Chapter 6- To live or not to live in his bathroom

I kept running, never looking back in fear that Koga was chasing me. I couldn't stop even though my legs began to grow tired. What the hell just happened? I was almost raped for god sake! And I wasn't even calling the police! What was wrong with me…oh yeah I can't call anyone because my damn phone was dead! Geez!

Anyways, I ran out of the gated community onto a dark highway. There was no light so I was literally running blind. Plus, there were no cars coming from either direction, giving off an eerie feeling. On both sides of the street, laid a dark creepy forest, there was no way was I going in there, I was probably going to get eaten by a mountain lion or a bear just from being on the street. It was just too much effort to hike in the forest…wait why would I ever go hiking in the forest at night. Clearly all this running was making me go insane.

I had looked back over my shoulder to see if the wolf was still chasing me and all I saw was darkness. With my legs feeling like Jell-O and my lungs out of air, I decided to stop. I placed my hands on my knee and took large amounts of air. At least the big bad wolf wasn't running after me. Now I felt like I was in some kind of horror movie based off of Little Red Riding Hood, minus the red and the hood and the grandmother….um just picture a wolf chasing a girl. There. Done.

However, picturing me in a crappy movie remake wasn't helping my current situation. I had no phone, no way of contacting a taxi, I was wearing skimpy clothes making me cold as hell, and I was lost. Completely and utterly lost. Well, at least it wasn't raining.

Just as I said that, I heard a loud rumbled above me. I sighed out in exasperation; the universe just loved torturing me. Then tiny little droplets of water began to touch my skin and to make things worse, those tiny droplets turned into a torrential downpour, soaking everything it touched, even me. Seconds later, I was fully soaked.

As much as I wanted to laugh at the irony of this event I really wanted to go home and have a nice long shower. Not a cold one I was experiencing now. I didn't even care if Koga caught me because at least I would get out of this rain. Actually no there was still no way I was going back there. I would rather die out in the rain then ever go back to that house.

I began walking; ignoring the fact I would die from rain. I had to keep walking until I hit a gas station or a hotel and beg them for me to stay until the rain stopped or morning arrived. If a person did drive by and picked me up I…..I wouldn't know what to do. My fear had been plaguing me for years now, ever since that dark, rainy night, I just…..Well, that isn't important.

What is important was the jerk that drove by and splashed me with water. I gave him the finger hoping he got the message. I didn't really get a good look at the car but I hope a police officer pulls them over for speeding or even splashing me. I think there should be a law for that. I would've expected the driver to just keep driving like the jerk he is. However, I didn't expect the driver to stop and backup a few hundred meters towards me, stopping yards away.

My heart began to race; maybe I shouldn't have flipped him the bird. I was sure having one hell of a night. First, I was almost rapped; now I was going to get beat up by an angry driver, wow Rin you were on a roll.

I got a little better look at the car and once the driver got out, I got a better look at him as well. I never thought it would be him though. "Sesshomaru," I muttered low.

"Rin," he walked over holding a black umbrella with him, "mind explaining why you are standing on this deserted road in the middle of the night while it's pouring rain?"

He looked so…so…so beautiful. His long white hair had a few drops of rain embedded in the strands, his clothing were a little wet but still in perfect shape. The guy still looked like a god; I still couldn't believe he existed.

"W-well…um…I-I…um…." Great now I was stuttering.

I must've looked like a big mess to him. I was all wet and gross, and he was all perfect in every way.

"Hn, get in the car Rin. I'll give you're a ride home," he announced, turning away from me.

I started to panicked; I couldn't get into the car. "I can't."

He turned his head slightly over his shoulder. "Rin, get in," his voice more demanding this time.

I shook my head, making no sound. It felt like his eyes were burning right through me as he turned towards me. Was he angry I disobeyed him? His body came closer to mine, his eyes narrowing at my soaked form. I looked down at my body to see what he was seeing and gasped when I saw my white tank showing my ripped bra underneath. I closed my leather jacket quickly; I swore I hear a low growl escape from Sesshomaru's throat.

He was now closer to me then I realized, his umbrella covering me from the rain. His fingers held a piece of my long damp air. He brought it to his nose and took a quick sniff before letting it loose. I hoped he didn't smell Koga on me, but I heard in class that a human's scent can get mixed with the rain washing away the smell. I was relieved that he wasn't showing any aggression telling me that Koga's scent was long gone.

