just by hearing him sobbing makes Rachel's eyes tear up. She covers her lips with her hand as her tears started to flow to her cheeks.

"I need you, Rach. I - I don't - I just want you here right now. But I know that you can't and I don't know what to do anymore." She heard him took a deep breath, sniffing once again. "Call me when you get this. I love you." and then the line went dead.

Rachel started wiping the tears that flowed ob her cheeks as she turned her head to face her aunt who is worried about what made her cry.

"It's Finn. His father died earlier and he needs me right now. I have to get back there as soon as I can." She tried to sit up but pain shock through her abdomen and she quickly lie back down. Her aunt stood and assisted her back to her lying position.

"Rachel, you're still healing from your surgery and it's the doctor's decision on when you should go home." Her aunt reminded her that as if she doesn't know it yet. Of course she knows but right now, she doesn't even care. Finn needed him right now.

She gave a lot of time to her dad these past few days and she thinks that her dad would understand if she has to leave. She just really hope that her dad would be fine after the surgery or she doesn't have much choice but to stay longer in LA, even if her boyfriend really needed him right now.

Rachel called Finn right after she listens to his voicemail. She doesn't know what she can do as of right now. She's stuck in the hospital for at least a week to be truly recovered. She can't wait that long but her aunt and her doctor insisted her to do so.

"Rach," Finn's voice broke when he answered her call.

"Finn, I'm so sorry." That's all that she can say to him as her tears started to form again in her eyes. "I really - I really wish I could be there right now." She sniffs as she wipes her tears from her cheeks.

"Then be here, Rach. Please." The sound of desperation in his voice makes her more guilty and sorry for not being there with him. She wants to be there but it seems the earth does not want them to be together at this point.

She still has a week to spend in her bed just like her doctor told her to and she still have to talk to her father when he wakes up. She needs to be there when he wakes up and convince him somehow to go back to rehab and be treated. That's what she came there in the first place.

"I really want to, Finn but I can't. I'm still stuck here for a week and my father is still not fine. I'm really, really sorry, Finn."

He didn't say anything back for awhile then she heard him sigh. "It's fine. I understand. I-I gotta go, Rach. I still need to help mom to prepare for the funeral." He lied. He never intended to help his mom and Kurt for the funeral. He doesn't want to go back to that place of his mind where his sorrows lie. And even if he knows that Rachel probably doesn't believe him, he will still assume that she did.

"Okay," Rachel said, wiping her tears once again. "I love you, Finn."

"I love you." and then he hangs up, feeling a bit neglected and lonely as he went back to his room and opening a bottle of vodka.

A week had pass and the whole conflict about Rachel and Finn grew more. They still talk to each other every day but the neediness in Finn's voice is still evident and Rachel feels guiltier when she hears it. She had been apologizing to him every time but Finn grew tired of it every time he hears her said it. It's like he only became more depressed than he is right now every time Rachel apologizes to him. Sometimes he even thinks that maybe Rachel is not doing any effort at all to go back to New York and be with him in this difficult time. But he always shrugs it off and just drowns his sorrows with every bottle alcohol he can found on his place. It helps a lot just like the other times when he needs it but it was just always temporary.

Rachel had been discharged by her doctor and immediately went to talk to her father when she heard that he was awake.

He found him sitting up from his bed and talking to his doctor. She waited a moment for them to be finished and when they did, she quickly went to him and hugs him, being glad that he is alright.

The whole talk about getting his dad back to rehab was hard for Rachel, especially when her dad isn't actually happy about it. It took her a lot of convincing and pep talks before his father finally gave up and said yes to Rachel. Rachel felt a bit better after that. That means she can finally go back to New York and go see Finn. She can finally be there for him this time.

The burial will happen tomorrow and Rachel was already relieved that she can actually come and give her condolences. She immediately went back to her aunt's house and packs her things as fast as she can then went straight to the airport. She was excited and worried at the same time. It's like there's something that going to happen and she's afraid that it has something to do between her and Finn.

Finn, on the other hand, is still stuck on his house, isolating himself from the outside world as he drank himself to sleep every time he wakes up. Sam had been there frequently to join him and check up on him sometimes but he never did convince Finn to go out of his house once.

It is the day where they will put his dad's body to rest and he doesn't want to have anything to do about it. Heck, he doesn't want to see his dad's body lowering to the ground. So instead, he locks himself in his house, only bringing his bottle of vodka as company.

Kurt and his mother had been trying to call him but neither of their calls interests him in answering. They're just going to make him go there and he made it clear ever since he left the hospital that day that he doesn't want to go to any of it.

Sam also had been there this morning and asked him if he would go but he just snorted at him and wave him off. Sam, as always, sighed defeated as he went out of his house. Sam is a good friend to him. He is indeed one of his best friends. But none of them can actually make him go there at all. He knows someone that can but knowing that that person is too far away from him right now, there really is no other choice for him but to be stuck in his room.

