A/N: Last chapter. :-) Hope you all enjoyed this as much as I did!

A few hours later, Astrid found me, crouched at the edge of the ocean, watching the sun set.

She sat down beside me.

"You know that two days and a year ago was when Toothless died?" I said the words as casually as I could, staring out at the setting sun, glinting off the ocean.

I crawled closer to the edge of the ocean, but she stayed back.

The wind swirled around us as she stared at me and I stared back.

She shoved her bangs away from her face. "Oh, Hiccup…"

"I wish I could've done something for him, you know?" I asked. "Just to show people they can't control me, and that I haven't forgotten him. Just so they'd know. I think…I think he'd really appreciate that, don't you?" And I was crying again. I swear I don't why I was; I guess it was all the talk of my best friend, who had been gone for over a year now and it was finally getting to me.

All that grief and hurt and anger that I had shoved aside was sneaking back up on me.

Astrid said quietly, "I never knew. I never knew that's why you'd gotten kicked out. I always assumed you'd done something to deserve it, like murdering somebody."

I gave a dry chuckle. "I shot him down. Had I let him stay up in that sky, he would still be free today."

"Yep," Astrid agreed. There was a silence.

"So, in the end, I did murder somebody," I admitted.

"It wasn't your fault. You didn't kill him."

"I might as well have."

"You didn't." Her hands were suddenly on my shoulders, warm through the thin fabric of my shirt.

I wanted to pull her closer to me, after spending all this time pushing people away.

I pulled away from her touch and said quietly, "I wrote a song for him. Called it 'I miss you'."

"How'd it go?"

"I'm looking out to sea,

I'm thinking hard,

Thinking about you,

What was it like for you,

Before your life went dark?"

Why was I singing it to her? Don't know. Don't even care.

But I kept singing.

"I miss you,

I miss you,

It's you who occupies my thoughts today,

Did you feel okay?

Just before the lights went out?

Just before your candle was snuffed out.

I'm asking you this now.

Cuz' I'm thinking of you, a year ago, today,

Did you feel ok?"

I nearly stopped singing there, but I forced myself to keep going. No more secrets. No more lies.

"And do you know,

This has torn me all apart?

I tried to plead with them,

I tried, I tried,

Please accept that miserable offering from my broken heart.

"I know what I did,

And I know what I've done,

And I know that once your fire burned,

Brighter and hotter than any sun.

"Now your fire has been doused,

And you're slowly drowning in the water,

I dived in to save you, but,

I just could not get close enough.

"They never listened to me.

I tried to save you,

Please, please, please…

I tried.

"I miss you,

I miss you,

It's you who occupies my thoughts today,

Did you feel ok,

Just before the light went out,

Just before your candle was snuffed out?

I'm asking you this now,

Cuz' I'm thinking of you, a year ago, today,

Did you feel ok?

"And did you think,

'This is the end'?

Or did it come too quickly,

For you to think at all?

"And did you find,

That death was better than life?

Have you looked down from heaven,

And seen on earth,

Just how much I miss you,

Do you see now how much you meant to me,

How much you're worth?

"And if you were to come back down,

And fix up your grave,

That would be perfect,

That'll be the day.

"Did you know,

That I'm missing you,

Every second of every day?

I'm thinking of you,

Are you okay?

I'm thinking of you, a year ago, today,

Did you feel ok?"