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Chapter 6

H.P.O.V

After a few minutes I pulled away from Ron to see he had a somewhat dazed look on his face. I smiled at the look on his face and the fact that I had put it there. But I couldn't stop the feeling of disappointment that filled me that I hadn't had the same reaction to Ron's kiss as I had to Draco's. But I pushed the disappointment away as I reminded myself of how kind and sweet Ron was and how horrible Draco had been to me in the past years.

"Someone's happy to see me," Ron said with a smile as he pulled me in for a hug.

"I'm always happy to see you," I said truthfully as I snuggled into his chest.

"Aww, aren't you sweet this morning," Ron said wrapping his arms around me, "how was it, sharing a dormitory with Malfoy?"

My happy mood instantly evaporated at the mention of Draco and was replaced with an overwhelming sense of guilt as I suddenly felt horrible about the things I had said and wished that I could take them back.

"It was fine. We just ignored each other," I lied feeling even guiltier for lying to him.

"Well if he starts to give you any trouble let me know and me and Harry will sort him out."

It was a good job that Ron was holding me or he would have seen the smile that emerged on my face at the thought of Ron and Draco fighting. I knew it wouldn't be a particularly long fight and I could properly guess who would come out on top.

"Come on, let's go to breakfast. I'm hungry," Ron said as he pulled away from my embrace.

"Well we can't have that can we?" I said jokily as we shared a quick laugh, before I grabbed his hand and we made our way down to the Great Hall hand in hand.

Once we arrived at the Great Hall we sat down opposite an already present Harry and Ginny. "Morning," the couple said as they greeted us.

"How was it staying in a different dorm?" Ginny asked.

"Kind of weird without you guys actually," I replied as I helped myself to some breakfast.

"How was Malfoy?" Harry asked me.

"I've already asked her that," Ron said and annoyance surged through me at the fact he had answered a question that had been meant for me.

I took a calming breath before I answered my question, "I didn't see much of him really we just stayed in our rooms."

"Well if he says or does anything to upset you, Ron and I will sort him out," Harry replied.

"You can't be serious Harry. Draco Malfoy is Head Boy now you can't fight him; he could get you both expelled!" I reasoned.

Harry just laughed at my words, "Hermione, over the years how many time have Ron and I nearly been expelled?"

"Quite a few," Ron said around a mouthful of food.

"Exactly," Harry continued," and they have been for far more serious issues then breaking Malfoy's nose. Besides as much as I'd love to punch the slimy git, I will only do so if he upsets you."

"Thank you," I said giving up. As the other three started a conversation about Quidditch, I looked towards the Slytherin table in the hopes of catching a glimpse of Draco before my first lesson. But as I scanned the row of students, I noticed Draco was absent from his house table.

Guilt filled me again as I realised the lack of his presence was probably because of my actions this morning. He was avoiding me. If I was in his shoes I would probably be avoiding me too; especially after what I said.

I shook the feeling of guilt off by reminding myself that h was trying to get to me, Harry and Ron. What I said had been harsh, I admit that, but it had also been necessary. I had to say something – to let him know I was onto him and that I knew what he'd said had been lies. He was probably avoiding me because I'd hurt his ego by turning him down. Yes that was why he wasn't here.

I quickly finished my breakfast and got up to leave. I wasn't going to let what happened this morning mess up my work routine. I said goodbye to everyone, kissed Ron quickly, promised to meet the boys outside Potions and headed out of the hall and off to my first lesson: Ancient Runes. And as the class started I became engrossed in the lesson and promptly forgot all about Malfoy.

Ron greeted me with another hug and a kiss as I met him and Harry outside the door to the dungeons. "How was your first lesson?" Ron asked as we navigated our way through the cold, damp corridors of the dungeons.

"It was good, thank you I forgot how much I enjoyed learning."

"Well a year on the run from the world's most dangerous wizard and his crazy followers does make you grateful for the finer things in life." Harry pointed out, grinning at his sarcasm. I let the joke go over my head as the boys laughed, I was used to them poking fun at my enthusiasm for all things academic.

The boys finally went quiet as we walked into the class. Harry headed to a desk towards the back of the class, eager to avoid Professor Slughorn's attention. Ron and I followed him to the desk and began to set out our ingredients. Professor Slughorn entered the room and proceeded as he normally did: Potions instructions on board as well as in out books, unlocking the store cupboard, and registering us before sinking into the chair behind his desk.