Rachel arrived safely back in NYC but still feeling she just stole something and the cops are looking for her. And by cops, she meant Finn. She doesn't know why but she feels like she had done something really bad to him and now she's on her way to face the consequences.

She is guilty of course and feeling a lot more scared. She has no idea what Finn will do when they see each other. Finn is not answering his phone since yesterday and she felt like it's her fault why.

He wakes up when he felt someone touches his face. The lights were all off and the thick curtains on his bedroom are covering entirely the windows. He can't see anything but still feeling that someone was sitting right next to him as he lie on his bed. He caught the hand and touches it. It was soft and small, just like the ones Rachel has. He blinks his eyes a few times as if that will help him see more in the dark.

"Rachel?" he asks his voice still groggy.

He doesn't hear any reply but heard a soft chuckle. Then when his eyes started to adjust through the dark, he finally sees a silhouette of a woman. The first thing he saw was the hair and although he couldn't see what color is it, he knew it was same length as Rachel's.

He felt a sigh of relief. His girl is finally back. The love of his life is now back.

"It's m - "

She doesn't get to finish what she was about to say when Finn pulled her closer an touches his lips quickly to hers.

Then he lets go, breaking the contact between the two. It was wrong. He made a mistake. That's not Rachel's lips. That's not how Rachel kisses him. Suddenly she finally see who it really was. The long hair and the soft and small hands do not belong to Rachel.

"Quinn?" he says in confusion.

Then he realizes that the lights outside his room is already on, making him understand why he can finally see her, and seeing someone just by his door, looking at them both with a horrified and pain expression made him stood up quickly and panic.

"Rachel!" he called out to her as she turns away and run to his front door, slamming it to his face when he tried to catch her.

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The silence is deafening between the two. Neither has spoken ever since Rachel opened the front door of her apartment and find Finn looking as handsome like the last time they see each other.

Rachel looks at him and found him looking tired. His eyes are bloodshot, like he never slept last night. He looks he doesn't even shave for long now and he really, really looks so tired.

"Um, hey Finn!" Blaine said behind Rachel, finally breaking the silence between them.

Finn tore his eyes away from Rachel reluctantly and stares at Blaine, who he didn't know was in Rachel's apartment.

"Hey, Blaine," he said to him then his eyes went back straight to meet Rachel's stare. "Do you mind if I speak to Rachel alone? I just really have a lot to say to her." he asks Blaine, still not tearing his eyes from Rachel.

"Uh, yeah! Sure! I need to be somewhere anyways so," Blaine trailed off, looking at Rachel for a moment. Rachel looks back at him and nodded.

She knows that Blaine is just lying but she understand why he did it.

He left the two immediately and promise Rachel to see her later. Rachel hasn't heard anything that Blaine because she was still busy staring at Finn.

When she realized that she and Finn are finally alone, panic starts to get into her. This is the first time that she's alone again with Finn after the whole incident and she feels like she's going to have a panic attack.

"Mind if I come in?" Finn asks, slightly getting nervous too. It feels like he's back from meeting Rachel for the first time and she's asking her again for a chance.

"What're you doing here?" she ignores him.

"Rach," he sighs exasperatedly. He looks down to his feet, not quite sure what he will say to her. He didn't even plan all of this. He just decided to see Rachel whatever may happen because of it. And now, that he's actually standing a few feet away from her makes him somewhat paralyzed. He has no idea what to even say to her.

Then he looks up to her, suddenly becoming determined. The only reason why he went there in the first place is very obvious. It what he always wants from her, even before.

"I want you back, Rach," he said, hoping that somehow, it will change something.

Rachel looks at him with sadness. If only things were different, she would gladly accept him back. But now, she doesn't even know if she could at least trust him. Things have changed. They're not the same Finn and Rachel anymore. And as much as she wants to come back with him, it's not that easy anymore.

"Finn, I – "

"I can earn your trust again," he said immediately, interrupting her. "I-I can marry you, Rach. Here."

He pulled out something out of his pocket and got down on one knee immediately, making Rachel gasped and took a step back. "I will be loyal to you, Rachel. I promise. Just-just marry me."

She looks down to Finn, becoming more confused than ever. They've been here before, exactly the same reason why Finn proposed to him. And this time is no different. The feeling is still the same. She looks at him the same way she did before and it's still hurts her to see him like this.

She took a deep breath, knowing that she has to do this to Finn again. She has to decline him again by saying something she doesn't want to say but need it just to make him realize that she can't take this anymore.

"I still can't, Finn," she said.

"Give me another chance, Rach," he pleaded, taking both of her hands. "Please."

"I've met someone." She finally says, lying to him and making her heart shatter as she sees his reaction.

A/N: Tell me what you think.

I may update after 2 weeks or earlier if I'm not busy anymore.

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