But what he did next shocked me to the ends of the earth. I really didn't notice it until it actually happened.

Sesshomaru's lips were on mine.

It was a soft but passionate kiss, one of his hands were resting on my hip while the other was under my chin holding my face upwards towards him. Then I noticed the umbrella was no longer in his hands but on the ground, slowly collecting rainwater. My arms carefully moved around his neck, braiding my fingers in his now wet silver hair. His hand that had been on my chin was now wrapped around my waist, bringing me closer to his body. We were both now soaked. The setting was a bit much, making the moment feel like a sappy romance movie, but it was still the perfect kiss.

I couldn't believe it; I was kissing the man of my dreams. How could someone like him ever kiss me though, I was so plain and here I was kissing an angel. However, he was finally mine. My Sesshomaru, my teacher. Wait, my teacher? I was kissing my teacher! What the hell was wrong with me!?

I broke the kiss, pushing him away and stepping back out into the rain. The wet ground seemed suddenly very interesting to me. I wasn't looking at it because I couldn't look Sesshomaru in the eye, I really thought it was interesting with the wetness contrasting with the gravel….okay I was avoiding him but I couldn't stand seeing his hurtful eyes.

"Get in the car Rin," his monotone voice spoke. He didn't sound hurt. When I looked up to meet his golden eyes, my theory was correct, he didn't seem angry, actually he didn't seem to have any emotion at all. What is with this guy? "Rin."

I blinked at him stepping away from him. "I can't," I muttered low.

"Are we going to go through this again? Get in the car," his voice was now more demanding. So when he said he didn't want to go through this again did he mean he didn't want to kiss me again? I mean I guess it makes sense, why would he want to kiss me in the first place? What makes me so special?

But his tone was making me a little irritated. "No. I told you I can't get in the car!"

"So you are going to stand out here in the rain? Get in the damn car!"

"No!" I snapped.

"You'll catch hypothermia Rin."

"Why do you care if I get hypothermia or die?!" My voice started to yell over the sound of the rain. "Why don't you just leave me the fuck alone you dumb, stupid, dick-head, asshole…..wait….what are you doing?" I was so busy with insulting Sesshomaru that I didn't notice him pick me up over his shoulder and carrying me over to his car. That was when I started to panic. "No, let me go! NO! PUT ME DOWN! PLEASE DON'T! DON'T!"

He dropped my on the wet ground beside the passage door. I now had tears pouring from my eyes. The horrible memory had flashed through my head for the first time in years. The fear I couldn't face. The one that prevented me to get in a car at night while it was raining. I know its a dumb thing to be afraid of but I didn`t want it to happen again. Just getting into cars made me nervous.

"Please don't make me get in," I pleaded to him, sitting on the wet concrete.

I heard him sigh out and pick me up bridal style. Then a bright light surrounded us, making me hide my eyes in Sesshomaru's chest. Next thing I knew, I was in front of a large apartment building in the middle of downtown.

"What just happened?" I asked.

Sesshomaru didn't say anything. He started walking into the double glass doors into a large lobby. The place looked like a hotel; a five star hotel. It was incredible with golden tile floors and an old style roof. Whoever the architect was really knew what he was doing.

I followed him into one of the elevators and watched him punch in a passcode. Random elevator music surrounded the small box, making the atmosphere feel a little awkward. Not like we were in an awkward situation before, this was just making it worse.

When the elevators doors opened it revealed a small hallway with another pair of double doors at the end of it. These smooth wooden doors were the only ones on the whole floor. Was this were Sesshomaru lived? Was I going to see his house… er…apartment?

I was excited but also really nervous, or maybe I just had to use the bathroom. Well whatever it was, I couldn't believe I was going to see his home. I always thought he lived in a gothic castle but whatever, an apartment was fine.

However, it was no ordinary apartment. This was a very large penthouse. I realized that we were on the top floor of the building, giving us a beautiful view of the city. Inside, the house was two stories, with a high ceiling and spiral staircase leading up to the top floor, where I would think was Sesshomaru's bedroom. I was enhanced with the area that I didn't notice Sesshomaru leave because the next thing I knew he was holding a towel and some clothes in his hands, and giving it to me. "Dry off," he instructed.

I watched him head to the door, making me panic a little. "Where are you going?"

