"A lot of people don't know this about me, but I'm mostly asexual. I don't really find interest in men or women. When I do, it's very rare and doesn't last very long. I've had maybe five actual relationships in my life, none lasting more than a few months. I just like me more than anyone else."
"That explains a lot," Noah responded sarcastically to Chris' admission.
"Hey! You want my help or not?"
"Sorry."
"It wasn't easy for me as a kid. I didn't always know what I was. I didn't find girls attractive so I thought I was gay. When I didn't find guys attractive either, I was confused. I thought that maybe I should give something a try. I tried taking a girl on a date. We kissed but I was honestly kind of disgusted by it. I tried a date with a guy. Same thing happened. I stayed away from dating for a while until I was almost eighteen. I met a guy who seemed to have a lot in common with me and it actually didn't disgust me when he touched me. We spent some time together but it didn't work out. He did help me figure out what I was though, and I will always be thankful for that. Since then I dated three girls and a second guy and went on dates with a few people. Still preferred my own company to anyone else's."
"What's this got to do with me?" Noah asked, impatient.
"Well, you know what you are. You have known for a while. You're already a lot better off than I was at your age. The only problem you have that I didn't is that you are denying yourself. You know what you want but you're not going after it. Why not?"
"Because . . . because I'm scared."
"Of what? The worst that can happen? He'll say no. Duncan might bully you, but he'd do that anyways. Take the chance. I'll even cut that part out of the show if you get rejected, which is pretty big cause that would shoot the ratings up! Haha."
"Thanks," Noah said sarcastically as he glared at Chris.
"But seriously, go for it. You can't play and make a fool out of yourself on t.v. if you're all depressed."
Noah sighed. "Fine, but I'm not doing it cause the damn show, I'm doing it for me."
"Whatever, all I hear is the ratings going up now that we have a confirmed gay teen on the show."
Noah shook his head and then left Chris' trailer. He was resolved to tell Cody how he felt, and he had to do it now before he lost his nerve.