I OWN NOTHING! THOUGH YOU KNOW I WISH I DID OWN MARK SALLING MOST DAYS! HECK WHO AM I KIDDING I WISH I OWNED HIM EVERYDAY! =)
Slow goodbye Chapter 6
Noah POV
I was up all night trying to figure out how to win Rachel back. I thought of everything I could do. It was about 2 am when I got a text from Quinn saying.
Q: I'm sure you are thinking of ways to get Rachel back and if you haven't thought of it yet, I will help you along. SING TO HER YOU IDIOT.
I didn't respond to her. I don't know why I didn't think of that. Of course the way to win Rachel Berry's heart would be through music. Well actually I already had her heart now I just had to prove to her that I wouldn't break it again. I had to think about which song I would sing to her that would show her how I felt and how happy I was she was ok. I was flipping through my music when I heard the perfect song. I knew exactly what I would sing to her know I just had to hope that she would forgive me.
Rachel POV
I was up most of the night. I just couldn't sleep. I was so worried that I had sent Noah home with the thought that he was responsible for what had happened to me. I wanted to call him and I almost did a couple of times but then I remembered what had happened and my hand would fall away from the phone. I wanted to forgive I really did but I was afraid my heart would just be broken and I don't think I could take that pain again. My dad and daddy had gone home late that night when they thought I had gone to sleep. The truth is I was faking. I just wanted to be alone and I feel guilty because I knew they were broken up about what had happened but I just wanted to be alone and think this thing through. Eventually I let sleep overcome me and I was grateful for the peace that came with it.
Noah POV
I was on my way up to the hospital with my guitar. I was going to sing to Rachel at the hospital. I was going to speak the language of Rachel Berry and at this point I could only hope she would let me sing before she threw me out. I was approaching her room when I seen her fathers stepping out. They seen me and nodded letting me know I could go in. I knocked lightly on the door and entered when I heard her.
"come in." Rachel said.
When she seen it was me she didn't look happy.
"Just before you kick me out please just hear me out Rachel." I pleaded with her.
"Why should I Puck? Why should I let you say anything? You are only here because you feel pity for me." Rachel screamed.
"Is that really what you think about me? You think that little of me to think that I would do that to you? Well guess what Rachel your wrong. Because you want to know what I came here to say Rachel? I came here to sing to you, hoping that would show you something, that until I thought I lost you I didn't realize. I LOVE YOU Rachel and even though it took me long then either me or you wanted it to take I figured it out. And it killed me inside to think that I figured it out to late and that you would be gone before I could tell you how I feel. When you sang that song I was an idiot who thought you were still hung up on Finn. So that's it Rachel. I've said what I have to so I guess that's all I can do." With that I turned around to leave. I was hoping that after confessing all of that she would stop me but it broke my heart when she let me walk right out of her life without even a fight. I didn't look back because I was afraid she was crying and I don't think I could take her tears. Not again. I was confused though isn't this what she wanted for me to love her? So then why didn't she stop me when I left? So I just walked. I walked straight out of the hospital and I was afraid I walked straight out of Rachel's life. And this time I don't think I am going to be able to find my way back into it.
Rachel POV
I was in shock. Did he just say I love you? I wanted to jump out of this bed and into his arms but something held me back. I don't know what it was. Doubt maybe? Or was I still just afraid to let him in again after what happened. I'm not sure but the hearting breaking look on his face when he gave me one final look and walked out the door and didn't look back once broke my heart and after that I couldn't stop the tears from falling. I heard a knock at the door and my eyes snapped up hoping to see Noah standing there but was disappointed when it was just Quinn.
"Hi Rachel. How are you feeling?" Quinn asked while walking to my bed. That's when she noticed the tears falling down my face.
"Rach what's wrong are you in pain? Are you okay? Should I get the nurse?" She was practically screaming at that point.
"No I'm not in pain, don't get the nurse and no I'm not okay." I answered slowly trying to get it all out without falling apart again.
"Then what's wrong rach?" Quinn asked looking almost confused.
"Noah was here and…." I was starting to fall apart again I could feel it "…he told me he loves me." I rushed out.
"Oh my rach that is GREAT!" Quinn almost screamed with a huge smile on my face. It fell quickly when she seen how upset I still look.
"I let him leave. I didn't stop him Q. He told me he loved me and I just let him walk out. Something in me stopped me from stopping him. I don't know what I did Q. This is what I wanted from the start. For him to love me like I love him. So why did I just let him walk out Q? I messed this up even more then it already was and when he walked out that door Q he looked so heartbroken that I don't think he is coming back. I think this time I lost him forever Q. And now I feel like I cant breath…." With that my world went black and that last this I heard was Quinn yelling.
"Rachel, RACHEL someone please help she's not breathing."
Noah POV
I was driving when I got a text from Quinn. I didn't know whether to answer it or to just ignore it. I figured I probably should considering she was at the hospital with Rachel. I looked at the text and all the blood drained from my face when I read it.
Q: Noah you need to get up here right now Rachel stopped breathing. Please hurry.
I couldn't think for a second then I realized what I just read. I turned my car around and raced back to the hospital. Hoping by the time I got there I wouldn't be too late.
Well that's is for now. R&R.
The idea for the serenading that was suppose to happen at the hospital was not mine but was aussietash that suggested it so I went with it. I know it didn't happen in this chapter but it might in the next one! I just wanted to give credit where it is deserved!
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