I quickly gathered the appropriate ingredients and began the task of chopping, slicing and peeling them. I looked up from preparing my ingredients to see Draco working opposite me. His head was bent as he concentrated on the ingredients in front of him, his lips moving as he replied to some comment Blasie had made.

It struck me how beautiful he looked and how my heart was now beating so fast it felt like it would burst through my chest. What was happening to me? My palms were sweating, my stomach was in knots and I suddenly felt very flushed. Why was I having this reaction to Draco? Because you like him. A small part of my brain answered. No I don't, the larger part of my brain replied. Yes you do and you know it. Was the final thought.

Oh Merlin's beard! I did. I fancied Malfoy. I had a crush on Draco Malfoy! This realisation did nothing to ease my mind instead it sent it into turmoil. What was I doing? I'm with Ron. Ron was my boyfriend! But I couldn't help wanting Draco instead. Sadness filled me as I once again remembered the horrible things I had said to him this morning. There was no way he'd want to be with me now!

I cast my gaze back to my desk in shame. Ron decided to then gently stroke my arm in a romantic gesture. How could I possibly think of going out with Malfoy when I had such a sweet boyfriend in Ron? But sweet actions didn't make a relationship I smiled at Ron and as he turned back to his work I glanced over to Draco again.

This time he was looking away and walked away from his desk and into the storeroom. I couldn't bear seeing the pain that I had glimpsed in his eyes, knowing I was the reason for it being there. I had to try and apologise to Draco and tell him I hadn't meant what I said.

I excused myself from my desk, telling Ron I needed more ingredients before following Draco into the storeroom. I looked around and found Draco at the back of the storeroom his back was facing me and his head was bent. I took a deep breath as I prepared what I was going to say.

"Draco?" I asked timidly. He slowly turned to look at me and the sadness on his face made me want to hug him and do anything I could to take that look of his face.

"Come to tell me you hate me Granger? Because you did that already and believe me once is enough?" His dejected tone mixed with his words had me feeling twice as guilty.

"No, I wanted to see if you were ok." I said, scared of his reaction.

"Like you care," he snapped and pain erupted in my chest, it hurt me to see him upset and knowing I was the cause of his upset. In that moment, I knew I had to make things right.

"Draco, I'm sorry. I think we should talk about what's happened."

"I think you said quite enough this morning, don't you?" Pain shot through me again at the hurtfulness of his words and the fact they were aimed at me hurt even more.

I pushed the pain to the back of my mind as I reminded myself that I deserved his anger and that I had to apologise for what I'd done.

"Draco, I-"

"Not now Hermione, please. I can't stand it." Annoyance filled me at the fact he wouldn't let me finish what I needed to say.

"But-" I tried again but my attempt was in vain as he walked past me and out of the storeroom, leaving me alone and fighting back tears about what I'd done. Words couldn't describe how much I regretted saying what I had this morning. I had ruined everything. It was my fault.

I wiped away a few stray tears and composed myself before walking back to my desk, and for the rest of the lesson I forced myself to not look up from my desk and tried desperately to concentrate on my potion.

I was in a rather impatient mood as I walked to the Great Hall when classes had finished. All I could think about was going back to my dormitory, waiting for Draco and finally talking about what happened as well as him accepting my apology. I'd hardly seen Draco all day, so it was obvious he was avoiding me. The fact that he was only made me feel worse if that was possible.

All day I'd been going over everything that had happened last night as well as this morning and had come to realise that I did in fact have rather strong feelings for Draco. Even after reminding myself over and over what had happened in the past between Draco and I and the fact Ron was my boyfriend, I still found myself wanting to be with Draco.

It didn't matter what had happened in the past, everything had changed. People had changed. And as for Ron… he was a great guy, a great friend and a great boyfriend even. But things had changed. I had changed, and after everything that had happened, every one deserved to be happy. Everyone deserved to have someone.

But I was no longer that someone…but I couldn't break up with him – not yet. He was still grieving and he needed me as his girlfriend. I really needed to tell Draco this and hoped he felt the same and understood.

Once again the impatient feeling flared. It was like a slow burn on my skin, slowly itching me. I felt like ditching Ron, Harry and Ginny and running back to my dormitory now. But I needed to eat something and say goodbye to the guys properly.

