So, here is the 6th chapter!Enjoy!
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So Sick
Mmmm mmm yeah
Do do do do do do do-do
Ohh Yeah
It's been 3 days since I talked to Rose…I know she needed time to think this trough but three days has been long enough. Right? I haven't been able to do anything. All I think about is her!
Gotta change my answering machine
Now that I'm alone
Cause right now it says that we
Can't come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
Cause you walked out the door
But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore
(it's ridiculous)
It's been months
And for some reason I just
(can't get over us)
And I'm stronger than this
(enough is enough)
No more walking round
With my head down
I'm so over being blue
Crying over you
I changed the answering machine the other day. Before I had changed it, it had said, "We can't come to the phone at this moment. Please leave a message after the beep…"Now that I was alone it didn't make sense to keep it. But now I wish I hadn't, it was the only way I had the ability of hearing her beautiful voice. Her voice is like nothing I had ever heard before. It's music to my ears. She had walked out on me, not that I could blame her...I would have done the exact same.
It feels like months but it's actually only been a couple of days. Imagine how my life would be if she really did leave me forever. But for some strange reason I can't bring myself to get over her. I did cheat, but that didn't mean that I still didn't love her. I hope that if she does leave me forever I'll eventually bring myself to get past it all. I didn't know that if we ever did separate that her absence would have this great of an effect on me.
And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
I'm so sick of love songs right now. I'm tired of not being able to stop crying. But I'll never be tired of wishing that she was still here. I miss her…so much. I guess you never really know what you've got till it's gone. I never realized how much I actually needed her. Without her I'm a train wreck. No wonder I never lasted longer than 2 weeks with any other girl I ever dated. I am so sick of all these slow and sad love songs. So why can't I turn off the radio?
I guess the reason is because all these song remind me of what I once had wit her. All the things I could still have if I had never done what I did.
Gotta fix that calendar I have
That's marked July 15th
Because since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be
I still have the calendar that's marked July was the day she finally agreed to go on a date with me, our anniversary. I guess I should fix it, now that there's no more her I don't have an anniversary to celebrate. I hate the fact that everything, every song, every item remind of her, of what we used to be. Every thought I have has something to do with her.
That's the reason I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
That's the reason I'm so sick of love songs! Every song I hear brings tears to my eyes. I am such a fucken crybaby! I wish I was done with wishing that she was still here. But I know that I never will be. She is the only one I want the only person I have truly ever been happy with. She is my other half.
And yet again I hear another love song blasting from my radio but I can't make my lazy ass get up and turn off that god damn radio!
(Leave me alone)
Leave me alone
(Stupid love songs)
don't make me think about her smile
Or having my first child
I'm letting go
Turning off the radio
I swear these damn love song need to stop playing! If another one plays I am calling the fucken radio station! They all make me think about her and her smile. That perfect smile that never ceases to bring a smile to my face as well. Now there is another one playing that's making me think about having my first child. I swear these damn love song are gonna fucken drive me crazy! I have to let go of these thoughts and turn off the radio…
Cause I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)
Because I'm so sick of these love songs and what they make me think and fell. I'm tired of these tears. I'm done with wishing that she was still here. I know wishing isn't going to help at all, I need to act! But she'll probably get even madder if I go back to talk to her. She told me she needed time and that's what I'm trying to give her. But all this time just make these love songs keep playing. Who knew you could get so sick of love songs. Certainly not me. Bit you'd think that I would have gotten up and smashed the radio by now. And if you did, you're wrong. I'm still here, laying down on this couch listening to them play. Why you ask? I have no idea.
Said I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(Why can't I turn off the radio?)
And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishin' you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
Why can't I turn off the radio?
(Why can't I turn off the radio?)
Why can't I turn off the radio?
I just really hope that she forgives me. I don't think I can last another day of not seeing her, hugging her, kissing her and telling her over and over again that I love her. I swear on my life that if by some miracle she forgives me I will spend each and every day of my life telling her and showing her how much she means to me. She's my little angel, my reason to live.
And without her I am truly a nobody.
Without her my life is a living hell. With her, this hell is actually worth living, but without her I would rather die.
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