A/N - Normally I would have waited to Friday to post a new update like the others, but I felt that today seemed like a good time to update. Hopefully you all like the way the story is going. Someone had asked me a good question about if what Jane is hiding about the night Red John was killed would cause Lisbon to break up with him, I honestly wasn't thinking about Lisbon finding out. But because I have already planed out a future chapter which I haven't written up to yet, I think I may end up writing Lisbon finding out into the story. Of course I may have to change the orignal ending I thought up, I guess I'll see how things go. As always leave reviews, and if you have any questions or comments please feel free to ask them.
The next morning Lisbon was sitting in the waiting room of a doctor's office. Sleep hadn't come well the night before for the brunette agent. Between thoughts of how Jane would react, to how their future might be like with a child had kept Lisbon awake most of the night.
"Teresa Lisbon, the doctor will see you now." Said the young nurse who had entered the waiting room, breaking Lisbon's train of thought just as she started to wonder how Jane was doing.
Jane had spent the night on the bullpen couch at CBI. It was the first time in the two months that he and Lisbon had been dating that he hadn't spent the night at her apartment. In fact it had been so long that the night guard almost had a heart attack, when he found Jane on the couch, while making his first sweep of the floor.
The blond consultant hadn't gotten a good nights sleep, the first time since Red John was killed, because all he could think about was why had Lisbon left work early the day before and why had she not wanted him to come over. As he had tried to sleep Jane had been plagued, probably for the first time in his life, by a case of the what if's.
What if this was Lisbon's way of telling him that she thought that their relationship was a mistake or maybe she didn't love him as much as she had said she did. The only thing Jane knew for certain was that Lisbon had lied about feeling well.
"Jane, come on" Cho started as he hung up his desk phone and threw on his suit jacket, "Someone broke into the victims house again."
"What's the record for a victim's house being broken into?" Jane asked as he got up from the couch.
"Once is enough." Cho replied as he left the bullpen with Jane in tow.
"Well Miss Lisbon, you are indeed pregnant." The doctor said as she looked at the ultrasound monitor and held the transducer over Lisbon's exposed stomach.
Lisbon felt a knot form in her throat as she looked at the monitor and saw what she and Jane created. Their child. Then she started to panic a little, how was she going to tell Jane.
"Would you like me to print out a sonogram?" The doctor asked.
"Y-yes, could you make it two. One for me and one for the father." Lisbon replied, not taking her eyes off the monitor, as she tried to talk though the knot in her throat.
"Ok." The doctor said as she started to print the two sonograms for Lisbon.
After Lisbon left the doctor's office, she got into her car and pulled out one of the copies of the sonogram. She still couldn't believe that Jane and her had created a child.
As Lisbon walked to her office at CBI, she avoided looking at anyone. She glanced briefly at the bullpen and break room when she passed to see if Jane was around. He wasn't which was a bit of a relief because she knew that the fake psychic would be all over her about what she up to. Once in her office and behind her desk, Lisbon took out a copy of the sonogram again. She was still trying to process the fact she was pregnant with her and Jane's child. They were having a child.
"Boss." Van Pelt started as she entered Lisbon's office, noticing her boss quickly stashing something in her desk draw, "Are you ok?"
"Yeah fine, what is it Van Pelt?" Lisbon asked as she tried to act like nothing had happened.
"I thought you would like an update on the case." Van Pelt replied as she walked to one of the chairs that sat in front of Lisbon's desk.
"Yeah, I would. Thanks Grace." Lisbon said, glad for the distraction from trying to figure out how to tell Jane that she was pregnant.
Van Pelt then started to brief the Senior Agent on how the case was going so far, how Cho and Jane were checking out the victims house which had been broken into a second time and that Rigsby was running down a lead. Lisbon was glad to hear that Jane was out of the building because it gave her more time to figure out how to tell him that she was pregnant.
"I'm going to call Cho and tell him I'm back." Lisbon said as she reached for her desk phone.
"Ok Boss." Van Pelt replied as she got up and left Lisbon's office.
Cho and Jane were on their way back to CBI headquarters, the trip to the victim's house wielded nothing new except that somebody was defiantly looking for something, when the Korean agent's phone started to ring.
"Yeah Boss." Cho started after he answered his phone, causing Jane's ears to perk up because it meant that Lisbon was on the other end, "Ok, we'll see you back at the office"
"I take it Lisbon is back?" Jane questioned hoping that he didn't sound to eager.
"Yeah" Cho replied in his deadpan manner.
Once Lisbon got off the phone with Cho, she withdrew the sonogram from the desk draw. It still hadn't sunk in yet that she was pregnant and she doubted it would until she told Jane.
An hour later Lisbon was sitting at her desk doing paperwork, having kept the sonogram on her desk where she glanced at it every few seconds, when Cho knocked on the door.
