Disclaimer: why! why must you people make me say this painful fact over and over again! i dont own Gakuen Alice! happy!

Mikan: hey lady..your weird.. beh!

me: shut up you little polka dot print girl! buy some REAL underwear!

Mikan: waaaahh! runs off crying

Notes and stuff: I just watched the final episode of Gakuen Alice (alice academy) on Animax. It made me cry. It's so touching how much Mikan loves Hotaru and also, Natsume showed a side of himself I could only dream existed! waittago Natsume! oh yeah, My Narumi-sensei baby got hurt. awww

Narumi: psycho!

anyway, on with the fic! thanks for the reviews everyone!

Day 5: Surprise..surprise..

I was walking around the classrooms, trying to find a place where I could read my comics. I decided to head to my old grade school classroom since all the grades school kids were all probably having fun at the festivities. I was about to open the door when I heard Ruka and Mikan's voice inside. I tried to understand what they were saying but their voices were too hushed to be heard from afar. Like the expert that I am, I gently opened the door a little to be able to hear them more efficiently.

I took a small peek through the gap that I made and my eyes widened with shocked. Ruka was in the arms of Mikan. I felt my heart get crushed into a thousand pieces by just watching them like that. Suddenly, I felt a hand push me from behind. I fell and burst the door wide open in the process. Just when I was about to hit the floor, I caught a glimpse of a robotic hand scurrying away. DAMN YOU HOTARU YOU ROBOT FREAK!

I stood up immediately and looked up at the two. There was shock written all over their faces.

"Natsume!" Ruka said quickly as the two broke apart. I noticed became pale and Mikan's eyes were starting to be filled with tears. My heart fell so much pain. I was feeling so many negative feelings all at once. I could feel that I was about to say something rude and stupid again, I tried to stop myself but it was driving me crazy.

"Whoops, what do we have here? Is this were all the magic happens Ruka?" I knew that by saying that, I had already gone too far. I could see anger growing in Ruka's eyes but this time. I couldn't stop.

"Natsume.. Its not what you think.." Mikan began but I was hardly paying attention.

" Why don't you two get a room little girl? Or maybe you like it when people can barge in on your trysts"

Ruka was already about to punch me and I had no intention of defending myself when Mikan stopped Ruka by grabbing his arm. The tears falling from her eyes were falling hard now but her eyes still looked strong. I could tell she's had enough.

"WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU!" she bellowed. I was just about to answer but she yelled again.

"Why do you keep doing this to me! Why do you insist on treating me like dirt when you very well have the capability to treat me otherwise! What did I ever do to you! ever since we were grade schoolers you've always treated me like this! WHY!"

"You wouldn't understand" take my word for it Mikan, you really wouldnt so stop bugging me about it!

"Try me! Tell me why! Why do you do this to me! " She shot back

" Because if you haven't noticed it by now, I love you!" Oh crap. Did I just say that out loud! crap! crap! crap! what a time to loose youself Natsume! how could you have said that! Idiot! idiot! IDIOT!

There was silence between the three of us that seemed to last forever. I kept my head lowered, unable to look at them, to look at her. What the hell came over me! How the hell can I do this to Ruka! Natsume you're an idiot! Damn it I hate myself! I couldn't take the silence anymore. With one swift move, I ran out the door.

I ran outside to the school grounds, which was drenched due to the pouring rain. When I had reached the middle part of the grounds I dropped to my knees and pounded the muddy earth with my fists.

I kept hitting the ground hard. Allowing my anger to be released with every punch then I suddenly sensed someone there. I turned my head to see Mikan, getting soaked fast. I looked away from her and stood up, my back facing her

"Natsume!" she cried out. But I couldn't bring myself to face her.

"Leave me alone Mikan" I said coldly, I started to run. I ran and ran as fast as I can. I needed to get away because it hurt me too much, so much that I wanted to die at that very moment. I couldn't stand it any longer.

I'm sorry..Ruka