He turned his slightly towards me. "I'm going to retrieve my car. Get dressed; I don't want you getting sick."

I smiled at this concern and went to find the bathroom. Remember when I said I get lost easily? Well, it took me at least ten minutes to find the bathroom in the place. The penthouse was bigger than my house, it wasn't my fault. When I finally found it my chin fell to the floor to find out big it was. This bathroom alone had a large Jacuzzi, two sinks, a stone wall hiding the shower. Now this shower had a rain shower and about 18 small shower heads on the side on the walls. It was incredible. I decided to use this bathroom to my advantage, so I showered in what the coolest shower in the world. It was the most amazing shower I ever had.

The clothes Sesshomaru gave me were very large meaning they were twice my size. My guess they were probably his. I left the bathroom, determined to soon come back. Was it wrong for me to want to live in his bathroom? Once I arrived back in the living room, I found Sesshomaru had come back and was now sitting on the soft black couch reading a newspaper. There was a steamy cup sitting on the coffee table making me curious what it was.

His eyes met mine as I stopped a few feet away from him.

"Um, thanks for the clothes," I answered nervously.

He gave me a nod and motioned me to sit down. I complied and sat on the edge of the black sofa as far away from him as possible.

"Here," his voice reached my ears.

I reached for the hot mug he was holding in his hands and grabbed it. "Thanks." I placed it to my lip, feeling the soothing tea make its way down my throat. "I love your bathroom by the way."

"Hn," was all he said, his eyes now back on his newspaper.

"Your apartment is amazing and the view….I can't imagine what it must be like to wake up every morning and watch the sunrise. It must be beautiful."

"I wouldn't know," he answered, his hands turning a page.

I frowned and placed the hot mug from my lap onto the coffee table and scotching closer to him. "You've never watched the sunrise?"

"I have many times but when you've lived as long as I have, it begins to get boring."

I shook my head. "It's never boring no matter how old you are. My grandmother loved to watch the sunrise."

"Your grandmother wasn't over 700 years old."

His number shocked me. I knew he was old but I never thought he was this old. "It still would be beautiful watching it from here." My eyes watched the dark sky passed the large glass windows leading out on a balcony. "My sister and I used to watch the sunrise from our roof."

His eyes glanced to me quickly before going back to the newsprint. "You watched the sunrise with your sister that hides in the bushes?"

I furrowed my eyes brows at him before finally getting who he was talking about. "No, Mika hates getting up early even if it's for a sunrise. I'm talking about my sister Yoko," my expression grew sad as I began to receive memories about her. "She was my best friend."

He placed the newspaper down and faced me. "Was?"

"You must be wondering why I didn't get in the car tonight. It's because of her. The night she died."

His eyes watched me carefully, waiting for me to continue. He was curious about why my fear was getting into a car at night while it was raining. I took a deep breath and started to tell the horrible memory that changed my family forever.

"I was only twelve at the time and my family was happier than ever. My sister had graduated the top of her class and was accepted into Oxford in England. We were all so excited for her and had a huge celebration planned.

'Yoko I'm so proud of you,' my mother always told her. 'The First Ikeda to go to University. I am so excited for you.'

'Me too mom. It's been my dream to go to Oxford,' Yoko replied.

'Well let today be a day to celebrate,' my father said.

Our family had a barbeque, bring relatives from both sides of my family. Now this only happened on special occasions and horrible events. Thank god, this was a special occasion.

Now my sister and I were very close. Even though she was six years older than me, we did everything together. She told me everything and vice versa. Mika never really understood us and always complained that we did things without her. It wasn't our fault, she always brought friends over and I didn't have any, which was why Yoko became my only friend.

When she found out she got into Oxford and decided to go, I was afraid. I was afraid that I was going to lose her forever and we would no longer be best friends. But she told me herself, 'Rin, you and I will always be best friends and when I go to England, you can come visit me and we will go on many adventures.'

'You promise?' I asked.

'I promise and besides I'll visit too of course.'

That was another promise we kept, that we would go on many adventures together around the world. Visit many countries and see places you could only see in tourist books. It was our dream."

Tears began filling my eyes and Sesshomaru must've noticed this because a second later I felt his hand on mine. I didn't remove it and continued the story.