"Jane and I are back from going over the victims house from the second break-in." Cho said as he entered Lisbon's office, ignoring her blatant attempt to cover something on her desk.
"Someone must really want something in the house to break in a second time."
"Yeah but what, the place was tossed again, but it doesn't look like anything was taken." Cho started as he crossed his arms, "I have the local PD watching the house incase the person try's to break in again."
"Ok, get an itemized list of everything that was in the house and check it against what is in the house now. If anything is missing then try to see if it was there after the first break in."
"Yes boss." Cho replied before turning to leave Lisbon's office.
"Oh Cho," Lisbon started as she stood up from behind her desk, "Can you tell Jane to come here please."
"Yes Boss." Cho replied before he exited Lisbon's office.
After Cho left her office, Lisbon started to close all the binds, because the conversation she was about to have with Jane was one she didn't want anyone else to see.
When Cho and Jane arrived back at CBI Headquarters the consultant went into the break room. Normally he would have followed Cho into Lisbon's office but since he didn't know why the Senior Agent had lied, though it must have been of some importance for her to lie to him, he decided to let Lisbon come find him. So Jane decided to go make tea.
"Hey Jane, Lisbon wants to see you in her office." Cho said when he saw Jane exit the break room.
Well this can't be good, Jane thought as he saw Lisbon closing the blinds to her office when he looked at the Senior Agents office.
"Thanks Cho." Jane said to the Korean agent as he started off to Lisbon's office.
"Glad to see that you're not seriously ill Lisbon" Jane said after entering, still holding his tea-cup and saucer, the Senior Agent's office.
"Jane, could you sit down please." Lisbon said, not looking at Jane, as she closed the last set of blinds.
"I have listened to Cho while you were gone." Jane replied as he set the tea-cup and saucer down on the small conference table, fearing that Lisbon was going to yell at him for something he didn't do as he sat down on the couch.
"I'm glad to hear that but what I have to say has nothing to do with how you acted when I wasn't here." Lisbon said as she walked back towards her desk.
Jane looked around the office and tried to figure out what Lisbon needed to tell him that would need all the blinds to be closed. The last time he and Lisbon were in her office with the blinds closed was when they made out before making love in the attic. The consultant noticed Lisbon had picked something up off her desk.
"What's the matter Lisbon?" Jane asked as he heard Lisbon take a deep breath before she turned to walk to the couch.
Lisbon knew that it was now or never to tell Jane that she was pregnant. She knew that even thought she was a strong and confident person - but this - having to tell Jane that she was pregnant with their child, was something that made her feel anything but strong and confident. As she picked up the sonogram from her desk another knot was forming in her throat. So she took a deep breath, which didn't go unnoticed by Jane as he asked if anything was wrong as she made her way to the couch.
As she took a seat on the couch next to Jane, Lisbon handed the blond-haired consultant the sonogram, knowing that this was the moment everything became real.
"What's this?" Jane asked as he took the sonogram from Lisbon. As Jane looked at the sonogram he thought he had seen something like it before, years ago, but for some reason his memory palace wasn't telling him what it was.
"Jane," Lisbon started before taking a deep breath, "I'm pregnant."
"So, this is." Jane started before he stopping as his memory palace finally made the connection of where he had seen a sonogram before.
"Our child." Lisbon said as she looked over at Jane to see his response to the news.
A silence fell between the two, which caused Lisbon to start to worry. Maybe this was Jane's way of saying that he didn't want to be a father again. The thought that Jane may not want to be a father to their child caused Lisbon's heart to ache.
"Jane are you alright?" Lisbon asked finding the silence almost unbearable as she placed a hand on Jane's thigh. Jane then laced a hand with hers.
"I never thought of a life after Red John," Jane started, knowing from other talks they had over the years on the subject of the man who killed his family, that Lisbon wouldn't like what he was saying, "I always thought that I would either die along with Red John or end up in jail."
"Jane" Lisbon replied softly with a bit of sadness.
"I'm glad thought that this life after Red John will include you and a child, Lisbon."
"Really?" Lisbon asked as both Jane and her looked at each other. Her green eyes searching Jane's blue eyes to see if there was any sign that he was lying.
"Yes really Lisbon, do you really think that I would lie to you about something like this?"
"I would hope not" Lisbon replied, though she would be lying if she said that the thought that Jane maybe lying hadn't crossed her mind. If Jane had lied to her, Lisbon knew it would break her heart.
Had anyone told her back when she first met Jane that she would have fallen in love with him and become pregnant with his child, she would have called them crazy. Especially since he had seemed emotionally attached to his deceased wife. The thought of Jane being emotionally attached to his dead wife made Lisbon notice that she didn't see his wedding ring on any of his fingers.
