Fallen angel

LPOV

Jacob stared blankly as she helped me back into the car again. Wincing with some of the pain she was mumbling incoherently. Which was good, because I did not want to hear what she was saying, something told me it was not good. She slammed the door before turning to Jacob again, Sam had returned to his wolf form and left as well as most of the other to do something I wasn't quite sure about.

"Who exactly are you?" Jacob half growled out arms cross.

"Like it's any of your business." She grumbled back. "What happened to your manors?" She snapped.

"Sorry people who stink like blood sucking scum, I'm not normally polite to."

"Ha, yeah and people who smell like wet frickin dog are any frickin better now." She retorted and I held back a chuckle but she sent a glare my way anyway.

"Well aren't you little miss sunshine." He grunted.

"Yeah and you're not exactly Mr, sunshine your self kid." Jacob raised an eyebrow, slightly, look changing from annoyed to confusion.

"Kid? I'm the same age or older than you are." She gave a huff.

"So what, your still an immature pup for all I give a dam." The look immediately switched back but he just growled rather than say anything. She just gave out another 'humph' walking back to the driver seat and pulling the map out. "So kid, if you're gonna be an annoying idiot the least you can do is give me some directions. Do you know where Bella Swan lives?"

Jacobs face immediately fell. "How do you know Bella?" He asked his voice softer. She shrugged.

"I don't, Lou does." I nodded still in the car.

"It's a long story." I murmured leaning my head against the window.

"Yeah I know were Bella lives." He walked forwards and took the map. "Here." He pointed, and then looked at her for a second. "Look I'll drive you there its hard to work out these roads sometimes, plus you look like you've been driving forever." She was about to speak, obviously to say no.

"That sounds like a good idea." I muttered. "Maybe she can sleep and she won't be so crabby." Her glare turned to me and she nodded.

"Fine kid." She jumped into the back seat letting Jacob into the front, and was quiet as he turned the keys in the ignition and started to drive away through the forest.

"Oh and by the way, my names Maria."

Bpov

I blinked my head hurt and I felt dizzy. I went to sit up slowly but got pushed back down again but something cold and hard.

"Mm. Edward?" I mumbled.

"Shh, it's ok." I could hear the strain in his voice that told me something wasn't right, I made myself open my eyes blinking against the light at first but soon they focused on Edwards face, his eyes dittoed the stress in his voice.

"Edward what is it? What's wrong?" I said slightly panicked now.

"Shh, shh." He soothed stroking my hair, sitting on the couch next to me, where I'd been laid down in his room. "Nothings wrong, everything's fine. Emmett and Jasper took care of it."

"What?" I mumbled confused as everything came back, James. I looked up. "Edward?" He looked down at me and nodded.

"Yes what is it?" I looked at him then felt my wrist and looked at the small crescent shaped scar there. "He… bit…" I started. "The venom?" I could still feel my heart beat, nothing was different. Edwards sighed.

"I sucked the poison out… it was the hardest thing I've ever had to do." He turned away, looking ashamed slightly. I took his hand gently.

"But you stopped you let go that's the important thing." I said quietly but he snatched his hand away and was on the other side on the room instantly his arms crossed. "Edward?"

"I didn't… I. couldn't." He said almost too low for me to hear. "Bella I would never forgive myself if I hurt you and I almost did. It took everyone to pull me off you, I just, couldn't stop." His eyes looked so sad I went to get up.

"Edward its ok I know you –"

"NO!" I stopped, the despair in his eyes was so much, I felt my own eyes start to prick with tears. My vision fuzzed.

"Edward…" I muttered softly trying to reassure him, trying to get into his head. "Please." At last his eyes glanced up at me, there soft topaz colour. I felt his cold arms around me and the wind as we started moving, outward and away from there house. I barely noticed that the light where all out. "Where are we going?" I asked quietly as we continued moving in silence, it was eerie and tense, all made me uneasy. He still didn't talk but I stayed silent in case of doing something else, something more to worsen the situation.

We paused and I recognised the woods just behind Charlie's house. Edward set me down lightly on my feet and I didn't need much to tell from the look in his eyes what was going to happen.

"Bella, we're leaving." Even though I knew it, the words out loud finally made my heart crack.

"No." I managed to whisper.

"Bella, I'm no good for you, we can't be together it's not right, my word isn't right for you."

"No!" I shouted it with more conviction, more anger this time, I could feel feeling welling up in my gut. Hot tear pricking my eyes making it harder for me to see. "Don't say that, don't. I can't… it's." I shook my head. "I haven't gone through everything just to loose you. I won't let you!" I could feel my whole body shaking and he looked blank, emotionless, and empty. That made it hurt even more, if he felt something anything, then it wouldn't be so hard. But nothing.

"Bella, I don't want you." That stopped everything; I felt every shard of my broken heart freeze over. The anger becomes quenched by the freezing cold. It just slipped away, the feeling of nothingness replace it all. I stood there for a moment not knowing how long had gone past.

"You're lying." I heard my voice crack; it was more of a plea than a statement. He just seemed to ignore me and carry on.

"I promise you, you'll never have to see me again, you can forget about me. It will be as if I never existed." It was only then I realised I'd been starring at the ground for the past while. I guess I couldn't stand to stare into those empty eyes anymore. I couldn't stand to listen to what he was saying. I'd lost so many things and now I was going to lose him and there was nothing. Absolutely nothing I could do about it, because this wasn't like loosing Lou, or loosing anyone else. Because it wasn't because of fate, it was because I wasn't good enough. It was because he chooses, because he didn't want me.

I glanced up and stared straight back into his gold, topaz eyes, hard as steel.

"If that's what you want." I said and I could feel the emptiness in his eyes reflected in my voice. I didn't want to listen to anything else he had to say, I couldn't. I moved too quickly, pushing my wings out and I flew, I flew higher than anything, and I kept flying, not looking back. Not thinking, letting numbness wash over me. Until everything left me.

Then I was falling.

Falling.

And then it was black.

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a/n I know i haven't done anything for ages, but meh, i've been busy and lazy and lots of things. so hopefully now summer nearing i'll get back on track