This is the third time I have rewritten this chapter. Its so hard having this make sense and not be a dead giveaway. Although, I'm sure it is. Thing is I'm kind of rushing to get to the point in the story that I want to. Sooo many ideas and things that I know that you will at least enjoy. Its like Ugh muh Gawd.

Anyways. Here is chapter 4. I hope you guys enjoy.

Chapter 4-

I couldn't tell you how long I was out of it. I felt like a piece of me was gone again. Sure, I let my depression over the sutuation hit me for too long. Until my rage set in. If he thinks he can just leave like that, he had another thing coming. I was gearing up for a fight. I was going to find him and bring him home. Where he belonged.

I talked Grimmjow and Nel into coming with me to Hueco Mundo to help me find him. Ichigo and Rukia decided to come with us. Probably to make sure I hadn't truly lost my mind. It took two months to fully prepare. I had to train vigorously to gain control over my newfound powers. I had barely gotten control of my new bankai. Barely. I still needed to train some more, but dragging Ulquiorra back with me was my top priorty.

"Ready?" Nel asked me.

"You bet your ass I am."

With those few words, we left for Hueco Mundo. I had been there so many times in the last 9 years, it was like a second home to me I guess. It was like living in Hawaii for most of the year but going to Colorado for winter. Thats the best way that I could explain it. I got into more fights in Hueco Mundo, which was obviously more training. And I'm not going to lie, I loved the moon there. It was always so bright and beautiful, but not 24/7.

When we arrived at Hueco Mundo, we decided to set up a base at Las Noches. Against my wishes I might add. I just wanted to keep looking and just camp wherever. But that might not have been the smartest thing to do. What can I say? I was on a mission.

We had already been in Hueco Mundo for what seemed like forever, but was probably more like a week. I was growing more and more impatient. My fuse seemed to be extremely short lately. Every little thing set me off. Even Ichigos breathing. We all chalked it up to being nerves and stress from not being able to find Ulquiorra. But I suspected that wasn't the only reason.

"Hey princess. Just what is the plan here?"

"Find him and drag him back kicking and screaming if I have to."

"He doesn't want to be found yet!" Grimmjow yelled.

He never really liked Ulquiorra. They tolerated each other at best in the best of times. And now, finding him was all we ever did. I could see how that would be more than annoying. But, he was a good guy. He considered us all friends, even if he never admitted it. And since Nel was with us, he would follow her to the ends of the earth. I envied their relationship. It was something I should have.

With Ulquiorra being a moron, thinking I couldn't handle whatever he was dealing with. Just thinking about it pissed me off. And it pissed me off that I kept just missing him. He was one step ahead of me. It was like he sensed me coming, and ran away.

After another three weeks of just missing him, I had had just about enough. I wanted to scream. I wanted to break things. Why did he have to be so difficult?

"What the fuck?! Whats his problem?" I screamed into the night. "Why is he being so difficult?"

If I didn't find him soon, I was afraid I was going to lose my mind. Everyone sensed it. And we were all on edge. And finally, after 4 months of continuous searching, we came across former espada 1.

"Stark! Get your ass over here!" Grimmjow called.

"Grimmjow. What are you doing here? Last I heard you were barely clinging to life."

"What can I say? I'm stubborn."

The small talk is getting to me. We have more important things than talking about shit that happened almost a decade ago. Is it so hard to believe that Grimmjow would come back from the dead? Ulquiorra came back. Then it hit me. Stark must not know that Ulquiorra is alive.

"Not to be a bitch and break up this charming reunion, but I gotta ask. Do you know Ulquiorra is alive?" I turned to question Stark.

Either he knows or he doesn't know. If he knew, he could help. If he didn't, well then, its just us. He looked at me like he was bored or tired of this whole thing already. Through half lidded eyes, he sized up the situation. I could see his brain processing the information he was taking in.

"I knew he was alive. I've been working with him for years to take care of this new threat. Whats it to you?"

