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The evening was much the same as any other. Sister Bernadette made herself some toast and sat alone to eat it at the table as the others each came in to get themselves something. Cynthia checked she was feeling well.

"I am quite well, thank you." Sister Bernadette didn't feel like joining in the conversation around the table. The nurses were talking about upcoming dances and Jane seemed to be enthusiastic to go with them this time.

Sister Bernadette couldn't help smiling and silently thanking God for the change in Jane, she was growing in confidence every day. They spoke about Chummy and how much they all missed her, even if it did mean fewer items needing to be replaced.

She sat listening and trying not to dwell on her own secret longing to join them at dances or singing in the kitchen to the wireless or any other carefree activity the nurses decided to do. Although she never regretted her choice to join the order she had started to wonder whether she was losing her faith and that it had sparked these feelings in her.

Everyone left one by one and Sister Bernadette just sat quietly thinking to herself about whether she was losing faith or whether her feelings were God given. Dizzily she stood up, washed her plate and moved through the halls towards the chapel.

She was barely passing the main hall when the doorbell rang. Looking at the clock she wondered who would be calling now as it was relatively late. Looking at the board she noticed that Nurse Lee was on call. She doubted the nurse would have heard the bell so walked over and opened the door.

The last thing Sister Bernadette thought she would fine on the door step was Dr Turner. He looked up at her with dark hair plastered against his forehead. The rain beat down and all around was quiet and dark.

"Excuse me Sister." He didn't seem to know what else to say and they both just looked at each other for a minute until Sister Bernadette realised he was still standing in the rain.

"Sorry doctor, please come in. What can we do for you this evening?" She moved aside allowing him entrance into the hall. His coat was dark with rain and he left wet footprints as he moved further into the building.

"I wanted to speak with Sister Julienne if possible." He spoke but avoided looking into her eyes. She wondered why when he was usually the one lock her gaze to his. She looked at him as he kept his eyes on his hands which were currently fumbling slightly with his tie, a blue and red striped one.

"I'm sure she would be happy to see you now doctor. She's may still be in her office." Without prompting they both turned and walked down the hall towards the office they both knew well.

They were side by side and Sister Bernadette could feel the proximity of his hand near hers at the walked. It was like an electric current between them and she wondered if he felt it too. She thought he did as half way down he moved his hand to his tie again in a nervous manner.

They reached the door and Sister Bernadette knocked, when she heard the affirmative to enter she walked in slightly letting Sister Julienne know the doctor wished to speak with her.

"She will be with you in a few minutes." Sister Bernadette closed the door behind her and stood opposite the doctor both waiting for him to be called in.

"You don't have to wait with me Sister." He looked at her with a small smile on his lips. She took a sharp intake of breath as she felt her stomach flip. She hated these feelings, they hurt physically and emotionally.

Sister Bernadette had nothing to say to that, she didn't want to leave him waiting alone but had no idea how to say that to him, she simply smiled at him and looked at the floor. She heard him shuffle his feet slightly but was determined to not look at him. Being alone, even in a hallway was enough to make her heart flutter.

"Sister?" She looked up at her name and almost jumped as he was much closer now, his eyes were locked on hers and seemed so much darker than before. He wasn't looking away but held her gaze steadily.

"I am so sorry about earlier." He looked at her, his eyes reflecting every ounce of remorse he felt. She simply shook her head at him and tried to take a step back however the wall was against her back.

"Don't." It was barely a whisper and was all she could manage to say. She felt light headed and queasy with his eyes on her, his proximity clouding her vision. She tried to breathe but suddenly it seemed like the most difficult thing in the world.

"I…" He looked frustrated, as if the words he wanted simply wouldn't come. Slowly and carefully he too her hand in his, holding it as if it were glass. He sighed and looked at her, his eyes sad.

She looked back at him trying to repress the giddy excitement of their touch. She couldn't move, regardless of the wall behind her she was rooted to the spot.

Neither knew how long they had been there looking into each other's eyes, neither being able to find the words to say what they needed, or the strength to move. The door behind doctor Turner suddenly opened and he turned, quickly dropping Sister Bernadette's hand and following Sister Julienne into her office with not even a backwards glance.

Sister Bernadette stood still, her back remaining pressed against the wall opposite the door. Her hand was still in mid-air where it had been suddenly dropped. She swallowed hard and let out the breath she hadn't noticed she was holding. After a minute of staring at the door she sighed and walked slowly down the hall to the kitchen to make some tea trying to forget the last ten minutes and focus on the thought of Compline.

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