When we broke apart and I stared into his eyes, the gold was even more dominant, capturing my gaze and holding it until Paul looked away. His golden light spoke volumes to me and it was beautiful. Paul was beautiful.

"Diem? Why are you staring at me like that?" Paul's voice was as soft as his hand feeling the side of my cheek. He was staring at me in amazement and I have never been more confused.

"Your eyes- your eyes are so beautiful." I whispered then smiled when I saw his lips twitch; instead of producing one of his glorious smiles he kissed me. When he pulled away I asked the major question.

"Why did you kiss me?" I looked straight into his eyes for about 5 seconds before I lost all my courage and looked down.

"Because I love you." He said.

I shook my head not believing it.

How could Paul possibly love someone like me?

"Since when?" I snorted before asking, now looking at him but avoiding the eyes that were desperately trying to bring me to look at them.

"Diem," he shook his head and had a small smile on his face. "I've been in love with you all my life." He took my hands and started massaging my wrists but soon stopped the motion. He looked down and noticed the washcloth on my wrist that had a few spots of blood splattered on it. He instantly went from contentment to angry in a flash.

He squeezed both of my hands pretty tightly and was whispering something to himself that was too low for me to hear.

"Diem. Please tell me this was not on purpose." His voice sounded strained and he had his eyes closed.

"I- I couldn't-" I couldn't say anything. He knew before he asked me what the answer was, I couldn't lie to him even if he didn't read me that well.

He opened his eyes and they were blazing with rage.

"At first I started to resent the world for trying to take you away from me and now I come to find it's you who wants to be away from me." his voice was filled with pain, something in my heart clutched at me and it hurt.

A rock was being thrown at my heart and I was the one who caused it.

"No Paul, I'm not, I- I just- everything was against me, I felt so alone, you were avoiding me, I'm living with one of the top killing cancers...it just got to be too much. But I promise I'll never do it again." My eyes were watering; the pain on his face when I mentioned feeling alone was like a boulder being thrown at my heart.

That hurt even more.

Suddenly he got up and ran up my stairs, I followed him as quickly as I could and when I got there I saw that he had the knife that was still tainted with my blood in his hand, gripping it so tight I was sure it was going to leave an imprint.

"What are you doing Paul?" my voice was quivering.

"If you mean what you said, I'm taking this so you can never use this again. I meant what I said Diem, I love you and I can't stand the thought of you trying to take yourself away from me, so I'm going to stop the primary cause now." His voice radiated possessiveness and my soul jumped for joy- no literally that's what it felt like.

I walked over to him and took his free hand and intertwined our fingers then looked him in the eye.

"I love you Paul. So much." I said.

He leaned down and kissed me, this time slowly, passionately.

And once again I felt that force pushing us to stay like this forever.

Paul soon pulled away.

"Do you feel that?" he asked unsure. "That- that-"

"That force that's pushing me towards you? Yeah I feel it." I smiled at him.

"I guess I should explain what it means." He said while grabbing my hand and leading me down the stairs.

Before we walked down the stairs Paul threw the blade as far as he could and it disappeared into the forest. When we got down the stairs Paul pulled me into the living room and sat me down facing him.

"Do you remember our legends?" he said looking at me. I gave a 'duh' look and he rolled his eyes. "Oh yeah, how could I forget your Spirit wife phase?" he chuckled.

"Hey! She basically saved Taha Aki!" I defended my secret obsession that of course only he knew about.

"That she did. Diem you have to have an open mind about this." He looked at me meaningfully.

"OK Paul," I smiled at him reassuringly.

"I'm a-" before he could finish his sentence a wolf howled although it sounded like at least 10 I knew it was only one.

Wolves were prone to make their voices vibrate and make it seem like there were more wolves then just one.

"Dammit, Diem I have to go. I promise we'll talk later." He kissed me on the lips softly. "I love you Lily." I smiled when he used my nickname, making his accusation of loving me seem that much more genuine.