I felt like the wind got knocked out of me. Before I knew it, I had Stark by his collar. He didn't even seem fazed with me being so close. And I realized too late. Halibell, former Espada 3, was with us. And she was charging right at me.

I dodged her attack, throwing Stark away from me. I see. So espada 1 and espada 3 were romantically involved. Or at least thats what I think as shes kneeling next to Stark. I laugh to myself thinking of how everybody seemed to have found someone this last decade. Time sure does change things.

"Well, I think we can safely assume you knew about Ulquiorra too. Right, Halibell?" I ask, half like a crazy person.

I truly think I have officially gone insane. I just can't believe this. Apparently, everyone and their mother knew he was alive. He just didn't want me to find him. And then, he let me find him. And just left again. What the hell is going on.

"Ok. Someones gotta tell me what the fuck is going on."

Stark and Halibell looked at one another. Oh come on! This isn't a tv drama for crying out loud. A simple answer right now would be good. My stress is at an all time high. Thoughts are running wild through my mind.

"Its up to him to tell you." Stark said.

"Yea I would make him tell me if I could find him. Why the hell do you think I'm here?"

This is bullshit. I'm getting nowhere fast. I am so mad, I think I might actually cry. Why can't they just be straight with me. Its not like I'm the bad guy. Sure, I might kill him, but he deserves it.

"He probably doesn't think you can handle it, or just doesn't want you to get involved." Halibell stated.

This is getting boring. Its getting old and fast. You'd think after so long of searching, I would find him. But nope. The rat bastard doesn't want me to find him. Maybe it was time to take a break for a while. I was getting exhausted. Mentally, physically. Emotionally.

"If you see him, tell him to come find me. We need to talk." I said, turning away.

Together with Grimmjow, Nel, Ichigo and Rukia, we decided to leave Hueco Mundo. Ichigo and Rukia had gotten engaged, so they needed to plan their wedding. Grimmjow and Nel, I don't know what they were gonna do. But more power to them. I needed to time to think about my next move. How can I tell him anything if he won't let me near him?

With a heavy heart, I knew. I placed a hand on my growing stomach. I might just have to do this on my own.

~3 months later~

I was walking in Karakura town witb Ichigo. I had helped him pick out his tux, with specific instructions of the color and style from Rukia. I was so glad that I wasn't going to get married anytime soon. Rukia had gone stark, raving mad about flowers, colors, themes. Anything and everything was a big deal. Everyone had to walk on egg shells around her. Thankfully, the wedding wasn't for another 4 months. The baby would be one month old.

I felt the baby kicking me, he was getting steonger. I grabbed Ichigo's hand, placing it where the baby kicked. He started laughing. I had decided a while ago, I needed to let the past go. Nothing could change it anyways, and I didn't want my baby to grow up without an Uncle like Ichigo.

"Are you excited to be getting married?" I asked.

"Yea. I mean, I'm nervous as hell. I might mess up on my vows or throw up on the priest."

"Don't worry about those things. If you feel nauseas, just eat some crackers and sip on some water. As for your vows, speak from the heart. All any girl wants is to know she is loved and how much she means to someone. And remind her once in a while too." I smiled up to him.

"Thanks Orihime. Think you can help me write my vows?"

"No. No. No. I am not taking that on. Besides, Rukia would know you didn't write them. I don't wanna get on her bad side." I laughed.

We walked into a store that was for baby things. I had Ichigo help me pick out a few things, like a baby swing, blankets, outfits. Once we got all the things I came for, Ichigo took the big box with the swing, I carried the less heavy bag. I was getting excited for the baby to come. I wanted to meet him so bad. I had my suspicions it was a boy, even without ultrasounds.

I often daydreamed if he would look like Ulquiorra or me. Maybe a mix of us both. How cute would he be with red hair and green eyes. Or black hair and silver eyes. I could spend hours daydreaming of a future with my baby. But it always made me sad that Ulquiorra would never know. He had never come to me since I talked to the former espadas three months ago. After a while, I just decided to focus on me and the baby. And that was just fine by me.

