WARNING! this is a chap that i aint sure that i am going to use so if you like it reveiw and tell me but if you hate it tell me that too.... but plz be nice about it at least lol so go on read! (A\N: If this is updated a second time with the same stuff it is because I edited it. SORRY!! I didn't know how bad you could type when you are half asleep. Sorry again!

Somehow this reminded me about my mom. I don't know how but it did. I was no longer in a forest but in a park. Back to where it all started.

"Mom," I groaned, "I don't want to do this!" I crossed my arms in front of my chest.

My mom turned around with such happiness that I wondered how I was even related to this human being let alone be her daughter. She was always soo happy that it sometimes creeped me out. She was the kind of girl who always got her way but not caused she asked but because she was sooo beautiful and nice. She was even prom queen in high school. I on the other hand was dark, grumpy, and not as interested in guys. But she didn't care, she just kept on acting like I was her best friend. "Come on now, don't be so grumpy," and she pushed me onto to the platform where you pick up a hammer and hit a little squishy thing and a weight goes up and hits a bell. "Now," she said like we were getting ready for a game, "don't hit hard, just enough to where you look like you need looking after by a big strong man!" and she giggled like she was doing this for the first time. She gave me a wink and pushed me up next to the hammer.

I can't believe she is making me do this! I thought in my head. Then I grinned evilly to myself. I had a plan. So I picked up the hammer and walked to where the little squishy thingy was and hit it with all my might.

The bell rang with so loud that I dropped the hammer and held my ears. So did the unlucky people that happened to be standing within a 10 feet distance of the platform. After a couple of minutes I noticed that the only ringing left was stuck in my head. Slowly but surely I heard something else too. I looked around to find people clapping and hollering at me like i just won 10,000 dollars. I did a quick bow and headed off the stage.

I got passed around and shook so many hands that it made no sense to me. I mean all I did was hit the squishy thing and the little weight hit the bell and I about made us all deft. I tried to look pass everyone but that is the problem of being so short. You can't see squat. Eventually I made it out of the crowd and went to look for my mom.

More time it took me to find her the more I got worried. All of the sudden I got pushed from behind. I flipped over and saw a brown coat and black hat pushing and shoving its way to the gate. "Well damn, what was his problem?"

I dusted myself off real quick and started to look again.

A scream peirced through the happy atmosphere. Please don't be mom, please don't be mom I begged over and over again in my head as I ran to the crowd that gathered around a sight.

I crawled under legs, ducked under arms, and dodged a few couples. When I finally got to the middle. I stopped for a split second.

Then I ran over to my mother who was laying on the ground covered in blood. I knelt down and picked up her head and hugged it to my chest. I rocked back and forth murmuring its going to be alright, just hang in there.

"You're smothering me," my mom said weakly. I looked down at her to see her smiling. I cried even harder wondering how she can be in so much obvious pain and still smile.

I kissed her forehead, "Now you know how I feel," I said forcing a smile. she then coughed up blood all over me.

"Jane baby," she took a deep breath and shuddered as another peice of her life slipped away from her grasp, "The monster that did this to me can't do it to anyone else. Find him and kill him, please for me." she shuddered again. I could tell she was getting weaker as we spoke cause her breathing was shallower and more rugged. "The... thing that did this to me was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen but it was also a monster that i have hoped you would never have to be but now there is no one to protect you." She grabbed my arm with one hand and stroked my face with the other. I pushed my face against it and held it there."Please baby do something for me." then she took another deep ragged breath and said, "look in my pillow and you will find out everything i known but its in a code you will eventually be able to read it when you are mature enough. Gaurd it with your life for it has too many secrets that if in the wrong hands the world will be destroyed. Tell your father I love him with all my heart and we will all be a family in heaven again someday and do not tell him about the journal whatever you do, don't burden his poor weak soul," her eyes started to flutter, "I love you baby. Don't let the world go to the dead, please. I love you my baby." Then with a sigh she left the world to go to heaven.

I bent down over her body and shook with unvoiced sobs and heart-shattering. Through a haze I remember going to the hospital and getting check to see if I was hurt. When they found out I wasnt they made me go and sit outside in the hall while they tried uselessly to save her. Even I knew that it wasn't going to happen.

My dad ran through, ignoring me completely, to the room where they held her at and burst through the doors. After that, I think I fell asleep cause the next thing I knew I was in my room in my bed looking up at the ceiling. I went through what had happened and almost cried again but I told myself that mom wouldn't want that.

But she would want me to go and get that book she talked about so I sneaked to my parent's room and quietly opened the door. My dad fell asleep with a picture of mom in his hands with tears still rolling down his face. Seeing him like that made my heart break even more. I almost started crying right there again. But instead I held my breath and snuck over to where my moms pillow was. It was a white fluffy pillow that if you laid on it, your head would sink a couple of feet. Mine was excatly the same way. So I took her pillow and put it in my room and put my pillow where hers used to be. I walked downstairs to make something to eat promising myself that i would read it later.

I did try to at least, but it made no sense to me then and still, three years later, I was as far as reading it as I was the first night.

so wat did ya think? tell me!!!!