"She always knew how to make me laugh and smile. When I was down, she would be right there to give me advice. When I had my first crush a boy in third grade, she was the first one that gave me tips to make him notice me. Of course it didn't end well since he got Play Dough up his nose and had to be rushed to the emergency room but still, I was glad she gave me the first piece of boy advice.

We also shared a lot of interests, like music and when I found out our favorite band was playing in town that night, I had to get tickets.

I gave her the tickets during the barbeque and was she ever excited. 'I can't believe you got them!'

My dad however wouldn't let us go because it was her last night there and I was too young to go to a concert like that. So that night about an hour before the concert started, she decided we would sneak out. I had told her it was a bad idea, we could get caught but she just kept saying trust me. We left for the concert in our family car. It was old and rundown but it worked fine. We were front row in the concert. It was one of the best experiences of my life and the best part was that I got to spend it with my sister.

On the way home, it was raining hard. We heard on the radio that a large storm was circulating and our area would get a lot of rain. We had forgotten the windshield wipers on the car didn't work but instead of getting a cab, she decided that we would be fine since we weren't that far from home. I had tried to convince her that calling dad might be a good idea but she didn't want us to get in trouble, especially me and she didn't have enough money for a taxi.

So we left in the car. Yoko wasn't drunk making me a little more confident that we would get home safe. But as soon as we were on the road, my confidence disappeared.

I acted like everything was fine, singing with her to the songs we just heard at the concert but because our windshield wiper problems, her vision was limited. She must've not of paid attention because the last thing I remember was my sister's worried face and a bright flash of headlights from the oncoming truck in the other lane."

I took a deep breath, trying to control my emotions as I replayed this horrific accident in my head. Sesshomaru's hand was still holding mine.

"The next thing I knew, I woke up in the hospital with my mom sitting beside me crying. I looked at her, mentally asking where Yoko was and when she shook her head; my world had come tumbling down."

The doctor had told me that I was in a horrible accident and I was lucky to be alive. My sister died on impact but I was found on the ground fifty feet away from the burning wreckage. Even I'm curious to know why I survived and my sister didn't."

The tears were now uncontrollable. They rushed down my face as I fell into Sesshomaru's lap, crying in his chest. "I miss her so much. It's just not far! If only I didn't give her the tickets, she would be alive right now."

"I understand Rin. I am sorry."

I looked up at his face. "For what?"

"For your loss and for not saving your sister."

I pushed away from him with curious eyes. "What are you talking about?"

"Rin the night you were in the automobile accident I was the one that saw the wreckage. I found you and your sister in the car, your sister was still conscious but dying slowly. You however, were already gone. Before I did anything, your sister spoke two words to me, 'save her.'"

I couldn't believe what I was hearing.

"I pulled your lifeless body out of the car and I carried your body far from the wreckage to the side of the road. After I placed you on the wet ground, I inspected your body. Your lungs had collapsed and your neck was broken. I decided to use Tenseiga, a fang to bring back the dead. When you came back, all your injuries were healed and your heart was beating normal. The only thing was you wouldn't wake up. When I heard the explosion behind me, I realized it was too late to save your sister. When the ambulance and the authorities came, I was already gone."

I couldn't….I didn't know how to react. My immediate reaction was shock. I couldn't cry or scream all I did was place my hand over my mouth. "Oh my god. When I woke up in the hospital, nobody could figure out how I survived. They said it was a miracle."

"I am sorry, Rin."

I go up from the couch angry. "No, you aren't. Before you brought me back to life you could've gotten my sister out as well. She could be alive right now if you were thinking about the situation but no you weren't and now she's gone."

"Better her then you," he replied in an emotionless voice.

My eyes widened at his word. I clenched my teeth as my hand impacted his cheek, giving him a good slap. Of course, it probably hurt me more than him because now my hand was hurting like hell but that didn't matter. "How dare you!" I hissed. "All of these years I felt guilty that I survived instead of her. I thought everyone hated me because I lived and she didn't, but now I realize that it wasn't my fault she's gone," I chuckled before my voice growing hard, "it's yours."

His face was still emotionless; did he really not have any feelings? Didn't he feel guilty? I guess not. Water appeared in my eyes again and as soon as I couldn't hold it any longer, I ran to the only room I knew in this house: the bathroom.

Then I knew that his emotionless expression did mean something. I closed the door behind me and locked it, sliding to the ground and feeling the abominable pain in my heart. I realized that I had not only broken my heart but I was pretty sure I had broken his as well.

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