After Ichigo had dropped me and the baby things off, he left to meet up with Rukia to go taste some cakes. I had pouted to him saying I wanted some cake too. We both laughed at that. The cravings I had were more normal than what I usually ate. Which excited everyone. Now they wanted to come over and eat what I cooked. It always made me happy hanging out with my friends. They helped keep me distracted from my depressing thoughts.

After I ate dinner, I decided to put together the swing I had bought. Getting things set up for the baby always made me excited and giddy. I was bringing a new life into the world. I often worried about my baby. So many things could happen. It was amazing I didn't have grey hair yet. After I put the swing up and put it in my living room, I went to my room to touch up the babies crib. If thats what you want to call it.

It was a white, silver, spiney tree stump. The one Aizen found Ulquiorra in many years ago. I had brought it back and hollowed it out. I wanted my baby to have a piece of his father. I wanted him to know where he came from. He would know all about my side of the family, but would only ever know what I told him of his father. And I didn't even know what I would say about him. How could I tell my son that his father would probably never know about him. That he had left before I even knew. I didn't want to have him think badly of his father. He wasn't a bad guy, just an idiot.

I placed a teddy bear into the make shift crib. I sighed at the unfairness of it all. Growing up, I had my own fair share of shit that no child deserved to go through. At least he would have a mother that loved him. I hoped and prayed that would be enough. The baby started kicking wildly. I placed my hand on my belly, rubbing soft circles, as if trying to comfort him.

"You can't ever hate your father for being an idiot. I won't let you." I spoke quietly.

"Of course he should hate his father. Ichigo Kurosaki doesn't deserve the life he has."

I whipped around, throwing my shield up. When my eyes landed on the intruder, I nearly fainted. I lowered my shield. I knew the baby and I were safe.

"You have some nerve, Ulquiorra." I said, anger bubbling.

Why in the world would he think Ichigo is the father? Does he really think so little of me, to think I would sleep with an engaged man?

"I saw you and that trash today. You looked happy."

"So you'll spy on me from a distance, but not come and see me sooner? You're such an idiot."

I walked over to where he stood by my window. With my fist balled and ready, I leaned back and threw my weight into my punch. Connecting with the left side of his jaw. He saw it coming, I knew he did. He still didn't move out of the way. He just stared at me. I stared back, eyes filling with tears.

"Ichigo isn't the father. You are. But if you want to think I'm such trash just leave!" I yelled. "I tried to find you. For months, I looked for you, but you kept running away. If you didn't want to be with me, you should have just said so. But you're too much of a coward."

I turned away from him. I better walk away before I end up hurting the baby. I couldn't hold back the horrible pain I felt in my heart or the tears in my eyes any longer.

"I..am..the father?

"Yes you fucking moron. You're the only one I have ever been with. You're such a dumbass."

He grabbed my arm and twirled me around, making me face him. His lips met mine before I could process anything that just happened. No. Stop it. I want to be mad at you dammit. Giving in, I kissed him back. I have missed him for so long. He ended the kiss.

"I am sorry. I'm sorry for making you doubt me as I have clearly done. I just wanted to protect you."

"We have alot to talk about. And babying me, isn't going to help."

Just then the baby kicked. I guess he wanted to meet his father. I took Ulquiorras hand and placed it on my stomach. The little baby kicked him ferociously as if he was mad at him too. I giggled.

"Daddy, meet baby. Baby, meet daddy."

Ulquiorra looked at me, then down at my ever expanding belly. He got down on his knee and put both hands on my belly. He looked up at me.

"Its not possible. I can't believe I'm going to be a dad."

Ok so here is chapter 4. I am not particularly proud of it. But I'm getting impatient. Next chapter we are going to find out just what the heck is going on. Also, you'll notice around Orihime Ulquiorra is more fluffy and emotiinal. I decided to base him off the poem he wrote for her. Because of the heart I envy, etc etc. But he is colder when it comes to the other characters.

Anyway. As always questions, comments and constructive criticism is always welcome. Thank you for reading.