After what seemed like an age, we finally reached the Great Hall and sat at our table. I quickly grabbed something to eat, not really noticing what it was, and began eating it quickly.

"Someone's in a hurry," Harry commented on my eating pace.

I quickly swallowed a mouthful of food before replying: "You know me. I like to get started on homework as soon as possible. I don't want to get behind on our first day."

"You're doing your homework tonight? I thought we could go back to your dorm and hang out," Ron said.

"Ron what a lovely thought," I lied, "but we're not really supposed to have other students in our dorms and I don't want to break any rules on my first day back. I'm really sorry." I apologised as Ron looked upset at my rejection. "Maybe you could come round later in the week." I amended and was relieved to see his expression brighten in response. I carried eating hurriedly as the others talked about upcoming Quidditch trials. Again.

Soon my plate was empty and I made to leave. "You're going now?" Ron asked, noticing my movement.

"Yeah, sorry. But I really want to start this homework."

"Ok," Ron said before taking a bite of his dessert, "Oh Merlin. Hermione you have got to try some of this. It's amazing."

"Ron, I can't. I've got to go."

"Please, Hermione? One bite? Trust me you won't regret it." Sighing I gave in and let him feed me a bit of the dessert. He was right it was delicious, but it didn't make me want to stay.

"Thank you. I'll see you all tomorrow. Have a nice night," I said smiling as I picked up my bag.

"Night!" Harry and Ginny replied.

"Do you want me to come meet you before breakfast?" Ron asked.

"That would be lovely," I said, now very impatient to leave.

"Kiss goodnight?" Ron asked. I tried not to let his request annoy me as I leant across the table to press my lips against his.

"Goodnight," I said as I pulled away.

"Love you," Ron replied.

"Love you too," I said as I got up and left the table. I could barely keep my stride at a normal pace as I walked out of the hall. Excitement filled me as I ran up the steps and headed for the first floor bathroom to check my appearance.

As I studied my reflection in the glass I became nervous. What if he didn't want me after what I said this morning? Well I couldn't blame him and I still need to talk to him. I took a deep breath as I rushed out of the bathroom and ran up the stairs.

Once I reached the portrait hole, I took a deep breath trying to calm my breathing before reciting the password. My nerves mounted as the portrait swung upon and I walked into the common room. The sight that greeted me had pain and anger shoot through me in equal measure. There on the sofa was Draco lying on top of Pansy as he kissed her. I stood there dumbfounded for a few seconds before finding my voice.

"What the fuck is going on?" I asked, anger evident in my voice. The pair quickly broke apart, Draco looking at me in shock before Pansy opened her mouth.

"What does it look like Granger?" I was suddenly overcome with the urge to curse that smug smile off of her face. Instead, to cover the pain I was feeling, I assumed my position as Head Girl and used the school rules to my advantage.

"Pupils aren't allowed in the Head's dormitories. So I suggest you leave now," I snapped, ignoring her question and pointing to the portrait hole in anger.

"Draco! Are you going to let HER speak to ME like that?" Pansy shrieked in outrage. I waited for Draco's response, wondering what he's say.

"Pansy leave. I need to teach our Head Girl a lesson in manners." I was pleased that h's told her to leave and watched as she got up and left, my arms crossed over my chest. Once the portrait closed, Draco stood.

"Why are you so mad?" He asked sharply.

"Because you are abusing the privileges given to us as Heads of this school. We have a duty to set an example to the rest of the students!" I lied automatically. I knew he knew I was lying as he took a step towards me.

"That's bull! That's not why you're angry! You're angry because you saw me kissing Pansy! You're angry because I wasn't kissing you!" he shouted, staring into my eyes.

"No its not," I replied looking away from his gaze.

"Yes it is and you know it! Merlin I don't get you Hermione. First you kiss me. Twice! Then you tell me you hate me after I've admitted that I like you and now you're furious at the fact you've caught me kissing another girl! What the hell do you want?" He shouted. I took a deep breath, it was now or never.

"You," I whispered. He obviously hadn't heard me as he continued on his rant.

"You are the most infuriating women I have ever met – wait…what?" He asked having finally understood what I meant.

"I want you," I said louder, "but I'm scared. I don't know what this will mean. I don't want to hurt Ron-" he cut me off, having closed the distance between us and kissing me deeply. I closed my eyes and lost myself in his kiss, my hands finding his hair as I pulled him closer…