Ciel returned late that night, his servants following shortly after. He was met by Sebastian who was still attempting to comfort a distraught Evian.
"Are you alright, I was concerned about you." He bounced the sobbing child gently. Evian, having noticed his Mother's return began reaching for him frantically. Sebastian waited for his mate's reaction.
"It's fine. What happened to Evian?"
"He wants his mother, he has been this way since you left." Ciel felt a tremendous amount of guilt.
Evian began to cough, still reaching for Ciel who took him from Sebastian and held the boy close.
"I'm here, it's alright. I'm sorry Evian. I don't want you to ever do that again. Mommy loves you so very much and when you're old enough to understand-mommy's here now." Ciel said comfortingly. The child soon stopped crying and rested his head on his mother's shoulder.
Evian's little hands grabbed onto Ciel's shirt and refused to let go.
"Mamma" He cried. Ciel looked down at his son.
"Evian, you-"
"Mammma" the child called again this time looking into Ciel's eyes.
"I'm so very proud of you Evian." The baby demon smiled.
"He has been saying it all evening." Sebastian said kissing his mate's head.
"My poor little baby." Ciel whispered, tears now in his own eyes.
"What kind of mother am I, to leave you in such a state, you deserve so much better."
"Clearly my dear, there is no love lost between you. You are an excellent mother." Sebastian told him
"No. An excellent mother would never have walked out on their child. Maybe I wasn't meant to be a mother."
"If you were not meant to have him, he would not be here now."
"There's people out there that have children that were clearly-" Sebastian knelt down beside him.
"You are not one of those people."
"Evian deserves a better mother, and you should have a better mate."
"That is impossible. I cannot think of anyone better to be the mother of my child, and you are my prefect mate. You should not doubt yourself Ciel. If I did not believe these things, I would not have made you a mother. I believe in the lesson my mother taught me when I was just beginning to create contracts, I was very young you see, my mother told me that if I would not make them my mate, do not make them a mother. I waited for you, you are the only one."
"You're just saying that."
"Ciel, look at me, if I did not have you, it would not be right, my life would be empty. You have given me a family. My existence would be utterly meaningless. I love you, Evian loves you. Please do not ever say such things."
"It's true." Ciel placed the now sleeping child in his crib.
"There are times that I wish you would have let me stay d-" Sebastian pulled him into a tight hug.
"Do not ever say that. You and I went through a different type of hell and back together, that day- Ciel it felt as if my heart had been torn from my body. I love you far too much to allow you to feel this way. What is it that you need to feel better?"
"I-I don't know. I don't even know what's wrong with me."
"It will be alright, whatever it is, I will get you through it. I love you so very much Ciel."
"I love you too. That's why it would be best for you-"
"You are what is best for both myself and Evian. Everyone is upset at times and walking away until you have a chance to calm down is something that even we demons will do during an argument with loved ones. You do not wish to hurt them"
"He's just a baby, I can't call myself his mother and be this way."
"You have shown me that you would die for him, that is being a mother. You feed him and provide love and protection, you have even threatened me in order to do so. Please not be so hard on yourself."
"I'm sorry I keep doing this. I don't know how to stop this."
"We will take it one step at a time."
"Sebastian, I think I've changed my mind about our conversation from the before. Even if you could have children, I don't want this life for them. I've hurt Evian so many times before, and continue to. I can't do that to someone else. One is enough."
"I understand my love, I will not pressure you. I am grateful to you for Evian. It would have been nice to have a slightly bigger family but I do not wish to torment you further. You mean far too much to me." Ciel ended the embrace wiping away a few tears.
"I'm going to go and lie down for a while, will you come hold me?"
"Of course love." Ciel made his way to his bed where he and Sebastian laid down close to each other. The young demon allowed his mate to pull him close and kiss him lovingly.
"Have I told you lately just how devastatingly beautiful you are?" Sebastian asked quietly.
"You're a liar, I'm a complete mess."
"If you must have your way, then permit me to compromise. Have I told you lately what a devastatingly beautiful mess you are?" Ciel laughed.
"That is much better, The sound of your laughter is one of the most amazing sounds I could ever hope to hear."
"How can you possibly be such a romantic with someone like me?"
"No my love, the real question is how could I not be. I know I have said this many times however, anythinng that has such strong feeling behind it is worth the repetition, I love you Ciel Michaelis. I do not simply love you, that would never be enough. I love you more than anything that exsist in heaven, Earth and even here in Hell. Say the word Darling and I would do whatever you ask of me. I will be anything you need me to be. I will be your shelter when it rains, I will never permit anyone to harm you, even if that someone is you. I owe you my very life. Do you remember the day you provided me with the first treatment during my illness?"
"What about it?" Sebastian began stroking his mate's hair as they looked into each other's eyes.
"You promised me that not only would you tell me your secret, but I could also ask one thing of you. I would like to make my request now."
"Alright, what is it?" Sebastian leaned in close kissing Ciel, he wanted the young demon to feel his love.
"Be happy and always know that I love you." Ciel was amazed at the request.
"You could have asked for anything, is that really what you want?'
"Yes, give me this, and I will have all I will ever need."
"You're too good to me Sebastian, I don't know what I would do without you."
"You will never need to find out."