"I love you too Otis." He smiled and then left.

A few minutes after Paul left my mom came home, her hands filled with brown paper bags that held groceries in them.

"Hey mom," I smiled when she jumped.

"Diem what are you doing home? Skipping school? Waiting for a boy?" she wiggled her eyebrows and I laughed. I was extremely grateful my mom was acting like normal, it's what I needed.

I got up and followed her in the kitchen to put the groceries away.

"Well something kinda happened at school...and I asked dad to come home," I said still smiling, I honestly couldn't stop smiling.

My mom immediately put the groceries on the counter and looked at me. Oh no. I knew that looked.

"What happened at school?" she said taking her keys out of her purse and started heading towards the front door. I rushed to the door to stop her.

"Mom it wasn't that bad," she gave me a dubious look. "some of the kids just said a couple things that got to me...no big deal." I said all this with a small smile which seemed to piss my mom off more.

"Than why are you smiling?" she asked.

"Because of what happened afterwards." I smiled brightly.

My mom instantly went back to 'big sister mode' and squealed.

"Ouuu what happened afterwards?" she asked while pulling me to the kitchen bar stools and sat beside me.

"Paul came over and-"

"You guys did the nasty!?" my mom said smiling like a nut job.

"No!" I playfully glared at her. Sometimes I wondered if my mom was from a different planet, I mean what mom was excited their daughter finally had sex? Weren't most moms constantly shoving abstinence down there child's throat? And here my mom was pushing it.

"Oh you guys have no fun." My mom said getting gloomy.

I stared at her for a couple seconds.

Yup definitely from another planet.

"Anyway, Paul said he loved me." I smiled at the memory and the shock on my mom's face.

"And you guys didn't have sex? I mean it's perfectly plausible. You and Paul have known each other for a long long time honey." She said in a convincing voice.

"Mom I don't know if Paul and I are even together and I wouldn't just have sex with him as soon as we start going out." I said trying to talk some sense into my psycho mother.

"Oh honey, you and Paul were always together. So did any action go on or not?" she said mildly curious.

I mentally shrugged and through the dog a bone.

"We kissed... more than once." I wiggled my eyebrows just to make her that much more happy.

She wrapped me in a bone shattering hug.

"Oh baby I knew you had it in you!" she swayed me back on forth. "I'm going to make you lasagna for dinner." She got off the bar stool beside mine and started taking out the ingredients. I rolled my eyes and started helping her.

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My dad dropped me at school and immediately went to Paul's locker waiting for him. I didn't hear from him the rest of the night yesterday except for a text that, I must admit, made me sleep with a smile on my face. When I got to Paul's locker I saw Jared there...weird. He smiled when he saw me and started to walk over.

"Hi Diem." He said politely.

"Hi Jared," I smiled at him. " Do you know where Paul is?"

"Uh yeah, Paul won't be coming to school today but he said to make sure you were protected so here I am." Jared smiled, he was cute but had nothing on Paul.

We started walking to the quad to wait for Kim, something Jared told he did every day.

"That's cute, you seem really...attached to her after only...4 days?" I raised my eyebrow. He shrugged.

"What can I say? She has a hold on me." he smiled. "There she is." I turned to look in the direction and surely enough Kim was walking towards us.

Kim was petite, long raven hair, high cheekbones and tanned skin.

I always thought she had an exotic look to her, something you would think the boys would be attracted to seeing as she looked different from everyone that lived around here but she didn't get attention from boys until Jared came along.

When she saw Jared's smile for her smile came easily and she started walking faster; like she needed to be with him or she would stop breathing.

This day was going to be interesting.

Very interesting.

A/N: here you go lovely's if you have any ideas let me know and if you want lemons let me know, I know where I want this story to go but I'm kinda of making up the in between stuff as I go along lol so if you wanna put any of your personal inputs I'm open for ideas, review ?

-Aaliyahxoxox