"Jane, where is your wedding ring?" Lisbon, who couldn't believe he wasn't wearing it, asked.
"I stopped wearing it." Jane said to Lisbon.
"What-why?" Lisbon asked surprised that Jane would stop wearing his wedding ring. She had grown accustom to seeing Jane wear it that Lisbon thought he always would.
"Well with Red John dead, there is no need for vengeance. There is truly no reason for me to keep on wearing it."
"How about to keep the memory of your wife and child alive, I've been to your house Jane, I know that house and the ring is all you have left of them." Lisbon said not willing to believe that Jane could be ready to forsake his wedding ring after continually wearing it for the least ten years.
"It's interesting that you thought that I got rid of it" Jane replied as he withdrew his wedding ring from one of his inside coat pockets.
"Well you are known to do some pretty stupid things." Lisbon retorted.
"So is getting you pregnant one of those pretty stupid things?" Jane questioned, hoping that Lisbon didn't mean in some way that she thought that her being pregnant was just another stupid thing he had done.
"I hope not" Lisbon replied hating that she had given Jane the impression that she had thought that them having a child together was another stupid mistake he had made.
"Good, because I don't see it as a stupid mistake." Jane placing a hand on Lisbon's cheek.
"Neither do I" Lisbon replied before their lips met in a kiss.
"Do you want to come over tonight?" Lisbon started to ask after their lips parted, "We can order out or stay in and just talk."
"I'd like that Lisbon." Jane replied before he gave Lisbon another kiss.
"What do you think Jane and Lisbon are talking about?" Van Pelt asked Cho and Rigsby as she glanced at Lisbon's office.
"Some sort of secret." Cho stated while she stared at the file that was in front of him.
"How do you know that?" Rigsby question the Korean agent as he looked away from his computer screen.
"Because when I entered Lisbon's office before, she was obviously trying to hide something." Cho stated in his normal stoic tone.
"She did the same thing when I entered her office after she returned." Van Pelt informed her two co-workers.
"So what do you think the secret could be?" Rigsby asked as he looked from Cho to Van Pelt.
"If Lisbon wanted us to know then I'm sure she will tell us" Cho replied, wanting to continue with work and not discuss their bosses personal life.
After a few moments of silence, Van Pelt then asked Rigsby how his son Benjamin was doing. It brought the red-headed agent some comfort to see Rigsby happy, as her ex lover went into detail about his one year old son's latest exploits.
Just then Cho's phone rang. The Korean agent listen for a bit, before saying a few words and hanging up. He then mentioned how one of their suspects alibi's had just fallen apart and that he was going to tell their boss on the latest development.
"Lisbon, you know that we have to tell the team." Jane said as he ran his thumb across Lisbon cheek.
"I know." Lisbon letting a sign escape her lips, she was dreading having to tell the team though she knew she had to, "But I want to keep this between just us for as long as possible."
"Ok." Jane replied, dreading the moment the team found out as much as Lisbon was. He then leaned in to give Lisbon a kiss, but before he could there was a knock at the door.
"Boss" Cho started as he entered Lisbon's office. He was surprised to see not only his boss and their consultant in a intimate position, but also now to see that Jane was now the one to quickly hide something as he saw the blond man put something in his inside jacket pocket. His surprise though didn't register on his face, "Hallsworth's alibi just fell apart"
"Ok, go pay Mr. Hallsworth a visit and see why he lied" Lisbon said as she looked up at her unofficial second in command.
"Ah Cho wait," Jane started, which cased Lisbon to think that he was going to spill the beans that she was pregnant already, as he stood up from the couch. Just as Cho had turned to leave the office, "I want to go with you so I can get a read on Hallsworth."
"Alright Jane you can go with Cho, but behave yourself." Lisbon gave Jane a stern look, and hoped that he would understand what she was about to add. "I really don't need the stress."
"I understand Lisbon, and I will try my best not to cause you any stress." Jane replied knowing that she meant that stress wasn't good for the baby, without having to actually having to say the word baby.
"Thank you Jane." Lisbon replied as she searched the eyes of the consultant to see if he not only understood what she meant, but meant what he had said.
After Cho and Jane left the Senior Agent's office, Lisbon got up from the couch and went back over to her desk. For the first time since she learned that she was pregnant it actually felt like it wasn't a dream. She pulled out the second sonogram and a smile spread across her face as she looked at the creation she and Jane had made. The Senior Agents heart started to swell at the thought that Jane wanted a future with her and their child.
"What was that all about?" Cho question Jane as they waited for the elevator.
"What was what Cho?" Jane replied as he tried to act like he had no idea what Cho was asking.
"Lisbon telling you that she doesn't need stress."
"Oh that, that's just Lisbon's new way to try to get me to stay out of trouble" Jane said as the elevator arrived.